Nina Maynard (awaitingstorms) wrote in nevermore_logs, @ 2010-09-20 20:06:00 |
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Entry tags: | amidio maynard, nina maynard |
WHO: Nina and Amidio Maynard
WHEN: September 2010
WHERE: Austin, Texas
WHAT: A party and then siblings making awesome mistakes.
WARNINGS: language, consensual incest, terrible taste in music
The party was to celebrate Vikky Hoffman's nineteenth birthday as well as the fact that university was soon to start and they had escaped the clutches of high school. Nina had spent her high school career teetering on the edge of popularity and perhaps may not have even gone to this party if there suddenly hadn't been half the boys in the school asking if she was. (Nina didn't get the sudden interest in her or why it had happened, but she couldn't deny she enjoyed it.)
So she dragged Amidio along with her, promising they'd get drunk and have fun - which was exactly what Nina was doing. The evening had started off slow for her but she'd had enough alcohol by now to have dropped most of her inhibitions. So much so that she was now to be found on top of Vikky's kitchen table, dancing and singing along loudly (and a little out of tunely) to Taio Cruz.
She had her arms wrapped around the other girl up there with her - a stranger but drinking had now made them the best of friends - and she smiled down brightly at the boys whooping up at them, enjoying a weird sense of power from it all. She let one of them slide his hand along her thigh as he helped her down and then she kissed him, happy and drunk, before spotting Amidio across the room and beaming at him, dancing her way over.
Amidio never cared about parties. The music tended to bother him, and he wasn't a crowd pleaser like his twin. He drew attention of his own, people who thought like him, and one or two people who found him attractive. Occasionally he took advantage of it.
So as his sister danced he kept to drinking and talking to others in dark corners. When she'd gotten on the table his eyes had darkened. He knew he shouldn't look at her that way, but he couldn't resist. When the drunk boy had touched Nina he'd wanted to march over there and punch his lights out. Yet when he'd stood up Nina was making her way over to him and he smiled at her, keeping the face in mind for later. No one touched his sister like that.
He leaned close so he could be heard over the music, "having fun?"
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"Yes!" Nina beamed, throwing her arms around her brother. Over the last year she'd grown so careful in her movements around Amidio. There were feelings that there were wrong, so very very wrong, and yet she couldn't deny them. All she could do was pretend that they didn't exist and that she certainly had never thought about Amidio in that way. She wasn't some sicko. Only sickos had sexual fantasies about their brothers.
But tonight there was drinking and fun and it was okay if she hugged him tightly and pressed herself again him a little. She could just pretend she didn't know what she was doing. (Pretend and then think about it later when she was alone in her room.) "I've had a lot of bourbon," she leaned over to whisper in his ear, as though this could be a secret to anyone.
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2011-02-10 06:09 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
His arms easily wrapped around her as she drew closer. It wasn't right and later he'd regret this when all he could do was want, and then feel terrible for the want, but that was later. Now he could indulge, and tomorrow he'd go back to keeping his distance. It was better that way.
He licked his lips as she pressed closer, the alcohol in his system making it hard not to react. The whisper made him shake his head. "I can tell." He paused long enough to enjoy this feeling, take it in and put it to memory for another time. "Shouldn't you be with your adoring public? your reputation will suffer if you hang out with the violent one you know."
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2011-02-10 06:25 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"Fuck 'em," Nina said with a shrug, looking back over at everyone dancing. One of the boys called out her name and gestured that she should come back over. Nina shook her head at him and then turned and smiled back at her brother. "This song sucks," she yawned. "Let's go home instead."
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-10 06:35 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
That made him chuckle, "you are drunk. You're even cursing." he grinned, "Bad Nina." His eyes darkened before he released her, keeping one hand on her lower back. "Alright, let's go. I'm tired of this crowd anyway."
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2011-02-10 06:50 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"Bad Nina," she said, slapping her own hand with a smirk. "Naughty Nina." Leaning on Amidio she rested her face against his shoulder, using the moment to take in his scent. Another thing to add to her special thoughts later. "Take me home," she murmured. "Everyone's lame here." She was glad that their parents were away for the weekend so they wouldn't have to sneak so quietly.
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2011-02-10 06:58 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
That turned his thoughts darker and he closed his eyes when she set her head on his shoulder, too drunk to remind himself of why he'd hate himself for it later. He nodded then and set his arm around her waist, leading her out the door and towards their home. He kept his arm around her, using the convenient excuse he needed her for balance.
