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I can hear them screaming; Dione Castel ([info]audiomorbid) wrote in [info]nosuchplace,
@ 2009-09-10 21:40:00

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Entry tags:dione castel, irei arakaki

Saturday; Feburary 9, 2008
Who: Dione and Irei
When: Afternoon Saturday Feb 9
Where: The Wine Bar
What: Dione goes back to her life and part of that life is giving lessons.

Dione had retreated mentally if not physically. There was nothing she could do or hope to do about what was going on. Not when her own brother sought to betray her and the person she loved was kept untouchable behind bars. She needed to go see him, but the idea of others watching them made her nervous. Would they continue to twist her meeting with him into something more sinister than it was? Already they wanted to accuse him of some crime against her as if he had done her any harm. He had never been less than a gentleman to her, even when he bite her, which her mind had labelled as necessary now that she understood what he was to some extent, he was no more forceful than necessary.

There was still the small matter of the other woman, Adrienne. Yes, now what did this other woman mean to him that he would go to such great lengths for her? Dione didn't know and whenever the thought surfaced, she put it out of her mind.

Instead, she concentrated on continuing to move through her life. Each day found her right where she had been in days prior, playing the piano at the Wine Bar. There were some who had grown more bold and thus they asked for requests, she played them. Her playing was not stilted, wooden, or tired. No one would know the mental turmoil going on just under the surface. Blind eyes lied to the world around her by remaining dry and she had never been the type for conversation so her silence came as no surprise. Beyond her meeting with the Priestess, no one had asked her about the goings on, which meant either they didn't know or they didn't attach any significance to the whole thing. Either was fine.

The days so much looked the same to her that it came as no surprise how fast they moved. Before her days had been marked by Saturdays and Sundays, special occasions and events that required her expertise. Now it was simply a study in maddening monotony. Maybe that more than anything else was what drove her to seek out something else and was part of what caused her to be rather mad.



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[info]iseedeadpeople
2009-09-13 06:50 am UTC (link)
The music from the piano was beautiful. It was also sad. Perhaps that is why Irei liked it.

He had watched her ever since he had walked into the bar. He normally didn't make it into the wine bar at such an early time, but he had been in town and had decided to stop by for a drink. Surprisingly he had actually changed his mind completely about the drink and had decided to sit a distance away from Dione to watch her play the piano. So now he sat his eyes on her, sensing her brother who always seemed to be near.

What did it matter? She couldn't see him staring anyways.

Do you like morbid things? Is that why you are interesting in sad songs?

The hiss of a voice meant for only his ears seemed break into his thoughts as he watched Dione's fingers as they danced on the ivory keys. Maybe, for a blind woman, watching her fingers was more important than her eyes.

"Urusai.*" He said through clenched teeth. He had hoped that the voice would quieten, but there was no such luck as the spirit's seemed to have renewed interest in tormenting him.

He stood up and walked over to her slowly, stepping carefully. He knew she would hear him no matter how lightly he placed his foot on the ground, but he wasn't sure how aware she was at the moment to those around her. He leaned on the piano and looked down at her.

"Dione-san, when are you going to give me a lesson on the piano?" He spoke softly and watched her.

*noisy or shut up

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[info]audiomorbid
2009-09-14 01:48 am UTC (link)
The piano was her escape. The chance to turn off her brain in a way, to be something that wasn't entirely disconnected from reality. The piano made its own reality. The music became the only thing real to her. In a way, Dione descended to the level of a Jack-in-a-Box or a jewelry box Ballerina when she sat the piano. The only thing missing was the key to wind her up.

It was better to be a soulless object. Objects didn't feel pain. Couldn't be betrayed. Couldn't love. Didn't cry.

The sound of someone walking in her direction washed through her brain and made no impression, like footprints on a beach. It was there and not. All she had was the music and her fingers moved across the keys with the same steady rhythm that spoke nothing of the emptiness underneath it all. Or maybe it did. There was always the story that the truly beautiful melancholy could only be played by someone who had suffered. Others simply played, but failed to truly capture the essence of the song.

