Zoe (history_repeats) wrote in nevermore_logs, @ 2014-10-13 14:31:00 |
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Entry tags: | greed, zoe hansen |
WHO: Zoe & Greed
WHEN: September 22 [Backdated]
WHERE: Zoe's and Greed's apartment, Hairstylist
WHAT: Fluff and Cut
WARNING: None
Note: The log reads backwards
"Great." she mumbled, "There's a spare key somewhere on the table you can have. Rent's due in a week. Stay out of my room." and with that she started to walk away.
On Wed, Aug 6, 2014 at 12:34 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I wasn't planning on getting rid of my apartment. Theres not enough room for even a forth of my stuff." He watched her, the way she wouldn't look in his eyes. She hadn't really looked him in the face all day. It disturbed him. "No girls." He crossed his heart with his finger over the chest.
On Aug 6, 2014 1:49 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She looked at him disgusted, "You're such an asshole." she swatted his hands off her and got up. She looked hesitant and nervously wrung her fingers together, "And..." she looked at him and looked away, "Don't.. bring girls here. You still have your other apartment, use that." she really didn't believe he could be sex sober, and she wasnt even offering him kisses. Yes, she'd take him on asa roommmate cause she needed it, but he was not the man she loved anymore.
On Wed, Aug 6, 2014 at 10:43 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"So this isn't allowed? No arms around waist. Alright. What else? Because breathing in the same vicinity is also going to be difficult on that itty bitty bed." He was smug, because he knew even in her sleep she would not be able to resist the offer of warmth from his body in such a close proximity.
On Aug 6, 2014 12:39 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She hated how this was all a joke to him and she clenched her fists, "Greed. What you're doing now? That's cuddling. Let go of me before I punch you in your groin." immortal he was but he still felt pain.
On Wed, Aug 6, 2014 at 9:23 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Depends on what you consider cuddling. You have a small bed with little wiggle room." The dog already took a spot on her floor and Greed was not doing the floor. "It's going to be difficult to maneuver without ever touching you in the process." The whole time he never released her from his hold, which was hilarious considering the topic they were discussing.
On Aug 6, 2014 11:17 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Her mouth dropped open, he'd do it anyways? Ugh, so unfair. She closed her eyes and sighed, "Fine. But no cuddling." tho her bed wasnt that big, they'd be touching just lying there together.
On Wed, Aug 6, 2014 at 6:08 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"You're sneaky, especially with a bottle. I dont trust you. Either we comprimise a deal here or I have no shame in just crawling into your bed tonight." He had to get her sober, she would destroy herself.
On Aug 6, 2014 12:53 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She tried to smack him but he still had a grip on her, "Are you nuts?? No way are you staying in my bed. You can check my room to see if I have a bottle but that's it." she squirmed again, her butt grinding into his crotch, "Let go of me, I'm not drinking right now you lunatic."
On Tue, Aug 5, 2014 at 9:52 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Well, there's one problem with that. You have this pesky habit of binge drinking, so I kind of need to stay with you at night, in your bed to make sure you don't go awol on me." He shifted her a little in his lap with a grin. "Then your terms are valid."
On Aug 6, 2014 12:04 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She glared at him, "Rule one. No cuddling." she looked like she wanted to rip his face off and she waited for him to let her go, she wrinkled her nose, "No biting. No sex. No kissing."
On Tue, Aug 5, 2014 at 9:03 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Alright lets hear them, I've got some of my own." He cuddled her like a puppy, nose touching hers with a little bite.
She struggled against him and huffed, "No, no deal. Maybe I do need a room mate but it's not gonna be you if you keep doing this." in reference to his snuggling, "So let's have some ground rules IF I agree to this insanity."
On Tue, Aug 5, 2014 at 5:48 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
His arms were tight ropes holding her down. "You do now, so get with the program sweetie." He snuggled her until he was comfy. "So, roomie, we got a deal?" She knew how these deals were sealed
On Aug 5, 2014 7:00 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She hated that he was right. Without a job or a roommate, she'd be evicted so fast... "Oof!" she said when she wound up in his lap. She glared at him and shoved at his chest, trying to get off him, "Well excuse me, I haven't had a lot to celebrate lately!" she made a frustrated noise because she hated this idea.
