Zoe (history_repeats) wrote in nevermore_logs, @ 2014-11-02 11:53:00 |
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Entry tags: | greed, zoe hansen |
WHO: Zoe & Greed w/ Digger
WHEN: October 27 [Backdated]
WHERE: Zoe's and Greed's apartment, bar, office
WHAT: Bar fight
WARNING: Is that a broom in the closet or are you just happy to see me
Note: The log reads backwards
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 5:23 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Finally she settled down and he could breathe again. If she had continued they may have had a problem. He slept easier once her breathing simmered to a soft mirror of his own. His arms never left her until morning.
On Sep 3, 2014 6:46 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Mmm?" was all she hummed out and then she took a deep breath and let it go, falling asleep again, not really paying attention. Her hand was still on his stomach but wasn't moving. She just rose and fell with every breath he took since she was burrowed into his side, partly on his chest, letting his heartbeat soothe her.
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 3:39 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
His mind instantly was all over her but he wasn't sure where he was supposed to go here. If he did something while she was basically sleepwalking all over him hed be hounded for doing inappropriate things. "Zoe..." he tried to call out in a pitiful voice. He was ready to just makeout right now but...it would undo everything he'd just accomplished and he'd worked damn hard to get back on solid ground.
On Sep 3, 2014 5:54 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Her hand that was on his chest moved down and under his tank top, her fingers curling around his chest hair and then slowly sliding down his happy trail and circling around his belly button as another small kiss landed on his neck.
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 2:50 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
She surprised him and easily pulled him out of sleep. He just paused, not moving at all really unsure of what to do. Kissing would qualify as copping a feel he was sure.
On Sep 3, 2014 5:27 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She mumbled something and rubbed her feet against him as she nuzzled her face into his neck and felt his scratchy scruff. It made her smile even in her sleep and she kissed his jaw and then his chin to express how she liked it.
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 1:57 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Her feet were ice, he had to pull the comforter up over them and squish her tighter against him. All her bits were perfectly settled against his squishy bits. It was all sorts of comfortable...
On Sep 3, 2014 3:53 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Her leg went between his and her feet were cold and they rubbed up against his to get warm. She'd never been a cuddly sleeper until she got with him and it was instinct to want to be with him.
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 12:45 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He shifted from side to side for a while, finally in a position he could try to sleep in when he felt her nudging into him. Was it really him touching her when she was the one snuggled in his arms?
On Sep 3, 2014 3:31 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
He had turned her body into goo and he was there with her so she fell asleep soon after her head hit the pillow. But as much as her mind and heart could come up with reasons to prevent herself from touching him... her body didn't care and it wouldn't take long for her to fidget and turn and try to snuggle into his side.
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 12:26 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
His hands slid down from her shoulders, perhaps a bit disappointed. He couldn't hide that. He wasn't sure now if he just backed up against the corner or turned his back. It was going to be tricky just getting into a position that didn't have him around her.
On Sep 3, 2014 3:14 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She wanted him. She wanted more. But she wasn't willing to mess with his head and his heart. She wasn't going to take him back and giving in to sexual needs would be like saying it was all okay when it wasn't. She closed her eyes at his gentle kiss on the cheek and gave him an equal one on his cheek, "Thank you... for the massage." even tho she meant for more than that.
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 12:10 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He grumbled under his breath. It wouldn't be the first time he went too bed more than a little frustrated these days. He wanted that kiss, he could see her begging for it, but instead of slopping one all over her mouth, he gave her a gentle kiss on the cheek.
On Sep 3, 2014 2:48 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She sighed because she loved him more than she was horny for him. She took her hand away and turned a little to touch his cheek, "Maybe we should just sleep... I'd hate to be accused of being a tease." last time she'd teased him a little, he had gotten very upset. And tho there was desire in her eyes, she didn't want to play with him and ruin what they had accomplished so far.
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 11:45 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Even if situations were compromised..." He hated saying that...but this might play out better if he stuck to her plan. Bait her more than she was baiting him.
On Sep 3, 2014 2:37 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
See, how did he like it when it was done to him. She asked innocently, "Even if...?" as if to encourage him to finish his thought. She didn't remove or move her hand, it just sat there.
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 11:36 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He twitched a little feeling without a doubt that she was being a horny jerk right now. So was he, but that wasn't the point. His breath shuttered not stopping or moving his hands. "Even....if..." God he couldn't think.
On Sep 3, 2014 2:29 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"I don't know... something that..." her hand went behind her and rested on his thigh, "...might make you think that the deal was in jeopardy...."
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 11:27 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Do something like what?" He paused a moment than quickly went back to his massage.
On Sep 3, 2014 2:24 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She winced and wondered if he was trying to bait her... he couldn't be, could he? She decided to test it and said carefully, "So..... if hypothetically I were to do something to you.... you still wouldn't do anything, because of the deal, right?" it was a good thing she couldn't see his face.
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 11:22 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"That's what I agreed to do I could sleep here tonight, so yes, that's exactly what im saying..." He leaned in again, pressing his thumbs back into the knots on her shoulders, but he did nothing more. She was sexually tense, so this was only elevating her wants.
On Sep 3, 2014 2:04 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Are you saying you'd stick..." her voice trailed off when she felt his breath on her ear and shook her head as if to clear the fog he blew into her brain, "...to the deal?" she didn't say it but she was thinking of how they normally sealed deals and they hadn't this time.
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 11:02 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
"That was the deal right? No doing things more than sleep?" He leaned in so his breath just brushed past her ear. Maybe he was seducing her just a little bit. But he'd learned letting her come to him rewarded him more. He was just pushing it along...
On Sep 3, 2014 1:59 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Are you saying you're not?" she countered, a little amused. True, some of her tensions he could not work out with just his hands but she wasn't the type of person to admit it. Not flat out anyway. He had given her a hell of a kiss at the restaurant and it had woken up her insides like they were doused in caffeine.
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 10:57 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
"What you think I'm gonna cop a feel while you're asleep." The spot started to ease it's way out, just one movement at a time. It wouldn't ease all her tense muscles, he had a feeling she was tense for more than one reason.