Dione didn't know if that was true. Nor was that what she was thinking about.

Her name didn't break her revelry. Instead, like an undercurrent, it became a part of it. A hazy human voice singing along, except that it wasn't. She turned her head in his direction, not to point her eyes at him, but to shift her nearest ear in awareness of his speech. She played an 8 scale and stopped.

"If yo-you have ta-time now," she kept her voice low, trying not to draw attention to her speech problem yet again.

Dexter silently leaned across the piano looking at the two of them, wondering where exactly this would go. Would Irei coax her out or would she retreat into the shell she had further built around herself again?

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[info]iseedeadpeople
2009-09-15 04:43 am UTC (link)
Irei paid little attention to things like speech problems. He assumed English wasn't her first language, much like it wasn't his. He already knew she was shy from the one other time he had met with her and allowed her brother to possess his form to show her he was really there. Although he wondered if that had any effect on her.

"I have all the time in the world." He didn't bother faking a smile for her like he would with some of the other patrons of the wine bar. It was unnecessary as she wouldn't be able to see it anyways. He knew how to show people what they wanted to see. He learned that if you appeared the way people wanted, then you could more than likely get what you wanted.

"You do remember who I am, ne?" He moved to sit down next to her on the piano bench. He briefly looked up at Dexter, his onyx beads were in his hands as he rubbed the smooth surface against his fingers. It always helped to channel his magic and helped him see the forms of ghosts and spirits. He did smile a little for her brother, but then brought his attention back to the girl he sat next to.

“Show me how to play.” He reached over and curved his hand over her’s on the keys to get an idea of how one positioned their hand. He knew theory for piano, but he had never actually gotten to the practice of it. “How do you make your music so melancholy and beautiful?”

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[info]audiomorbid
2009-09-16 01:19 pm UTC (link)
Dione spoke English more out of necessity than anything else. It wasn't a language she particularly liked, she wasn't good at it, and truthfully, she rarely had anything to say she felt was worth hearing. Better to just not speak in her opinion. Somewhat sad really as she did have a lovely voice so long as she wasn't stuttering.

Though she wasn't speaking to him right now, she treated Dexter as though he was there most of time. Right now, they were having a significant difference of opinion, as was wont to happening between close siblings when a person from outside was introduced. It helped nothing that the person introduced was a manipulative psychopath bent on destroying everything that he touched. Well, maybe not everything, but near enough in Dexter's opinion. Dione's thoughts disagreed, hence why they weren't really speaking to one another. When they disagreed silence was simply the best way to keep the constant fighting down.

"Monsieur Arakaki, Dr. Ca-Connelly's friend, who-ho ca-can see-e Dex." She'd shifted backwards, away from first names and familiarity, distancing herself from others in her pain.

The touch was unexpected, but she immediately started to move her fingers in a one handed scale. She had never had to teach anyone how to play. Once it wouldn't have been a problem, but now she was teaching from memory. It wasn't undoable, her previous teacher had taught her new music by playing it and explaining it as he went.

"Dep-pends on t-the s-sa-song." Not every song was melancholy, but it seemed to be where her mind was of recent. In slow, melancholy, and yet beautiful music. Dione moved her hands to middle C so that her thumbs touched. "Middle C. The foundation of piano." Her voice took on more confidence as she discussed music, it was her safety blanket making her feel safer through concentration.

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[info]iseedeadpeople
2009-09-16 03:49 pm UTC (link)
Irei would have loved to speak to her in her native language, but he had yet taken the time to learn French, and he was pretty sure that she would not speak his native Japanese. Mitsuko and her mother were some of the few he had met who actually spoke Japanese fluently, and he didn't care much for conversation with one of them. Most people in this place seemed to speak in English, which worked well for Irei seeing as that was the only other language he knew.

"Ah, correct. You have a good memory Castel-san." When Irei had talked to Sascha about the time he met Dione and Dexter, Dexter had seemed very protective of his sister even though he was no longer alive to be an effective force in taking care of her. Irei wondered if Dexter would one day learn how a ghost could eventually manipulate the living world. Most spirits he had encountered had already forgotten exactly who they used to be or that they were dead and were often mad.

