WHO: Greed and Zoe WHEN: April 19 [Backdated] WHERE: Greed's apartment WHAT: The Sin realizes what the hell he agreed to WARNING: Smooches Note: The log reads backwards
"Never. Ever. Ever." He emphasized with a kiss to seal that promise. He wasn't even going to let her play the game with him again. He wasn't comfortable with the thought she might one day want to fall way from him. He had to trust she wouldn't.
On Sunday, April 10, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She grinned with a wrinkled nose when he stuck his tongue out at her and claimed he hated her, "Oh well then maybe I should gooooooo... not have to force my hated presence on you." but she didn't make a move to.. well, move.
On Sat, Apr 9, 2016 at 9:40 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He stuck his tongue out at her and her ridiculous promise. "I hate you, I really do." He tried to look cross but there was that playfulness on his face. He wanted to be the only thing she'd ever want.
On Saturday, April 9, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She chuckled softly, "Fine?" she squeezed his butt, "You act like it's such a burden to accept that I eggroll you and want to be with you forever." and then she pinched his butt.
On Sat, Apr 9, 2016 at 8:16 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Fine," he said like a brat. He had to trust her more than that, even when he wanted to only trust himself. She made a very commanding and believable argument. He was still getting used to the idea that she wanted something else outside of him. Maybe he was jealous of it.
On Saturday, April 9, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She tried to muster up her best defiant look as she stared up at him. She was not backing down on this stance. If he didn't want to go with her or didn't want her to go, fine. But she was not going to let him push her into saying she might not love him one day. Even if he did do the things that would end their relationship, she would never stop loving him, she just wouldn't be with him.
On Sat, Apr 9, 2016 at 7:40 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Her bad habit of slamming the truth in his face was unquestionably a pain in the ass. His brows fell flat. Shouldn't he know what people would do. Shouldn't he have the foresight to know their intentions. She forever threw him for a loop, completely messing up his sinly mojo.
On Saturday, April 9, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "Do you remember how mad you'd get when I used to question your feelings? You'd say I didn't trust you to know your own heart and that's what you're doing now. Just because you feel like you might fall out of love with me doesn't mean it'll happen to me with you. There are very very few things in this world that would spell an end to us and one of them isn't California." she was getting emotional too because she felt he was trying to get her to say she would stop loving him and it wasn't who she was.
On Sat, Apr 9, 2016 at 6:07 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: The guilt she could bring out of him was as intense as her ambition. "I glad you arent. It doesn't mean you won't find something that clings to you and you don't fall out of love with me."
On Saturday, April 9, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She kept her eyes lowered and she didn't want to say it, because it was harsh... but she couldn't help it and said the words anyways, "I'm not you...." one day SHE wouldn't be enough for him and they knew it but she wasn't going to do that to him. She wanted to always have him while she made herself into something more than just a mail room girl.
On Sat, Apr 9, 2016 at 5:52 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: She was being selfish....as much at he would be. She was truly one of his. "Eventually I won't be enough." He was worried that the moment she got the taste of freedom, with him there or not, she would want to go further.
On Saturday, April 9, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She frowned, "Why wouldn't you go with me...? Even if it was just for a month? I mean.. I know you have your job... but..." was she being selfish and asking too much? This was a hypothetical that probably wouldn't even happen.
On Sat, Apr 9, 2016 at 4:37 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He might even have a place in California from decades ago for all he knew. The fact that he even contemplated (because he could feel her eagerness) made him sick. He was selfishly making her stay now. He nodded at her implication that she wasn't going to go. "You will want to go without me eventually. Maybe not now but you will." That was what succeeding and ambition did. You left behind the ones that pushed you along.
On Saturday, April 9, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She gave him a look, "She did not want this. And even if she did, it's not going to happen." she moved her hands to cup his cheeks, her thumbs wiping at his tears. "My home is with YOU. Lithuania, New York, Madison, California. It's not home unless I'm with you."
