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vamphile ([info]vamphile) wrote in [info]qaf_drabbles,
@ 2007-12-12 15:17:00

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Entry tags:author: vamphile, challenge #42: author's choice, epic series: hustler!j/whore in a hoody

Challenge #42: Author's Choice
Title: Hustler!Justin XIV (Whore in a Hoody)
Author: Vamphile
Condom(s): 6 to Justin 3 to Brian

|Hustler!Justin | II | III | IV| V | VI | VII | VIII | IX | X | XI | XII | XIII |





Hustler Justin XIV
Whore In A Hoody





“You come here often?”

I can’t help it, I laugh. “Isn’t it a little late to be using a pick-up line?”

He chuckles. It’s a nice sound. “Sunshine?”

I shrug. “She’s like that.”

Brian nods. “She always has been.” He tells me how he knows her. I can’t help wondering what would have happened if I’d met Michael and Debbie when I was fourteen instead of Isaac.

He touches my hand. I flinch. I don’t mean to. I guess I was lost in thought. He gets that blank look. I start to say something but Debbie interrupts, taking our orders.


~~~141~~~
He never looks at the menu, but seems to know what he wants. I order and Deb stares at us. She looks thoughtful and then walks away. We’re left with an awkward silence as he shifts in his booth. “You okay?”

“Yeah. Aspirin’s wearing off I guess.”

“Fever back?”

He shrugs. Of course he doesn’t know. I reach over to touch his forehead. I can feel Debbie watching us. He’s not burning up anymore though.

She refills Justin’s coffee. I want to say something about coffee this late at night but really, it’s the most innocuous bad habit he has.


~~~142~~~
I eat quickly. When I finish he pushes his plate in front of me. I eat his sandwich too. Debbie gives us two checks. I have a feeling she’s watching to see what Brian does. Brian doesn’t even blink. He picks them both up and drops the money on the table as we leave. Debbie grabs his arm. I move away but he holds on to my wrist. She says something about not needing to prove anything and being too old for stupid bullshit. He shrugs kissing my temple. “I’m just recapturing my lost youth.”

She snorts and we leave.


~~~143~~~
When I get a chance, I may have to ask Debbie what she knows about her little “Sunshine.” It’s not that I don’t believe what he’s telling me, it’s that I don’t know how honest he is with himself. He can’t even fucking tell when he has a fever. My fingers have moved off of his wrist and as we walk back towards the loft I hold his hand. I do it primarily to keep him from taking off… although I’ve got his money… he won’t leave without that. He seems content to walk beside me. It’s kind of nice.


~~~144~~~
I’m starting to feel really sore. It’s always worse the next day. I try to keep up with his long strides. He’s holding my hand. I guess he’s afraid I’ll take off. I won’t. He’s paid 'til morning. I made a commitment; I plan to stand by it. I just push past the sore muscles and dull ache of my jeans abrading my already sore skin and match my pace to his. We stop. He’s holding my head staring into my eyes. I try to turn my head but with a hand on either side of my face, I can’t.


~~~145~~~
He’s in pain. Why am I not surprised he didn’t bother to tell me. He’s doing that thing, where he’s barely here. We’re two blocks from the loft. “Can you make it?”

He looks confused. “To the loft. Can you make it?”

He nods and I move closer, letting him lean on me. Upstairs I hand him two aspirin and a beer. He drains the beer and pulls off his jeans. His legs are red and one of the cuts is open again. “Empty your pockets.”

“Fuck off”

“Justin, I don’t care what’s in them. They’re filthy, so are you.”