His fingers moved along with hers. He knew were middle C was, but remained silent as the conversation fell onto music. He knew the technical of the instrument; he wanted to learn technique from the blind pianist. He noticed that she was no longer stuttering as she spoke. He stood up, his knee still on the piano bench as he leaned over her shoulder and watched their fingers on the piano.

Irei was good at listening and allowing people to move the conversations into a comfortable place. He thought it probably came from spending five years of his childhood listening and talking to doctors who didn't really have the talent try and get him to open up. He had learned to blame it all on daddy and mommy and they would be satisfied enough to let him go early from each session or they would prescribe a new pill and promised it would send the "figments" created by his sick mind away.

"I like sad songs better. There is more meaning in them." His face was near hers and he spoke softly. "I would like to hear you sing in French sometime."

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[info]audiomorbid
2009-09-17 04:08 am UTC (link)
Dione remembered a great many things, lots of things she heard without truly paying attention to them, since her ears doubled as her eyes in a lot of situations. And Irei was one of the few people who had been inside her home and was actually welcome there. While she refused to seek people out in their own space, Dione would still allow others to come into her space, to interact with her. In truth, the piano was her space. She enjoyed being there and it was the only place outside of her house that she felt safe anymore. Once she had been able to find some safety with Dante, but now that was gone. He was locked up and she was on her own. The whole thing just made her shutter herself up in her own little world made of music.

"Thank you," the compliment was recieved with a sort of distractedness Dione was almost famous for. She didn't do well discussing herself.

Sad songs seemed to have a quietness to them that Dione gravitated toward. They made her feel calmer, probably because their pace was stately and sedate. "Is there a song in particular that you want to hear or learn to play?"

The ghost watched them, occasionally letting his gaze drift to others and see who was paying attention to the pair. There were some in the Bar who looked at them and seemed to be truly paying attention, but most were concerned only with themselves. Good thing in his opinion.

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[info]iseedeadpeople
2009-09-18 05:05 am UTC (link)
Irei placed his other hand on her on her shoulder. He took his hand from hers and continued to look a the curve. Irei often learned by watching others and then putting into practice what he saw them do. He had been watching Dione play for a while now, and could tell that despite how the song was meant to be, often her emotion showed through it.

"I do not know. Is there something easy enough for a beginner that you can show me?" He sat back down and leaned over the piano to watch her. He would need sheet music although she could obviously play by memory. He wondered if she ever wanted to learn new songs.

Irei suddenly had the urge to play a song. Normally he would either play something for just himself or for Sascha, but right now he wondered if Dione ever had someone play a song for her to listen to. He couldn't do it on piano just yet, but after she gave him his lesson, perhaps he could figure out a way to play something back for her.

"You like sad music, but what is your favorite song?"

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[info]audiomorbid
2009-09-19 02:36 pm UTC (link)
She didn't react to being touched, probably because she was busy with other things mentally and people touching her was something she had grown used to over the years. Dione had originally learned to play like most people did, but learning to read music; learning the theories; and practice, practice, and more practice. Dione had learned to love music with a passion usually reserved for other people, but that was because unlike other people, the music never left her. It didn't leave her alone to face the darkness that was life without comfort or care. Even her brother, though he loved her dearly, could do nothing for her and now seemed bent on destroying any chance at outside happiness that she had.

Beginner music, what was a good beginner song? "The Minute Waltz is a good song for learning tempo." The song, played correctly, took sixty seconds from beginning to end, though it could be lengthened by simply starting from the beginning and playing again. It was an easy song, requiring few notes, and it was easy to tell when it had gone awry because things didn't sound right.

"My favorite song?" Dante had asked that question a long time ago, or at least it felt like a long time ago now. "Chopin's Nocturne is my favorite song." The Nocturne was more complicated, something that required much more practice. She had played it hundreds of time since coming to the Haven, but most people didn't know one classical song from another, so they didn't know it when they heard it.

Unconsciously, she started to play it from the beginning, her mind still in the conversation, but her heart was certainly elsewhere.

