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Zach Kitano (coalintodiamond) wrote in nosuchtimes,
@ 2008-07-22 01:20:00

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The History of Zach and Adrienne: Take 19
Who: Zach and Adrienne
When: Tuesday, April 3, 2007. 11:38 PM.
Where: Adrienne’s room at her parents’ house in Chicago.
What: Two weeks after they have left the school, Zach flew in on April 1st to visit Adrienne for a week. They have a fight tonight over something unexpected.

As the house grew quiet, Zach crept out of his designated room and down the hall to Adrienne’s room. Her parents were a little old-fashioned, like his parents would have been, and preferred the two of them sleeping in different rooms while Zach was visiting. He understood why, although he and Adrienne hadn’t taken their relationship in that direction yet. It was still new for both of them, and they were only in the beginning stages. Zach wanted to stay with her tonight, though. It was the night after the full moon, and she was still aching from her transformation. Last night had been her first full moon away from the school, and Zach wanted to be there for her.

Slipping into her room, he carefully closed the door behind himself and snuck over to her bed. Zach pulled up the sheets and blanket, sliding underneath them and snuggling behind Adrienne. His left arm settled over her side, and he bent his head down to kiss her on the shoulder despite the cloth that covered her skin. “Adrienne,” he murmured, not wanting to wake her but wanting her to know he was there. “Are you still awake?” Zach whispered near her ear. “I can rub your baaack,” he offered, a little smile creeping onto his face.

He wore a simple white t-shirt to bed with boxers, and his bare arm rested above the blanket over her middle. He raised his hand higher, clasping his fingers over hers. They lied closer to her head. Moonlight poured in through the window, its curtain pulled back and the window open to let in the cool night air. Light from the stars illuminated the sky outside brilliantly, and it lent a soft glow to her room. Zach leaned into her hair, breathing in its scent. The strands felt soft against his cheek, and Adrienne’s brunette locks smelled fresh of her shampoo. It felt nice to lie with her like this, and what her parents didn’t know wouldn’t hurt them.

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cursedwithfur
2008-07-23 12:54 am UTC (link)

Zach's arrival into the room didn't go unnoticed by the werewolf. She had heard his footsteps and smelled his scent long before he slipped underneath the covers beside her. A secret smile crossed her features as she felt Zach snuggling behind her. His arm slid over her middle and his hand sought out hers. The alchemist pressed his face to her hair and breathed in the scent of her hair. It deepened the smile on the girl's face and she had no choice but to press her back into him.

"Hi you..." she whispered in the dim light of her room. Adrienne was still sore from her shift the night before and she appreciated Zach's offer of rubbing her back. But she didn't want him to spend the night doing something for her; what Adrienne wanted was for them to both enjoy spending the night together. The girl shifted in Zach's embrace until she was face-to-face with him, their noses almost touching. "Hi..." she said again with her lips curled into a small smile. Though she and Zach hadn't taken their relationship into a more physical realm, they did still enjoy kissing. And so Adrienne leaned in and kissed Zach softly. A happy murmur came from her throat while she lied there with him.

"This is nice..." she said. Her arm slid over his middle and Adrienne pulled herself closer to him, but the position proved to be too uncomfortable for the wolf's aching back. She winced slightly and sighed; she wouldn't be able to stay like this for very long much to her dismay. Adrienne kissed Zach once more before she shifted to lie on her back, eyes trained on the ceiling above her.

"Sorry... back hurts," she said with a small pout. She turned to look at him and grinned. "But this is okay, right?"

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coalintodiamond
2008-07-23 04:10 am UTC (link)

"Hi, you too," he echoed back with a curling upward motion at the corner of his mouth. It wouldn't have bothered him in the slightest to rub her back for her. Zach would have liked it as much as her, and she didn't need to think it was an obligation of any sort. He offered it because he wanted to offer it, not because he felt the need to do it even though he didn't really feel like it. Zach returned her soft kiss, smiling at Adrienne when she pulled away and they rested their heads on the pillow across from each other. At this angle against the moonlight, his eyes probably glittered from the soft beams of light in her room.