On Sat, Apr 9, 2016 at 3:34 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed looked up, taking his face from out of hiding. "You don't see t do you? Your mother wanted this. She wanted you to pull away from me..." And Zoe was already doing it (even if in a still rather baby stage). That deeply rooted fear that he had after seeing Josie crack and leave him behind just slapped him in the face. Fresh tears stroked his cheeks. "And if California becomes your home?" Had she thought about that?
On Saturday, April 9, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She frowned, "Oh.." she shook her head, "I mean, yeah. Of course. I like it here too. New York is my home. You're my home... but.." yup, there was a but, "I mean... would you even consider it? Maybe? For a short... short time..?"
On Sat, Apr 9, 2016 at 3:00 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I like it here..." Greed made change whence wanted it. He wondered what it would take to make her not leave at all. If Theseus would encourage it. Of course the guy would. It would be a chance to break him away from her. To do as her mother would have wanted and that scares him.
On Saturday, April 9, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: But it brought up another question in her mind. Because.. as scared as she was to go and have everything change. Part of her... did wonder. So she asked, "Would you.....? Would you go with me...?" in a hushed voice, almost fearful of his answer.
On Sat, Apr 9, 2016 at 12:34 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He could feel his face flush and the tops of his ears. "Promise?!" He croaked out as any child would that needed reassurance.
On Saturday, April 9, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "Hey crazy..." she said softly and nuzzled him over and over, "Remember last night what I said while you were trying to slingshot me there?" she put her lips to his ear and whispered loud enough so he could hear, "I'm not going anywhere without you."
On Sat, Apr 9, 2016 at 12:28 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Don't make fun of me." He choked and just buried his face from her. She was leaving him forever. He was freaking out!
On Saturday, April 9, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "What about one day?" she asked and nuzzled him again, it took her a couple of moments and she frowned, "Are you... crying?" that was certainly different than the night before.
On Sat, Apr 9, 2016 at 11:58 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "No! Not even a week without me." He was frustrated and it was a much stronger reaction than he'd had the night before. He was a lot clearer headed. But now he's amped up that ambition of hers. His life was over. She was going to leave him. He started crying.
On Saturday, April 9, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She asked him softly, "How about one month...?" she needing to hear he didn't want her gone. After last night had been such a blow, she wanted him to hold onto her.
On Fri, Apr 8, 2016 at 9:37 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Never..." He pouted, his five year old voice coming out and hiding in her hair still as if it were the pillow.
On Saturday, April 9, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She smiled only cause he couldn't see it, "I am not... what about six months?" she asked, yeah she was torturing him a little cause he'd really bummed her out the night before.
On Fri, Apr 8, 2016 at 8:40 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Not even a year." Or even a month if he could help it. "You're trying to torture me." Literally it would be physically painful for him.
On Friday, April 8, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "Does this mean you changed your mind?" she asked and nuzzled at him with her nose, teasing again, "You only want me gone for one year instead?"
On Fri, Apr 8, 2016 at 7:27 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "It's forrrreeeeevvveeeerrrrr..." He groaned, keeping himself well hidden from her face. She was making him break like a mirror inside.
On Friday, April 8, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She smacked him, "You're the one who was practically packing my bags for me." she put her arms around his middle and squeezed him, "And it's not years and years. Just two."
On Fri, Apr 8, 2016 at 7:04 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Greed his his face in her hair, his voice muffled under the wave is candy floss. "Stop saying that. Stop saying years and years and years." He felt himself crack in half when she said it. "I'm not okay without you."
On Friday, April 8, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "I dunno.... it's kinda already out there. You wanting me to go. For YEARS. Being so okay with it." she looked at him with some sadness in her eyes, "I felt like you didn't want me anymore... like you'd be okay without me." and maybe if this was a healthy relationship she should want that, but it wasn't, it was a co-depenedent toxic relationship and she didn't want him okay without her.
On Fri, Apr 8, 2016 at 6:24 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Can I take it back?" He couldn't because he'd already thrown it out there, he'd glued himself to her ambition and he'd pumped it up. It was such raw desire that she carried outside of him and he'd been so drunk off of it. At the same time, looking back on it, he wished he'd kept his mouth shut.