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On the way home Nina told Amidio about how Vikky was totally cheating on her boyfriend (which was supposed to be a secret but everyone knew) except now she had herpes and everyone was going to find out which was sort of going to make everything hilarious.
At least, she was pretty sure that was what she was telling him. Sometimes she got dragged off on tangents about other things, but that was okay too because it was late and nice and Amidio was warm against her.
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[info]foxy_devil
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Despite what people thought of him, Amidio was very smart. He listened well, but never did well around authority. For his sister though, that was different. He listened carefully, even when she went off on her tangents, and gave the correct responses when required.
He learned more then he would from school from her. He kept her close as he unlocked their front door and led her inside, turning the lights on before removing his boots. "C'mon chatterbox. Bed. You're so going to regret your bourbon in the morning."
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2011-02-10 07:16 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"Whatever," Nina grinned. "You're drunk too!" Then she slipped away from him and into her bedroom, turning on her music. "Amidioooo!" she called out, enjoying the freedom of being parentless. "Amidio! It's my favourite song!" She jumped up on her bed to dance again, bouncing on the springs. "Did you see me dancing, Dio?"
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2011-02-10 07:23 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"But I can hold my liquor." He'd had plenty of practice with it afterall. He removed his coat as she turned her music on, rolling his eyes as she called for him. He walked to her room, leaning against the frame of the door. "You know you'll break it if you keep jumping right?" Smiling he nodded, "I saw Nina." It'd probably stay in his head for a long while, but he wasn't telling her that. "You're so hyper when you're drunk. I'm getting you some water, before it's all 'Dio my head hurts so much' tomorrow."
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2011-02-10 07:29 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"Mum and dad aren't here to tell me off for doing it!" Nina grinned, poking her tongue out at him. Then she added, "wait, wait, Dio!" She moved to the edge of the bed and grabbed him, turning him around so she could climb onto his back, laughing and wrapping her legs around his waist. "Now I'll drink water, cause you're my pony. Go, go!" She'd loved getting piggy-back rides from him when they were little and she used to ride him around the house because he had always been stronger. It had been a hell of a long time since she'd done it though.
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-10 07:34 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
She was laughing so he could pretend this was a game, and he didn't want to turn her around and feel how her legs felt then. "You're adorable when you're drunk and Jesus Christ Nina. What are you, twelve?" He shook his head, but didn't make her get off. He could carry her. "And I am not a pony, I remember we had this conversation."
He sighed and shook his head, settling his hands on her legs to keep her steady and walking into the kitchen with her on his back, getting her a glass of water as promised. "You'll get it when we go back to your room. You'll drench me otherwise."
"That conversation was lame," Nina pouted, resting her chin on Amidio's head. "I have to go to college and be a grown-up so let me play pony!" She wiggled a little on his back to try and get the water but she couldn't so she just let him carry her back to the room, and slid down off his back and onto her bed, legs crossed and with an attempt to keep her short skirt from flashing him too much.
He looked so nice standing there with his smile and she reached out and took the glass, draining it while she watched him.
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2011-02-10 07:43 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
That image was going to haunt him forever, and even drunk he knew he'd have to take a very cold shower, just to get it out of his head. It wouldn't work though. It never had. Once she'd had her drink he smiled again. "It wasn't lame, and I promise I'll drop by and embarrass you at your fancy school."
He pushed off the door to offer her a hug, "bed. Sleep well."
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2011-02-10 07:45 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Nina hugged him, pulling him onto the bed with her to sit. "No," she whined, burying her face in the crook of his shoulder. "Stay with me, Dio."
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2011-02-10 07:51 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Now he had to wait for her to fall asleep to make his escape. She wasn't making this easy on him. Yet he could deny her nothing. His arm settled around her shoulder, fingers toying with her hair. "Alright, alright. Demanding little girl."
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Nina raised her head. "You love me though," she smiled at him softly, her lips against his throat as she spoke and her chest tight. This was bad, bad, bad. She wanted him to stay so she had an excuse to be pressed against him like that. She should let go. How long could she make a hug stretch?
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His eyes closed to that touch, keeping her close. He had to release her though, and his grip lightened. He should go, but he couldn't. He glanced down at her and smiled, "always." Gently his fingers grazed her chin, "what would I do without you?"
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Nina met his eyes, her breath feeling so heavy and her skin hot. She swallowed and her fluttered shut at that touch on her chin. She swallowed the tiny moan but couldn't quite keep it silent completely. "You'll always have me," Nina whispered, eyes still closed, knowing she should let him go.