On Sep 3, 2014 1:04 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"I do..." she wanted sex more but she wasn't gonna say it. She flinched as he worked on the tension and said, "But I don't want you to take advantage of me if I lie down." she looked at him over her shoulder, sticking out her tongue.
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 10:02 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Don't you want sleep?" He did because she'd have to curl up against him, it was the only way she would fall asleep. He moved down her shoulders again and towards her shoulder blades where he pressed a little more firmly into the tense ball on muscle he could feel under his thumb pads.
On Sep 3, 2014 12:06 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She made a small noise when he worked on the spot and said, "Because you're a jerk.... and make me..... sleepy." among other things. Things that would complicate them even more.
On Wed, Sep 3, 2014 at 6:31 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Why?" He kneeded his thumbs into a tight spot on her neck so she couldn't lift her head to complain.
On Sep 2, 2014 10:08 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She was sorta half there, half in la la land as he worked his magic with his fingers. He always did have great hands. "Okay... you're gonna have to stop...." she said in a slightly slurred voice when she felt him lean in a little. He was scrambling her brains and she was feeling things she shouldn't.
On Tue, Sep 2, 2014 at 7:06 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed liked the sounds she made, so he kept putting his fingers to work so she'd make more. He might have leaned in to smell the coconut in her hair but he did not attempt anything more than making her putty.
On Sep 2, 2014 9:09 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe closed her eyes and as he worked harder and started on her scalp, she let out a sound that was almost like a low humming purr. She obviously didn't know she made it because she didn't try to cover it up or excuse it.
On Tue, Sep 2, 2014 at 6:05 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He kneeded his fingers deep into her tense muscles. It was like hitting a brick wall, he hand to work out all the kinks. His thumbs pressed into her neck, slowly making his way into her scalp to turn her to goo.
On Sep 2, 2014 4:11 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She hissed a little with a wince because her muscles were incredibly tight, "Don't act like I'm crazy...I know you..." and she waggled her a finger but her head bent forward as she started to relax in his hands.
On Tue, Sep 2, 2014 at 1:07 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He put up his hands in defense. "I got it!" He knew massages were good and he did them to make her melt. So, he crawled up behind her and started the process, rubbing in the lotion on her shoulders and letting it marinate into her skin.
On Sep 2, 2014 4:03 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She still seemed unsure, "Okay..." like it was some trap. She moved so he could touch her but held up another finger, "But if you get mad or upset because I don't do something for you, you are out, okay?" she was not going through that again.
On Tue, Sep 2, 2014 at 1:01 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Cause you like it? I like seeing you happy..." had she forgotten that? Was he that much a dick that she tought he didn't care at all about being happy?
On Sep 2, 2014 3:57 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She gave him a confused look, "How does that benefit you?" not really getting it.
On Tue, Sep 2, 2014 at 12:49 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Making you feel good?" He had wanted that for a long time, even when he was pushing Chance on her. He'd done it in his head for her happiness.
On Sep 2, 2014 3:24 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She gave him a skeptical look, "And there's nothing in it for you?" he was not going to treat her like she was crazy when that had been the way he'd been behaving.
On Tue, Sep 2, 2014 at 12:22 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Because you'd like it?" He held his hands out in confusion. What was bad about doing something she'd like?
On Sep 2, 2014 3:10 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She raised a brow when he said he wasn't thinking about sex and then smiled when he admitted he was. She swatted his hand away and asked, "Then why are you doing it?"
On Tue, Sep 2, 2014 at 12:06 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I'm not even thinking about sex....well maybe but that's not why I'm doing this." He pour another dob on the other shoulder.
On Sep 2, 2014 3:01 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She gave him an amused look, "Really,so you're--" she swatted his hand away, "You're doing this just to help me? You're not doing it so I'll touch you or kiss you or something?" his stunt with dinner had really made her not trust his intentions anymore.
On Tue, Sep 2, 2014 at 11:59 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Right I could help. Like for the places you can't reach..." And he put a dob on her shoulders that he could smooth our later. He knew how to play abs bend the rules.
On Sep 2, 2014 2:56 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She smacked at his arm, getting lotion on him, "Yes, I was, what are you doing?" she held up a finger, "And don't try to act innocent with me." she wasn't mad or upset, just wondering what he was up to.
On Tue, Sep 2, 2014 at 11:54 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I thought you were doing the moisturize thing?" He was just helping. This wasn't making out, sex or anything like. So he was allowed right?
On Sep 2, 2014 1:49 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She eyed him as he promised and then handed him the lotion assuming he was going to use it on himself so was surprised when he put it on her arms, "Hey! What're you doing?"
On Tue, Sep 2, 2014 at 10:48 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I won't assume." He made another criss cross with his finger over his chest before bouncing onto the bed. He held his hand out for the lotion. He took a big gob but rubbed it over her arms.
On Sep 2, 2014 11:48 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She put the bear to the side and gave Greed a look, "you will not assume you're entitled to anything more." which was different but she scooted so he could get in, not that there was much place to scoot to.
On Tue, Sep 2, 2014 at 5:53 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I will not assume I get anything more than sleep." He pushed his brows up in the 'am I done now?' look. He was getting jealous of that zombie bear for getting the pass go already.
On Sep 2, 2014 12:31 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She raised her brows, "And you will not assume...." she trailed off, she wanted him to say that part. The not getting mad was part of it but he needed to understand she didn't owe him physical anything.
On Mon, Sep 1, 2014 at 9:29 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He could have been reciting the pledge of allegiance, she sounded that serious. So, he repeated her words. "I won't get mad if I get no more than sleep."
On Sep 2, 2014 12:19 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She swiped the bear and hugged it instead of her knees. She rested her chin on its gross green head and her big brown eyes stared at Greed, "And." he wasn't getting in without saying all of it.
On Mon, Sep 1, 2014 at 9:14 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"If I get in this bed it's not an all access pass..." He tossed the bear up on the bed first to get his pass go card. That bed was small, no matter what she'd be cuddled up to him.