On Fri, Apr 8, 2016 at 7:34 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "I don't know about best but biggest is probably you suggesting I move to California for two years and being soooooo... I guess supportive about it. When honestly I didn't want you to be..." she kept scratching lightly against his scalp, "But it's not like we wouldn't see each other. I could fly out every weekend." she was only half teasing him since she was getting the feeling he wasn't as keen on her going anymore.
On Fri, Apr 8, 2016 at 4:25 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote: "And what has been the best change?" He wanted something to be so grande and so amazing that she's never leave him or talk about leaving him for California again.
On Friday, April 8, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She smiled because she knew by the look in hsi eyes, he liked a lot more than the bed. She ran her nails lightly over his scalp, "You can forget... but it's still there. You have the ability to change like I do. You've done it. You've come so far.. and you're so strong and now when you make mistakes, they're yours. But when you make anything else... love. art. a career. any achievement. That's yours too." and that was kinda the best part.
On Fri, Apr 8, 2016 at 3:57 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote: "I do like this bed..." As if that was the only thing he thought that mattered, but that dazed look in his eyes told an entirely different story. She had shown him what was possible and he had seen how much he wanted it. "Sometimes I forget the human side...."
On Friday, April 8, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She ran her hand up and through the hair on top of his head in his fauhawk. "You haven't destroyed me. Or Sammy. Or this apartment. Or this bed. Or Digger. Or my apartment. Or Madison. In fact, you've created. You've helped me in my life make it better, you gave Sammy a dad. You kept this apartment instead of getting evicted. You kept this bed for us. You gave digger a best friend. You created art for my apartment. And a dresser. And clothes. And we're building Madison together. And.. we all slip. We all make mistakes. Even me. You know that. That's the human part. You have that too. Just like you can change. And have."
On Fri, Apr 8, 2016 at 3:09 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I just destroy everything I have, including my family. What if it's vengeance on her. What if I slip?" He was getting overwhelmed again by his own insane feelings. God. How pathetic.
On Friday, April 8, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "How are you being an ass by being your own man and not getting kicked by her and deciding you want to be with me?" she leaned up and kissed his lips again briefly. She needed a bit more explanation for his line of thinking.
On Fri, Apr 8, 2016 at 2:59 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I'm not addicted to her anymore..." But at least she acknowledge there were some things that still were within Lust's grasp. He wasn't completely out of her claws, but he didn't need her anymore. "How is that change and not just me being an ass?" He saw her point. Digger and Zoe l, they were his family now.
On Friday, April 8, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She went back to stroking the side of his head, "And I know... she still has an effect on you." which was obvious with the sex club fiasco, "But you've broken away and you don't see her and you're becoming your own person. That's change. That's big change you never even thought possible. So see... you do change." and she curled her fingers around his ear.
On Fri, Apr 8, 2016 at 9:18 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He didn't reply right away, because she had him on that one. Greed had never foreseen that he would be able to hold his own against Lust, that he could sever that tie. She bound him in so many ways, and yet Greed had become his own entity. He nodded in response.
On Friday, April 8, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She smiled when he defended her, "Point being the first time you saw me... you didn't think I was all that. But then you changed your mind." she tugged on his earlobe. "And..." her voice got hushed, "Do you remember when you thought you'd never be able to stop seeing your sister....?" that might have been one of the biggest changes where Greed had surprised everyone, including himself.
On Fri, Apr 8, 2016 at 6:43 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "You're not a fat hobbit." She was so much more than that and he had polished the shine that had already been there. She was something beautiful. Something he treasured and wanted all to himself.
On Friday, April 8, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She grinned, "I think they're still hot.. just... your tastes... hmmm..." she pretended to think, "Whats the word.. oh yeah," she looked at him, "Changed. And you suddenly wanted to be with a.." she furrowed a brow, "What did you call me... a fat hobbit?" she started chuckling, using his words from the first time he saw her without knowing it was her.
On Thu, Apr 7, 2016 at 10:03 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "They weren't hot anymore..." Greeds eyes had been stuck to Zoe ever since. He found one thing after another that made her sexy, cute, sweet, tempting and desirable. No one else did anything for him, including the kind of girls he used to dig. They were lacking Zoe's zoeyness.