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2011-02-10 08:05 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
He licked his lips, his eyes watching hers. This was such a bad idea, tempting himself like this. But he couldn't let go, not for the life of him. "No I won't. You'll find someone to love and leave me." He gave her a sad smile, "someone who deserves you."
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2011-02-10 08:07 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Nina opened her eyes and looked at him seriously. "Never," Nina told him adamantly. "You're my Dio." She leaned forward and pressed her forehead against his, his breath so warm.
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2011-02-10 08:11 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
His eyes closed again, feeling her so close. Without thinking he moved forward, separating the last few inches and setting his lips to hers for the briefest of moments.
The shock of it, how nice and good it felt, made him draw back and release her. "Fuck. I have to go."
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2011-02-10 08:15 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
It was the surprise that meant she let him go, his lips against her so soft, so perfect, but just for such a moment. Had she kissed him? Oh god, she shouldn't have done that! "I'm sorry!" she said quickly. "Oh God, I didn't mean to- I shouldn't have! Dio, don't leave me!" He was her brother! What the fuck was wrong with her??
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-10 08:17 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"Fuck, Fuck, Fuck." He ran his hands through his hair as he rose. "Shit Nina I didn't mean to do that," or even enjoy it so damned much. God he was just as much of a fuck up as everyone said he was. "Oh fuck Nina I won't leave you, but that didn't happen. Things just got fuzzy alright. Go sleep."
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2011-02-10 08:19 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Nina stood up, grabbing for him. "Dio, stop!" she said, freaking out because he was freaking out more than anything else. (If he'd been calm she'd take care of the panic, but she couldn't help herself from wanting to make this better for him.) He'd kissed her?
"Why did you kiss me?" she asked him, holding tight onto his arm. "You kissed me."
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-10 08:23 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
He calmed when she grabbed him, mostly because he didn't want to upset her. He tried very hard not to give her pain. He was a stupid idiot, and he'd done the most fucked up thing in the world and liked it but he wouldn't leave her if she wasn't assured he was calm.
"I know, and it was stupid of me. I'm sorry, I shouldn't have. Look, this never happened alright? we're just drunk and not thinking, and I'm sorry."
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2011-02-10 08:27 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
He'd kissed her. For a year she had imagined that happening in all sorts of ways that she knew never would. She pretended her fingers were his when she'd moaned quietly into pillows in the middle of the night. Amidio had kissed her for real now though, and Nina didn't know what she was supposed to say.
"Too much bourbon," she finally muttered, and she dropped his arm.
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2011-02-10 08:42 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"Yeah. I'm sorry. I don't ever want to hurt you." He lowered his eyes, guilt eating away at his insides. She was the most precious thing he'd ever know, and he never wanted to lose her. "Fuck, I'm sorry." He fled to his own room then, everything feeling raw. He felt guilt and wat, then more guilt for the want.
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Nina watched him go before closing her door and sliding down the back of it, trying to keep her crying as quiet as possible.
Since the night of the party, Nina had been avoiding even meeting Amidio's eye. She hid in her room a lot, having nowhere to be and not much feeling like getting out anyway, her parents asking her a few times if she was alright. What was she supposed to say to that.
It was almost a week later when she came to Amidio's room in the afternoon and stood in the doorway. "Hi," she whispered.
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Avoiding Nina was hard, but not impossible. He spend most of his days outside, getting into more trouble and causing more havoc to ignore what had happened that night.
So when he heard her voice he worked on buttoning up his shirt, and lowered his eyes. "Hey."
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Nina slipped into his room, quietly closing the door behind her. She didn't know what to say. She'd been thinking about what had happened all week and all it was doing was making her crazy.
She walked over and sat on the edge of his bed, hoping the right words were going to come to her. She didn't look at him doing up his shirt.
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2011-02-10 09:00 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
He watched her, pausing to sit beside her, watching his toes in the carpet. "You angry at me?" He didn't want her to be, but he had deserved her anger. "I mean, I know I'm fucked up, but I'm sorry. It just...felt right." He closed his eyes and leaned against the wall. "And I know it makes me the biggest freak, but I just liked it." He didn't know why he was saying all this, but the distance between them was killing him.
He looked at her, trying to take her hand, "please don't leave. I'll do anything, just don't go anywhere."