On Sep 1, 2014 11:25 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She drew her knees to her chest and hugged them, resting her chin on top, her short hair falling across her cheeks, "I want you to say the words." it was something familiar, even before, Zoe most of the time got Greed to say the words so they would stick and he couldn't pull some technicality card if he messed up.
On Mon, Sep 1, 2014 at 8:23 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He weighed his options. At least this way he wouldn't be alone. He crossed his heart with his finger. "Alright I can go with that." It was that or kissing his bedsheets. He stood there dangling his gloomy bear from his hand. Samson eyed it like a chew toy.
On Sep 1, 2014 10:14 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She put the cream down and raised her right hand and made him gesture to do the same, "You are vowing that if I let you in this bed you will not take it for granted as an all access pass every night. And you will not assume you are entitled to anything hence not get mad if you don't get more than just sleep. If you can promise that then maybe I wouldn't be opposed to letting you in." they had made progress and she wasn't going to let him muck it up.
On Mon, Sep 1, 2014 at 7:10 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He paused with a twisted face. The dog made it up there without a problem, why was he denied? "What am I vowing?"
On Sep 1, 2014 9:17 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
He looked so pathetic (and hot) standing there with a teddy bear and a sad face. She sighed as he kept walking in the room as if he expected her to say yes, "Stop." she waited till he did and she looked at him, "First, you need to agree to take a vow." Sammy was looking for Greed and he came running in, smacking into his leg and then jumping up on the bed and curling up at the foot of it, he didn't need permission, he was adorable.
On Mon, Sep 1, 2014 at 6:15 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"The bed..." He shuffled in one step at a time so by the time she agreed he'd already be on it. Hanging from his hands was a green bear that looked as crazed as him.
Zoe looked up and blinked and then looked to where he was pointing but since she was ON the bed, she was confused. She furrowed a brow and held up the pot of cream, "Lotion?" misunderstanding and thinking he wanted to moisturize.
On Mon, Sep 1, 2014 at 5:52 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
It was a short exit abd a long ride home. He'd been thrilled to finally see the door instead of listening to the static between them in the car. Samson cuddled against Greed while the Sin changed out of his work clothes to something more comfortable. He left his door open but Zoe never followed. When he dragged to her door he stood there just watching her later herself in cream. "Can I?" He asked in a pitiful voice pointing to her bed.
On Sep 1, 2014 8:45 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe wouldn't tell him it was okay or going to be okay. She didn't know herself. So she didn't say anything. When he was ready, they left the closet and Digger thought it was a good thing they were in there but one look at Greed's face told another story. Zoe made their excuses and said Greed didn't feel well so they were gonna head out and Digger patted Greed's back as they walked by. They went home and Samson was thrilled to see them, running in circles and into Greed's leg, whining and trying to snuggle him when he sensed his friend was sad. Zoe wore her plaid PJ bottoms and a cami shirt as she pulled back the covers and flopped down. She picked up some cream and leaned her back against the wall as she massaged her hands with it.
On Mon, Sep 1, 2014 at 5:39 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He only loosened up when he wasn't afraid she was going to leave him there. He'd just gotten socked in the gut and he was still recovering. At her little kiss he was still hiccuping through those last sobs. He'd been burnt, abd he wanted that console that it was gonna be ok.
On Sep 1, 2014 8:33 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She was surprised and opened her eyes at the words. Sorry was sometimes more difficult for him to say than words of love. Sorry meant remorse, regret, guilt, shame.... and understanding of what he put her through. She wouldn't say it was okay. It wasn't. She wouldn't say she forgave him. Because she didn't. Not yet. But it was a step. She didn't know a step to where but it was still a step. She just pressed her lips to the side of his mouth, keeping them firmly there for a couple of seconds before resting her cheek against his. There was nothing romantic about it, it was a small gesture, some relief and gratitude that he was starting to really understand and own up to what he did.
On Mon, Sep 1, 2014 at 5:29 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
She hadn't had this. When he'd broken her she hadn't had him or anyone. She'd just had the company of herself. At least right now he had her or he might just crumple into a ball. "I'm sorry..." he said trying to get his breath. He was still choking down sobs and she knew he would never admit that lightly.
On Sep 1, 2014 8:09 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She let him crush her even when it felt like he was going to bruise her ribs. He was in a place Zoe had been in for months, she was better now but when it first hit, man she was in the same mess and despite all the pain he caused her, she wouldn't wish it on anyone so continued to just hold him for as long as he needed.
On Mon, Sep 1, 2014 at 5:05 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
He didn't want to feel that kind of pain, he'd known it was going to be this intense shroud over him that was hard to bounce back from. It was dark, it was gloomy and he didn't like being there.
He clung to her so tight that there was probably no air in her lungs, that gross sobbing with hiccups and hitched breath only making him seem like a two year old.
On Sep 1, 2014 7:50 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She had tears in her own eyes but she didn't bring attention to them, just held him tight as he cried. For the first time since he'd come back, she really felt his remorse for what he did. She kissed his wet cheek a couple of times before her nose rested against his.
On Mon, Sep 1, 2014 at 4:47 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
Like a child he didn't know how to take the pain. It just spilled out and overwhelmed him, tears and all. It was perhaps a bit overdramatic, but Greed was dramatic in all functions, this was no different. His whole body was a little warm to the touch because it was still an extreme emotion as a result of love.
On Sep 1, 2014 7:35 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She put her arms around him and hugged him tight because in a way he was like a little kid who knew you weren't supposed to touch the fire, did it anyway, and now was crying cause of the burn and regretting the action. She could barely hold it together herself and here she was being there for him.
On Mon, Sep 1, 2014 at 4:28 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"But I want to be that someone you can hold onto." He got it, he did he just didn't want this pain anymore. It was literally killing him from the inside out. "And I'm not anymore and it hurts so bad...." his voice literally crumpled as he tried to hold back the wave of emotion he couldn't contain.
On Sep 1, 2014 7:23 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
He looked in pain and she tried desperately to get him to understand, "Greed, I'm not trying to hurt you I just... I need to protect myself because I'm barely surviving right now, okay? I don't have anyone to take care of me except myself." she let her hands dropped and kissed his cheek. She didn't have Gabe, or Jonah, or her grandfather, no friends, no family, and not even Greed.
