WHO: Zoe & Greed WHEN: September 27 [Backdated] WHERE: Zoe's and Greed's apartment, the beach WHAT: This won't work WARNING: None Note: The log reads backwards
"I don't know what the point is. You need sex. That's a solution. It's the only solution. We all can't have what we want. Not humans." she got up off the blanket. She didn't want to have this conversation anymore either, they were going in circles, in horrible miserable circles. She held her arms and moved off for a walk down the beach with Samson barking and chasing at her heels.
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 8:56 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "And if I just wanted that girl then being a dick for all the others still leaves me empty, so what the fuck is the point. I'll just be a tool again and miss all that's been given to me. So, I still lose something I want." He flopped back down on the blanket. He felt like shit, he wanted this conversation to be over.
On Aug 11, 2014 11:49 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Ouch, she hated this conversation. She hated the idea of him with another girl... but she wanted him to be happy. She took a breath, "Well... this time you'd tell her your situation earlier, before she falls for you. You'll be completely honest and tell her what the deal is and because she'll be the right girl, she'd be okay with you sleeping with other girls when you can't sleep with her." Zoe thought she could be that girl, but she couldn't. It still bugged her he slept with other people in the demon body.
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 8:46 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "So what makes you think another girl who would fall for me being as amazing as you say wouldn't do just the same. If love is what burns me up then another girl in love with me doesn't change anything does it?" He threw his hands out in a flop. "So it just means only superficial Barbie dolls who see me as meat are what keep me from burning up. That doesn't make me happy, that just makes me empty."
On Aug 11, 2014 11:39 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "I know.." she ran her hand through his fluffy blonde hair idly, "But... there's a chance it's never and you need touch and sex and I get that. It's not a bad thing, it's just... it's part of who you are. We are going to fall apart if you're not allowed to get it elsewhere or if you do get it elsewhere then that'll also not end well..." she sighed, "I told you, you have flaws but you're the best boyfriend I've ever had and you have all the qualities to make someone happy and maybe it'll be someone who can.. touch you and kiss you without risk of vomiting, fire, heart attacks, or death." she just wanted to lie down and die. She loved him so much and that was what was causing the problem.
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 8:34 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I don't know if I could do never have sex with you again. I'm a sensory Sin. I like touch, I like to feel things..." Never was a pretty big word he wasn't really up for swallowing.
On Aug 11, 2014 11:27 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She gave him a look like a wounded puppy, "You shouldn't have to work on it..." she scooted closer to him and tried to get him to understand, "You are so much more than that. You are amazing. But that deal was only part of the problem. The problem was before that deal... you tell me right now, okay. If being with me means never having sex again with someone else and maybe not even getting it from me, can you do that? Just yes or no."
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 8:13 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I could work on it!" He mimicked her with hugging his knees in as he watched people walk by. "I'm not anything more than that. You've made it clear that all I wanted from that fucking deal was sex. So, therefore I'm just a dick. A walking, talking dick."
On Aug 11, 2014 11:03 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She threw her hands up, "Then we're right back where we started! You still want to be able to kiss me without burning and you CAN'T." she shot at him as she looked at him with a broken expression. "You still might die with my kisses and there's no way around it." she smacked him a few times on his shoulder, "And stop saying you're just a dick! You are not. It's just... it's a..." she moved her hands around looking for the words and then just hugged her knees and looked at him as she said in a softer voice, "You're not just a dick and you're good for so many things."
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 7:58 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I know I know I'm just a dick and the only thing I'm good for is dicking around." He sat up to drape his arms over his knees. "I'm not good for much else, I get it." Sure it stung. It stung a lot. "I didn't do it just to have sex with you!" His voice raised because the more he thought about it, it pissed him off that all she saw was that end of it. "I saw how freaked out you write when I dropped with a heart attack. I knew if I kept up with using a Virtue as my little intimacy budda than we would go through that again and you would freak out. I wanted to be able to spend a while night kissing you without turning into a human torch. I'd like to have my tongue in your mouth without internally combusting. But I got taunted and humiliated by that fucking demon and I snapped and got blindsided by my anger. That's how shit got fucked up."
On Aug 11, 2014 10:47 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Her eyes were misty as she looked down at her hands and then out to where they'd gone shopping before, "I really thought..." she looked down at her hands again, "I don't know, a few months ago I thought yeah we can do this. You.. you were talking about marrying me." she held up a hand and waved it as she looked at him and quickly said, "Not that it's something I want right now but.." her shoulders fell as she looked away again, "But you were talking about it. That it didn't scare you... and I thought..." she raised her head to keep from crying, "God, I was so stupid..." she had thought maybe he was feeling like he could have a life with her, at least a home. "I thought maybe one day... and then you dumped me... all because I couldn't have sex with you." it had been a crushing blow and she kinda didn't know if he was unhappy with her for other reasons too, she was too afraid to know.