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Nina let him take her hand but she was having trouble breathing as she listened to his words. It just felt right. Everything felt right with Amidio but... god, this wasn't right, not really. This was messed up on a level Nina could hardly fathom. It should make her sick to the stomach that Amidio was saying these things, but in truth it felt somewhat like a relief.
"I'd never leave you," Nina told him, looking up from where she sat. "I said I'd never leave you, didn't I?"
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"I know." He glanced at her and ran his fingers along her cheek before drawing them back with a smile. "So we're alright then? No more ignoring me? I can take a lot, but I need you." He sighed, knowing it was wrong. He just smiled and ran his hand along her hair, kissing the top of her head. "you're the only person who understands."
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2011-02-10 09:12 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
His touches were more than he could understood to her and she stood up, making herself not quite his height but at least getting rid of that distance. "I understand," Nina nodded, standing close to him. Her hand shook a little as she reached out and laid her palm gently against his cheek. "I want everything to be alright."
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He leaned into the touch, his eyes closing. Despite promising himself not to he couldn't help it, couldn't help enjoying it so much. He kissed her palm. "Everything will be alright, promise. As long as we're together, it's all good."
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"All good," she repeated quietly, watching the way he leaned into her touch, the kiss on her palm, the affection that wasn't usual. Maybe this was all wrong - it was. Of course it was - but Nina couldn't help wanting it.
Wanting him.
Nina moved up onto her toes so that she could kiss him, just for a moment, but her lips lingered against Amidio's as she breathed.
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2011-02-10 09:34 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
When she kissed him he knew he should push her away, knew he should stop it but he didn't want to. For the entire week he'd been agonizing over it, replaying the memory over and over and thinking what he should have done instead of fleeing.
Now, he set his arm around her waist before pressing his lips against hers again, no longer thinking but just doing.
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2011-02-10 09:38 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Nina whimpered into the kiss, pulling her body closer against him and feeling like she was going to die from the sheer joy and need of it. "Dio," she whispered, feeling overwhelmed and helpless, his tongue the most amazing thing in the world. She didn't think about him her brother. She couldn't. She just wanted this too much and after a year he was kissing her.
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2011-02-10 09:48 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Nothing else seemed to matter save kissing her. He'd been fantasizing about this for what felt like forever, actually doing it seemed so much better then anything he could ever thing of.
His hands pulled her closer, sliding up into her hair as he relished in the kiss. He needed this, he needed her more then he'd ever admit to anyone else.
Nina's legs were unsteady and she clung to him, her breath rushed and heavy as one of her hands moved under his shirt, the other around the back of his neck. His was warm and strong and her Amidio who'd always been with her.
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2011-02-10 03:29 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
When her fingers touched his skin, a low moan escaped him and he tightened his grip in her hair, his other hand drifting lower to settle on her ass and push her closer to him. One of his legs kicked the door closed, not wanting anyone to interrupt this. He knew if he stopped he'd overthink it, so he did not want to stop. Not now, not ever.
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2011-02-10 03:42 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Nina had been with a few boys before but none of them she'd felt the way she did about her brother. None of them were a part of her like Amidio way. He closed the door though and it was as though the outside world had stepped in towards them, and Nina realised what they were doing and what they were about to do.
She pulled herself away from her brother violently, pressing herself against the wall, breathless, fingers wishing they had some sort of better grip than they did. The wall wasn't going to keep her standing very well.
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2011-02-10 04:13 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
He blinked when she suddenly tore away from him, and his arms and his everything felt empty without her. He licked his lips to remember her taste, how good and right she'd felt before studying his nails. "Sorry."
He wasn't really sorry though, not when everything had felt so nice. He watched her, taking a step closer, "not gonna hurt you, I'm sorry." He reached his hand out to her, wondering if she'd run away, like he had, and if everything would be different now because of his foolishness.
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2011-02-10 04:16 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"Our parents are out there," Nina whispered, biting her lip and wrapping her arms around herself, not cold but scared.
"Dio..." she shook her head a little, looking at him, still feeling his body even now that it wasn't against her. "This isn't right."
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2011-02-10 04:26 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
He lowered his hand to the comment, "they went out." He set his hand in his pockets studying the carpet. His eyes closed at her argument, and he knew he should listen, "I know, alright? I know. But it feels like it is. And I know what it makes me alright?"
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Their parents weren't there? Well, if they weren't around then- No! That shouldn't be the point! Nina swallowed hard and ran her hands through her hair, trying to gather her thoughts and make them behave.
