WHO: Jacen Solo, Tenel Ka Djo and if anyone wants to overhear, that's fine too! WHAT: He saw her graffiti and there's something he needs to say. Or rather sing. WHEN: Afternoon of the 26th WHERE: The Hyperion lobby RATING: TBD STATUS: In progress
Note: Jacen's song here is Frozen by Within Temptation.
Jacen had seen her post, seen the words that possibly should have made him stop and pause and note the more unusual aspects. But for some reason the music felt natural today. Why he couldn't tell, but he felt compelled to find her in the lobby of the Hyperion, using the computer there. Tenel Ka, the one woman he'd truly loved, the reason for everything. And the only one he cared to make understand.
"I can't feel my senses I just feel the cold All colors seem to fade away I can't reach my soul," he reached her side, his voice low and fairly steady as he sang to her, tugging the chair around to face him.
"I would stop running, if knew there was a chance It tears me apart to sacrifice it all but I'm forced to let go," one thing he needed her to be truly clear on was how much it had torn at him to sacrifice Mara, to kill her to protect the galaxy.
"Tell me I'm frozen but what can I do? Can't tell the reasons I did it for you When lies turn into truth I sacrificed for you You say that I'm frozen but what can I do?" His eyes met hers, pleading with her almost to understand. It had been for her, all of it. For her, and for Allana. Maybe that was an unfair burden to place on her shoulders, but that was the truth.
"I can feel your sorrow You won't forgive me, but I know you'll be all right It tears me apart that you will never know but I have to let go," all that fighting for so long. The Vong, the Embrace, Vergere, the time alone, Lumiya. Tenel Ka would never know, not all of it. That was his burden alone to carry.
"Tell me I'm frozen but what can I do? Can't tell the reasons I did it for you When lies turn into truth I sacrificed for you You say that I'm frozen but what can I do?"
"Everything will slip way Shattered peaces will remain When memories fade into emptiness Only time will tell its tale If it all has been in vain," better to die a monster having united a galaxy than staying a hero and watching the galaxy tear itself apart, again. Being hated hadn't made him wrong, of that he was still sure. He'd done terrible things, he knew that. But they'd been what had to be done. For the greater good.
"I can't feel my senses I just feel the cold Frozen... But what can I do? Frozen..."
"Tell me I'm frozen but what can I do? Can't tell the reasons I did it for you When lies turn into truth I sacrificed for you You say that I'm frozen, frozen..." Jacen's voice trailed off as he realized he'd come to the end of this song, whatever it was, wherever in his unconscious it had come from. All he could do was look at Tenel Ka and see if it had been enough.