Lyra Gardhouse (gardhouse) wrote in nevermore_logs, @ 2012-02-20 17:08:00 |
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Entry tags: | lyra gardhouse, thanatos |
WHO: Lyra & Thanatos
WHEN: 15th Feb
WHERE: Lyra's place
WHAT: V-Day fallout
WARNINGS:
Lyra still remembered with distaste the last time Eros hadn't struck her with one of his arrows. It wasn't so much that being with Thanatos was awful - on the contrary, and obviously she was dating him now - but that her own will had been taken away from her. She'd done things she hadn't wanted to do. Eros had stepped in and violated her.
And now it had happened again, and this time it came with the double guilt of having been unfaithful to Thanatos without even wanting to. Under that love thrall, Lyra would have done absolutely anything for Baphomet. Maybe she should have just been grateful for the things she hadn't done and leave it at that.
All she wanted now was Thanatos to come and make her feel less awful, but his post didn't bring her any relief. Instead it made her worry about what her own words had wrought.
Pacing her living room, Lyra chewed on the sleeve of her sweater nervously, and when Thanatos appeared she turned to look at him suddenly, panic clear, and begged, "please don't kill anyone."
He blinked at her comment, although it shouldn't have surprised him. The anger was still present but around her it lessened. "I'm not killing anyone. I can't." He couldn't overstep those bounds, even if he wanted to. "He hurt you Lyra. He's just getting a taste of his own medicine until he decides to listen to common sense. That's all."
And his siblings were always eager to help him. They were an odd family, but a family.
He held out a hand, not approaching until she felt he could. He'd seen how Eros had affected her with him. Now it had been a stranger. "Are you alright?"
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[info]gardhouse
2012-02-19 08:08 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Lyra believed him. Thanatos may have been a strange death god, but he was an honest strange death god. "Thank you," she said as she let out a breath of relief. "I don't want to be the cause of some inter-pantheon war." That was far too much pressure for a mere mortal like herself.
Reaching out, Lyra took Thanatos had and came closer so she could hug him, her cheek resting against his chest. "Yeah..." she said cautiously. "I guess. I just feel all gross and used." She drew back from the hug enough to look up at him. "And sort of guilty that I cheated on you even though I didn't want to."
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[info]a_gentle_death
2012-02-19 08:11 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Gently he set his arms around her, brushing his fingers down her hair. He wasn't too sure how he was supposed to soothe people, so he hoped this helped. "Don't worry love. You won't be a cause. Our pantheon always fights and squablles."
He smiled to her, "it's alright. I don't blame you nor am I angry with you. I blame the arrow and the one that shot it. Not you." Gently he set his fingers on her cheek, "alright? So no worrying about that. Tell me what I can do and I'll try my best."
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[info]gardhouse
2012-02-20 01:06 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"Okay," Lyra rectified with a little shy smile, "so maybe the cause of today's squabbles then."
She nodded to his assurances that he didn't blame her - and she was glad for that. It would have been unreasonable, Lyra thought, for him to blame her, but Gods had never been written as reasonable creatures. Yet here was another reason for Lyra to prefer all things Death: it was nonjudgmental and patient. "You should stay here and keep me company," she suggest. "My brain's too mushy today. Show me magic god tricks," Lyra grinned.
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[info]a_gentle_death
2012-02-20 01:18 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
He chuckled and kissed the top of her head. "Only a little. He's not going to get hurt. My brothers will just mess with him a little. Unless you ask me not to." In his own way he was defending her. As much as he could.
"I was planning on staying here either way. Until you kicked me out." He released her and looked her over to make sure she was alright before grinning in return. "You've seen all my magic god tricks. I'm not very entertaining I'm afraid."
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[info]gardhouse
2012-02-20 01:52 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"Just don't hurt anyone?" Lyra asked him, squeezing his hands gently. "I know that maybe this Eros isn't very nice and maybe he's even evil, but... I don't like thinking of you like that." She held up a hand so he wouldn't interrupt yet. "And maybe you've done nasty things to people and gods before because I know what your family is like but..." she licked her lips nervously. "I just don't like thinking about it. It's not the you I want."
Lyra didn't feel too disappointed that there was no more magic for her to see but she thought on it for a few moments and then asked, "Show me the real you again?" She'd seen him in that other, more scary, more winged form, only once since that first terrifying time he'd revealed what he was. Lyra wanted to be more comfortable with that other him.
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[info]a_gentle_death
2012-02-20 02:02 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Her request would make it so he would need to tell his brothers but he nodded. Smiling he took her hand and kissed her palm. "My family has done things I have frowned at. I have always remained neutral. Many may blame me for being cruel for taking the lives I have but I do not think I have done many nasty things. Learn of my past Lyra, I am who I am now but I hide nothing from you." He kissed her forehead then.
"If you're sure," he stepped back a bit and let the more human mask drop so he was once more the black winged, black eyed being he really was. The sword he took off his back and set aside. It came with it all but it wasn't needed. With a smile he extended his hand to her. "Remember I won't harm you or do my duty until Fate calls for it."
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[info]gardhouse
2012-02-20 02:10 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
She had read little bits and pieces of his mythology, but sometimes it felt too much like in-depth stalking of her boyfriend. But with his permission she knew she'd research more. She loved him and nothing she read there would change what he meant to her now.
She slipped her hand into Thanatos and nodded. "I know," she told him. "I trust you." There was the lingering presence of non-human even when she closed her eyes for a moment, like a shade that hovered over her and made her shiver. But she opened her eyes and looked up at him, taking in those soulless eyes and those wings that towered above them. "I love you," she said, reaching up and laying a hand on his cheek.