"I love you," she promised him quietly, her tone full of confusion and upset. "Just... that'll never change. You're my Dio and-" She shook her head and tried very hard not to tear up. "This is just so wrong though."
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2011-02-10 04:48 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
It felt like she was tearing his heart out, and crushing it under her hell. His legs felt weak and he had to sit down. He took his computer chair and slumped on it.
"Yeah. I know. You're the only person who does, and I still manage to fuck it up somehow." His breath was shaky, trying not to cry. He'd never cried before, he didn't want to start now. "I know, alright?! I know it's wrong. Can we please skip that?" He sighed and ran his fingers over his scalp. "And I know I shouldn't think things like this, but I can't help it. I've had them since forever."
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2011-02-10 04:52 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Nina was so scared, of herself, of him, or all of this. Why couldn't everything just be normal like it had been years ago?
She was quiet for a long time and when she finally spoke her voice was barely a whisper. "I think them too." She licked her dry lips. "I... I try not to... but I can't stop."
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2011-02-10 05:12 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
His head shot up when she spoke, feeling his pulse quicken at her confession. If it had just been him, he could have lived with that. He was used to being a freak. But if she thought similar.
"Same here. You're all I think of. When I sleep, eat, whatever. I can't stand seeing anyone else touch you."
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2011-02-10 05:17 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Nina's stomach was in horrible knots. There was no way this wasn't going to end in disaster. You could go around kissing your siblings without getting carted off to prison or the loony bin or something.
Nina slid down the wall to sit on the floor, standing too difficult. "What are we going to do?" she finally asked, looking up at him. To know that he thought about her like that as well... God, it was so amazing. But it didn't fix anything, did it? In some ways it just made it all the more screwed up.
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2011-02-10 05:26 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"I don't know." Suddenly his nails were fascinating because he couldn't look at her and see the rejection. "Not tell anyone. It's always been us against them. No one needs to know." He leaned his head back and closed his eyes. "But maybe it's alright if they're right. I mean, we are pretty different." The fact that he was looking for excuses was probably all sorts of wrong, but he couldn't help it. He wanted more.
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2011-02-10 05:31 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Maybe that was true. Maybe they weren't siblings at all. Especially since people weren't attracted to their siblings like this, not the way that Nina thought about Amidio. "Maybe," Nina agreed quietly. "It's not as though mum and dad had DNA tests done or anything..." she was pondering out loud now. "Maybe it's just... if we're not really..." They were though. Nina knew that he was her brother, with all of her soul. But she could pretend.
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2011-02-10 05:41 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Pretending was good, because that meant he could do this again. He licked his lips, nodding. "Yeah I mean, maybe they just wanted to make it easier you know? Give us something to connect over." Slowly he rose and walked to where she sat. "Then it'd be okay, I guess. To think these things."
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2011-02-10 05:44 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Nina nodded, wanting to agree with this. "There wouldn't be anything wrong with it then," Nina said as she stood up, near to him again and stupidly intoxicated with it. Her eyes flicked from his eyes to his lips and back again. "It'd be fine then."
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2011-02-10 05:52 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"Yeah. Completely." The way she looked at him though, and how close she was, was too much and he closed the gap to kiss her again. His arms settled tight around her waist to keep her close and to not let her get away again.
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2011-02-10 05:59 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Nina couldn't help the moan of need when he kissed her, her body reacting automatically and his strong grip around her was more important than anything else in the world. Their parents weren't home and it was just them here. There was nothing to pull Nina away but her own fear.
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-10 06:04 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
The noise made his arms tighten around her, fingers digging under her shirt to feel skin as he kissed her. It was as if his life depended on it, and he felt like it did. His life was dull without her, and the need had become so aching.
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[info]awaitingstorms
2011-02-10 06:08 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Nina wanted nothing but him. For so long he'd been everything she could think of and everything she wasn't supposed to think of.
When she finally drew away from the kiss it was slowly and her eyes stayed on him. Then, with shaking hands, standing in front of her brother, Nina started to unbutton her shirt.
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-10 06:13 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
A whimper of need escaped him as she drew back, but once he saw what she was doing he leaned in to kiss her neck and to remove his own shirt, setting his hands on her hips once it was removed. He wanted to rip the clothing off, but people would wonder and he had to be so, so careful.
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[info]awaitingstorms
2011-02-10 06:18 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Nina dropped the shirt and then, holding her breath, undid the clasp on her bra as well but didn't take it off yet, slightly panicking even as she desired him.
