the GazettE - Unworthy to Love - DRABBLE
Title: Unworthy to Love
Band: the GazettE
Author: Reila
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG-13?
Pairings: Onesided Reita/Uruha; implied Reita/Aoi
Summary: You were constantly there for me whenever I was down, willing to pick up the broken pieces that had fallen. Why was I so blind? [Uruha's POV]
Comments: This was...written for a friend. I hurt her and I regret it. I just hope that, one day, she can forgive me. I never meant to do it. And~ I'm not sure if this is considered a oneshot [it's too short, in my opinion] or a drabble [too long]. Please don't be too harsh; first person point of view is new to me and I want to try something new. n-n;;


I constantly hurt you, unable to see the hints you've thrown me time and time again. You were constantly there for me whenever I was down, willing to pick up the broken pieces that had fallen. Why was I so blind?

Is it selfish of me to say that I want you for only myself? It is, isn't it? I'm sorry it took me so long to realize how much I mean to you, meant to you at one time...how much you mean to me. I was too wrapped up in the faceless girls, unable to see how much each one of them bothered and tormented you. I realize that now, Akira.

But it's too late, isn't it? You've longed to capture my attention, craved to be the one to make me truly smile, something you haven't seen since we were kids. You've got it now; you have my attention and it's focused only on you, but your attention is no longer on me anymore; the elegant, raven-haird guitarist has it now, doesn't he?

What if I started dressing like him, get rid of all of my shorts and start wearing his kind of style? Will you notice me then? What if I try acting like him, strutting around with the sly smirk and carry that playful personality? Will I be good enough for you to love me again?

No, it won't be...because you love him now, right? All of your attention, love, and devotion and there's nothing left for me. I don't hate him; he's one of my best friends and I could never do that. I hate myself for pushing you aside and neglecting you; I can only imagine how much that hurt you.

Please, Akira...if you don't love me anymore, just please say you forgive me. Please tell me that we're still friends despite everything I've put you through.

I know you'll find it in your heart to accept my apology, even though I know it's not good enough. It was something you always did, right? I hate how willing you are to forgive me for always doing stupid shit, whether it hurt you or not. Why are you like that, Akira? Why don't you ever just tell me you hate me like I deserve?

Maybe this is your way of getting me back..? You're in love with Aoi now, which means you won't be there to pick up the pieces, to catch me when I fall. No, you're too nice to do something like that; it's karma's way of telling me that this is what I deserve.

I'm glad you're happy, though, even thoug it pains me to see you so happy with someone else. With all that you've done, you deserve to be loved while I...I am, and always will be, unworthy of your love.


Owari.


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