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[info]iseedeadpeople
2009-09-21 03:25 pm UTC (link)
Music had always had the property to calm Irei down. He used it often to help and control his gift to give him a little peace from those spirits who sought his attention. Sometimes he wondered if the shock therapy at the hospital from when he was younger had screwed with the normal functions of his brain and made it easier for ghosts to speak to him that way. He may look like he was lazy and doing nothing, but most of the time he was preoccupied inside his head.

"The minute waltz?" Irei thought he would go to the library and see if they had the sheet music for that. If he was nothing else, he was diligent when he wanted to learn something and most of his time working on it until it was perfect.

Irei couldn't say that he knew the name of most classical music. In fact most of the music that was on his now working again iPod was rock. Sascha had made sure that a good portion of it was classic rock as well. And he also knew a few classic guitar songs, but that didn't mean that he didn't appreciate it.

He shut his eyes and let the beginning of the music wash over him. He sat back down, straddling the bench. He opened his eyes again so that he could watch her hands, and see how they moved across the keys. The way her fingers reached for the next key, or how her thumb slipped under her right hand to get the correct note. It was probably second nature to Dione, but Irei, who was miming her fingers, hadn't the chance to learn it when he was younger.

"It is a beautiful song. How long have you played piano?" He had noticed she became more comfortable and confident when speaking about music, so he tried to keep the conversation centered around the music.

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[info]audiomorbid
2009-09-21 11:33 pm UTC (link)
Dione had been playing the piano for so long it was indeed second nature to her. "I started playing as a small child." Literally at six months old, banging on a toy piano. For her, that had been the beginning of her life in essence. It was the one thing she couldn't let go of. "Both Dexter and I played from an early age."

Her parents had always fostered that as much as they could because they were poor and the chance of success in music meant they might not be poor forever. Of course, things had changed significantly after Dexter died.

Her hands stopped as she considered her next song.

Dione is the better pianist. I was good, but my instrument is the saxophone.

"I also play the violin rather well," Dione offered. Then she started to play again, this time playing something more current. It was actually an Evanesence song, Bring Me to Life. "But he's right, I play the piano best."

The two of them had switched instruments as necessary to fulfill their own need for fun. It was just a part of who they were, the pair of them. Though she didn't know the words in French, Dione started to hum along with her playing.

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[info]iseedeadpeople
2009-09-23 07:15 am UTC (link)
"Ah, learning something when one is young is probably the best. Too bad I did not get that kind of a chance." Learning to play musical instruments was not the sort of therapy that was utilized at the hospital Irei spent most of his childhood. The child he had been probably would have become obsessed with it.

The parasite that followed Irei remained quiet. It must sense that Dione and her brother's spirit would be able to hear it. Apparently it wanted to only drive Irei slowly insane.

"Sou desuka*. I mean, is that so. I guess your whole family was muscially inclined" He looked in Dexter's direction. Irei almost wished he could offer to allow the spirit the chance to play his saxophone again, but when inhabiting his body the ghost wouldn't be able to move while within him.

"I always liked the sound of the violin." He returned his attention back to Dione and recognized the song she was playing. "Amy Lee...I liked her voice. It was very haunting." He hummed along with her, harmonizing, and singing what he could remember of the male's part.

Irei stood up as the song ended and walked around to the other side of the piano and picked up a guitar that had been left behind, or belonged to the tavern. Irei didn't really know the reason as to why it was there, but he moved back to the piano bench. He played a few chords.

"I know how to play this so far. Sascha taught me how, but he does not know how to read music. So he could only teach me so much." He started to play a few notes on the guitar. He had learned which notes were what out of sheer boredom, and started to sing a song called Acoustic #3* softly along with the strumming.

"They painted up your secrets
With the lies they told to you
And the least they ever gave you
Was the most you ever knew

And I wonder where these dreams go
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screaming?
No one's listening anyway

Your voice is small and fading
And you hide in here unknown
And your mother loves your father
'Cause she's got nowhere to go

And she wonders where these dreams go
'Cause the world got in her way
What's the point in ever trying?
Nothing's changing anyway

They press their lips against you
And you love the lies they say
And I tried so hard to reach you
But you're falling anyway

And you know I see right through you
'Cause the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screaming?
You're not listening anyway."