"I've thought about this so many times," she whispered, stretching her fingers and daring to touch his bare chest.
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-10 06:29 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
His hands skimmed along her bare skin as he kissed her neck, gently pushing the bra off so he could indulge in every wish he had ever had.
He pressed closer to her, groaning in delight as she touched him. "Every day, every time I see you I want this."
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[info]awaitingstorms
2011-02-10 06:38 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
His skin against hers made her whimper and she drew a long breath, feeling her chest rise against his as she did. "Dio," she whispered. "I don't- It's just that I'm not sure if I-" she dropped her voice even more along with her eyes, feeling incredibly uncomfortable. "I'm not very good, I don't think." He'd had so much more practise, Nina was sure. She'd only had sex four times with two different boys, and neither of them had been Amidio who she loved.
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-10 06:46 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"Shh." gently his hands traced up along her back, before going back down. "You'll be perfect because your Nina." He may have had other girls, but they hadn't been his Nina. No one could ever compare. "Just follow what feels right and it'll be okay. I won't hurt you, promise. We can go slow, no one here but us for hours."
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[info]awaitingstorms
2011-02-10 06:49 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Nina smiled at little at that. "Just us," she agreed and then she kissed him again. She desperately wanted to be everything for him. She wanted to be as perfect as he wanted her to be, because she already knew that his touch was setting her on fire like no one else ever had.
He nodded then returned the kiss, his hands drifting towards her jeans to slowly undo them. There was very little she couldn't do right, as everything already felt perfect and like a hot flame he couldn't help but curl around.
He stepped forward, moving to set her back on the wall to gain more leverage.
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[info]awaitingstorms
2011-02-10 07:01 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Her jeans coming off, her clothes disappearing. She wasn't a virgin so why did she feel so nervous? (Nina blocked from her mind the obvious statements: because Amidio was her brother, because this was fucked up and wrong, because there were freaking laws against this sort of thing.) Pressed between the wall and her brother, Nina felt safer than she ever had before though. Everything had to be alright as long as Amidio was there, and she was happy to let him take the lead as they kissed.
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-10 07:10 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
He pushed her jeans down as he kissed her, fingers exploring every little bit of skin he could find to put it to memory for when he would be alone again and left with the thoughts of this. He could sense she was nervous though so his hands ran across her hair, and his kisses eased somewhat. "Tell me to stop and I will alright?" He hoped she wouldn't, he felt it would kill him, but he wanted to give the option.
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[info]awaitingstorms
2011-02-10 07:12 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Nina shook her head, just a small movement, her eyes on his as she shuddering with delight under his touches. "Don't stop," she almost begged. "Please. I want this. And you."
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-10 07:16 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Smiling he kissed her again, removing his own pants before taking her leg and pushing her up the wall to be within her. A low groan escaped him, biting at his own lips at it all.
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[info]awaitingstorms
2011-02-10 07:22 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Nina broke away from the kiss, finding she was gritting her teeth to keep from crying out too much, and she dug her fingers into Amidio's shoulders with a shudder. Then she met her brother's eyes, all lust and amazement. There was no going back now, not ever.
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-10 07:33 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
He kept her gaze, wishing that he could hear her. One day, maybe he would know what she would sound like when he took her like this. Now he settled for leaning his head against hers as he moved, watching her eyes with every movement he made, wanting to capture it all.
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[info]awaitingstorms
2011-02-10 07:37 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Nina still felt like this couldn't possibly be happening but it was. After a year of longing, of imagining and punishing herself for imagining, she really was committing this incredible sin with her brother. She whispered his name, her mouth dry, her breathing labored as she kissed him clumsily, feeling his movements inside of her.
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-10 07:44 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
No sin should feel this good, or right, and even if it caused him to burn for all eternity, knowing how she felt would make it all worth while. He fought to keep quiet, fought to continue and not have this end too soon. He feared to end it, feared how she may react and feared how he would feel.
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[info]awaitingstorms
2011-02-10 07:49 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
She was moaning quietly at their movements (and sometimes it sounded almost like his name), biting down on her lip and wanting to wrap her legs even tighter around him. Nina wanted him closer, even though she knew it wasn't possible for the two of them to ever be any closer than they were in this moment.
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-10 07:56 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Her name slipped from his lips like a low chant, unable to stop moving quicker and harder. His lips touched hers every so often as his hands gripped on her legs. "Let me hear you." he needed to, needed to hear her voice to file it away for later use, in case this was the only time he'd ever get to do this.
