Sep. 30th, 2012 at 10:29 PM
[ He hadn’t wanted it. It was selfish and cruel of him but Heimdall had truly thought he could keep Aubrey as herself, nothing else. Sigyn was a lovely woman – and he did love her, more than he felt ready to express – and yet, harmed, hurt, pained by loss of husband and children. And there was also all the things they hadn’t been able to talk back then. How he had chosen his duty just as she had chosen his. How he had killed her husband even though he could do nothing else.
Asgard was his home. Asgard was everything he wanted to protect. Not even she was more important.
Now though, he had no clue what to do. It was why he repeated his little routine, the half an hour spent every day wondering if he should call, discuss the subjects which remained like them like open wounds. Every time he tried to reach for the cellphone, he read her words. That Loki and the promise she had made to him came first. And the cellphone was placed down again, the call undone. Fucking damnit. He had done a mess out of this.
He missed the time when he was just Jim and she was just Aubrey. That was a fact. ]
Asgard was his home. Asgard was everything he wanted to protect. Not even she was more important.
Now though, he had no clue what to do. It was why he repeated his little routine, the half an hour spent every day wondering if he should call, discuss the subjects which remained like them like open wounds. Every time he tried to reach for the cellphone, he read her words. That Loki and the promise she had made to him came first. And the cellphone was placed down again, the call undone. Fucking damnit. He had done a mess out of this.
He missed the time when he was just Jim and she was just Aubrey. That was a fact. ]