On Friday, April 8, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She nodded, "Yeah... and you gave it back to me and you said you'd never done that before. Which means it was different for you.. a change. And then you told me that you could never do the boyfriend girlfriend thing... there were too many hot babes around annnnnd... what happened with that?"
On Thu, Apr 7, 2016 at 9:52 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I realized it was t what I really wanted." Thy locket had been a guise, hiding the real treasure behind it. The gold wasn't around her neck. The gold had been her.
On Friday, April 8, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She couldn't help it, she gave a soft laugh, "Are you serious right now...?" she stroked the short hair on the side of his head some more and said, "When you first met me, I was a mark with a pretty locket you wanted. You got the locket. And what did you do with it...?" she trailed off so he could answer the question. Because the answer proved that he had changed.
On Thu, Apr 7, 2016 at 9:38 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I can't...not like you..." Why did she always see the human that he kept forgetting was there? How could she see it? He couldn't understand it nor could he see what was so clear to her. He was was so tied to himself and what he was that he forgot what it meant to be on the outside looking in.
On Friday, April 8, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She frowned, concerned now at how worked up he was getting, "Because.. I'm not you, I'm me." they were different. She ran her hand over the side of his head and said, "So do you." very gently. Because he had changed. He'd changed A LOT since she'd met him. Didn't he realize that?
On Thu, Apr 7, 2016 at 9:16 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote: "You never do what I would do---" and he expected it. That was always what people did. Even with all this time not pumping her full of influence she hadn't done what Greed would. He almost felt teary eyed and he wanted to hate her for it. Instead he was trapped in those big brown eyes feeling all those humany things. The things God gave them. The things he never thought he had. "You change all the time---" was it really fair? Damnit. He was choked up and being leaky. How could one simple human girl make him feel so much?
On Thursday, April 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She smiled up at him, her eyes crinkling, "Isn't that why you love me...?" he'd told her that before, it was because he couldn't figure her out that it was what made things so interesting for him. He wasn't controlling her and the surprises kept him intrigued.
On Thu, Apr 7, 2016 at 8:03 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "You never do what I think you will." He thought he could figure her out. He could read her emotions, know when she was happy and pissed off or just wanting to hide from everything. Even with as much as he had learned, he hadn't learned everything. She had just proven for the umpteenth time what humans were capable of that he wasn't---they could change.
On Thursday, April 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She leaned her head up to give him a small kisson his lips before her head flopped back on the pillow, she just looked at him with love and waited for him to find his voice.
On Thu, Apr 7, 2016 at 6:58 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He looked at her ready to rebuke her statement but he felt those warm fuzzies that ignited his insides like it was full of firewood. He couldn't respond, just looked dazed and sucked into her eyes.
On Thursday, April 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "They CAN. But Greed... you're.. IN me. In my heart and soul.. and no career can overtake that. You're my best friend, my family. And nothing else in the world, not California, or cartography or anything can ever fill that. Just like you can't give me other things... other things can't give me you." and she looked at him with her soft warm eyes. Yes, she had quite a bit of Greed in her now, but she wasn't the type to drop something for something shinier. She knew what she had and she was going to hold onto to it tight.
On Thu, Apr 7, 2016 at 6:18 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I know how those things fester and then take you over. It could easily turn into something you want more than me..." He wasn't lying. He knew where this could go.
On Thursday, April 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She smacked him again, "So. What." she said and nudged his nose with hers, "The fact I won't be here forever doesn't mean I will ever stop wanting you. I'll always want you most. And then I'll want other things. You're Greed, you can feel these things... but you're lying right now saying I want this more than you. And you promised me you wouldn't lie to me."
On Thu, Apr 7, 2016 at 5:34 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Bevause I think there's something you want more than me. Because you won't be here forever..." And he got grumpy and sad because he didn't want to even think about that. There were days for being a sad depressed lump. That wasn't today damnit!