"How are you feeling?" Zach asked quietly, the worry obvious in his voice. Adrienne kissed him again, but moved to lie on her back. Zach frowned slightly. "Are you hurt?" He gave her a look. One of those looks that said she could take him up on his offer and not think about it. "I can still rub your back," Zach said, letting his arm remain over her stomach. His fingers stretched out and pulled back in, gently scratching over the cloth in a lazy motion around her belly button.

He frowned again when she said her back hurt, and Zach scooted closer to her on the bed. "This is just fine," he said softly, his chin falling to rest against her shoulder and his body cuddling against her side. He liked being next to her. It didn't matter what side she was lying on or if it was her back. "I just want you to be comfortable," Zach told her, tilting his head up to look at her from her shoulder.

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cursedwithfur
2008-07-23 05:08 am UTC (link)

Adrienne smiled at Zach and reached over to tap him on the nose playfully. "You're so cute," she said in a low voice. "And thoughtful," she added to herself before she inched closer to her boyfriend. It was unbelievable to the werewolf that she and Zach had been official for two weeks now! There was a time when she thought they would never make it to this point, but here they were. Two weeks into their relationship and already flying across the country to see one another. She sighed happily while her eyes stayed trained to the ceiling.

The girl wasn't sure if she could fall asleep now. The pain in her back was still throbbing steadily and it wasn't going to allow her any sleep. And so she remained awake and interlaced her fingers with Zach's hand. She was being playful with him, lifting up his hand and running her fingers along his arm in an attempt to tickle him. Adrienne giggled softly and then pulled Zach's hand toward her lips to plant a kiss.

"If I wasn't so sore I'd totally pounce you right now," she said with a small laugh. "You know, I just might take you up on that offer of a back rub." A smile marked her features and she continued to play around with his hand and arm. It was then she noticed the old scars on Zach's arm - puncture wounds from a vampire bite when he first came to the school. She wondered who had bitten him exactly since Zach never told her any details. He only told her that he was mesmerized by the girl and somewhat attracted to her. The thought made Adrienne bristle slightly but she pushed it aside. That was the past and she didn't want to think about it, but her own insecurities made that hard to do. Her insecurities planted seeds of doubt in her mind and that was never a good thing in a relationship. Still, she had to keep reminding herself that Zach was with her now because he wanted to be. And that was the truth... wasn't it?

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coalintodiamond
2008-07-23 05:50 pm UTC (link)

Zach scrunched up his nose when her attack came at his face, temporarily shutting his eyes. He opened them back up again, keeping the scrunched look on his face for a moment. "Quit calling me cute," he whispered back. "I'm manly." He couldn't keep the ridiculous smile from his face, though, and it broke through despite an attempt to keep it back. Zach wasn't sure why he wanted to fly out so soon to see her. Then again, when he hadn't ever flown anywhere before because of his strict father, it kind of made sense that he wanted to make this trip more than anything else. He had more than one reason, though the main one was lying just across from him on the bed.

Her little gestures just felt nice at first, and then they began to tickle somewhat. Zach jerked back slightly in response, laughing in quiet tones and returning back to her with eas. He silenced when she brought his hand to her lips to lay a kiss on him. He felt his face get a little warm from a mixture of embarrassment and personal happiness that she somehow wanted to be with him of all people. Like he had said when they first met each other, he wasn't any Brad Pitt. He smiled softly at what her reply had been as he remembered it. Well, I'm no Angelina Jolie. Although, part of him always thought she was much more attractive than she gave herself credit for, and a lot of guys always seemed to agree.

Zach pushed his thoughts away, not needing to think about what Adrienne could have chosen over him. While he wasn't a pushover, he still had insecurities, and they usually hindered him more than they helped him. He hadn't noticed that Adrienne picked up on his old scars again, two little jagged dots beside each other on the paler underside of his left forearm right in the middle. Scars from vampire fangs from when he was bitten his first night at the school. Zach had liked her, the girl who bit him, but it was a like that had passed when he had began to get involved with Adrienne.

They weren't official for quite some time, but it hadn't prevented Zach and Adrienne from hanging out and developing feelings for each other and doing all of the things that couples did, even though they refused to immediately call themselves a couple. Maybe that was mostly Zach's fault, how long it took them to get to that point of just saying the words out loud. He tended to drag things out longer than most people.

