Jesse sighed, then shrugged. "The first couple years sucked, but I got through it OK. Once I moved up here, things got about as stable as they were going to. And yeah, I thought about that too. He was a mean bastard."
He looked over at Nicholas and smiled faintly, but the expression slid off his face as he watched Adrian's reaction. "What?" he asked, very confused. "Ade, what's wrong?"