On Thursday, April 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She laughed, cause he was being so nuts, "Okay, and there are things I can't give you, so? But why are you so grumbly about being my main desire?" and she wrapped her legs around his, not that she needed to hold him captive.
On Thu, Apr 7, 2016 at 4:22 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Greed bit his lip, reacting childishly to something he wasn't so sure he could admit. "But just like your father, there are things I will never be able to give you." When she stared through him in a persistent way he caved, he just didn't sound thrilled when he said it. "There's nothing more you want than me..." Grumble.
On Thursday, April 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She poked his nose again, "Fine, it's tasty and amazing, but there is nothing more I want than you." she looked him in the eye, "I need you to repeat that." she was not moving ahead in this conversation until he acknowledged that he was her #1 desire.
On Thu, Apr 7, 2016 at 4:13 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I have checked my Greed radar, do you know how tasty it was to feel that radiates from you? God it was amazing." She needed to remember this was part of the package of all the things he devoured when it came to people's wants and needs and desires, it was an addiction for him.
On Thursday, April 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: He got drunk off her wanting something.. the dope. She scowled at what he said and poked him in the nose with her finger, keeping it pressed into his crooked spot, "I have never wanted anything in this life more than you so check your Greed radar again, Avaritia." yeah, she wanted to be something in life but she wouldn't let him say it was what she wanted most, it just wasn't true.
On Thu, Apr 7, 2016 at 3:53 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I was high off your ambition. I would have said anything." It was true. He'd been so involved with feeding off her avarice for her own stamp in life, he wanted her to have it. "You wanted it more than you've ever wanted me. I leached onto that like it was my lifeline. I couldn't help myself. "
On Thursday, April 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She gave him a look and smacked his behind, "Oh no you don't, don't try to wriggle out of it and be like 'oh i thought you meant two hours'. I asked you point blank about two years and you said yes. You wanted me to move to California for two years and take my dad with me."
On Thu, Apr 7, 2016 at 3:29 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I didn't realize you meant two whole years. You're just joking right?" She wasn't and he was worried now he's completely fucked up in letting her ambitions take hold.
On Thursday, April 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She smiled a tiny bit, her arms finally going around his big fat butt that was on top of her, "Okay... maybe just for a little while. But you know this is very very strange since right now you can't seem to leave me and last night you were ready to buy me a plane ticket."
On Thu, Apr 7, 2016 at 2:51 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I want to be hungover and just snuggle and not be so drugged up I can't think." Dead zones took it out of him. He didn't want to drive. He just wanted to hibernate in his apartment surrounded by the things he loved most. Was that a terrible thing to want?
On Thursday, April 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She raised her brows again, "You don't want to go to Madison?" she put a hand on his forehead, "Are you feeling okay? You don't want work or sex.... you just want to lay in bed with me?" it was something she would love to do but she didn't think he would, not at his apartment, not on a workday.
On Thu, Apr 7, 2016 at 12:51 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I'm feeling groggy, let me stay." He snuggled up against her as if she were just a big pillow for him to collapse upon.
On Thursday, April 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She was hesitant to accept this, it was so not... he loved work. "Yeah... but you never miss work. Ever. Unless it's for Madison... did you want to go there?" it would take a few hours and they'd be tired and probably sleep when they got there. She was trying to figure this out.
On Thu, Apr 7, 2016 at 12:33 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He huffed with a sleepy groan. "I just wanna stay in, I wanna stay in bed and make you squeal again and again and again." He grinned with that smile of a hungry wolf. It wasn't sex, but it was still pretty damn good and that's all he wanted right now. To feel like a normal couple that could play and have fun. He was still getting er his Sin hangover.
On Thursday, April 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She raised her brows as he squished her under him. That was a seriously tempting offer, one that was hard to refuse. And she had to ask, "You? Play hooky from work?" that was almost like him skipping church, it barely ever happened. They weren't even in Madison so its not like they could have sex.
On Thu, Apr 7, 2016 at 11:35 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Did he have to do what he did again? He would if it got her to talk again. He rolled over (the sheet still between them), his bare butt showing as he bit her nose. "Stay with me today. Let's just endulge in each other and stay here." Couldn't he hibernate with her for a bit longer?