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cursedwithfur
2008-07-23 11:39 pm UTC (link)

Adrienne never thought she was supermodel pretty or what people would consider 'gorgeous'. The most she ever gave herself credit for was being somewhat cute and occasionally pretty. But Zach always made her feel special, and that she didn't have to worry about her looks all that much. That didn't mean that the fear wasn't there, though, and when she was around him she always wanted to look her best.

Her eyes were on his scars and the question of who gave it to him lingered in her mind. Adrienne continued to make small circles around the puncture wounds before she spoke out loud. "How did this happen?" She asked in a quiet voice. "I mean I know it's a bite but... who bit you?" For some unexplained reason Adrienne's heart began to beat a little bit faster in her chest. It was as if she were afraid of the answer she'd get, and in a way she was because then she would finally know the identity of the girl that Zach used to have a crush on. Maybe she was jealous, jealous of feelings that her boyfriend used to have for someone else, someone other than her. But the question was out there now and all she could do was wait to hear the answer.

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coalintodiamond
2008-07-23 11:58 pm UTC (link)

It was the circles on that part of his arm that drew Zach's eyes downward to look at the patterns her fingers were making on his skin. Suddenly, there were his scars — scars he hadn't thought about in a long time. Sure, he still had them, but it didn't mean he thought about them just because they were there. Besides, they were so small. Against the tone of his skin, they were hardly noticeable anymore. He stared at the marks for a moment, at the way Adrienne's fingers lightly traced over them, and he didn't think that answering her honestly would make her upset. If she was going to get upset, she would have done it by now.

Zach forgot how he had told her the girl who bit him was a girl he liked at the time. It was something he divulged when they were trying to reconcile over their fight back at the school. The knowledge seemed like a memory too distant for him to recall, though. "Katrina," he said in a low voice, his voice as soft as a whisper. Zach didn't think about how it would sound to Adrienne. Adrienne knew how close Zach had been to Katrina at the school. Katrina was one of his two best friends and the very first friend he had made when he arrived and hadn't a clue about anyone around him. Adrienne knew the two of them were friends and she never had a problem with it. Only now she would also know Zach had liked Katrina once because she would remember what he told her, and Zach should've thought about that first before he spoke.

He didn't, though, because he was actually happy to be with Adrienne in this moment and Katrina wasn't even on his mind.

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cursedwithfur
2008-07-24 12:30 am UTC (link)

Katrina.

The name stung her like a slap across the cheek. Katrina, the girl that Zach said was one of his closest friends at school. Katrina, the girl that he always hung out with when he wasn't with Nico or with Adrienne herself. Katrina...He used to like Katrina.

Adrienne's heart clenched in her chest and she felt anger rising to the surface. The hairs on her neck stood on end as did the hairs on her arm and legs. Her jaw tightened, teeth gritting against teeth as she struggled to regain control over her emotions. But it was no use, Adrienne felt that she had been betrayed in some way, that Zach had lied to her the entire time they were dating. Her mouth opened and closed to speak but the words were trapped by her anger.

"Ka... trina?" She spoke the name with such disdain and she dropped his arm from her grasp. "Katrina... was the one... who bit you?" Her chest was rising and falling deeply and she sat up quickly in bed. Her fists had tightened around her blanket, grasping at them like she were trying to squeeze the life out of them. "You liked her..." the words were so hard to speak. It was so hard to hear them out loud because it hurt her to hear them. "You..." She looked over her shoulder at him and glared. "You lied to me."

She threw her feet over the edge of the bed and stepped away from Zach. Adrienne turned around, tears in her eyes as she spoke in loud whispers to him. "You... you said that you liked me while we were dating. But you were always hanging around Katrina, too. You liked her while you and me were dating!" Her eyes were wide she wiped at them furiously before the tears slid down her cheek. "What happened huh? You couldn't get together with her so you decided to go out with me? I was some sort of second choice, right? You couldn't have her so you settled for me?"

Adrienne bit down on her lower lip to stop it from quivering. She wiped at the tears angrily and shook her head at him. Looking at him now, and hearing the way he said her name. He said it like he missed her... like he still wanted to be with her. The dark-haired girl would have said more but her body was shaking too much from her anger, and it felt as if her heart had just been ripped from her chest.