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[info]awaitingstorms
2011-02-10 07:59 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"Amidio," Nina moaned, throwing her head back and not caring that it hit the wall. "Dio, Dio, Dio, oh god, oh god." She kissed him again, fierce and messy.
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-10 08:13 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
The way she said his name made something snap inside of him and his kiss turned fiercer, his movements harder. He set his hands on the wall for leverage, teeth biting into her lip, wanting the slight bit of pain.
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[info]awaitingstorms
2011-02-10 08:18 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
As Amidio bit her lip, Nina dug her nails hard into his bare flesh, feeling them drag along his side and wanting that. She wanted the shock of it, wanted it but didn't understand why, just that did. "Dio, please," she moaned. "Please, please." She didn't even know what she was begging for so she just kissed him again, just as fierce and hungry as his had been.
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-10 08:30 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
The bite of her nails made him groan low in his throat, biting her lip again and reeling at the sound of her pleading with him. "Again. More. Harder." He was moving ever quicker, ever harder, wanting the minor amount of pain it brought. "Louder, want to hear. Just once. Please. Fuck, Nina, please."
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[info]awaitingstorms
2011-02-10 08:37 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
She dug her nails in again, just like he wanted her too, and when he bit her lips there was pain and then the sudden sharp metallic taste of blood. Nina would have thought that sort of thing would freak her out, but the taste of that blood - was it his or hers? - made her moan even more loudly, made her kiss him even harder.
"Please, Dio," she groaned, louder, pressing herself into him, tasting that blood, wanting him more. "Oh god, Dio."
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-10 08:43 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
The sting of her nails caused him to moan louder, move harder. He needed more of it. When he tasted the blood he lost the last bit of restraint he had left and moved ever harder. He never let go this much with anyone else, fearing to hurt them.
"Yes. Louder." He needed a better angle though and he picked her up, settling her on the bed so he could move deeper. "More."
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[info]awaitingstorms
2011-02-10 08:49 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"Oh- Oh god. Please, Dio, more," Nina moaned, pressing her face against his shoulder, biting down on him because she was sure she was going to scream and someone might hear. Still she gripped him tightly and with her nails digging in. She didn't know if she was drawing blood from him, didn't know if that was what he wanted. "Harder," she whispered breathlessly, wrapping her legs up around him. "Harder. Please, Dio. Please."
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-10 08:55 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
She asked and he complied, moving with all his strength and letting his fingers dig into the back of her legs to return the sensation of delicious pain she was giving him. Loud moans escaped him, uncaring who could hear, and wanting to hear her. He knew he could not last longer, but wanted to make sure she was satisfied, needing to know he had pleased her.
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[info]awaitingstorms
2011-02-10 09:01 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Her breath hissed at his fingers digging into her flesh, at his increased rhythm, and she wasn't able to keep herself quiet any longer. She cried out, wordless, arching against him, wanting more more more of Amidio. She loved him so much. Loved him so much and this was all so right, so right. How could she have thought anything else? All she wanted was him, just like this. She looked up and into his eyes, her skin hot and sticky with sweat. "I love you," she breathed, her voice a shudder.
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-10 09:07 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Her cry was echoed by his own, unable to keep quiet even if his life depended on it. Her name slipped from his mouth like a prayer and he kissed her neck, the sensation overwhelming and so right. Shivering he looked down at her with a smile, soft kisses pressing against her face. "Love you too."
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[info]awaitingstorms
2011-02-10 09:26 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Nina had her arms and legs wrapped tightly around her brother, holding him close against her so she could feel his heartbeat against hers. Amidio was hers.
Nina couldn't catch her breath and couldn't get the lingering taste of blood out of her mouth. She wasn't sure either of those was a bad thing.
"Dio," she whispered. "Dio, don't ever leave me."
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-10 09:31 pm UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
He liked being this close to her, being so connected to her. The sensation of her skin under his fingers was incredible and when he was old and grey he'd still remember it.
He licked his lips, shivering to the taste of his own blood. When she spoke he settled a soft kiss on her lips, shifting to be more comfortable but not leaving. Not yet. "Shhh. Not going to ever leave you Nina." Gently his brushed his hand along her cheek. "My little Nina. Nothing will tear us apart."
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[info]awaitingstorms
2011-02-11 07:47 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
She didn't want to have to let him go either and Nina smiled up at her brother adoringly, feeling completely happy in his arms in a way she never had before. "Nothing," she echoed.