On Mon, Sep 1, 2014 at 3:04 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
It wasn't helping, he was dying and the world felt as bleak as she painted it. He needed fresh air because tge walls were closing in on him. He just knew if she ripped away from him she'd leave and he would be miserable. She wasn't going to be on his side anymore and that hurt.
On Sep 1, 2014 5:58 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She didn't want to comfort him but she really didn't know how not to. "I felt like that... when you left.. and then when you died.." he was feeling now a bit more of what she went through. "I still feel like that.." she admitted in a hushed voice. "But I wake up every day somehow.. and I breathe for some reason... and you will too." She rubbed her thumbs gently across his cheeks. She wasn't trying to hurt him or be vicious, she was just trying to protect herself.
On Mon, Sep 1, 2014 at 2:51 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
It was such a bitter pill. She had his attention, but his eyes were so scared, much like when he'd watched Josie jump over the cliff. He wasn't watching Zoe jump, but mentally she had already taken that leap. He was terrified that that sliver of thread he had attached to her was slowly fraying until there was nothing left. His face crumpled in her hands, he had tears collecting inside those lids and he couldn't control the results of this vicious attack. He was dying. That was all he could say because nothing felt worse.
On Sep 1, 2014 4:56 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She could tell he was gonna have another panic attack and she still couldn't stand to see him in pain. She put her hands on his cheeks and made him look at her, "Breathe..." she said gently, her nose to his so he could look in her eyes.
On Mon, Sep 1, 2014 at 1:50 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Suddenly it was entirely too claustrophobic in that little hallway. She kept hitting him again and again which such...devestating things that he couldn't get his breath. She was cutting off his air supply and he was drowning in his own pool.
He looked up and around frantically. He had to get out of that hallway or he was going to die of suffocation.
On Sep 1, 2014 4:44 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She raised her brows, her eyes going wide, "I'm seeing it one sided?" he really didn't get it. She lifted her hands and dropped them on his shoulders again, "It's like our relationship was this castle. This fortress. And I thought we were safe inside. And everything against us kept hammering at our walls but we were a team, we were together. But.. I felt so safe that I was staring out the window looking for danger, I never thought the castle would get destroyed from the inside. We don't have a castle anymore." to her, it was just ruins.
On Mon, Sep 1, 2014 at 1:35 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He got a moment in to squeeze out a few words, but it didn't help ease the tremble that started to hit. He was freaking out.
"Why do you always see it so one sided? The glass is half empty, not half full. I see...." his temples were pounding and he wouldn't let her go. "I mean I don't see things so bleak..." of course right now he was feeling a wave of nausea. She wanted to let go, absolutely wanted to let it all go....she dosing him with his own medicine.
On Sep 1, 2014 1:58 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She squeezed his shoulders to get him to unclench and she didn't say anything, just let her words sit with him. She'd had a while to get used to the idea, now it was his turn.
On Mon, Sep 1, 2014 at 10:54 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He felt his throat close up tightly, just rocks sitting in his windpipe to block any air from coming out. With every breath, every word that continued to come out of her mouth he thought he was going to die. He had something to throw back at her, but right now it was stuck in his throat and he wasnt sure he was going to breathe again.
On Sep 1, 2014 1:49 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Accept that maybe we don't belong together." her words were harsh but it's the conclusion she was left with. "Maybe there's a reason why the world and our families and the universe and your own body and mind doesn't want us to be together because maybe.. maybe we were always fighting a losing battle. There has to be a reason." she wasn't saying it to be hurtful but she wanted him to see that maybe they had been wrong. She thought he'd leave her one day, but not so soon. She'd been wrong.
On Mon, Sep 1, 2014 at 10:43 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I'm not trying to run, I dont know what to do!" He was inept here. Completely lost, and with every word she wad throwing him into more panic.
On Sep 1, 2014 11:36 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
He hadn't had a panic attack in a couple of weeks but she could see he was getting close to one now. But she wasn't going to let him out of this. "I'm not a broken toy that you fix. I'm a person who loved you more than anything and you let me go. And no matter how much you try to run from it, it doesn't change the fact you hurt me so so much, Greed. And I don't know if that's difficult for you because you're so protective of me usually and this time the person who did the hurting is you." and maybe that was hard for him to face.
On Mon, Sep 1, 2014 at 8:26 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
"I don't know how to fix it." He held his hands to her face to make her look at him. There was panic there she hadn't seen in a while. Sheer panic that he'd broken her so much that no matter what love wasn't going to be enough. The movies always said love was enough. So why wasn't that true?
On Sep 1, 2014 10:49 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Really? Cause you act like it wasn't a big deal and I'm being such a bitch and overreacting to the fact you shattered my heart into SO many pieces, I feel like it can't ever be put back together." and she shoved at him again, not wanting to be in his arms. His kisses and touch wouldn't make up for him not wanting to deal with what he did.
On Mon, Sep 1, 2014 at 5:26 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Don't do that. Don't push me away because I don't know what to say. I fucked up. I know I did." He wasn't sure how to get around that hurdle. He'd ripped her heart up in a way he'd never fine until that point and he wasn't sure how to fix it.
On Sep 1, 2014 1:03 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
And once again, he just fell into silence. "That's what I thought." he never had a reply to that, he always avoided it, he just... shut down any time she brought it up as if maybe if he didn't really acknowledge how he ripped out her heart and did the one thing he said he wouldn't ever do then maybe it never had happened. She shoved at his chest hard to get him off of her, he was such a prick.
On Sun, Aug 31, 2014 at 10:00 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
She kept saying that. He left her, he left her, he left. She couldn't quit hammering it into his head. Now it just rattled around looking for a place to rest, but he wouldn't let it. He knew he'd done it, he'd told her why but still itwas the white elephant in the room. She wasn't going to let that slip, and he shouldn't avoid it, but it wasn't where he wanted to go right now. So he didn't know what to say to it.