On Tue, Aug 5, 2014 at 3:56 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"You have a better option? You don't have time to hunt down a new roommate or you'll lose this place." He tried to keep her from standing up but between the two of them he just shoved her into his lap. "I just need to liven up this place. It's far to broody."
On Aug 5, 2014 6:10 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She scoffed a laugh and made a no way gesture with her hands, shaking her head, causing the new hair to swish back and forth as she knocked into his legs while she tried to pace in front of him while he sat on the sofa, "Set up your room? You are NOT living with me!"it was the craziest thing she'd ever heard.
On Tue, Aug 5, 2014 at 3:06 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I said I'd take a few days to move in some stuff, set up my room." Basically take over half the apartment. "But I have a few rules fir you if I'm gonna live with you...Well partially live with you." He wasn't losing his apartment.
On Aug 5, 2014 5:39 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She gawked at him, "Firstly, that's not being a roommate, a few days is being a houseguest. Which you are not. Secondly, you don't miss work for anything and guess what, Chance kinda didn't do as good a job as you did so you have to fix that. Thridly," she pressed down on a third finger to count, "Even when we were together, you couldn't stand being with me for more than a few days." which wasn't entirely true, he only kicked her out of his place. But still they'd never lived together before. The closest they came to it was two weeks in Lithuania.
On Tue, Aug 5, 2014 at 2:34 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Well, you need a roommate and just so happens I'm free for a little bit. Have some vacation time I could use for a few days, settle in abs decorate this place so it doesn't smell like dog and Virtue ass." He was basically saying he was going to play house. It could be fun. He'd never lived with anyone before in a long time.
On Aug 5, 2014 2:55 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She snorted and rolled her eyes, moving to get off him, "You are such a liar..." she said in an annoyed voice. He broke up with her to fuck other girls and now he was saying he was going to even go on a kiss-free diet? She didn't think so.
On Tue, Aug 5, 2014 at 11:52 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He chewed his bottom lip, twisting it afford between his teeth. "Alright." He had other ways of turning her on. She'd shown him before just how little could be done to evoke some sort of feeling.
On Aug 5, 2014 2:37 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"No." she was trying to will herself to pull away but he even smelled the same, and he felt different than the zombie. "No sex ever again. No kissing at all. Ever. Not even a peck. Those are the rules. Or you leave." it was in a way a test, to see how honest he was going to be and how persistent.
On Tue, Aug 5, 2014 at 11:34 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Yup. Now we may need to negotiate the whole no kissing thing. Thats a bit brutal." He stroked her head in a soft massage, propping his feet up on the table comfortably. "You game?" He was a lot older and a lot more stubborn.
On Aug 5, 2014 2:19 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She flinched when she was against his chest but it felt familiar so she didn't pull away, "So you're just going to stay in my apartment forever? Even if I'll never have sex with you again or even kiss you again?" she knew he wouldn't last. She didn't mean that much to him.
On Tue, Aug 5, 2014 at 11:16 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
"Im not willing to do that." Did she demonize him so much now that she'd used up all her feelings for him? Was there no infinity button on human feelings? He he pushed the wrong button one too many times? He kissed the top of her head, letting her fall into his chest.
On Aug 5, 2014 2:11 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She kept staring at the ground because it was easier to talk to him that way, "You did it for you then. I'm asking you to do it for me this time." she wouldn't be able to get rid of him on her own, they both knew it. He always wore her down. He'd have to willingly leave for her to get away from him.
On Tue, Aug 5, 2014 at 11:04 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"It would be too easy to walk out. I did it once, and I was a fool." He'd seen how much she loved him from the outside, not just at face value.
On Aug 5, 2014 1:41 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She had not looked in his eyes if she could help it. She'd looked in there too many times to see nothingness looking back at her so she avoided them again. She hugged one knee and looked at the floor, "If you're really sorry then you'll walk out that door right now." her words were soft and filled with pain. She didn't know how she was breathing still and being around him felt like there was no air.