Their parents would come home soon and Nina didn't know what would happen then, but for now this was perfect.
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-11 07:55 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
His fingers traced along her features, capturing them to memory. They had a little bit of time left, and they both tended to visit one anothers rooms on occasion so he knew that once dressed no one would be the wiser.
He settled a kiss on her lips before settling beside her, keeping her close.
Nina drew herself close against him, resting her cheek against his chest and listening to his heartbeat. She was silent for a long time, just enjoying this.
When she did speak her voice was a rough whisper. "What happens now?"
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-11 08:12 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
His fingers traced idle patterns on her skin, his entire body feeling relaxed and right. He kissed her shoulder at her question and sighed. "I don't know. What do you want to happen?"
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2011-02-11 08:21 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"No one can ever find out," Nina told him, because that was all that she could think about. The idea of their parents ever knowing about this- No, Nina would kill herself. She couldn't even imagine how truly horrible that would even be.
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2011-02-11 08:24 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Smiling he settled his fingers on her chin, "who would I even tell? You're the only person I trust." he wound his fingers around hers and kissed them, "I'll keep it until I die."
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[info]awaitingstorms
2011-02-11 08:48 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Nina had no doubt that he was telling the truth. She always trusted him, even when everyone else seemed to be against them. (That's why she hated to much the times when they did fight. When Nina didn't have Amidio on her side then she didn't have anyone, as far as she saw it.) "Mom and dad..." Nina began, but wasn't sure how to finish that. How would they keep them from finding out what had happened? She felt like it would be written all over them.
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2011-02-11 09:00 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"Won't know a thing. When they're here we'll just be as we always are. Promise." He would make sure no one would know of this. IT would be something between them. Something no one would be able to take from them, not now not ever.
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[info]awaitingstorms
2011-02-11 09:07 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Nina had her eyes on his as he spoke, letting him make that promise to her. She nodded a little and then leaned forward with a contented sigh, pressing her lips against his chest. "I've wanted this for so long," she whispered, tongue moving along his muscles. "I couldn't say anything."
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-11 09:15 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
The sensation made his eyes roll back before he glanced to the clock. He smiled at her, fingers tracing along her side. "Yeah. It's been killing me keeping secrets from you, never want to keep anything from you." He raised his fingers to her lips to trace it along where he'd bitten her. "You alright?"
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[info]awaitingstorms
2011-02-11 09:20 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Nina felt for her own bottom lip, finding it a little swollen under her own fingers. She nodded then. She wasn't going to admit that the taste of that blood had excited her. It felt like she'd been perverted enough together. "It'll heal."
She sat then and leaned across Amidio so she could see his back, remembering her nails now. She hissed her breath. "Sorry," she said quickly, seeing the red welts there, some of them with thin lines of blood. "I didn't mean to do that."
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[info]foxy_devil
2011-02-11 09:26 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
His hands settled on her hips as she leaned across him, shrugging to the apology almost glad she couldn't see the sheer satisfaction in his smirk. "S'alright. I liked it." He could acknowledge he'd liked it, because he'd always enjoyed violence and seeing blood. Tasting it had just been better.
"It'll heal and I'll be fine." He leaned so he could see her and smile at her. "Had worse."
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[info]awaitingstorms
2011-02-11 09:38 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
She smiled at him shyly, thinking about what he said. "Are... is that what you're always like with girls?"
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2011-02-11 09:48 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
He grinned and shook his head, "not like that no. Can't let go like that with anyone else. But it can be nice, there's other things, but that's not important." Smiling he sat up to kiss her. "We should probably dress."
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2011-02-11 10:00 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
"Probably," Nina nodded, looking over to the floor for where her clothes were. But instead of moving she was running her fingers along his side. "Are we going to do this again?" she asked, not looking at him.
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2011-02-11 10:07 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
He bit his lip to the all too light touch before looking to her. "I want to." He knew it was making him be vulnerable, admitting that, but he wanted no more secrets between them.
"So if you want to, yeah. I'd like that."
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[info]awaitingstorms
2011-02-11 10:18 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
Nina leaned across and kissed him again, sighing with pleasure against his lips. "Yes," she said. "Please."
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2011-02-11 10:26 am UTC (link) DeleteFreezeScreenTrack This Select
He smiled into the kiss, glad she had agreed. He wouldn't know what to do if she'd said no. "Good. Great." He sat up fully then.