On Sep 1, 2014 12:30 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She was surprised he said the L word but she was mad too and shot back, "You also said you'd never leave me and look what happened!" if anybody could see them, fighting in an embrace, they'd think they were crazy. Which they were.
On Sun, Aug 31, 2014 at 9:12 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
"I fucking say I'm in fucking love with you and you think I'm just pissing out a line?" So he was mad and little things like covering up the L-word managed to slip and he choked on those words which had a serious aftertaste
She still wouldn't look at him and hadn't moved. She just snapped, "Great, now you know how I feel around you all the time." since she had a hard time believing anything he said anymore. Even if sometimes... like when he told her he loved her...
On Sun, Aug 31, 2014 at 7:42 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
She was lying, she had to be because she hadn't yet moved out from his arms. She would have bolted for the door already. "I don't believe you."
On Aug 31, 2014 10:02 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She looked at his sleeve and said as flatly as she could, "No, I don't feel it anymore." which was basically a lie. As much as it hurt and all the words and feelings, when he kissed her.... there was no denying what she felt from him and if it hadn't been real, she wouldn't be as moved by it as she always was.
On Sun, Aug 31, 2014 at 6:59 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
It was almost like he slammed her in the face with all his feelings and she still threw up a denial sign. She was not going to believe him. It made him want to beat his head into the wall. "It's like you hear what I say but you don't feel it anymore." It stung.
On Aug 31, 2014 9:50 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She looked away from him but didn't try to pull away for once, she was running, she was just seriously confused. He was hammering at her defenses and he was causing cracks. "We had that and you walked away from it." no, she wasn't over it. She glared at him, "I don't care if you had a new face and new body or whatever! We had it and you walked away and you'll do it again." which was something that scared her to her core. She couldn't agree to going at it again only to watch him walk away a second time. She hated people leaving her and he knew it and big fat did it anyway.
On Sun, Aug 31, 2014 at 6:45 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I want more than this. I want what we were. The titles and all. Not just the physical stuff..." she wouldn't gone him credit for his brain to be somewhere else than his dick.
On Aug 31, 2014 1:41 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
There were butterflies in her stomach and it showed how much he could make her swoon even after two years. She was still shaky in the legs so let him keep her upright as she stared at him, only blinking when he kissed her nose, "You always want this..." she said quietly. Kisses and cuddles and touching, she knew he wanted that.
On Sun, Aug 31, 2014 at 10:37 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He kissed her nose watching it turn pink. "Are you going to continue saying I dont really know what I want?" He should have pretty much silenced her doubt.
On Aug 31, 2014 10:51 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Her arms were resting against his chest and her eyes opened when he finally stopped melting her brain. She looked at him when he whispered his confession of love, his first really since he came back. She knew he did.. well, she'd been doubting it recently, so it was soothing to hear the words even if it stunned her (along with the hot kiss). But she couldn't say anything in response, he'd stolen her breath.
On Sun, Aug 31, 2014 at 7:39 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He kept her from dropping to the floor and just a sliver of tongue against her lips. She would be star struck for a few moments, but her brain would be quiet enough for him to whisper, "I heart you like a zombie does brains." It was the closest he could get to telling her his feelings.
On Aug 31, 2014 1:06 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She was surprised when he grabbed her wrist and was dragging her away, "What are you doing? Are you crazy, would you let me go you lunatic!" she ranted at him and suddenly she was slammed with a kiss that felt like a blast of heat in her stomach and a punch to her heart. It literally made her go weak in the knees, her knees buckling and she was gonna drop to the floor.
On Sat, Aug 30, 2014 at 9:59 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
It was a staring match for all of two more seconds before he just grabbed her wrist and dragged her off towards that empty hallway. Almost instantly as the door squeaked closed he grabbed her face with a kiss to sear her inside and out until her knees dropped to the floor. Then he'd sneak in to tell her what she so desperately wanted to hear.
On Aug 31, 2014 12:53 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
And perfect, he was just staring at her. She huffed out a breath, her eyes on fire as she stared right back at him. This was so pointless, he was never going to get it. She really should just leave but damnit no, he wanted to 'talk'. "Well?" she demanded but didn't really know what she was asking for.
On Sat, Aug 30, 2014 at 9:48 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Her words should have been ready to make him vomit, but instead he just got a little turned on. It was perhaps the way she said it with that raw emotion. He hadn't seen her let go with that since that kiss. So maybe it spiked his libido, but it was a lot of other things too. So he didn't answer he just stared at her, contemplating dragging her into that mini hallway that led to the backroom. Maybe it was a utility closet or an empty bathroom. Either one would give him the privacy he needed about now so she wouldn't have to ask him to repeat himself as the boys at the bar started to get rowdy.
On Aug 31, 2014 12:23 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She looked at him with her eyes big as saucers, "I'm going to strangle you!" she threw up her arms, "You think I don't know that?" she put her hands on her collarbone and snapped at him, "I'm in love with you, you IDIOT! That's not the issue here!" she smacked her hands on the table.
On Sat, Aug 30, 2014 at 9:20 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I talk about that damn kiss because its whatever built up in you to do it. It wasn't just hormones." That was what he wanted her to admit. To not think that every thing he did was for a return profit. He'd shown her that but she still ignored it.
On Aug 30, 2014 10:23 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Something serious?" she looked at him in disbelief, "When I asked what you wanted, you wanted to talk about a kiss. Then you said 'whatever this is'. Not ONCE have I heard you say you want a relationship, Greed. You are so... so... obsessed with trying to get me back, I don't think you even know why anymore. All I am is this shiny toaster." that's how he had been making her feel. Any time he showed her some love and emotion, it was always ruined by hormones and his own lost mind and heart.
On Sat, Aug 30, 2014 at 7:04 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Don't do that! Whenever I want something serious you brush me off. You make me think about it when I don't want to think. I've had enough time thinking about it! What do you want me to do?" This brick wall of hers was really starting to hurt.