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 7:41 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He shrugged as she just made him a fool. First the tease, then hot and heavy sucking face, now he was just the dick who dicked around. She really knew how to make him feel like shit, and only she could.
On Aug 11, 2014 8:50 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She turned to look at him, this wasn't easy for her. "Yeah... and now he won't again. You really think you're gonna be okay with that? Because I don't. Eventually... maybe in a month or a year or whenever, you're going to want sex and you won't care who with and we're going to end up in a situation where I don't know if I'll be able to stand a broken heart all over again."
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 5:46 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: His bottom lip puckered out as she made this so complicated. "That was before my darker side got to taste you." The Sin want just looking through glass. He knew now what it was like and what to imagine when he didn't have it.
On Aug 11, 2014 8:25 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She shook her head, "No. You've said that before. We tried before we had Virtue juice to help us and it didn't work.... you'd get mean and crabby when you don't get sex and it'll be worse now because you're used to it." she threw her hands up, "Then I don't know, I'm sure there's sex stuff out there you haven't done that you can try to make it fun."
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 5:22 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I dunno we'd tackle it when the time comes...you won't even let me try sans Virtue pump." He started picking at his shirt. "Besides...sex with everyone else isn't fun anymore. You killed it. But, you also make it challenging." She knew he liked challenges. As long as they had that he'd never get bored.
On Aug 11, 2014 7:54 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She blushed when he wiggled his fingers at her and swatted them away. "Yeah? And what about you? I can't even touch you without you exploding. Relationships are about more than just sex but you need sex. And you can say you'll try now but guess what, you've said it before. And you're all laughy and jokey cause you went and humped a bunch of people. What happens in two months when you're dried up and we can't have sex?" she gave him a serious look.
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 4:49 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He crawled back over beside her, starting at her like a cat ready to pounce. "Doesn't mean I can't work with it. Build up an immunity. And I dont have to have my dick to make you hit an O." He wiggled his fingers in her face. He flopped down beside her, looking up to the clouds in the sky. "Weren't you the one that said this wasn't just about sex?" He liked so much more about her than getting under her skirt.
On Aug 11, 2014 7:41 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She turned red and sat up and smacked his arm, "No! I mean.. ugh, no, the point was to show that we can't be together... and you burned up. So.. nothing's changed." she rubbed her own arm, she hadn't wanted to be right.
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 4:39 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He sat back away from her, needed his own moment to get some air before he choked on it. "Breaking your own rules?" He teased.
On Aug 11, 2014 6:55 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She was completely flushed and breathing a little hard when he sat up. She hadn't been under him (especially wearing his color) with bruised kissed lips in a long time. For a moment there she kinda forgot what the point had been and a part of her desperately wanted to pull his mouth back on hers. She opened her mouth but no words came out, she really needed a minute....
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 3:51 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote: She might have baited him but he was going to leave her all sorts of hungry and horny for him. She didn't get away with making him hit a weakness without her hitting hers too. If she was gonna be evil so was he. His tongue was still tingling when she pushed him back and he sat up on his knees. He twisted his bottom lip between his fingers.
On Aug 11, 2014 6:12 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Oh God, yes she had baited him but these absolutely passion filled kisses were so delicious that for a moment she let herself kiss him hungrily as he devoured her. But his burn was hot enough to sear her fingertips and she started to push at his chest to get him to stop before he exploded.
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 3:08 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: She hit his weakness. She was exploiting him now and that was ok because he deserved it. He was not able to turn down the temptation of exploring her mouth. At least he got a few good tongue gropes in there before the heat built up and his skin seared.
On Aug 11, 2014 5:51 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Her own tongue touched his in greeting and now it was just a matter of seconds before she'd feel that burn. It made her stomach drop as she waited for this to end.
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 2:48 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: She was a sneaky minx. He might be trying to build an immunity but try was the key word. Trying was all he could do today because that silent invitation he sent back with an expidited RSVP. His tongue snuck its way out.
On Aug 11, 2014 4:29 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She did know he'd want it, it's why she did it. She wanted him to see that no matter how much control he might think he had, really they couldn't go past kissing unless he really held it together, which oftentimes he couldn't. And he shouldn't have to. Her tongue did to him what he'd done earlier, outling the parting of his lips and running across his teeth, delicious bait for him to pounce on.