On Tue, Aug 5, 2014 at 10:37 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He reached out to stroke her hair, this time not as pet. "I'm sorry." He'd apologized to her before, which took a lot of effort. She was in pain, he had a long way to go. Maybe this was a step to getting her back, and if she'd learned anything at all Greed never gave up.
On Aug 5, 2014 1:11 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"I don't care if you do or you don't! I'm crying because of why I did it, I'm crying because that's not who I am. I'm crying because it made me feel disgusting and I still do!" losing Greed had been bad, but searching for him in the zombie and not finding any part of him had made it worse.
On Tue, Aug 5, 2014 at 10:02 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I don't blame you for sleeping with him---" after the brutality of that breakup she had nothing. She'd needed something real, something familiar and even his zombie self couldn't give it to her. He hated himself for ripping this relationship out at the roots with nothing but an empty hole in its place. Greed would have done the same. Search for something to remind him of what he once had. As much time as she spent with him, it was only natural she became greedy in what she'd lost.
On Aug 5, 2014 11:25 AM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She burst into fresh tears at his question because all it did was bring up the shame of what happened with Chance. She felt dirty and gross at sleeping with him. She felt like it was sex, like she was a blow up doll that he was practicing on, she felt so unloved and unwanted and she wanted to scrub herself from the inside out and all she could do was bury her face in her hands and wish it had never happened.
On Tue, Aug 5, 2014 at 8:13 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He started to blame her in his head for this problem in the first place. She was being unreasonable, acting like a two year old that had to fight him on everything. He stopped though because Lust had been a mistake. He had fought hard to prove Lust was not there to play him like a puppet---and here he was doing the same of her. Zoe was his puppet that he had pulled and dragged through hell. It wasn't easy for a mortal to take in death, and she had lost already so many that she cared about He had been her Josie.
"I'm not here for a fuck..." he realized too that sleeping with his zombie self had not been helpful to her self-esteem. "How was it with, myself as Chance without me?" Had the dick made it miserable? He'd tried to so hard to make himself like her, but without the Sin it was just impossible to expect so much of a shell.
On Tue, Aug 5, 2014 at 12:21 AM, Lucky L.<neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She made a face and swatted his hand away, he was treating her like she was Samson. She wasn't some dog that you could pet after you scolded it and felt bad. She put her legs to her chest and hugged her knees, "Why don't you go back to Lust because trust me, you are not getting any fucking in this apartment ever again." and she wasn't talking about the apartment, she was talking about her. And yes, she said fuck, like sex was something cheap and vulgar, not the beautiful intimate portryal of love she'd shown him it could be.
On Mon, Aug 4, 2014 at 9:18 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He wasn't heartless, she knew that. He also hadn't quite figured out the best way to approach her, there was a lot of uneasiness between them, he'd built up a face to hide behind so that her behavior didn't piss him off. The further she scooted away from him, the closer he got. It was her fragile state that upset him, as if he'd blown a hole through her stomach again, this time with his actions as the bullet. He didn't know what to really say, he just started to pet her soft hair. The little fluff of bangs were cute, they were starting to grow on him.
On Aug 4, 2014 11:56 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She kept looking away from him and fidgeted when he sat next to her, scooting into the corner of the couch as far from him as she could get. The haircut made her look younger and even more fragile like she needed protection, "Oh let me guess, she kidnapped you again." she said sarcastically as she sniffled and wiped her nose with the back of her hand, obviously crying. The words were ones he'd said to her before when they first started dating, pathetic attempt at trying to cover up his sexual trysts with his sister.
On Mon, Aug 4, 2014 at 8:53 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Her questions stopped which unsettled him. At least if she kept interrogating him she was talking to him. Now she was just judging him. He saw the back of her head as she blocked him from seeing her tears, so he made his way over to the couch abd took a seat beside her. "What did I say? You asked me a again and I answered. I was with Lust, but it wasn't the same. I didn't even want it..."which all sounded so much worse. He hadn't quite figured out the finesse of being a human boy again in his own body. Everything was new again, he needed to settle.