On Aug 30, 2014 5:44 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She gave him a look, "Whatever this is?" she looked hurt. "I know you have this fear of being on your own, Greed... and trust me, I get it." since she had the same fear, "But you can't even tell me what you want. This isn't fair to either of us. Are you really okay with just 'whatever this is'? You actually said 'whether its us'." and that scared her. She stared at him as if she was still unsure of who he was, because she was. "Maybe you need some time alone...." he'd done that before, any time he was thinking of committing to her, he always had to take a step back. And it sucked, but it was what he did. Right now though, he just seemed like he rather have her and not care about the details and she didn't like that.
On Sat, Aug 30, 2014 at 2:41 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Zoe I need you to be in on this with me whatever it is. Whether its us or whatever this is. Just don't leave me on my own..." he wasn't sure what he was really talking about. He just needed her to be on board.
On Aug 30, 2014 9:48 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She looked... disappointed that that's what he wanted to talk about. She loooked to the side and shook her head a little, like really, what did she expect. She looked back at him, "Is that what has your panties twisted? Why don't you book a flight to Kansas or Lithuania, can flush it out of our systems. Or you know, let's go home right now and you can just do whatever you want. Whenever you want. As long as we never have to talk about it again." all he cared about was the physical and her being there.
On Sat, Aug 30, 2014 at 6:18 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Are you trying to say it was a fluke or something stupid like that? Because it will happen again." She was horny, he was horny, they would have another episodede like that again. Hormones would run this gig not them, and hormones could get a little crazy. They needed to be in this together and on the same page, because she could only pent up energy for so long, especially being around the Sin of greed.
On Aug 29, 2014 10:46 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She still had pink in her cheeks and gestured with her hands, "I'm not ignoring it. It happened. We kissed. What of it?"
On Fri, Aug 29, 2014 at 7:39 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Why do you chose to ignore it? Because I dont know about you but that hickey on your neck proves otherwise." It wasn't that intense because they stopped before anything got out if hand.
On Aug 29, 2014 9:40 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Her face felt hot, especially when he got kinda explicit. She was uncomfortable and really should have known that he'd bring it up but okay, she could do this. She looked to the left and asked, "Fine. What about it? Ask questions and I'll answer." that seemed like a better way to do it.
On Fri, Aug 29, 2014 at 6:37 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"You wont even talk about the fact we made out on my desk.....I work there and all I can think about is that almost office fantasy that ended with you in tears. Yes," he folded his hands together once he took his seat, "can we talk about that?"
On Aug 29, 2014 8:09 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe was not amused. She shoved Greed into the chair and then sat in the one across from him. She ignored his quip and stared at him, "You wanted to talk. So let's talk. What do you want." she was cutting straight to it and she was dead serious.
On Fri, Aug 29, 2014 at 5:07 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Digger might have been a little turned on when Zoe slid by him to get to Greed. He couldn't admit that or he would be chewed up and spit out. Greed just looked over his shoulder with a shit-eating grin arty Digger as he had his own little corner with Zoe. The problem was he wasn't going to be able to use his mouth to ease into this, not in the more physical way at least. She was at least not walking out the door.
He gave Zoe the smug face. "So, do I have to pay him for that session?" Because Digger had lasted all of two minutes.
On Aug 29, 2014 2:41 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She gave him a look of disbelief and then literally climbed into Digger's lap and shoved Greed out of the booth so her butt plopped to where he was sitting. She looked over her shoulder at Digger, "I adore you but this is weird. If we need you, we're gonna call for you, okay? We're gonna be right over there." and she pointed at an empty small table with two chairs. She grabbed Greed's arm and said, "You wanna talk? Then let's talk." but they were gonna do it in private. Well. They were gonna try first before they dragged poor Digger into it.
On Thu, Aug 28, 2014 at 11:16 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"It seems the only way you'll talk to me. Otherwise we have this awkward thing between us." Greed really wanted her to pay attention to him instead of shoving away every step they managed to make.
On Aug 28, 2014 8:08 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe was irritated and shoved a hand on Digger's chest and pushed him back against the booth so she could look at Greed. Had this been his idea? She asked him point blank, "Did you want to talk?" if he did, he could talk to her. She just didn't think there was much to discuss.
On Thu, Aug 28, 2014 at 5:06 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed looked like a mad dog ready to snap. This was not how he'd planned the evening, but at the same time Digger was trying hard. Greed could appreciate that.
"Actually Digger you suck at this." Greed swallowed his beer and glanced over passed the Digger wall to get a look.
On Aug 28, 2014 6:24 PM, "Lauren Christensen" <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed looked like a mad dog ready to snap. This was not how he'd planned the evening, but at the same time Digger was trying hard. Greed could appreciate that.
"Actually Digger you suck at this." Greed swallowed his beer and glanced over passed the Digger wall to get a look. She wouldn't even say anything to him.
On Aug 28, 2014 12:14 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe could not believe this was happening, "Rusty would imply you've done this before...." she leaned forward and looked at Greed, "You're okay with this?" she was totally surprised by that because Greed was incredibly private.
On Thu, Aug 28, 2014 at 8:04 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Digger put his arms around both of them. "I think you guys are in denial. Chance you are hoping for things Zoe doesn't want. Zoe, you're not believing in yourself anymore so you can't admit that maybe you two idiots are made for each other." He broke the silence a laugh. "Oh God that was horrible wasn't it? I told you I was rusty."
On Aug 27, 2014 10:38 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe gave him a look and then closed her eyes and shook her head with her hands at her temples, "Oh I feel SO much better now." Clearly Digger was qualified because he thought of taking psychology as his major. She was going to need more wine..
On Wed, Aug 27, 2014 at 7:35 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Digger slapped his hand onto Zoe's shoulder, keeping her perched there so that Greed and she were on either side. "I almost majored in psychology, let me make use of it okay?"
On Aug 27, 2014 5:02 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe looked incredibly embarrassed and her mouth hung open, "Digger, are you serious right now? This is not couples counseling...." but with Greed coming over, she started to stand up, "This was fun but I should get going." NOW she'd run.
On Wed, Aug 27, 2014 at 1:40 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Digger was getting a headache just listening to the way these kids spun in circles. It was crazy. He ushered Greed over with the sway of his head. If Digger had to play therapist then that's what he would do. "Well, I can see now why he doesn't talk about it...have you even tried to discuss it with him? I mean what does my boy have to do really. Lay it out."