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 1:24 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He gripped her dress between his fingers. She gave an invitation with that kiss abs she knew he couldn't say no. She knew he would want it. Greed would go right for that trap, and tongue was his sure fast way to going all explosive from the inside out.
On Aug 11, 2014 4:15 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She hated how good it felt. Him kissing her, touching her, but more than that just him. She'd missed him so much that even with him here it still hurt. When his hand moved and he nipped her earlobe, she was close to just purring but she could hear Samson barking at some dogs walking by, and slowly other sounds started to trickle in. Oh the bastard, he was totally seducing her! He was trying to prove she was wrong and she wasn't wrong. She knew she wasn't. She put her hand back on his cheek and pushed it away from her ear and back to her lips but she gave him a searing kiss, her tongue teasing his lips to open up. She was going to prove he was wrong.
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 1:07 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: As he sucked a little raspberry shaped spot on her neck, one hand curled into her hair, cradling her head. The other was suspiciously on her waist until it got bored. He watched her through lowered lashes that brushed her cheek when he closed them and taunted her with a little nip to her earlobe.
On Aug 11, 2014 3:57 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Yes, she'd had sex with Chance but that barely counted. That was like eating low fat soy tofu yogurt and this... this was like full fat pure natural dark chocolate rich ice cream. Her lips parted and she let out a breath when he kissed her neck. With nuts. And whipped cream. Her hand went from his cheek to slide around his neck, her fingers traveling up the nape of his neck And she knew he was going to put a big ol' cherry on top.
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 12:43 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He liked that he pushed her vulnerability which was him. He did exploit it when they were in public like this, but she would only go so far. Like no hands under dress, no groping. But he could tantalize her with kisses and not just open mouthed. He liked letting those kisses leak out and explore her neck. What woman didn't like those soft kisses on her neck? It would also make her desire his lips more.
On Aug 11, 2014 3:04 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She made a sound when he rolled them over and now was in control. She had a look of 'oh no' on her face but her eyes were heavy with desire and she closed them again when his mouth covered hers. She felt butterflies in her stomach and a hand touched his cheek while her other hand rested loosely on his waist. With Chance, she had always been aware of what was happening, with Greed... it felt like she'd smoked all his pot and was on a cloud.
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 11:58 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Being a sensory Sin meant touch, taste and sound were enhanced. He could get drunk off this. In the back of his mind he kept setting little goals fir himself. Try one move at a time to see if that kept him from internal combustion. When she melted into him he rolled them over. If she want going to get up on him, he would take control of that. His tongue lined her teeth, just barely touching the tip of hers before sucking back on her lips. He waited a second and didn't feel the pressure of heat on his back. That was a good sign.
On Aug 11, 2014 2:32 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: It was a good thing she was already sitting cause his kisses always made her go weak in the knees. Her hand moved upwards from his chest and she kinda lowered herself part way down on him to literally sink into that kiss some more.
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 11:11 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Greed could make this last, patience just was never his strong suite. He had learned a little in the times they'd had a Virtue dangling a few feet apart, but this was different. This was just them without any advances (though at first they had been worth it). Greed rubbed on her arm. This would be even better with her straddling him. It was obvious in his responses that this was absolutely necessary and her was hanging on to this makeout session.
On Aug 11, 2014 12:01 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Yes they'd kissed the night before but those were emotional kisses. These were... well, they were sexual kisses but what made them special was there was still love in them because she was so crazy about this idiot. Chance's lips had been the same soft supple ones but Greed..... Greed knew how to use them and it was like a fog was settling over them.
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 8:03 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He watched her through lowered lashes, his lids slipping closed when she finally took the plunge. It took a lot of strength to not just roll her over and get all into it, but he would have lit up like a candle. So he stayed to enjoy the fact she was kissing him and it not being baby kisses. His tongue only slipped out to line the edge of her upper lip. He was sneaky but he was only pushing the boundaries so far. Kissing her was always like kissing liquid gold. It felt so damn good.
On Aug 11, 2014 10:39 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She looked at him suspiciously, he had that look on his face that he didn't really listen to what she said and he was going to use that fact against her later. She took a deep breath, her hand still on his chest and she leaned down further. She stopped when her nose was to his and she looked in his eyes for a moment. She was scared not only because it'd hurt him but because of how she felt about him. Kisses were something so intimate... but she did it, slowly she kissed his fat bottom lip first before nudging his lips open with hers to kiss him more fully.