On Thursday, April 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She sat up and frowned at him, "Greed, not everything needs to have a reason. You... touched me last night. I wanted to this morning. So I did." she stretched her arms over her head, her greed shirt rising to show her stomach. She didn't want to talk to her dad about california. She didn't want to do anything. ugh.
On Thu, Apr 7, 2016 at 10:04 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "You don't even want to tell me why you wanted to do that?" He kissed the air as she moved away from him. He wasn't going to go in today. Couldn't they just stay and endulge on each other?
On Thursday, April 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: And even tho Zoe had wanted to talk about the night before, and had a zillion questions, fears and disgust and sorrow, she found she didn't want to talk about it at all. She kissed his nose, "That I'm gonna be late for work." and then she moved to get up.
On Thu, Apr 7, 2016 at 9:50 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Because I know you, and there are a million things swimming in your head I need to fish out. So..." He gave her another spine tingling kiss. "What are you trying to tell me?"
On Thursday, April 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: After the kiss she said, "Can't I just do something for you without there needing to be a reason?" she hadn't done it with any real reason in mind even tho a lot of things were motivating her actions without her even realizing it.
On Thu, Apr 7, 2016 at 9:35 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He took his hand and cupped her jaw to draw her in so he could taste those sweet lips. His bright blue eyes looked at her a little dazed and happy. What had that been for? "I get the feeling you were trying to tell me something wth that...?" Was his senses wrong?
On Thursday, April 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She was amused when he just took all of her fingers in his mouth to taste himself. She'd never known a guy to do that. She was still on the quiet side but she knew him gesturing for her to come closer was his way of trying to take the reins again. But she obliged and sccooted closer til her nose was practically touching his.
On Thu, Apr 7, 2016 at 7:13 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He was not squeamish when it came to much of anything, especially this stuff. He grabbed her hand and put her fingers in his mouth, with raised brows once he pulled her fingers out. "It is salty..." He then curled his finger for her to come closer. He wanted a kiss.
On Thursday, April 7, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Her tongue came out and slowly wiped across her bottom lip and then curled up as it continued the journey and went across her top lip, "Salty... and a little bitter.. but like... dark chocolate." which people loved to eat but it wasn't the sweetest, it had a kick to it. She raised her fingers to his lips to see if he wanted to taste himself. She thought it curious that he tasted a little different each time but still had the same base.
On Wed, Apr 6, 2016 at 8:44 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He took slow in and out breathes and looked over just in time to see her sticky hand sneak out and to her lips. He gave her a pleased smirk. "Tell me,how do I taste?" He licked his lips, excited to she actually wanted to taste. She definitely had turned into a little sex kitten and by God he loved it.
On Wednesday, April 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She got an extra curse word, bonus. She still didn't say anything, just watched him recover. This part was nice too. She brought her hand out from under the covers, it was kinda sticky of course. She just looked at it for a moment and then slowly wiped it across her lips, the tip of her middle finger catching on the edge of her bottom lip and pulling it down for half a second.
On Wed, Apr 6, 2016 at 8:11 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Every time she did that (whether in sex with her or these happy moments) he swore he was one step closer to floating in heaven. Clearly God had knew what he was doing when he'd made this a thing. The Stars floating over his head were spinning around and around even when he opened his eyes. She'd tackled him for a kiss and he had to take a moment to catch his breath. "Shit!" That had been one of the best ways to wake up.
On Wednesday, April 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: The cursing was one of her favorite parts, it was when he really got into it and not that he would fake anything with her (he was never shy in telling her what did and did not feel good). When he exploded (into her hand) she leaned down and gave him a sweet kiss on his bruised lips before settling back on the pillow on her side, watching him.
On Wed, Apr 6, 2016 at 8:03 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Shit...shit...." He kept wetting his lips, not knowing what to anticipate with her, but good lord----his breath was shallow, and he actually felt his lip trembling. And when she got him closer he kept cursing, a tradition that she knew meant he was into it. His brows tensed as he reached that climatic point (a lot quicker than she had) and threw out a shuttered "fuck", as she'd managed to take his voice again. He tried to say something else, but his voice cracked into a little squeak as she made that last squeeze and she'd know she had made him literally explode from the inside out. Damn her. That had definitely made him break out in a sweat.