On Aug 27, 2014 2:36 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She didn't comment on the kiss but just said, "I don't doubt he wants me. I don't even doubt he loves me. That's not the issue. The issue is he wants more than just me. When I'm not with him, he sulks and wants just me. When I AM with him, he gets comfortable and starts wanting more. There is no solution to this."
On Wed, Aug 27, 2014 at 11:30 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Musta been some kiss for that to break his concentration all day. And I can't help it. Im rooting for the guy. Anyone that tries that hard is wanting you pretty bad." Though he wondered if Greed tried too hard.
On Aug 27, 2014 12:03 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She turned red and debated just leaving but she had no one else to talk to. So for the first time, she didn't run, instead she said, "I had a moment of weakness and I sent him a mixed message. I know you know I kissed him because I heard your 'alright!' and high five all the way from my cubicle this morning." and she side eyed him.
On Wed, Aug 27, 2014 at 7:10 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Digger saw her passive response to Greed. He took a deep breath and just went to it. "So what happened exactly this weekend that has you barely acknowledging him?" The boy had played good, hed given her the present. What now had he done so horribly that she could not even meet his eyes?
On Aug 27, 2014 9:30 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She smiled a little, "Now that's sweet. But relationships are hard for me too. I have this thing where I think everyone will leave. Because they go." okay that was the wine loosening her tongue but she didn't care. She was surprised to see Greed, especially with people he wasn't manipulating. She acknowledged him with a brief greeting but that was it. She was pretty sure Digger knew he was going to come and didn't tell her..
On Wed, Aug 27, 2014 at 6:27 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Naw. You, crazy?" He found that hard to believe. "A little bruised from that knucklehead but not crazy." Greed gave Digger a nod but he walked over to where a grpup of co-workers sat. They made a loud "hey you made it," patted his back and handed him a beer to start off.
Zoe had never seen Greed interact with a 'group' of friends that genuinely liked having him around. It was a new visage and a new experience for them both.
On Aug 27, 2014 9:21 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"You're a nice guy, Digger. And I hope you wouldn't be in his shoes, it'd be nice to have something other than trust issues for once." she didn't notice Greed, just took another mouthful of wine, "But you can ask Chance even, I get pretty crazy so you should consider yourself lucky."
On Wed, Aug 27, 2014 at 12:20 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
His mouth dropped. This was supposed to be about Chance and Zoe! "Zoe you're sweet." Almost too sweet. "You make it sound like I'd be in his shoes." For a minute Digger wasn't going to feel too sorry for Greed. That was until he saw Greed step into the bar. The moment he locked eyes there was instant shame.
On Wednesday, August 27, 2014, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She softened as she listened to him and then sighed, "That's the thing, I wasn't enough when he had me. Now he doesn't so he wants me. Not a relationship. Cause the second I'd say okay let's try this again, it just starts a ticking countdown to when he'll get antsy and bored and want more." she leaned in and kissed his cheek, "If I met you two years ago, Digger, I wouldn't be in this mess. I'd be in an entirely different mess with you." and she smiled.
On Tue, Aug 26, 2014 at 9:43 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Oh, I do know you Zoe. You're the kind of girl that thinks she's nothing special. You think you're not good enough. I know because I'm that kind of guy myself." Digger wasn't exactly the pinup Greed was, so when someone came along that actually showed interest, it was a bit of a shock. "But I think the real problem is we tell ourselves we aren't good enough and that just ain't right. Besides, Chance is so crazy over you I don't think anyone else would quite be enough for him to move on. You know the boy didn't hardly get a thing done today, it was like he was out of his head or something..."
On Tue, Aug 26, 2014 at 10:29 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Her cheeks turned a little pink at the compliment and she countered with, "Well like you said, he's a supermodel so he's no slouch in the looks department." she smiled a little, charmed by how much Digger cared, "You barely know me. And as his bro, isn't it your job to help him move on? Call me names and push him to hook up with other girls?"
On Tue, Aug 26, 2014 at 7:25 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"You're a fox Zoe! You say that like you don't know." She seemed so surprised, when really shouldn't at all. "And I know what you're thinking. I am on his side , he's my bro---but I'm on yours too."
On Aug 26, 2014 7:54 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe raised her brows and looked pretty surprised as she turned to Digger, "What? Why?" she thought Digger was on Greed's side during all of this and would say that she needed to get over herself and get back with the amazing gift he was.
On Tue, Aug 26, 2014 at 4:51 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Oh." Digger nodded. "You just seem too good for him." He might be buddies, but Greed was a strange bird. He had some very childish antics.
On Aug 26, 2014 7:38 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She wrinkled her nose, taking Digger's comment to mean she wasn't good looking enough for Greed, "He isn't. He dropped his wallet and I returned it to him. He wouldn't have even looked at me otherwise." which was true, Greed himself had admitted it. And if she hadn't had her then locket, he never would have stayed interested.
On Tue, Aug 26, 2014 at 2:43 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"So just kinda curious now how the two of you met. You're adorable as hell and he looks like a super model. He doesn't seem your type." It wasn't Zoe wasn't Greed's type, to Digger maybe Zoe was just too good for someone like Greed.
On Aug 26, 2014 5:27 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She choked on her wine and then gave him a small smile, "Yeah.. kinda. By a few years. I'm in my late twenties and he's not quite thirty...." that wasn't a lie, he was a lot older than thirty.. she took another mouthful of wine.
On Tue, Aug 26, 2014 at 2:19 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Ohh dating an old man huh?" He liked teasing her, it made her smile. "Man he's looking good for thirty." The man was like a real live comic book character. It was kind of insane.
On Aug 26, 2014 4:40 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe coughed and took another sip, she didn't know how to discuss Greed with someone. Their relationship, sure. That was a disaster, that she even needed help with. But Greed as a person? She was kinda private about him because of his specialness. "Um... he's a little older than that. Closer to thirty." ....thousand. But still, she coughed again, "He comes from a really big family, he's never needed anyone else and he's never been a relationship guy. He likes to have fun."