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 7:34 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: His eyes scanned her as she spoke, almost too entranced to even hear what she'd said. "Alright." He'd just have to hold off as long as he could without torching.
On Aug 11, 2014 10:27 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Zoe suddenly put a hand flat on his chest and shoved his chest down to the ground on the blanket. She was nervous and scared but she looked down at him, her short hair fanning out across one cheek, "You start to burn then you let the idea we can be together go, okay?" yes, she was saying she was going to kiss him.
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 7:24 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I mean--ugh you know what I mean!" He kicked a few more sand holes abs took deep breaths. "You don't even want to kiss me so who knows!" He threw his hands in the air. This friends shit sucked.
On Aug 11, 2014 10:13 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She sat on her knees and thought he was crazy, "We don't know? Did something magical happen that doesn't cause you to burn up anymore?" she shot at him.
On Mon, Aug 11, 2014 at 3:09 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "You don't know that!" Neither if them really did because they hadn't been together, not like that since this whole ordeal. Sure, he'd had sex, but not with her. His zombie body didn't could. "We won't know til we get back to that point."
On Aug 11, 2014 12:50 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She put up her hands to stop the flecks of sand from hitting her, "Yeah, all of you knows how it feels so when that barrier goes up in a deadzone, you still won't be satisfied. It's the same as it was before the deal, we still can't be together in that way!" she was getting upset now too and their romantic cudling as a non-couple was becoming a very couple like fight.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 9:48 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He kicked up some more sand making ankle deep holes on the beach. "No! No! There's a difference now and you know it. Before i didn't get you, but now all of me knows how it feels. The boy me abd the Sin me ate on the same side now abd that makes things different!" It wasn't the complete answer, but it was a start in the right direction. "Everything since this deal is different now."
On Aug 11, 2014 12:29 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "We didn't make it work before! You'd get upset and mean and frustrated because we couldn't do it and when we'd go to Lithuania, you'd still be upset when we got back because you felt like you didn't get to do it. You need sex and I just can't give it to you no matter how much I want to. Eventually we'll go to far and you'll die again or you'll just... leave me again. Those are our choices." and they were both things she couldn't handle.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 9:23 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "It doesn't matter because we made it work before!" He stomped his foot. Why couldn't they make it work again? Maybe as a Sin he was just never destined to have any of this and it pissed him off! So he kicked sand instead. "I want what I want! Don't tell me what that is!" He was stomping around like a hurt child. She was his ultimate prize, untouchable and just within his grasp--of course he wanted it more than anything on the fucking planet. Samson barked as Greed rolled himself up, a while new kind of attack only in the firm if a two year old tantrum.
On Aug 10, 2014 11:30 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She felt her cheeks get hot when he called her out on wearing his color. "Okay.. okay, so maybe I shouldn't have worn your color. But I'm not the one touching you and things. And I'm not condemning you but you KNOW we can't do it. Even if we wanted to."
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 8:08 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I would be if you let me. You think I'm the tease? You sit there in my color because you know I can't resist. The same reason you condemn me for wanting to be with you." Each time she chose to give into him she pulled away. And each time she continued to taunt him...
On Aug 10, 2014 10:58 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Ugh, she hated this. She hated when he let her go even though it was what she said she wanted. She turned to look at him, "Greed.. please try to understand. I want you to be happy. And you need things... that I can't give you. Literally can't. I'm not doing this to be mean or anything.." she tucked a strand of hair behind her ear.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 7:18 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He didn't respond because he could always tell when she put up the Great Wall of China on her feelings. She cared about him but that was the extent of what she would offer. This must be what friends really meant. He unfolded his arms from around her. He needed air because going in circles like this was suffocating him. "Come on Sammy," he patted his leg for the dog to follow.
On Aug 10, 2014 10:02 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "Yeah... until you want sex or even to kiss and I can't give you that. Then what?" she said in a bitter voice, not liking this snuggling right now because it felt like it'd disappear.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 7:01 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Someone else isn't you. I like snuggling with you." His arms were right back around her, but he'd just been a set of revolving doors for her. Nothing for her felt solid.
On Aug 10, 2014 9:48 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "I don't know... find someone you can do this plus more with?" she said in a small voice, fidgeting again. She was all too aware that the more she allowed him to do, the more he'd want and they had major limitations.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 6:12 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I'm a touchy feely guy, I like this with you..." maybe it wasn't fair, but it was what he wanted. "I don't want to be anywhere else right now." It wasn't sex, it was just being with her comfortable like this. "What am I supposed to do?"