~~~146~~~
I move the contents of my pockets… pretty much everything I own, to my hoody but he hands me some kind of leather makeup case. We’re washing the hoody too. I look at him and smirk and he shakes his head. “The stupid thing came free with my anti-aging cream. Just put your shit in it. He hands me clean sweatpants and another shirt. The material is soft. He takes my sneakers and socks and throws them all in the washer. It’s after midnight. I’m glad I’m not standing out there tonight. It was cold enough just walking back here.


~~~147~~~
He’s wearing sweatpants, wool socks, a t-shirt and a sweater and he’s still shivering. I have a million questions I want to ask him and it’s after midnight. He’ll try to leave in the morning. My computer notifies me of an email. It’s from a guy on the west coast who owns three buildings in the city. He says he’s got a couple of available units. If I tell him, he’ll set up shop. If I don’t… he’ll set up shop and I won’t know where… or he’ll just disappear, like so many rent boys. I print out the lease.


~~~148~~~
This man is fucking amazing. He’s handing me a lease, and a floor plan. The building is nice. I had a client there once, before Isaac got the two bedroom, then they mostly came to me. The layout will work. The bedrooms are separated. Clients won’t have to come near my room. The rent isn’t bad. I’ll only need to have three nights a week booked, maybe four to cover my expenses. I sign the lease. “The doorman will have keys for us tomorrow.” I smile and lean my head against the side of the sofa. Everything will be okay.

Cont...


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[info]testdog65
2007-12-12 08:39 pm UTC (link)
Everything will be okay.

Justin's idea of "OK" is so far removed from normal, I don't even like to think about it. The diner scene was touching and I appreciated Deb's lack of interference. I suspect she knows something's going on that needs to work itself out and she has faith that Brian will figure out what to do.

It’s not that I don’t believe what he’s telling me, it’s that I don’t know how honest he is with himself. He can’t even fucking tell when he has a fever.

Yeah, totally. Justin's real problem is that his frame of reference is so fucked up he doesn't have a clue how to fix himself or what "fixed" would look like.

I'm still hooked. I'm still loving every single word of this. In case you couldn't tell.

~Ellen

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[info]vamphile
2007-12-12 08:47 pm UTC (link)
Thank you...

yeah, this isn't something that a smack upside the head will fix, and it's not something that a weekend in the loft with a thick duvet, an over protective brian and some chinese takeout will fix.

Brian, i think had to resign himself to the fact that it's better to know where he is, and that he IS somewhere, inside, and safer than on the streets, than just continually saying "don't do this."

justin, right now, is so far removed from himself that the idea of doing something else. of self preservation, is alien to him.

it's funny, i haven't written like this in a while...posting often, working out the process and the story line as i go. it's fun sometimes... what comes out the other side is crack, and that's why i dont' do it anymore, but there's a reason crack's addictive.

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[info]_alicesprings
2007-12-13 12:12 am UTC (link)
Justin's idea of "OK" is so far removed from normal, I don't even like to think about it.

Yeah, what she said. But you're moving the story along nicely. I'm glad Justin has a place now. More glad Brian knows about it

And I get the feeling he'll be paying for 3, maybe 4 nights a week there, hmm? :D

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[info]plasticine_star
2007-12-12 08:47 pm UTC (link)
*smooches Vamp* thank you. I can see light slipping into this well.
I don't know how much more hurt!anesthetized!unresponsive! Justin I can take.
At least with the promise of a safe place to live...

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[info]vamphile
2007-12-12 08:49 pm UTC (link)
yeah... he's got a safe place and that's no small thing. i think he may start to find that in that safe place, with a safe emotional space (brian) he might become more responsive and less anesthetized, and if that happens...he may just realize how fucked up what he's doing is.

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[info]rosy5000
2007-12-12 08:53 pm UTC (link)
I don't like Justin leaving Brian to carry on his 'business' still, but at least Brian will know where he is and can keep track of him. It's the lesser of two evils.

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[info]vamphile
2007-12-12 08:55 pm UTC (link)
I think that's the way Brian's looking at it too.

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[info]pendulumchanges
2007-12-12 09:12 pm UTC (link)
One last check of the flist before heading off to work and I found exactly what I was hoping for... more whore in a hoody!

Lovely icon btw

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[info]vamphile
2007-12-12 09:14 pm UTC (link)
yep, the saga of the whore in the hoody continues.