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coalintodiamond
2008-07-24 12:59 am UTC (link)

Zach noticed the way Adrienne’s muscles had tightened up in her body, and he shifted to prop himself up on his arm to get a look at her face. He was worried at the sudden change he felt, but Adrienne had dropped his other arm like she didn’t want to touch him. Adrienne practically spat out Katrina’s name, a sign that she was obviously upset, but Zach didn’t see any reason for her to be upset at Katrina. He might have gotten defensive on Katrina’s part, but he still didn’t know what had Adrienne so upset in the first place. Her hands grasped tightly onto the blanket, and Zach reached out to cover one of her hands with his. “Adrienne—”

Adrienne sat up, though, and Zach had to shift upright as well. “What are you—” But he had his answer a second later. Adrienne remembered before him that he had liked Katrina once. He froze on the inside, stilling at the sudden revelation of why she was upset. He was still close to Katrina, and he had liked her once. Was there something wrong with that? It wasn’t as if he still liked her in that way, so why was Adrienne angry? Then again, since when did emotions make much sense? The glare she sent his way was unexpected, though. You lied to me.

“ . . . What? Adrienne, what are you say—” She had thrown her feet over the edge of the bed and pulled away from him, getting out of the bed entirely. Zach felt lost as he lingered behind, sitting on an empty bed while his girlfriend was madly pissed at him for something that was in the past and didn’t have any bearing on their current relationship. Her next accusation actually caused Zach’s eyes to widen and his jaw to fall loose. “That’s not tru—” He hadn’t liked Katrina while they were dating. Zach only liked her in the beginning, a crush of sorts, unless Adrienne saw the beginning of their relationship as the very first kiss he gave her in the hallway while they were hanging out with Mere.

“That’s bullshit,” Zach hissed back indignantly, his voice just as hushed as Adrienne’s own. He didn’t choose Adrienne because he couldn’t get Katrina. Zach knew he and Katrina couldn’t be anything more than friends, and not just because of her but because of him, too. They were good friends, but they never would have made a good couple. They would have brought each other down, drowning in their respective self-pity and negative feelings. They would have made each other unhappy; he had known it, even if it took a little while to figure it out.

“Katrina was my friend,” he said quietly, feeling hurt by her accusations, “and I was lonely and confused and liked her for all the wrong reasons, just because she was nice to me. But people can be nice to you without being something more than that. People can just be friends.” Of course he missed Katrina. She was his friend, and he was worried about how she was doing. It didn’t mean he wished he was lying in a bed with Katrina instead. “That was before you and me got involved.”

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cursedwithfur
2008-07-24 01:51 am UTC (link)

Adrienne took a few steps away from Zach. She was crying and she didn't bother to wipe away the tears now. As much as Zach felt hurt by her accusations, Adrienne felt hurt by what she believed to be true. There was a pained look in her eyes as she stared at Zach from where she stood. She sniffled back her tears and continued to step back until she hit a wall. "You... you still like her... don't you?"

All of the werewolf's insecurities and doubts were coming to the forefront and it made her feel weaker in her current state. Her knees buckled beneath her and a sharp pain shot through her body. She gasped softly as she slid against the wall and down to the ground. She hugged her knees to her chest and pressed her forehead down to hide her face. She wanted to move away from him, wanted to get away so she could clear her mind but her body wouldn't let her. All she could do now was to not look at him.

Just because Zach and Katrina couldn't have been more than friends didn't mean that Zach didn't want to be more than that at one time or another. If there was a way for him and Katrina to be happy he probably would have chosen it. He had been attracted to her, and probably still was as far as Adrienne was concerned. And why not? Katrina was tall and pretty and probably the type of girl that Zach fantasized about. No, Adrienne couldn't see herself as being the one that Zach really wanted. Adrienne's self-doubt had convinced her that Zach had only settled for her, that she wasn't his first choice.

It was making sense to the werewolf now. The only reason anyone would be with a monster like her was because they just wanted someone to fill the space, because they couldn't have someone else. Zach kept saying that Katrina was his friend, saying that he liked her because he was lonely and confused and she was nice to him. There was no way he thought of her as just a friend - guys couldn't do that and now that Adrienne knew that Zach liked Katrina, she just couldn't believe that he didn't want her still.