On Aug 10, 2014 8:44 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "Yes...." she said again in the same tone as he teased her. She pouted a bit and smacked his leg, "This is what I'm talking about, none of this has an effect on you." and all of it made her heart ache.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 5:39 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "You sure?" He nudged her with his shoulder, taking one of his legs with hers. He was on the beach playing footsie with his ex-girlfriend abd there's was nowhere else he wanted to be right now.
On Aug 10, 2014 8:13 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "Yes...?" she said in a small voice that sounded unsure. But it was clear to see she was disappointed when he moved his arms to his sides. Part of her wanted to move them back around her but this was for the best. For some reason.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 5:11 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "So you want me to stop?" He loosened his grip to drop his arms to his side's, but he had a feeling she was confidant nestled against him.
On Aug 10, 2014 7:22 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She swatted at his hand, "Because that's not what friends do. And you act like its normal and nice and make me feel like we aren't doing anything wrong when we are." she leaned into him, her head in the crook of his neck, "You know exactly how you confuse me. And... I care about you, I do. I'm not gonna deny that.. but you just always push for a little more until I'm right back where I don't want to be without realizing it."
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 4:20 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "Why shouldn't we?" He started to paw at her head. "How am I confusing you?" He had made it pretty obvious now.
On Aug 10, 2014 6:47 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She closed her eyes as he snuggled closer, "Greed..." her voice having a bit of a whine to it, "We shouldn't tho. Because all you do is confuse me." she was so weak to him and he knew it, it was unfair.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 3:45 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "It's what these friends do." He snuggled his face against her cheek. She didn't know how much he missed this.
On Aug 10, 2014 6:22 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She squirmed and said, "Not friends or not... just friends. Tho you know perfectly well this is not what friends do..." not that she was trying to leave. "Maybe they do now, not always." she said quietly.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 3:20 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He folded her into the blanket that was his torso, his legs alongside hers. Samson was trying to nose his way in but there was no room so he just curled up at Zoe's feet. "I like this though, friends or not..." He liked having her curled into him, "so you can remember these arms like to lock you in not push you away."
On Aug 10, 2014 6:10 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She put her arms over his that were around her and fidgeted a little but wasn't trying to get away. She was just getting used to being in his arms again. Chance would hold her.. but it had been... different. She liked the way Greed held her, she felt safe even tho he was the one who hurt her the most.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 3:00 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He put his chin on her head. "I promise." He knew he wasn't going to put her through something like a demon deal again. He wouldn't leave her alone with his zombie self. He knew now for certain that she needed the whole package with him. There was no just Sin or boy. It was just him.
On Aug 10, 2014 5:05 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She was disappointed when he let her go but pleased when he made a Greed chair for her. "I want you to talk to me.. always. About what you're feeling." she never wanted what happened to happen again, "I mean, I know we're not together anymore but you're my best friend... " even tho they certainly were acting like a couple.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 2:01 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He released her so he could settle in behind her, pulling his arms around her. He was her fort, he wanted to keep her safe. He'd messed up, but he wanted her to remember he was strong, that he was going to keep her. "Alright. I'll let you know." He hugged her.
On Aug 10, 2014 4:45 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She thought about it and then nodded. She did need a job and it wouldn't be permanent, "I will.... but if I get it and you get sick of me, you tell me." she watched the waves and felt kinda settled there in his arms. She shouldn't be there but this is kinda all she wanted in life so why not let herself have it, if just for a moment.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 1:41 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote: He held her grabbing the chocolate milk with his free hands for a few swigs. "Will you at least apply?" He wanted to be there for her even if she didn't want him to.
On Aug 10, 2014 3:47 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "That puppy totally is." she put her head on his chest, "He's totally attached to you. So am i..." she knew she'd never have a life without Greed. She played with his fingers through hers.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 12:25 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He took a deep breath once she was curled up to him so he could feel her warmth. He took her hand to lace his fingers in hers. "That puppy isn't jealous of you." Butt he had grown attached to Greed since Jonah was gone.
On Aug 10, 2014 2:34 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She definietely did not expect to hear that and her mouth dropped open a little. When she felt his hand start to shake, she scooted closer to him, so her hip was next to his and she slid her arm around his waist, curling perfectly into his side. "Sammy's gonna be upset if he hears you say that." since the dog was in love with Greed these days. She didn't know what else to say.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 11:30 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "You are my life..." everything he did was to keep her. No matter how fucked up it was it was to keep them together because losing her was never going to be an option. He'd learned that the hard way. His hand started to shake a little as the threat of another pesky anxiety attack started to trigger.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 2:26 PM, Lucky L.<neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She squeezed his hand when he threatened to lose it again, "That's not the point... bad things happen and you can't just watch me all the time in hopes to prevent it. You have a life of your own."