On Wednesday, April 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She moved her hand down, squeezing his nuts for a moment before going back to the motion, her face turning pink at the noises he made as she led him into his orgasm. All the while she still watched him, the way his long lashes sat on his stubble covered cheeks, the way his fat bottom lip was glistening. She thought to herslef that she was gonna kiss him when he was done.
On Wed, Apr 6, 2016 at 7:48 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: She wasn't the mess she'd been that first time. She was more fluent and smooth with her motions. He was t even thinking of a recipricant action to what he'd done last night. He didn't even know to expect this. It was almost as if she were trying to tell him something with it.
He bit down on his lower lip, showing the teeth indentation when he released it. Eventually, Greed found his voice again and it was as loud as it ever was.
On Wednesday, April 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Zoe was so deep in her own head as she watched him. She could see why he liked watching her when he made her orgasm, it was beautiful. It was a thrill to know those looks, those sounds, all because of her. She kept a steady rhythm with her hand like he'd taught her when she first tried and so badly messed up. But she wondered, did she not do it enough? Did he want someone else to touch him?
On Wed, Apr 6, 2016 at 7:34 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote: Greed wet his lips as he felt her tackle this like a pro. The first time she ever did that she seemed more squeamish. He couldn't even get one clear thought in his brain to answer. She'd ripped the vocal chords out as her fingers worked a little magic.
On Wednesday, April 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "Well you brought it up..." she said and spread her fingers so they were long and traveled up the tent pole, curling around as they neared the top. She couldn't see it (which is probably partly why she could be so bold), but she could certain feel it. And she actually liked the way his felt as opposed to other boys who she'd touched.
On Wed, Apr 6, 2016 at 6:55 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote: He closed his eyes again, feeling his face flush just a little. "I don't know---" she was making him lose his train of thought. He'd had a point to make and now he's just let it fly away. He didn't know what she wanted more, talking or her hand. She had his breath in his throat.
On Wednesday, April 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She made a face, "Why would.. how does stretching your ass have anything to do with it?" her fingers going a bit further down till they made contact. She knew what she was doing and she just wanted to give back what he gave her the night before. Even if she was still depressed but he was saying such weird things... she wanted to talk but she also wanted to just be close to him.
On Wed, Apr 6, 2016 at 6:41 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "If it's a choice between you leaving and stretching my ass---I'll stretch my---" and his breath hitched when she decided to take a detour with her hand. She wasn't even completely down the path, she was hovering at the crossroads right now. He looked over at her, but she sat there as if completely nonchalant of where her hand was going.
On Wednesday, April 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She wrinkled her nose, "You want me to use a butt plug on you?" she was getting confused. She scooted closer to him and slipped her hand under the covers and the tips of her fingers grazed his abdomen, dangerously close to the hot zone.
On Wed, Apr 6, 2016 at 6:16 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "No way. Never. Not two years." What had he agreed to? "I'd rather agree to a butt plug then you leaving me." He was off the high, and now waking up to what he'd been drugged with. Her ambition. Which was stronger than it was for him and it felt like the bed just fell out from under him. He looked down when he saw her eyes gravitate to his lap. So he had gone camping and there wasn't even a fire to warm him up.
On Wednesday, April 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "You said two." she squirmed at his poke and then shuffled her head to the side so she looked at him with hair falling in her eyes. She poked his arm and said, "You're going camping." referring to the magically lifted up sheets.
On Wed, Apr 6, 2016 at 5:18 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He rubbed his eyes, adjusting to light trying to peek into his room from the blinds. "A year? Did we discuss a year?" He flopped his head to the side as she giggled like a hyena. "What's so funny." He poked her in the arm with his finger.