"You don't want me," she said in a soft, sad voice. "You want her." Her body was shaking from her crying and each shake wracked her body with painful tremors. Adrienne had gone from being angry to being incredibly sad and upset. She felt that she had gotten her hopes up with Zach only to be let down in the very end.

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coalintodiamond
2008-07-24 04:35 am UTC (link)

The tears on Adrienne's face were breaking Zach's heart as much as the words she had believed to be true were breaking hers. He couldn't understand why she would look at him like that, like she didn't trust him after all of what they had been through together since they met. All of the obstacles they overcame, and all of the things they discussed openly with one another. Yet none of them seemed to register to Adrienne as she sobbed and hit the wall behind herself.

Zach couldn't believe she would even ask him a question like that, and he was shaking his head at her. "Why would I still like her, Adrienne?" It made more sense to ask her that than to try and claim he didn't like her. Given how badly Adrienne took the news of who had bit him, Zach doubted she would be so trusting if he said he didn't like Katrina in that way. None of that mattered, though, when he saw Adrienne's knees buckle and heard the light gasp of pain as she slid down the wall.

Hurrying off the bed himself, Zach tore the blanket up and walked right up to Adrienne. He dropped to his knees in front of her and draped the blanket over her cradled form, not making a move to touch her. He wasn't sure she would take it so well, but it didn't mean he was going to sit around and do nothing. Zach frowned at what Adrienne said about him not wanting her and wanting Katrina. "Adrienne," Zach said softly, looking across at her even though she wouldn't meet his eyes, "I didn't choose Katrina, did I? I don't think about Katrina like that, do I? I don't dream about Katrina. I don't want to kiss Katrina. I don't want to be with Katrina . . . "

He didn't know if this was going to make things worse or make them better. Knowing how he was with girls, he might be making it worse, but he had to try. He had to get through to Adrienne. It was the night after the full moon, and she was still emotional and in pain from her transformation. It was a lot to go through, and Zach knew that. He had to be careful with her, be gentle. "Katrina's like my sister now," he said softly. "She became like family. It was just a little crush, and it's not there anymore. It hasn't been for a long time. It was there, and then gone, and she's like my family." Zach bit on his bottom lip, wanting to bring Adrienne back to the bed where it was comfortable.

"Adrienne, you're hurting yourself," he said quietly, trying to mask the pain in his voice. "Please, at least lay in the bed. I'll go back to my room if you want me to, just don't — please?"

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cursedwithfur
2008-07-24 07:21 pm UTC (link)

"I don't know what you think about or dream about..." she retorted in a voice that told of the pout upon her lips. She was still crying, her heart was still breaking, and she just couldn't bring herself to not think about anything other than the fact that Zach once liked Katrina. Adrienne never had a problem with the vampire, in fact they actually had good rapport over the school's journal system even though they hadn't hung out before. Adrienne once thought that she'd like to be friends with Katrina because Zach was her friend. But they were more than that, said a voice in the back of her mind. And they could be more again.

The voices in Adrienne's head wouldn't stop and the werewolf reached up with shaky hands and gripped onto her hair tightly, pulling at the strands so that she had something else to focus on. She wanted her destructive thoughts to stop, she wanted to believe Zach. Wanted to believe that he'd never lie to her. But it wasn't that easy for the girl. Her world had fallen apart since she had become a werewolf and it felt like she was learning how to do everything all over again. Learning to live life with the curse she had been given, and learning to trust people amidst all of that wasn't the easiest thing to do. But she wanted to trust Zach, wanted to believe that he could like her even though she was like this - a monster. And what made it worse was that her inner wolf was fueling her doubts and making her anger even stronger. But she had to control it, had to not let it get the better of her. She had to... for him.

Blurry eyes lifted to look at Zach after he spoke. "You let her bite you..." she said quietly though there was a definite growl in her voice. "Is this... is this what it felt like for you when I told you I let Rafe bite me? Did it hurt this much?" More tears fell from her eyes to stain her still pale cheeks. She hadn't fully recovered yet from her transformation and her current emotional state wasn't helping matters any. She released her strands of hair finally and one hand reached out to touch Zach softly on the cheek with shaking fingers. The issue of who had bitten Zach had grown beyond the act itself into a realm where Adrienne doubted herself and that was scaring the girl the more than anything. What if she couldn't make Zach happy? What if he decided to be with Katrina later on? What if he grew to hate her? An endless stream of "what ifs" were poisoning her mind and heart.