Irei would eventually play a song on the piano for her, but he would not be confident on the larger instrument for a while.

* http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BnylqXn15Nc

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[info]audiomorbid
2009-09-23 01:16 pm UTC (link)
Dione knew a little about therapy and hospitals, but that was not an experience she was going to discuss. After all, she hated to be called crazy, why would she want to relive through recitation exactly how crazy they had thought the accident made her? It was easier to forget about it and not think too hard about why hospitals terrified her to a degree. Like many recollections, Dione's memory of her stay in the hospital was deeply colored by her perception of reality, an unusual perception to say the least.

Irei singing along with her only made her play in a less lazy fashion and actually sing some herself. Dione had a strong voice, not exactly the best or most beautiful, but passable capable of holding a tune and hitting the notes appropriately.

The song he chose to play was one she had heard, but never learned herself. It was easy to sit back and listen, letting someone else play for her. He played well for someone with no training, but then so did Sascha. Good thing that formal training was not necessary to the proper use of talent.

"You play very well, though I should not be surprised, Sascha plays very well also." The medium found the whole thing pleasant. "Do you want to learn how to read music?" Dione could teach it, from memory, using music that she had long since memorized. A slow way, but what did they have if not time?

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[info]iseedeadpeople
2009-09-25 02:38 am UTC (link)
Irei rarely discussed his time in the hospital either. He was also very sensitive to being called crazy seeing as he had plenty of experience. Some of it was difficult to recall, but as he understood, shock therapy did have the tendency to mess with one's memory.

He set the guitar down near the bench and looked at her. "Thank you. Sascha is much better than I am at it. I have only played a few years."

"Yes, I would like to learn how to read music." He looked over at Dexter and wondered how many people thought he might be talking to himself. "What is your favorite song?" If the ghost was going to hang around, Irei thought he might as well join the conversation. It was an interesting feeling, knowing he wasn't the only one who heard the spirit.

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[info]audiomorbid
2009-09-25 09:26 pm UTC (link)
"Time does little for or against talent," Dione remarked quietly.

Her fingers roamed over the keys, playing random notes that somehow managed to still be beautiful. Perhaps it was luck; either way, she continued to play even as he spoke as a low undertone to the conversation.

My favorite song is actually River of Dreams. He had always loved it when they played it together. Dione knew the words quite well, and the combination of saxophone and piano was actually really cool. Dad said I had old man musical taste.

Their parents had always attempted to understand their children, but when it came to music, they were simply out of their league. Their two children had known more about music than their parents before they turned ten. They listened to anything and everything they could get their hands on and were nearly playing at the concert level. But that was because they were constantly practicing either together or separately.

"If you want to learn to read music, first we're going to have to find you some. I suppose the library should have some, it's paper, they saved a lot of paper."

Sheet music was not exactly the kind of thing that would help in the building of a new world, but it was a remnant of civilization and unless man held onto those trappings, they were in danger of becoming little better than animals themselves. "You don't mind being taught to read by a blind woman?"

It was one of the few things that truly upset her, people who found her disability to be an issue of how much she understood and could teach.

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[info]iseedeadpeople
2009-09-26 04:55 pm UTC (link)
Irei looked thoughtful at that statement and shook his head. "I do not feel like I can believe that. Unless someone is a natural talent, then I suppose that statement could be true, but time if used efficiently should make talent grow."

"River of Dreams? Kawa no yume..." He shook his head and then looked up at Dexter. "I do not think I know that song. I only lived in America for about four years before...we all had to move here." There were many western songs he didn't know. Back in Japan the crowd he had hung out with weren't really the type to listen to classical or much western music period except for current American rock or rap.

Irei didn't think much on his parents, and neither of them had bothered trying to understand their son or his problems. His father had been eager to drop him off at the hospital at the age of five at the first signs of Irei's gift emerging, and his mother had been too wrapped up in herself and her own problems to worry much about him. That was his impression of his parents anyways.