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[info]a_gentle_death
2012-02-20 02:15 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
He smiled to her. He rarely smiled like this but she tended to make him smile a lot. He took her hand and leaned into her touch, setting his free arm around her waist to hold her close. "I know. I love you too." He leaned his forehead against her, watching her. He didn't want to make her uncomfortable but he was glad she was trying to get used to this side of him he tended to hide.
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[info]gardhouse
2012-02-20 02:20 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
It didn't feel scary to be in those arms. It just felt like Thane, like her Thanatos, not some harbinger of death. "I fit with you," she whispered into the tiny space between them, her voice only for him. "For the first time in my life, I've found the place I fit exactly."
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[info]a_gentle_death
2012-02-20 02:33 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Her words made him feel like he was the luckiest god on this plane, and several others, because they were his. As was she. Nothing else mattered. He closed his eyes and held her close. "I can say nothing but that I agree with you. You fit. And I am yours." Gently he set his fingers under her chin to have her look at him. "All of me is yours." Then he grinned, "and you are the only being who can say they have Death as theirs." He gave her a soft kiss then.
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[info]gardhouse
2012-02-20 02:42 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
She made a tiny grin to match his. "Take that, Sisyphus," she joked and then closed her eyes to the kiss. She slipped her hand into his hair and deepened the kiss, pressing herself gently closer to him. His was all hers, he'd promised. And for at least a while that would be true. She didn't want to think about how she'd get old and worn down and he would remain the same.
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[info]a_gentle_death
2012-02-20 03:04 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
He couldn't help but laugh at her comment, but then she was kissing him and that was a far better thing to concentrate on. He leaned into her, setting both his arms around her and letting himself slip back into his more human mask. He didn't want to push her too much.
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[info]gardhouse
2012-02-20 03:14 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
This was better. This wasn't someone else telling her that she was in love. What they had belonged solely to them and Lyra would guard that fiercely.
She broke the kiss and pulled her sweater and t-shirt over her head, leaving her in a bra of the most obnoxiously bright shade of yellow. (Lyra liked underwear because it could be even brighter than usual clothes since the only people who would ever see it already knew her penchant for hideous colours.)
She tilted her head to smile at him. "You don't have to change back," she told him. "I want to get used to the other you. Unless," she looked suddenly embarrassed. "is that creepy? I mean, hitting on you in your normal other body? Oh god, this is a massive faux pas, isn't it?" She put her hands to her cheeks as they warmed.
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[info]a_gentle_death
2012-02-20 03:24 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
She was positively adorable when she started being all shy. It was probably what had hooked him in the first place. That and her absolute brightness that part of him needed. "Shaking his head he let the mask slip to let himself be his old self again.
"No it isn't. No one makes these rules Lyra. Whatever you decide is good for you, is good for you. If you want to be used to this form then I will show you. I just didn't want to push you." Smiling he set his fingers on her cheek before lowering his fingers along her bra. "Trust me I hardly mind you hitting on me however I look."
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[info]gardhouse
2012-02-20 03:30 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
She smiled at him, at those dark eyes. "But if I need you to stop-" she didn't really have to finish that question, because she knew without a doubt that Thanatos would do nothing to intentionally upset her. He'd proven himself time and time again with that, even when it came to her own little insecurities. When she talked to him about her discomfort with her own body, he'd somehow managed to find a way to make her slowly more comfortable. Lyra didn't know how he did these things other than the obvious: she fitted with him.
"Lucky for you I don't plan to stop hitting on you," Lyra smiled, kissing him slowly. "You're really cute." Then she grinned playfully, reaching out her fingers to run along those wings. "I'll even try not to tickle you. Much."
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[info]a_gentle_death
2012-02-20 03:35 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
He smiled to her and to prove his point set his hands on her shoulders. "you tell me and I stop." He'd never seen why she felt so uncomfortable in her own skin. He was just glad she had learned to see things more from his point of view.
"Good," he grinned and went to set his hands on her waist. He chuckled to her comment, "only for you. I prefer intimidating for anyone else." He gave her a wink before half squirming at her fingers. "Lies." Gently he tried to get away before she tickled him too much. "I'll just have to distract you before you decide it's funnier to see me in stitches."
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[info]gardhouse
2012-02-20 04:45 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"You'll never be intimidating to me," Lyra teased. (Which ignored the fact that upon first seeing his true form she'd screamed and proceeded into full mental breakdown territory.)
"Oh yeah?" She'd decided though that she was quite enjoying Thanatos' squirming and grinning attempted to tickle him a little more. The idea that she had a boyfriend with ticklish wings was an interesting one...
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[info]a_gentle_death
2012-02-20 04:56 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
He tilted his head to that but before he could answer he had to duck out of her reach and away from the tickling. It was his one weak spot and save for his twin she was really the only one who knew about it. "Not fair. You know I can always make them go away."
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[info]gardhouse
2012-02-20 04:59 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"Okay, okay," she laughed, "I'll be good. It's just funny to me. I've never had a boyfriend who was ticklish and I've especially never had a boyfriend whose wings were ticklish."
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[info]a_gentle_death
2012-02-20 05:13 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
He just shook his head and stepped closer, setting his hands back on her waist and lowering his head to kiss her shoulder. "funny to you maybe. You're the only person besides Hypnos who knows so keep it to yourself huh."
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[info]gardhouse
2012-02-20 05:19 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"I'll never tell," Lyra murmured, distracted now by those lips. Her eyes wanted to fall closed but she kept them open, watching those wings as she felt his lips upon her skin.
She ran her hands over his clothes, her own fingers seeking out the warmth of bare skin.
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[info]a_gentle_death
2012-02-20 05:27 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
He gave a soft sound of pleasure at the feeling of her fingers on his skin and instinctively curled closer to her, kissing up her neck.