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[info]singlewoman
2007-12-12 09:41 pm UTC (link)
I am glad that Justin at least has a place to stay. And that Brian knows where that place is.
“Fever back?”

He shrugs. Of course he doesn’t know.


That proves how far from reality Justin is. This is going to be a long road, for both of them.

Can't tell you how much I like this story even though my heart breaks every time.

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[info]vamphile
2007-12-12 09:46 pm UTC (link)
it's breaking my heart too, that's why i post and just keep writing, i want to FIX it...but i'm no good at fixing things simply and easily...and yes... the good news is justin will have a place to stay, and brian knows where it is. the bad news... justin's plans are to continue earning the "big bucks" with the guys who play rough.

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[info]lost2mercy
2007-12-12 11:13 pm UTC (link)
I know everyone is rallying for Justin to realise how fucked up his life is and do something about it. ... Am I being a bad girl for wanting him to stay fucked up for a long time, simply because I don't want this story to end??!!

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[info]vamphile
2007-12-13 12:48 am UTC (link)
no, you're not bad, but the reality is, that good stories that get bad do so, often, because the author doesn't want them to end, so they just keep going when they have nothing left to say.

if it's any consolation... i have no fucking clue how i'm going to get Justin to actually accept help and see the point.

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[info]noteverything
2007-12-12 11:31 pm UTC (link)
I love how Brian is so totally IC in a completely different world from canon. Everything he says/does totally works in my mind.

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[info]vamphile
2007-12-13 12:47 am UTC (link)
thanks. I try to keep him in canon, and actually Justin too, but that's based on an entire backstory about Justin that I know and you don't (yet)...

Yeah, i've never really been able to turn Brian into a chatty Cathy.

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[info]noteverything
2007-12-13 03:38 am UTC (link)
Yeah...I haven't really seen what I'd call IC Justin just yet. But I certainly trust you'll get me there. :D

OMG...if you turned Brian chatty I'd have to die. ;-)

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[info]vamphile
2007-12-13 04:02 am UTC (link)
yes, but at no point have i ever claimed this Justin is IC...

and i just CAN'T turn Brian chatty, or i'd have to die too.

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[info]noteverything
2007-12-13 04:05 am UTC (link)
You haven't...that's very true.

I mostly replied so I could squee at your icon. I just saw those from [info]youbetterwiseup and totally LOVED that one!

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[info]vamphile
2007-12-13 04:09 am UTC (link)
so did I and thus, i took it. i hate that shit, i don't think brian locks particularly good there, he seems to be picking something out of his teeth... i love it to death.

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[info]noteverything
2007-12-13 04:13 am UTC (link)
i don't think brian locks particularly good there

Hahahaha...no, he doesn't.

Which is why I also love it to death!

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[info]vamphile
2007-12-13 04:14 am UTC (link)
oh also, hate that SHIRT ... not that shit... my fingers are retarded.

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[info]noteverything
2007-12-13 04:16 am UTC (link)
*grin* I understood anyway!

My son went through a "pearl snap shirt" phase in HS and had a shirt almost exactly like that thing. It was pathetic.

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[info]not_yet_defined
2007-12-13 12:55 am UTC (link)
ok...i got up off the floor. i am now curled in a big chair in a slightly less fetal-like position. there is light. justin won't be sleeping on the street, and more importantly brian will know where he is sleeping.

and i really want to know what deb knows/thinks...i love love love how you handled the diner scene.

i need more now kthnx.

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[info]vamphile
2007-12-13 01:02 am UTC (link)
see, and i thought people were going to be upset that there wasn't enough Brian/Justin/Debbie interaction, but the truth is she usually passed off a couple of crude words and waited til she had their ear privately to really tell them what she thought, especially with Brian... so if she thinks there's something to tell she wouldn't do it at the diner, in front of Justin.

And yes, now Justin will be off the street, and Brian will know where he is... with other clients. so um... tiny little bitty light.