On Wednesday, April 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "I'm hoping its not more than one..." tho she didn't think she wanted to be away from him for even that long. And what would happen to her apartment? She turned once he loosened his hold and looked at him with her sleepy brown eyes and then half buried her face in the pillow to hide her giggles as he'd created a tent.
On Wed, Apr 6, 2016 at 3:50 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Two years that ludicrous." He hummed into the pillow. He loosened his grip so that he flopped on his back and tried to squint his eyes open. With a big yawn, the sleepyhead looked at his pretty little fluffy seal, and the morning wood just rose a bit more under the sheets.
On Wednesday, April 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She blinked, "How asleep are you still?" she tried to move to look at him but could only turn her head a little, "Do you remember last night? When you practically shoved me out the door to move to California for two years? And told me I should take my dad?"
On Wed, Apr 6, 2016 at 3:12 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "You keep rubbing your butt on me and you're going to get more than a smack." He didn't want to wake up. What was wrong with her? She was being delusional. "You're not moving to California. What the hell are you talking about?"
On Wednesday, April 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She jumped at his butt smack and just ground her butt against him again in retaliation. She laughed with a whine, "Greeeed I'm gonna get FIRED and I haven't looked into California properly yet but Im pretty sure it's gonna cost money so ya know, kinda need the job.."
On Wed, Apr 6, 2016 at 3:08 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Yessssss." He smacked her butt. "You're not going anywhere" he mumbled into the pillow so she'd keep the warmth and not let in a draft.
On Wednesday, April 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She grinned, "I didn't say I didn't enjoy it...." she frowned, "I've seen you go to work before when you were up till 4 in the morning with pot and booze. And you're hungover now?" she wriggled again, "Alright, well let ME get up, otherwise I'll be late."
On Wed, Apr 6, 2016 at 2:19 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "You enjoyed every minute of that, don't lie." There was something incredibly sexy about him in wolf mode and she loved it. He knew without a doubt. "Mmmmmm. I'm hungover, let me sleep."
On Wednesday, April 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She grinned, "And whose fault is that... you ripped them off." and she reached under the covers to smack his hip. She wasn't too worried, she had clothes and undies here at his place so it wasn't like she was gonna go to work commando. She didn't want to move tho, "You're gonna be late..." she said in a warning tone and she knew he hated that.
On Wed, Apr 6, 2016 at 2:14 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote: "Mmmhhhmmmm..." He hadn't even opened his eyes yet, but little Greed was wide awake. "You don't have any panties on..." He mumbled.
On Wednesday, April 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Her eyes opened when she felt something. She wrinkled her nose and gave a sleepy laugh that was combined with a groan, "Greed..... is that you saying good morning against my leg..." her voice totally still slurred with sleep.
On Wed, Apr 6, 2016 at 1:58 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Her rubbing only made him even happier, and the grin on his face spread. She was so warm, inviting, smelled amazing and he was naked. Nothing else mattered.
On Wednesday, April 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: He was practically vibrating against her and she murmured as she wriggled a little, her butt rubbing against his crotch, "Greed... it's time to wake up. We have work... I think. What day is it..." she was so exhausted from their conversation and her own emotions. "Ugh, not that it matters." she was gonna get fired or quit soon.
On Wed, Apr 6, 2016 at 11:40 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He was the hungry bear and she was his prey tut he'd sunk his teeth in. He hummed in his sleep but it sounded more like a growl. The hungry bear hadn't woken up yet.
On Wednesday, April 6, 2016, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Zoe squeaked in her sleep as Greed cuddled her like King Kong. She woke up for half a second and then went right back to sleep with a sigh. She put an arm over his joint ones around her and somewhere in her brain wondered how it was so easy for him to give all of this up. Going to California would be for HER and she didn't even want to leave him.
On Wed, Apr 6, 2016 at 10:57 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote: The morning after Greed was settled in his bed with a hangover. All the tingly feelings had died down and he wasn't sure what he'd agreed to just yet. His brain was still in a fog, not yet clawing for air. He could have agreed to a butt plug for all he knew until his brain had fallen from the delusions and fumes of well....himself. He snuggled up to Zoe with his arms so tight around her she might pop.