On Tue, Aug 26, 2014 at 1:37 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Don't go drinking too fast now," Digger joked nudging Zoe with his elbow. "Is he always so awkward? Because it seems like Chance hasn't had enough friends to really know how to act. How can a guy be twenty-five, twenty-seven years old and not know how everything works?" Digger wasn't the star of relationships either.
Zoe left with Digger and there was a big circular booth that the co-workers sat at, Zoe was at one end sipping the half glass of wine with Digger next to her and some other co-workers and Kendall sitting at the other end, destroying her second margarita. Digger had talked to Zoe in the car and he had some news for Greed. The boy just didn't know how to TALK to Zoe, it was why things were so messed up.
On Tue, Aug 26, 2014 at 12:54 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed really went from daydreamer to just depressed now." Surely Digger wasn't going to changer her mind. At least he wasn't a Virture trying to wipe it clean. Greed on his own was just making a big mess.
On Aug 26, 2014 3:42 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"That's... heavy. Okay, don't worry about it buddy. Give us like a twenty minute head start, okay?" he smiled, "Just try to relax."
On Tue, Aug 26, 2014 at 12:41 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed didn't know what to tell him. "She blames herself and ignores what happened. So no, I really don't know what you could ask. She doesn't trust me." This was going from fun to painful quickly.
On Aug 26, 2014 3:38 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Then show up later." he patted Greed's back, not knowing how hard this was on him. "Anything you want me to ask her?"
On Tue, Aug 26, 2014 at 12:31 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Yeah but if we walk there she won't go. I have to show later..." Greed knew Zoe, he knew how she would react. He had to just casually make an appearance, and that was hard for a flamboyant Sin.
On Aug 26, 2014 2:54 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Digger had a big smile on his face, "Really? Well I don't mind..." but he looked at Greed, "Unless you're gonna punch me in the face over it. Cause if you are, the three of us could just walk there. It's the bar and grill three blocks away." and he pointed. "But if you give me some time alone with her, maybe I could talk to her.."
On Tue, Aug 26, 2014 at 11:51 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"She's a lightweight. She couldn't handle more than that..." Greed perked up clapping his hands and only destroying what was left of the rose Zoe had left on his desk.
"Wait...If she doesn't know I'm coming I can't take her there. You'd have to do it."
On Aug 26, 2014 2:17 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Digger put his hand on Greed's shoulder, "Buddy, that's the problem. Women like to hear the words too. I think this weekend was a great sign but you're gonna have to tell her. Be upfront. That whether she gets back with you or not, you are not gonna be with anyone else." he gave him a dramatic look but then made a face, "But I mean try that for a month and if she doesn't bend then maybe start looking, alright?" he nodded, "She said she was coming." he mimicked her, "Only for half a glass of wine, that's it."
On Tue, Aug 26, 2014 at 11:12 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I talk....just sometimes more with my body than my mouth...." but that was where they were running into walls here. "You sure she said shes coming?"
On Aug 26, 2014 11:44 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"I thought you might. She doesn't know you're going tho, okay? I didn't want to spook her off. I told her a bunch of us are, which we are but I'm sure you can find some time alone with her... to talk." and he actually meant talk, not makeout.
On Tue, Aug 26, 2014 at 4:10 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
The Sin perked up with a goofy grin. It felt kinda nice to have a friend. It was like having a mini me that actually liked being around you. "I'll go!" Now it was a definite. Digger could be really, really useful in future endeavors.
On Aug 26, 2014 2:09 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Digger looked behind him at Zoe, "Who? Her? The girl you've been mooning over for weeks?" he looked back at Greed with a wide grin, "Buddy, why else do you think I'm inviting you?"
On Mon, Aug 25, 2014 at 11:03 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Something like that..." he tried to focus on what Digger was asking him. "Is she coming?" Greed pointed at Zoe.
On Aug 26, 2014 12:25 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Digger moved to block Greed's view of Zoe, "Dude, can you go two minutes without looking at Zoe? Or will you explode? Is it a medical condition." he was teasing him obviously. "And it's not Kendall. Tho she's going too. You coming?"
On Mon, Aug 25, 2014 at 9:22 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Oh, good cause I sort of am..." Greed was probably the most secure guy Digger would ever meet. At the formal invitation Greed looked outside the walls to see Zoe at her desk. "Don't say Kendall, she already asked me to the copy room at least five times already." He didn't realize that Digger meant a group of them going out into a public place to 'hang'. Greed had never had friends to hang with.
On Tue, Aug 26, 2014 at 12:16 AM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Digger scratched the back of his head and thought about it, "I guess not... means you're secure in your masculinity. Or something." he didn't know it was the rose Zoe had been wearing when Greed got to make out with her. He nodded, "Yeah out like out out, you in? Cause I know a hot babe that's going..."
On Mon, Aug 25, 2014 at 9:14 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
"It's a flower is that weird?" Greed was still getting up to speed about what was what normal boys did, apparently playing with flowers wasn't one of them. He started to pick at the petals, making a little cushioned pile of them on his desk. "Out like out out?" He'd never really been invited to anything with them besides the wedding. Sure all his coworkers liked him but it was usually the girls trying to spend the night.
On Tue, Aug 26, 2014 at 12:04 AM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com>wrote:
Digger gave him a look, "Dude. You are lucky you have muscles coming out of your ears otherwise I'd call you gay for twirling that rose." then he clapped his hands together and rubbed them, "So, you ready to come out with me and some of our co-workers tonight?" he hadn't mentioned Zoe, he wanted to see if Greed was up for it on his own first.
On Mon, Aug 25, 2014 at 8:59 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed was twirling his bottom lip around in between his fingers, staring off into the ripped poster on "wall". He'd been staring at it for the last thirty minutes playing that scene in his head over and over again like a broken film reel. Clearly he'd not been down to earth since the weekend. Digger called him a few more times before he snapped back into reality. There was a rose laying on his desk that he moved between his fingers once he looked to towards Digger and needed something else to play with. "Huh, what?"