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 11:25 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I know I can't!" He threw down the pudding cup (or what was left of it) that Samson lapped up as it splattered across the blanket. "But I can be there most of the time." That panic attack he'd had the night before was a clear indication that Greed was terrified of losing her and even if this meant friends, even if this meant playing house for a bit and working together it meant he had her in some fashion.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 2:04 PM, Lucky L.<neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: It dawned on her then what this was about, "Is that why you're living with me and want me to work at your office?" she wasn't mad, she was touched. She took his hand and looked at him, "Greed, you can't be with me 24/7..."
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 11:03 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "You got kidnapped Zoe." His tone was serious, he wasn't playing around anymore. Did she understand the severity of that? "I'm not taking my chances that it happens again." That there wouldn't be another Derek that wanted her for himself. Greed wanted her near without Virtues, without demon deals, without family.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 1:52 PM, Lucky L.<neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She gave him a look, "So what happens if I get the job. You'd see me at home before work, you'd see me AT work, and then again when you go home? Or....." she looked at her sandwich, breaking off a small piece, "...are you gonna be moving out?" because then he wouldn't see her so much.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 10:51 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I want you to apply." She had been kidnapped. Part of him wanted her closer than ever because of that because at least then she was safe.
On Aug 10, 2014 1:47 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She glomped on the pudding to get him to stop waving it in her face. She swallowed and said, "Yeah... but I can find another job. I'll get a job waitressing or something. You tend to get annoyed with me if I'm in your space too much." and she really didn't like that.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 10:44 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "You need a job." He shrugged spooning out another serving of pudding and waving it in front of her face. "Besides, I wouldn't mind getting phone calls from you every morning. Or files and a smile..."
On Aug 10, 2014 1:33 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She watched him and he didn't seem to be okay with the friend thing but she was relieved when he agreed to not push a relationship on her. She was surprised when he mentioned the temp position, "I do need a job but... at your office? You already live with me most of the time, you really want me to be at your work too?" she knew he got suffocated by her sometimes, this seemed like a bad idea.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 10:30 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He took a big scoop and shoved it in his mouth so that he didn't shoot out a nasty reply. He didn't want to just be friends, he really didn't know how to just be friends. He'd never really given her that opportunity before. Even in the beginning. He just nodded, sliding the spoon out of his mouth but not swallowing. He knew she needed that, but that meant he'd lose her in some way? He swallowed the pudding and finally spoke up. "There's a temp opening at work you'd be perfect for. I know you need a job now..." It also meant he could keep her near in another facet of his world.
On Aug 10, 2014 1:20 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Zoe was hesitant at his offered bite but kept her eyes on him as she leaned in a little and opened her mouth. Her lips closed over the spoon and the pudding slid into her mouth. After she swallowed she said carefully, "Greed... you know that... I mean.." she made a face, not knowing how to talk about it, "You know we're just.. we're just going to be friends, right?"
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 10:16 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Greed waved his hand at the dog. "Hey, hey, hey she needs that! She's too skinny." He could feel it when he hugged her at night, the cushioning he loved so much was a little flimsy. Greed sat up to open up the pudding cup. He did take the first bite but he offered Zoe the second.
On Aug 10, 2014 1:05 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Zoe offered Samson a piece of her sandwich and the dog pounced on it, laying down on the blanket to gnaw on it. She looked at Greed, wiping some drool off his cheek, "You guys seem like best buds now.."
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 10:03 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Greed had formed a friendship with the pup, he was going to be upset if and when Jonah took him back. He couldn't stop laughing while the one-eyed pup licked and barked looking over at Zoe with drool hanging off his tongue.
"Enough, enough!" Greed shoved the dog towards Zoe so he could finish eating his sandwich.
On Aug 10, 2014 12:53 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Zoe coudn't help but smile as Greed laughed and rough housed with the dog. It was like something had changed in him. Especially to be so friendly with the dog he once couldn't stand if he even licked his hand. She watched them and wondered if maybe this showed how unhappy Greed really had been?
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 9:43 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: The dog flopped on Greed licking his cheekwhich made the Sin cringe and laugh at the same time. "Get him off me!" Samson barked and threw Greed to his back, not at all the aggressive puppy he'd been with Derek.