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[info]sidhe
2007-12-13 01:41 am UTC (link)
I really wished I'd been reading this at work this afternoon rather than being stuck on the pone with a bankruptcy court clerk for half an hour.

Now that Justin has a place, maybe Brian can convince him to take up a new job, too. :)

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[info]vamphile
2007-12-13 04:04 am UTC (link)
yes...i'm sure he can afford the two bedroom place on a busboy's salary :P

i think brian is going to work towards finding Justin another job though, because well...I'm not sure i'd be forgiven if i left him a hustler.

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[info]besamislabios
2007-12-13 02:09 am UTC (link)
This is still very addictive. At least Brian will know where to find Justin now.

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[info]vamphile
2007-12-13 04:05 am UTC (link)
Exactly... that's probably his primary reason for finding him a place even once he'd decided to wash his hands of him (he's since changed his mind about that), but yeah, it's hard to keep an eye on someone if you don't know where they are.

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[info]court1429
2007-12-13 04:03 am UTC (link)
I have no clue in the world how you're going to work this out, but I know you will. I am worried that Justin's so fucked up Brian won't be able to flip the switch in him that will open his eyes to other possibilities. And Brian doesn't like to admit failure, so he's definitely dealt himself in. And does he even know why? My boys! I am worried about them! I love it! ;)

Right now, on the one hand, it seems like he has no clue how fucked up he is so he doesn't even realize he could be different, but then there are those hints of "normal" family in his past, so the other hand says he *ought* to know it. And if I had a third hand it would maybe be saying, "well, Hunter prolly pretended to some people that he had a normal life, too, and we all know how that turned out." I really do want more background. Not just on Isaac, but before Isaac.

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[info]vamphile
2007-12-13 04:08 am UTC (link)
yeah, if i had ten hands, that's how many ways i'd be looking at this too...

and you KNOW i don't know how i'm going to get them out of this, i just know i will, because i always do.

and Hunter did eventually become capable of accepting some of the affection that Ben and Michael showed him. I think Justin will be able to come further because there's a different dynamic in B/J vs. Ben/Michael/Hunter, and because Justin has a strength that is astounding... so we just hang on and i keep typing and when it's all tied up... we can sigh happily together.

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[info]not_yet_defined
2007-12-13 04:12 am UTC (link)
dammit Vampy. you have me updating like every 10 seconds in hopes that you've updated.

I haven't been like this over a fic in...well, ever, I don't think.

since poking doesn't work...*pets soothingly*

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[info]vamphile
2007-12-13 04:14 am UTC (link)
Hey, i had to watch the last two eps of beauty and the geek, eat dinner, take a nap, (um, not nec. in that order) i'm writing now...

and the petting soothingly helps... so you can keep that up.

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[info]not_yet_defined
2007-12-13 04:17 am UTC (link)
*continues to pet, brings you tea, or coffee, or water...whatever you like*

i have to go to bed now... *pout* i would make fun of you about the beauty and the geek thing, but I watch ghost hunters and project runway on wednesdays, so i really have no room to judge.

i look forward to more fic tomorrow. :D

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[info]herefordroad
2007-12-13 04:13 am UTC (link)
brian is completely thrown off his game by justin and seeing brian at a loss about what to say and do is foreign to me. but thankfully, he came up with something:

"He says he’s got a couple of available units. If I tell him, he’ll set up shop. If I don’t… he’ll set up shop and I won’t know where… or he’ll just disappear, like so many rent boys. I print out the lease."

looking forward to your update.

jeannie

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[info]vamphile
2007-12-13 04:16 am UTC (link)
Thanks... yeah, This isn't one of those things where Brian has time to formulate a master plan, so we're just sort of watching him work... and he's doing okay... i mean, he found justin someplace safe and he knows where he'll be, that's better than not.

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[info]secretsolitaire
2007-12-13 04:16 am UTC (link)
I too feel better that Brian is putting Justin somewhere where he can find him. :-)

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[info]vamphile
2007-12-13 05:23 am UTC (link)
I think we all do.

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