elfflame (elfflame) wrote in pervy_werewolf, @ 2009-05-03 18:05:00 |
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Entry tags: | #lmom 2009, author: elfflame, kink: first time, remus/kingsley |
LMOM # 3: Choosing a First part 1 - Kingsley/Remus, PG13
Title: Choosing a First
Author: elfflame
Rating: PG13
Pairing: Kingsley/Remus
Kink(s) : Talking about first times
Challenge: Lusty Month of May 2009
Word count: 904
A/N: This is the piece that would not die. Then I remembered I didn’t have to post it all today. So there will be a second half tomorrow.
Part One | Part Two
After a good deal of thought, Remus knew there was only one choice he could make. As much as he cared for Sirius, there were just some things there he couldn’t get past. Like Sirius’s attitude. Everything was a game for Sirius. Worse, he seemed to think Remus belonged to him, and that Remus just couldn’t handle. Maybe he would end up with Sirius, maybe not. But that didn’t give Sirius any right to act as though he had the only right to Remus’s body.
So it was better to find someone else to have his first time with. He’d debated a few different guys. There was no way he was going to trust any Slytherin with his first time, so that whole house was out, and though he was fond of James, and knew there were times James and Sirius messed about, he didn’t want to cause any friction between them, not to mention the fact that he wasn’t sure James would be any better than Sirius when it came to possessiveness. That left the other Prefects he’d gotten close to. And the Head boy, Kingsley Shacklebolt.
Kingsley was an excellent choice, really. He was laid back, not at all clingy or judgmental, and Remus had seen him flirt occasionally with other guys, so he wouldn’t be horrified by the idea. He wasn’t bad to look at, either, with his easy smile.
Remus took his opportunity one evening after the Prefects’ Meeting. He asked Kingsley if they could talk once the meeting was done.
“Sure,” Kingsley agreed.
The two waited until the rest of the Prefects and the Head Girl had left, Remus growing more nervous all the while. Once they were alone, the room seemed to ring from the silence, and suddenly, Remus had no idea what to say to get started.
Kingsley smiled at him. “It can’t be that bad, can it?”
“N-no. I…needed a favour.”
“What kind of favour?” he asked.
“I…I wanted to know…if…you could…help me with something.”
“Of course, Remus. What is it?” Remus had a feeling Kingsley had some clue where this was headed. Anyone else likely would have been smirking already. Remus was grateful he wasn’t.
“Um…” Remus swallowed, licking his lips, but managing to meet his eyes. “Would you…havesexwith me?”
Kingsley blinked once, then tilted his head. “What about Black? I thought you two were…together?”
“Not…well…sort of. But…we’re not official. And he’s already had…experiences. I just want to start this right.”
Kingsley blinked at that, realizing, obviously, that this would be Remus’s first time. “But…why me? I mean…I’m sure he’d be careful. I’ve seen how he is around you.”
For a moment, Remus felt a flush of shame. Then he remembered seeing Sirius with another boy in the halls only last week on his rounds. He hadn’t bothered to stop them, and he certainly hadn’t stayed to watch. “I just want to have us on more equal footing. If I…know what I’m doing, then maybe…?”
“If you’re sure, then…yeah. I wouldn’t mind. I’m flattered, actually.” Kingsley shot him that grin again, and Remus smiled back.
“Thanks.”
“When did you want to do this?”
Now there was something Remus hadn’t considered. “Um…” He’d just assumed they would do it now, and get it out of the way, but even thinking about saying that sounded so…clinical. He wanted to do this right, after all. “This weekend? In the Prefect’s Bath?”
“Sure.” Kingsley was silent for a moment. “Have you done anything yet?”
Remus felt his cheeks heat. “Um…a bit. Not much, though.” Because when it came to that, he kept pushing Sirius away. “Blowjob once, though.”
Kingsley nodded. “Give, or receive?”
Given that he’d asked for Kingsley’s help with this, Remus didn’t think it was fair that the questions were making him so discomfited. “Um…receive?”
“And…do you like the idea of giving one?”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean…is it something you’ve thought about? Or does the idea worry you?”
“Um…it’s…okay. I…wouldn’t mind.”
Kingsley smiled. “It’s completely up to you, Remus. Just…something to think about. And…are you all right with being the one who is fucked, rather than doing the fucking?”
This time, Remus’s voice cracked when he responded. “Um…I…hadn’t really thought about it…”
“It’s all right. Just…think about it, okay? And if you’re not…well…there are other things I can show you, at least. But I won’t bottom.”
It took Remus a minute to understand what Kingsley meant, but when he did, he felt as though his cheeks were going to combust. “Er…right.”
“So…I’ll see you Saturday after supper?” Kingsley asked.
Remus nodded. “Yeah.”
They separated after that, and Remus spent the whole week thinking of what he was about to do. His distraction was enough to have even James noticing in the common room Friday night, even despite Lily’s presence in the room.
“What is up with you, Moony?”
“Wha?” Remus blinked up at him.
“I’ve asked you about this potion formula three times now. It’s like you haven’t even heard me.”
“Um…sorry, Prongs. Just…thinking about something.”
James grinned. “What’s her name?”
Remus rolled his eyes. “Who says it’s a girl?”
“Don’t tell me Padfoot’s infected you,” James asked, bemused.
Remus felt his cheeks grow red. “I…I mean…It’s homework.”
“Uh huh…” James said with a grin. “So what’s his name, then?”
“Oh, shut up, Prongs, and go get rejected by Lily again.” Remus stood and packed his back, then hurried upstairs, wanting to avoid further questions.