On Aug 10, 2014 12:30 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She grinned for half a second and then swiped the napkin over his face, purposely smushing it into his face to show him the slop was on there. Samson barked and came over, trying to lick at his face now that he noticed food was there.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 7:54 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "What?" He looked down at his shirt to see if he'd dribbled all over his clothes. There was a moment of oh shit! He hated getting dirty.
On Aug 10, 2014 10:32 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She'd taken a bite and paused, chewing it around and then turning her lips in for a moment. She swallowed and took some of the chocolate milk to wash it down and said carefully, "it's a good lunch." he had tried and that's all she cared about. She handed him a napkin.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 7:30 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote: He quirked a tiny smile and chowed down on his sandwich that oozed mustard down his chin. He pointed at hers. "Is it good?" He didn't have her sandwich making skills, but he had tried.
She opened the giant sandwich and then looked at him as he couldn't say the word but she gave him credit for trying, rescuing him by saying, "I'd like that." even tho she knew sharing really meant that she'd get a bite and he'd get the rest. But it still counted.
On Sun, Aug 10, 2014 at 12:02 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He handed her a sandwich from the bag after hoarding his own. "I could only find one pudding cup. We could---" saying the word share was tough. It burned in his throat.
On Aug 10, 2014 2:37 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She seemed kinda taken aback because as always when he was being honest, it just sounded so real and pure. She never knew how to handle his compliments and she tucked her hair behind her ear and said, "Well.... thanks."
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 11:34 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "That was before it was on you." He did miss the curls, they were flowy and felt like cotton candy in his fingers. Butt, this he could get used to.
On Aug 10, 2014 2:19 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She gave him a look, "You said you hated short hair. You used to try to make out with my curls." which is why she was having such a hard time believing he liked the new style she was sporting now. It was too short for curls, it was too short to do anything with cept the bangs.
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 11:18 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I'm serious. I think I'm kinda falling fir these bangs." They looked good on her and it made up for the lack of length.
On Aug 10, 2014 2:10 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She was still confused until he started molesting her hair. She rolled her eyes and turned her attention back to Samson, "Yeah right." she scoffed, completely not believing him. She was sure at one point Greed had been more in love with her hair and eyes than anything else.
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 11:07 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "It makes your eyes pop." He tangled his fingers in it. She needed to feel confident again, he wasn't going to lie about something he liked. Note when it came to her. It was the same with her baggy sweaters, her makeupless face, now her bob. Greed just adored her, no matter what she was in.
On Aug 10, 2014 2:02 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Zoe made cooing faces at the dog and didn't even notice Greed was right next to her until he touched her hair. She frowned and turned to him, "Like what?" not realizing he meant the hair. He had been in love with her long hair so she never thought he'd go for her short bob now.
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 11:00 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Greed had grown a little through this, and just like his panic attack he didn't realize it. It was just available fir Zoe to witness. Samson plopped down beside her. Greed followed sitting as close as he could while setting out their lunch.
He caught himself looking at her while she pampered the dog. He reached out to feather a touch of her bangs. "I like it." It was new.
On Aug 10, 2014 1:50 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She was again surprised by his thoughtfulness.. especially since he wasn't a fan of taffy. She helped spread out the blanket on the sand as they put out their stuff and she took Samson off the leash and he made a mad dash for the water, only getting his paws a little wet before running away from the ocean again. Zoe sat down on the blanket and let out a big breath.
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 10:47 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Greed hurried out the for with his bag of goodies for the picnic. They got there in pretty record time. He wasn't spending all day and night there. He made a pit stop at one of the shops down town before heading to the actual beach. He bought her a bag full of taffy and some chocolate milk. A picnic wasn't a picnic without more chocolate.
He dropped the bag in her lap. He may have even gotten Samson a treat since the dog had helped him save her.
On Aug 10, 2014 12:01 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Zoe just kinda stared at Greed for a minute. This was the same guy that had hit the dog just a few months ago? Then she smiled, it was small and brief but it was the first time she'd smiled at him in a long time. She picked up Samson's leash and put it on as the dog barked, excited to get to go out.
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 8:55 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "As long as he remembers not to piss in my seat, he's coming." He gave Samson a warning look. The dog lowered his head but then happily barked towards Zoe wagging his tail.
On Aug 9, 2014 11:40 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Zoe was surprised but found it cute that he'd bonded with the pup who was bouncing around like a mini Greed, "Well..." she moved her bangs to the side, "We can bring him with us if you don't mind having him in the car.." they were like a weird little family playing house these days.
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 8:39 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "What about Sammy?" Greed had actually grown fond of the hellion. He did rip at Derek's face like a boss. Greed had a little pride in there for the pup. It was a team effort.