"D-D-Do you really like me? Even though I'm a monster? You really... really don't like Katrina like that?"

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coalintodiamond
2008-07-25 12:42 am UTC (link)

No, she didn't know what he thought or dreamed about at night, but he was being honest with her and it was her choice to believe him or not. It stung when it felt like she couldn't trust him in that way, and all because of a name. It wasn't like he hadn't told her the truth about the bite before. He had only left the name out of it, and yet she had been able to forgive him about it. He never said he stopped being friends with the person, so he had never lied about anything. Zach had left out a few details, but they hadn't been left out on purpose. It was more or less left out because he had been an emotional wreck at the time when he had told her the story. Besides, when they were trying to make up, bringing up how it was Katrina who bit him seemed more like a dooming sentence that an honest truth.

Zach's muscles tightened at what she said next, the growl evident in her voice. He couldn't understand how everyone mixed up the picture of him and Katrina. Every time he had been honest about the story, people always acted like he let Katrina bite him. It didn't matter how many times he said vampires weren't real to him at the time and that he thought Katrina was screwing around with him. Sticking out his arm and daring a fake 'vampire' to bite him had been, in his eyes, a funny way to prove Katrina was trying to get a one-up on him at the time and make him turn out to be the smart one. Yeah, right, like vampires were real. How stupid had Katrina thought he was? Those were his thoughts at the time, and when she did bite him, he tried to pull away. Zach had been horrified and frozen, stung by the pain, and he had to yell at her to stop.

Adrienne's fingers reached out to touch him on the cheek, but Zach wasn't having this argument again. He got up from the floor and moved back over to the bed, sitting on the edge of it and facing the wall across from him. It felt like with all of her beliefs, she was poisoning his own head. Zach dropped his head into his hands, his fingers running through his hair and catching in it. If Adrienne was a monster as she believed herself to be, then so was Katrina. What made a difference between them? A vampire and a werewolf. It wasn't like Katrina was a normal human girl, and it wasn't like she hadn't fed off people before.

"I like a girl who doesn't trust me, who just happens to be a werewolf and doesn't think very well of herself, even though I think the world of her," he said sadly, turning his gaze towards Adrienne, "and I want her to get back in her bed, so she doesn't hurt herself on the floor like that. I also happen to have a friend who's a vampire, and she's just a friend." Zach looked off at the wall, leaving the side of his face the half that Adrienne saw. "What else is there to say?" he asked with a quiet voice, resting his forehead against the palm of his hand.

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cursedwithfur
2008-07-25 01:49 am UTC (link)

When Zach pulled away from her Adrienne's heart dropped out of her chest. Somehow, someway, she had hurt him again. Her hand dropped to the ground and she felt abandoned. He had walked away from her when she had tried to reach out to him. Saddened and defeated she let her knees drop from her chest, her feet sliding forward on the carpeted floor. What could she say now to him when all of her anger seemed pointless? For all the fire she had in the beginning of the argument it had deflated quickly when she saw that it was hurting Zach.

But her pride kept her from saying she was sorry immediately even though she felt guilty for making Zach upset. She just couldn't say the words because it would just be admitting that she was wrong to be upset in the first place. But she wasn't wrong, was she? Didn't she have a right to be upset and to think that there was a chance that Zach would just turn on her? Isn't that what her experiences with other guys told her? Adrienne took a deep breath in, her voice shaking slightly with the sobs that rattled her chest.

"I just..." she didn't know what to say to him now or even what to do. Adrienne found it hard to move from her spot on the floor and as much as she wanted to ask him for his help she just couldn't say the words. Ambivalence ruled her now - a part of her wanted to ask him to stay but another part wanted to tell him to leave. She couldn't decide what to do and her inability to make a decision made her cry even more. She hated this, hated the heightened emotions that always came before and after the full moon. It made her feel like a wreck, and she really was in her current state.

