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Tweak says, "i want that lovey dovey..."

beautifulquinn (beautifulquinn) wrote in mckinley_high,
@ 2012-05-09 10:15:00

Entry tags:

! aim, # character: genny montgomery, # character: quinn fabray

AIM Log
Who: Genny and Quinn
When: 5/8/12, middle of the night!
What: Girl talk! (Including Jeff & Nick, Diego, and some plotting)
Rating: PG(ish?)
Warnings: Language

Hey, Quinn, you busy?

Not at all. What's up?

Okay, so, on a scale of 1-10, how *essential* is Junior prom? Like, I could skip it and not want to pull a 'Carrie' next year, right?

.......you need to go to prom.
Why wouldn't you go to prom?

Because I don't think I have a date.

What???
Back up and rewind. Jeff?

Is an idiot. And stupid, and dumb and I'm pretty sure he wants to break up with me before he goes to his stupid ivy league school in the fall, but he won't just SAY SO, he just keeps shoving that damn hoodie in my face like I'm supposed to be happy that he's going to find someone hotter and smarter there and i'm going to be stuck in lima for the rest of forever.
and he hasn't said anything about prom and he KNOWS it's coming up, so...yeah.

Whoa. Okay. Umm.

...That may have been more than you needed to know.
sorry.

Deep breath first. Do you want me to talk to him? I'm almost positive he doesn't feel that way. Take it from me, the transition with leaving is rough sometimes. But Jeff...hasn't he always been oblivious? I know I haven't been close to you guys for long, but this doesn't seem like anything really new.

Yeah, he's oblivious, but...This is something big, Quinn...He's leaving, and it's like he doesn't even care what happens when he does. It's just "Hey, help me pick out sheets for my dorm room" or "hey, look how many doctor who clubs there are on campus" or "hey, look, I'm wearing my stupid Penn hoodie in 80 degree weather because i'm a moron who can't wait to leave".
...again, more than you needed.

It's fine, really.
Have you told him how you feel?

No, I haven't really told anyone...I just...I don't have anyone else who gets it, you know? Like, okay, Blaine and Tina kind of do, but, I mean, have you *seen* their relationships? Like, I'm pretty sure Kurt and Blaine can survive a zombie outbreak at this point, and Tina and Mike are like, to the point where they barely have to talk to know what the other is thinking.
Jeff and I aren't like that. We're a relationship built on awkward and weird.

But he won't know if you don't talk to him. you know?
Kinda like... oh, nevermind. Different subject altogether. But...he cares about you. Anyone can see that.

But what if that doesn't matter? What if, at the end of the day, I'm still just the lame high school girl that he doesn't want to be dating when he goes off to college?

I... don't know. To be honest.
I don't think that would happen, though.

I don't like not knowing...but I'm scared that knowing isn't going to work out the way I want it to.

I think it's only fair to both of you that you tell him what's in your head. Life is too short to risk him never knowing and this being wasted time.

...fair enough. I don't know how to say it without sounding clingy or ridiculous, though.
I mean, those whole "I'm scared your going to forget me" speeches sound great on tv, but...

He'll understand

...I am kind of underestimating him a little, aren't I?

what do you mean?

Like, I'm expecting him to ditch me for a college girl. I mean, he's never given me a reason to think he would do that...
I just...It's a possibility.

It's a fear, Genny. I get that. I bet he will too. But you could always just ask him about prom and go from there?

true...one bridge at a time could work.

not at all overwhelming then

It is a lot more manageable...Not really sure how to go about asking...The last time I texted him, I wasn't exactly....
I was bitch.
bitchy*

What did you say???

....Something along the lines of "I'm sure I'll like that sweatshirt in a month or two, Stockholm will have set in by then"...

Oh, Genny....

I may have also said he knows nothing about clothing and neither do any of his friends.
Which, to be fair...the majority of them don't.

I don't think he'd have gotten you a sweatshirt if he didn't think you'd be wearing it to support him while he's there.
Just saying.

but that's just it. It's his sweatshirt. like, he offers it to me if it's chilly, but at the end of the day, he takes it back and goes back to be mr. "i'm going to penn, woohoo".

He's excited... I...don't know, Genny. Do you want me to pick at his brain sometime?

I...If you don't mind? Yes.
quinn fabray (3:01:51 AM): I can. Not a problem at all, Gen. I can be casual. Promise.

I don't doubt that. Better you than Nick.

I gotta get some sleep before school tomorrow. But we'll chat then? maybe a lunch date?
Oh god, Don't let Nick talk to him. As cute as he is and all.

Sounds like a plan!
...Oh...Nick is *cute*, huh?

I didn't say that.

Oh, but I think you did.
And I think I have the chat window to prove it.

I'm glaring at you right now. You just can't see it. Don't tell, okay?

Haha, I'm terrified, Quinn. You just can't see it. I won't tell. Your crush is your business.
Endless teasing, however? Totally within the rules.

Haha. But he is cute, right? I mean...seriously. And he's been so ridiculously nice since that day in the hospital.

He is cute. And he's a really good guy. You could do much, MUCH worse than ending up Mrs. Nick Duval. ;)

But...we're not talking about me! I'll text him tomorrow. Or email him. Just talk about Penn, his plans. I've got you covered, girl. I promise. You and Jeff are like. Perfect, though. So I wouldn't worry too much. Okay? It'll work out.
I'm not Mrs. Nick Duval. Although... I could have been Mrs. Diego Lopez...

...Yeah. About that? Glad you're not going to be.

Yeah?

He just...You kinda lost your spark for a minute. You went from being "Quinn who just got in to Yale and is taking on the world" to "Quinn with a pseudo stepson and fiance".

Haha. Yeah. I did, didn't I? Then I became "Quinn who can't walk and has a way-too-horny fiance-type-thing..." and... I did.

But now you're "Quinn who maybe can't walk for the moment, but isn't letting anybody stop her...and who has a cute boy at Physical Therapy who blushes when she talks to him"

Shhhh! But yes. It's kinda true.
If only Physical Therapy was going better.

Give it time. You kinda did a number on yourself, girl. It's not going to fix itself in a few weeks.

No...I guess it's not.
But it's been... a long ass time since I've been able to stand. Besides Nick's never gonna wanna progress beyond friends if I can't... ya know. Like.
If he has to...do all the work? I'm so done talking about that.

...Quinn.
He *so* is not that kind of guy.

Haha. I know.
But it doesn't stop me from wanting to be better for him.

....quinn and nicky sittin in a tree...

shut up! or I'll just..... I don't even know.

:D how about you think on what you'll do to me and tell me at school tomorrow?

Deal. Okay. Legit, though. Bed.
I'll see you for lunch....
yes/
*?

Definitely.

Sweet. Night, Gen. Don't worry about it. Everything WILL work out just fun.