I think I like this. I'm not helpless.. I
can't be helpless, anymore. It's almost like it has filled this void in my life. I didn't have anything, or anyone before. I was dead afterall. But now I've got protection, and... It's given me life, so how can I deny it the same privilege?
It can be controlled, Eddie said so. That alone means I've got to give it a chance.. right? Sure it might want to hurt friends, and it has (and I'm really still sorry for that), but
I would never, and I've got that will power on my side atleast.
I just need to be strong.
I think. It's dependant on me, so why not be dependant on it in return?
I can't get rid of it so I have to accept it.So no more pills and loading myself up with work to keep awake. No being in at night by 5pm. I'm just going to live life like I did before I died, just.. with a slightly complicated side issue. I'm going to be the old, hip Gwen I used to be.
I think I just need to start over, with certain aspects of my life atleast. Hi everyone, my name's Gwen Stacy. I'm not crazy, just complicated. I've got the steady job working for the Hardy Foundation to prove it. I'm originally from New York and attended ESU for chemical engineering and genetics. Growing up I was a closet nerd, and still am. All my life I've wanted to be a model but that probabl won't ever happen now.
I'd appologize for everything I've done but, that'd be too big of a post. Just, know that it's not really me and I'd never hurt anyone who doesn't deserve it.
I'm not a monster.
Maybe a little intoxicated at the moment.(ooc: reposting because I didn't like what I had the first time)