On Aug 4, 2014 11:25 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
His sister was such a thorn in Zoe's side and he knew it. The fact he went back to her... Zoe slumped down on her side of the couch so he couldn't see her, her short hair falling in her face as tears stung her eyes. He broke up with her to go back to that... that... awful woman? The one her grandfather also left her for? Everything he said about being miserable and empty just sounded fake.
On Mon, Aug 4, 2014 at 8:23 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Why does it matter who? It should matter that it made me miserable." He should tell her it ended with Lust, he should rub it in her face so she knew even Lust didn't make him feel good. "Even Lust. There was no challenge. It was just....empty." Sex had been ruined now.
On Aug 4, 2014 10:08 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She looked away at that, humiliated that Chance hadn't wanted her. "Which three...?" she asked. She needed to know. She wanted to know if he enjoyed it because Chance certainly hadn't enjoyed her.
On Mon, Aug 4, 2014 at 7:05 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"About three. A handful." He turned to face her and her eyes made his gut hit the floor. "I stopped after...when I tried fir weeks to get my zombie self to be with you." His now self which was his real self...
On Aug 4, 2014 6:57 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"How many in the other body..... I know you know the number." it was like asking him to stab her but she couldn't help it. She peeked at him from behind the couch so only her bambi eyes showed with her new part bangs making them look even bigger and sadder.
On Mon, Aug 4, 2014 at 3:49 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"As my former demon deal body it was maybe a handful, maybe less..." one of which had been Lust. "As Chance, just you...except well, I kind of came back with a half naked girl on me in his apartment...I threw her off and came straight here," he dropped the lantern with his finger pointed at her, "and before you ask no I didnt have sex with her."
On Aug 4, 2014 5:38 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She said flatly, "Both." she hated how okay he was with having dumped her. He was treating the whole thing like it was no big deal when she still felt such grief over it (and then his death).
On Mon, Aug 4, 2014 at 2:37 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He had tons of glitter and colored paper to craft her a new look. He was handing one if the lanterns in front of the window. "Depends on what body you're asking about."
On Aug 4, 2014 3:12 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She ignored his decorating idea and asked, "How many girls did you sleep with after you dumped me?" he was here. He wanted to stay? Then she wanted answers.
On Sun, Aug 3, 2014 at 9:07 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed pulled out a blank lantern from one of his bags. It might be late but he was feeling crafty. "We're gonna decorate." He had to get this place cleaned up. If she hid in filth she wasn't going to get out of this.
On Aug 3, 2014 11:17 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She flopped down on the couch as he ran around to open the window with Samson at his heels. "Okay, you made me cut my hair, dragged me thrugh the mall, now we're home, you can go." and she put her head on the arm rest just looking sad.
On Sun, Aug 3, 2014 at 7:10 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
She made sure to sulk the entire shopping trip. He bought out whole stores with things that usually made her perk with a smile, but once again it was as if she were dumping him and everything he offered. He may have been the one to dump her at the start of his deal making fiasco, but she was dumping him over and over again as revenge.
When they got to her apartment it felt horribly empty. Better without that smelly Virtue, but empty. It really had become her tomb.
Greed deposited the armful of bags on the couch. The first thing this place needed was an open window.
On Aug 3, 2014 9:43 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She tried to get her hand free, "Is it for knives so I can stab you with them?" she was tired all over again and just gave him a helpless look, "Please tell me what it'll take to get you to leave me alone." she just wanted to curl up and die.
On Sun, Aug 3, 2014 at 6:35 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed grabbed her hand twirling her out of the chair. "No darling we are going shopping." He didn't care how long it took him he was going to drag a smile out of her.
On Aug 3, 2014 8:50 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She tolerated him touching her head for a couple of seconds and then threw up her hands, trying to get him off, "Stop feeling up my hair! I got it cut now I'm going home." and she tried to get out of the chair.
On Sun, Aug 3, 2014 at 5:41 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
She looked so miserable through that fancy cut. He could run his fingers through it and it was soft again. He could get beyond the shortness if it felt like this. She could be grumpy, he was going to molest her head.
