So can I handle mature themes N/N?
So, if anyone read this post on my own journal you’ve know that one of my characters has had a rather significant change in her back story.
I’m trying to work though her changes in personality before I write any more scenes with her, and boy is it giving me a headache. Six drabbles are under the cut, written using prompts from voicesinmyhead
Who are you? I am Lady Orrowachun Ark’I Daugher of the Holy Mother. I am the youngest Sister of the Sungod to date. I’m proud that my faith has kept me strong though out my life and has enabled me to achieve such a goal to, to be proud of. I’m well trained in healing and believe that every, almost every person is deserving of help even if that person is your enemy. ‘The most grievous insult to one that wishes you ill is to aid them when they are ill and to rise above any hardships they try to weigh you down with.’
Family: My mother is the leader of my religious order, my father was sadly killed at the Green Cave disaster. I have no sisters of birth, but I have many sisters of faith, they are very caring and watch out for me. Their children like me, I’m a little closer to their age than their mothers. Their husbands…treat me with the respect than I am due. My family is a happy one. There’s no reason in the world for me to feel lonely.
What are your thoughts on Love? Love is important in our faith, it’s what gives life, and what allows us to treat those who need our aid. All the other sisters of the Sun are married and have children because to become a sister one had to have brought life and love into the world. It is a coming of age, a trail to prove that we are worthy of becoming sisters of the Sun. And sometimes, to truly love something is painful, because the only way for them to feel love is to let them go. Because the only thing I could bring him is pain.
What do you fear? It’s childish. I’m scared of the dark, and I’m scared of being alone. Years ago I got lost, and I found myself in Cheapside. Parts of Cheapside are so very dark, The buildings block the light from the corestone, those places are cold to, it’s probably why so many people in Cheapside become ill. Bad people hide in the dark. And they like little lost girls who are all alone.
What makes you angry? People who hurt each other. Don’t get me wrong, I understand fighting for what you believe in, or to protect something precious, but to attack and hurt someone, just to hear them cry, to taste their tears, to see their blood matting their fur. People like that make me so, so angry.
What is your greatest loss? No one knows. Everyone knows, but they aren’t allowed to let on. I’m the youngest Sister of the Sun ever, there’s a reason for that. Only someone who’s a mother can be a Sister to all creation. I was to young to be a mother I am to young to be a mother No one knows, everyone knows but him. He can’t know that there was no love that brought him into being, Only pain a suffering.
I could have been a mother, I could have learned, I could have loved him enough to make up for his…sire.
No one knows. Everyone knows.
This is pretty much a dry run to see how I can handle such dark subject without being over the top...Emo? Angsty? Without being over the top whatever it was that made Tasha seem such a bad character in the first six chapters of TCoLg.