He laughed softly. "Yes, sheet music is paper." Sascha had informed him a while back ago, right after he had started to work at the library that there was sheet music and books on musical theory.

"Ah, I believe I can appreciate the irony in that statement." Irei was the one had sought her out, so that he could learn from her. Whether or not she was blind had not occurred to him in that respect. "But, I do not mind."

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[info]audiomorbid
2009-09-26 11:23 pm UTC (link)
Despite the fact that French was their first language, the Castel twins had been born in the United States. They had gone away from home on a number of occasions, but their home had been in Atlanta, Georgia. It was the Atlanta Symphony they had played for and adored for such a long time. Even after Dexter had died, he still attended everything Dione played in. Standing on the stage next to her whenever he could. Other times, he would stay with their parents.

In the middle of the night, I go walking in my sleep. Dexter knew the words quite well; after all, it was one of his favorite songs. In a way, it was oddly about them. Especially the bits about something somebody stole and that it could only be seen by the eyes of the blind. But that was something he never got to, not willing to be rude.

Sheet music was indeed paper, though of course she was familiar with it. None of it truly mattered though as she couldn't see it no matter what was done.

"Irony," that particular word was one she had become well accustomed to. "Very ironic," she said carefully, her lips pursed into something that might have been a lopsided smile. "Unavoidable, I suppose."

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[info]iseedeadpeople
2009-09-29 07:42 pm UTC (link)
Irei shook his head. Sascha would probably gasp at the fact that he didn't know the song Dexter was singing, but Irei hadn't been born in America. Even in Japan he had been fairly cut off from most pop culture for a large chunk out of his life. "I am sorry." He shook his head. "It rings no bells. But then, I assume that you would not be terribly familiar with Japanese music."

He chuckled at Dione. That was the first he had seen her give something that even resembled a smile. "You are very dramatic Dione-san." He reached out and touched her cheek with his cool hand. "Exactly why do you act more like a ghost than your brother? Watching you float around aimlessly almost makes me want to free your soul, but then I remember that you are not dead yet."

Irei knew that he was hard to approach at times, but despite that he had made some connections and relationships with people. Based on his observations, Dione seemed to live in a bubble that no one could penetrate. He wondered is she had made any kind of contact with anyone. He had known quite a few people back in New York who had frequented the goth clubs who enjoyed being self proclaimed tragedies. Most of that irritated the necromancer to no end so he avoided them as much as possible.

Dione didn't give off that vibe. It was like she was stuck behind barriers that she had erected around herself. Something that was perhaps meant to be protective looked more like a prison from the outside.

Irei picked up the guitar again and tuned it before strumming a familar melody and started to sing the first verse of "Dear Prudence".

"Dear Prudence, won't you come out to play
Dear Prudence, greet the brand new day
The sun is up, the sky is blue
It's beautiful and so are you
Dear Prudence won't you come out to play"

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[info]audiomorbid
2009-09-30 09:22 pm UTC (link)
We know some compositions, but nothing with words, Dexter admitted. Dione said nothing at all to his assertion because she hadn’t known where a lot of the music she played came from. In truth, it didn’t matter to her at all. When he touched her face, she did not flinch away, but she stopped completely, as if she were a robot whose off button had been pushed. Pale slender fingers seemingly trapped at the key where they stopped.

His question went without an answer for a long moment and when it finally was answered, it wasn’t by Dione herself, but rather by Dexter who didn’t think it worked so well for nothing to be said. When they were together, she could hide behind him and she seemed to do that more and more. The fact that Irei could hear her brother allowed her to go back to that somewhat self-destructive habit.

She’s always been like that. Which was the truth. Dione had always been the one on the outside looking in, the one who floated aimlessly and the more she lived without anyone to be anchored to, the worse it became. Quiet to the point where people forget she can talk and always trying to stay out of the way. If Dione was a tragedy, she didn’t proclaim herself one. Her life had certainly long since become a tragedy worthy of being written about, but that meant nothing to her. She was too busy living what little bit she could with the strength that she had to worry about what others thought of her life.