On Aug 3, 2014 8:16 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She smacked him away when he ninjaed a kiss on her cheek. She didn't want his kisses. She looked like a grumpy kid as the stylist cut and snipped and styled but at the end of it, she looked kinda adorable with her new hairstyle even if her scowl didn't match her new look.
On Sun, Aug 3, 2014 at 5:14 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
She may have said no to his kisses, but he snuck one on her cheek. Then he let the stylist play with her hair. "Don't go scissor crazy now. Not to short, maybe a little bangs."
On Aug 3, 2014 8:01 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Something flickered in her eyes as she watched him in the mirror, she leaned away from his mouth at her ear and turned in the corner of the chair to eye him. She was trying to see if he was serious but one look at his face, his handsome stupid face, and she knew he was. "Fine. He can cut my hair." she pointed a finger at Greed, "You don't come near me with that." her finger pointing to his mouth.
On Sun, Aug 3, 2014 at 4:56 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed slapped his hands on the arms of the chair, sitting his chin atop her head. "If you don't straighten up for this haircut I'm going to smother you in kisses. Big ones..." he lowered his mouth to her ear, "ones that burn."
On Aug 3, 2014 7:12 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe crossed her arms over her chest and slouched down in the chair as Greed bounced around, "You can revel all you like, it makes no difference to me because you and I are not together anymore." all of it had sucked. All of it. She just gave a look to the stylist, not even caring how confused he was.
On Sun, Aug 3, 2014 at 4:10 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Greed scrunched his face as her list just grew with insults. Yeah, he'd done all that...and yet he'd resurrected in the middle of almost hot sex with a blonde bombshell and he ran out the door for Zoe.
"Okay so the dying part kinda sucked, but I came back!" He tried to look excited, bouncing around her chair. "Can we revel in the fact I came back in the right body?"
All the stylist could do was look at them awkwardly. "You guys must play World of Warcraft or something...or LARP...I've heard if that before." it was the only explanation. Gamers were weird.
On Aug 3, 2014 4:07 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Oh, like the last time you tried to fix things? Let's see how that turned out, you DUMPED me, I ended up sleeping with that," she pointed to his body, "Which made me feel worse, you died cause of me, I lost my job, I kicked out my roommate, and got a kidnapper's haircut special. Fixing things isn't your forte!" the stylist just raised a brow at Greed. This sounded like a messed up relationship.
On Sun, Aug 3, 2014 at 1:03 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
“I'm trying to fix shit. Let me fix shit." Did she really want to walk out like this without a bag over her head. She'd never asked him to do these things, he did them because he wanted to. With the wave of his hand he motioned fir the stylist to continue.
On Aug 3, 2014 3:07 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Maybe I LIKE looking like a rat burrowed itself into my head." she gripped the sides of the chair and looked at Greed with flames in her eyes, "Are you trying to buy me?" did he realize how insane that sounded?
On Sun, Aug 3, 2014 at 11:48 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"We will deal with that next. Right now you look like a rat burrowed itself into your head, now let the man cut it!" She needed to feel good about herself again, not think about the next bottle of wine she was going to break into when she got home.
"I mean shit, if you're that worried I can pay off the rest of the years rent until you find someone."
On Aug 3, 2014 2:42 PM, "Lucky L." <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe didn't want to leave the apartment, she felt sick. But Greed put her in a sunny yellow blouse and some jeans and dragged her out. She swatted away the guy's hand from her hair and looked at Greed's reflection in the mirror at the ffancy salon he dragged her to, "I don't need this! I have to find a job so I can pay for the apartment I can't afford because I don't have a roommate anymore." the stylist tried to pick up a short lock of hair again and Zoe slapped his hand again, "I will use those scissors on you in a place yu normally don't cut." she warned with a pointed finger.
On Sun, Aug 3, 2014 at 10:53 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe may not have forgiven him but he was going to make sure she had a haircut. Derek had destroyed those pretty cotton candy locks. Maybe Greed couldn't fix the aftermath of his deal but he could pay for am expensive haircut. She would look like his baby seal again instead of a chopping block.
It also got her out of the cave of her apartment. She had spent too long in the dark with alcohol as her vice.