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 10:55 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She didn't comment on his outfit, she was honestly surprised he didn't pick something that would show off his naked torso but she was glad, less skin he showed the better. She was kinda weak to his body.. she handed him the bag full of their picnic stuff and slipped into some shoes so they could go.
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 7:53 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He wiped his fingers clean to dash off and get dressed. It was a bit overdressed for the beach, but Greed hated the sand in his shoes. Jeans and a t-shirt would work. He even spritzed on some of the smelly good shit Pride had gotten him months ago. He came back out with his hair a little fluffy. He added all the accessories to his outfit, the watch and necklace.
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 10:43 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Zoe was standing in the kitchen doorway watching him for a full minute before she let him know she was there. He was such a idiot in the kitchen, it was adorable and made her heart hurt. She walked over to him and said, "I'll finish up so you can get ready..." so okay maybe she was wearing yellow because she knew it was his color and since he was going to the beach for her, she was doing that for him.
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 7:41 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: Greed was a child in the kitchen. He had nearly drug everything out of refrigerator. Mustard, mayo, ham, cheese and a million other things as he tried to make sandwiches. They ended up too big to fit in the little plastic baggies so he wrapped them in tin foil. He had mayo and mustard all over his fingersas he thought about what else to toss in the basket. There were some pudding cups, reeces pieces, maybe an apple? What kinds of things was he supposed to put in there. He still wasn't dressed yet, but he'd have time once she was out and ready.
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 10:19 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: "I'm gonna get ready while you pack the stuff for the picnic." that's right, he asked, so he had to pack the blanket and the food and stuff. Altho chances were they'd end up buying something to eat along the way since his skills in the kitchen were limited. She went to shower and dress, putting on a beachy yellow dress for the outing.
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 7:16 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: She was throwing the friends card at him again---it kind of stung, but he was learning a very hard lesson. He couldn't just push pause and keep going where things left off. Humans didn't heal as quickly, they needed time to mend. His little caramel seal needed time and he had to give it to her. He twinged a bit at her acceptance but he nodded.
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 9:48 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She debated saying no... but a trip to the beach sounded relaxing. She moved around and tried to get up if he let her go, "Okay... so we'll go to the beach. For a picnic. As friends." last night did not mean she was back together with him and she wanted him to know that.
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 6:46 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "I do hate the beach, but you don't." Yes, could she wrap her head around that in order to get her back he had to do things he didn't like. It wasn't a completely unselfish thing to do.
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 9:31 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She kept eyeing him, keeping one hand on his chest, "You're allowed... but you hate the beach... so it's weird." she said it slowly. Wait, was he really doing this for her?
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 6:29 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: "What, I'm not allowed?" So he hated it for the most part, he was reaching out. "Just...no getting in the water." Greed had had enough of water, lakehouses and fucking boats.
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 9:21 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: Now she knew something was wrong, she leaned back a little to look at him and raised her brows, "You want to go to the beach? For a picnic?" normally she had to take him kicking and screaming and even then had to tempt him with treasure and shopping.
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 6:20 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: So they were back to that...the invisible barrier of no touchy touchy! "I dunno, just thought it would be something to do. You like picnics and the beach an' all."
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 9:17 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She frowned, that was out of nowhere. She squirmed again, trying to subtley get his hands off her, "I... what? Why?" it was just such an odd thing for him to say, especially after the night they had.
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 6:15 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He liked that she had nothing on under the sweater. No bra, no barrier. Whatever uncomfortable anxiety she felt about them at that moment he didn't have at all. "How about we go on a picnic today."
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 8:27 PM, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: She squirmed a little at his touch, mainly because it felt nice.. and she really shouldn't be letting him touch her. She avoided looking at him, peeking through her lashes at just his muscles and skin. Feeling kinda awkward from the night before...
On Sat, Aug 9, 2014 at 5:25 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote: He watched the way her nose wiggled as she refused to open her eyes. He knew when she was awake. He snuggled his hands up her back, caressing it with soft little circles. Getting out if this warm sleeping bag of blankets and her was not a feeling he anticipated.
On Aug 9, 2014 7:24 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote: The night had been intense and emotional. Lots of kissing, some groping, tons of holding. By morning, Greed had lost his tanktop somewhere and Zoe was snuggled deep into his chest fast asleep. She was warm because his hands were under her baggy sweatshirt and on her skin or sometimes in her hair. She opened her eyes slowly and she didn't look at him but she could tell he was awake. She could feel his eyes on her. It was unsettling. And creepy. Oh how much she'd missed it.