When he began to play “Dear Prudence” Dione played along. The Beatles were a group she did know a little bit about. Enough to know their songs, even if they weren’t a personal favorite of the medium. If the song was meant as a comment, she was not prepared to say anything about it. Dione saw herself as missing out in moments when she was away from her music and the comfort it gave her. While there, rarely did she realize how empty her life was. Alone at night, she could easily hate herself. Not a discussion she wanted to have with someone she didn’t know all that well.

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[info]iseedeadpeople
2009-10-08 04:45 pm UTC (link)
Irei didn't go much further into the song, resting his arm on the side of guitar and he eyed the woman who sat next to him. He had never met anyone like her before. He could imagine that she probably didn't have to many friends. Considering his own social retarded behavior, he could only believe that Dione was more that just simply antisocial.

Either she ignored or completely missed the significance of the song that he had played for her. He shrugged. In his experience with self-hatred and lack of interest in connecting with others, it didn't matter what anyone around him would say. Those who suffered from that malady tended to prefer their current path, rather than deviate for possible happiness. It was pure stubbornness and the fact that it was just easier that way.

He reached out and pushed a lock of dark hair back behind her ear and out of the blind girl's face. "Always? Even as a child? Normally something leads to this result." Irei tilted his head and spoke quietly toward Dione. "Dione-san, Have you ever been in a mental hospital?"

He was genuinely curious and there were no hidden tones in his voice that might indicate that there might be a deeper meaning to the question. It was just that for most people he had come across that had similar gifts to his found no real comfort in the ability to converse with souls. In fact, it seemed to somehow and if only indirectly make their lives harder.

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[info]audiomorbid
2009-10-10 02:14 am UTC (link)
It was perhaps unfortunate that Dione had found fear of others and the loathing of self to be her way of life. She had been only beginning, just barely beginning, to come out of her shell when the accident that took her sight and her only real comfort in life away. It was as if she were being sent back to square one, but without even the courtesy of being given the same road. Instead, she was given an entirely new road, one much more difficult than the previous. Was it any surprise that she had essentially barricaded herself at square one and refused any push to move forward? Certainly she couldn't be blamed for it.

It didn't matter one way or another, since her arrival in the Haven people had been trying to press her out of her shell, lure her out, coax her out, anything that might be able to make some progress of any kind. Dione was notriously stubborn about such things though, sticking to her little hiding places and clinging with unseen claws.

He brushed her hair away from her face, an action that drew no corresponding motion for her. Dione had no problem with people touching her, but other than the holding of hands to walk and occasional hugs, she tended to keep her own hands to herself.

Always. Even as children, I was the talkative one, offered Dexter. Dione still seemed to find no need to say anything, until he mentioned the hospital. Again her hands curled up on the keys, balling into fists. Then she brought her hands down on the keys creating an unattractive squawk to come from the instrument.

"N-not cr-crazy." Then she rose to go in jerky motions, apparently lessons were over.

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[info]iseedeadpeople
2009-11-05 05:47 pm UTC (link)
Irei watched as she stood up and left the piano. He smiled a little and looked thoughtful. It seemed like she was taken to a place that kept her and told her she was crazy as well. And just like for him, the memories she had of the place seemed to make things worse, or harder for her.

He laughed softly and shrugged. He had come to believe that sanity was a relative thing, but he was also very sensitive to when others used the term "crazy" too loosely. He was not crazy either. And even when used in a joking manner, Irei could easily turn cold toward the person speaking. It was like the word worked like a switch in his mind.

Dione's actions certainly didn't agree with her statement though. Irei felt that there was a pretty good chance she did have some sort of mental problem despite her assurances that she was not crazy. When he had moved to New York from Japan, he had heard of a lot of different mental disabilities that were blamed for many personality disorders in people. He wondered which one could possibly explain Dione. There was no way that she was completely mentally stable.

He looked down at the piano and started to play a few notes. He liked the way it sounded and continued even after she left.

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