"I hate this..." she said finally. "I hate fighting with you..." She sniffled softly and rested her head against the cold wall of her room. Her eyes weren't even looking at Zach anymore, they were trained on a random spot on the door of her room. "I got jealous..." she said again. "I like you a lot and just knowing that there was someone else that you liked, well it scared me that maybe you'd start to like them again." Her eyes were blank as they stared straight ahead, and yet the tears kept falling down her cheeks. "I'm sorry... I'm sorry that I'm a dumb insecure girl who happens to get jealous over her boyfriend." Adrienne wiped the tears from her eyes and then reached a hand out toward Zach. Her fingers were moving in a back and forth motion, beckoning him to come over.

"Will you please help me to bed?" Adrienne was afraid that he would say 'no' but she had to ask anyway. "And please stay with me... I know I probably don't deserve it, and you're probably mad at me, but I don't want to be without you tonight. But if you don't want to I... I understand."

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coalintodiamond
2008-07-25 09:00 pm UTC (link)

Her crying only seemed to grow stronger instead of ebbing away. Zach wanted to go over to her side and sit with her, maybe even hold her, but he was afraid of Adrienne pushing him away or getting up to stalk off. That would only hurt him more, so he stayed put and waited for some kind of signal. Some part of him felt like Adrienne couldn't stay mad forever, and it was her heightened emotions from the full moon that caused such a strong reaction. Zach wondered what she would have said or done had it not been the night after the full moon, but he had no way of finding out. Sitting on the edge of the bed, he continued to wait for Adrienne to say something or do something that would let him know what course of action was okay to take.

Zach released a breath he had been holding in his chest when she said she hated fighting with him. He hated fighting with her, too, and it was rare that they ever fought. Zach stared at the floor in front of him. He understood jealousy. He felt it when he learned of Rafe biting Adrienne. Pure jealousy, feelings of not being good enough for Adrienne, and being second choice to someone much more attractive or better than him. Only with Zach, he thought Adrienne had been fooling around behind his back while they were together. Closing his eyes, he shut the memory out of his head and let it pass. There was no need dredging up old pains and making tonight worse because of them.

"You're not the only one who gets insecure when it comes to the person you're with," Zach said softly, turning his head to look at her. He wondered if Adrienne would understand then that it was okay, as long as she remembered Zach sometimes had similar feelings of inadequacy. They both seemed to think less of themselves in comparison to other people, other potential boyfriends and girlfriends.

Noticing her beckoning fingers, Zach stood up from the bed and walked over to her. He didn't say anything, just bent down next to her and carefully slid one arm under her legs and another behind her back. Zach lifted her gently, knowing her back was in pain and not dropping the weight on her quickly but slowly. Bringing her back to the bed, Zach laid her down and pulled the blanket up over her. He seemed to debate it for a moment before crawling into bed beside her and sliding underneath the blanket. Zach's arm went around her middle, and he rested his face against her shoulder.

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Fin.

cursedwithfur
2008-07-26 02:10 am UTC (link)

It felt like an eternity had passed before Zach rose from the bed to approach her. In that time Adrienne thought about Zach's words and what they meant. They both had their insecurities and doubts, not about the other person but about themselves. Adrienne often feared that she wouldn't be able to make Zach happy, that he'd grow tired of her and move on. But Zach's words told her that he had those same fears about her, too. They were both afraid of losing the other, and yet here they were together in her room and an official couple.

Zach lifted her carefully and brought her back to bed. He tucked her in and even decided to lie with her for the night. His arm went around her waist and the gesture brought a smile to her face. Adrienne laid her hand on top and interlaced her fingers with his. She sighed happily and snuggled further into him. "I'm sorry," she said again in a quiet voice. "I'll never doubt you again." Adrienne shifted so that she could face Zach and press their foreheads together. She smiled at him and closed her eyes. Adrienne thought about a lot of things before she drifted off to sleep that night. She thought of her foolish reaction to finding out about Katrina, she thought about how lucky she was that Zach was so patient with her, but what she thought about most was that she never wanted to be without him. Zach was wonderful and she was feeling things for him that she had never felt for anyone else. What they had together was special and Adrienne didn't want to lose that over anything or anyone else in the world.

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