Aim Log: Brittany and Will
Who: Brittany and Will When: 03/28 evening Where: aim What: Brittany wants to ask about Sugar Warnings: PG, talks of homophobia
Brittany Pierce (12:42:46 AM): Mr. Schue, not that I want to do anything about Sugar, but.... could I? gleegoldenboy10 (12:44:05 AM): What do you mean? gleegoldenboy10 (12:44:13 AM): I hope it doesn't entail being violent Brittany Pierce (12:44:27 AM): Well, no, I don't want to be violent with her. I'm just really mad. gleegoldenboy10 (12:44:58 AM): And you do have every right to be. Have you talked to her about all of this? Brittany Pierce (12:45:56 AM): No, I'm afraid to right now, I don't know if I trust myself not to say something really mean gleegoldenboy10 (12:50:05 AM): I can understand that. But I think you should try to talk to her eventually. You should tell her how you feel, but make sure to pick your words wisely. words can hurt Brittany Pierce (12:51:03 AM): I know they can. I just.... it's kinda the same as Santana when she got outed gleegoldenboy10 (12:52:54 AM): I'm sure. I don't quite know the entire situation but it sounded like things got pretty bad Brittany Pierce (12:54:50 AM): They did. And now it's going to be that bad with my parents. I have two days to move out of my house gleegoldenboy10 (12:58:05 AM): oh wow... gleegoldenboy10 (12:58:10 AM): I'm sorry, Brittany Brittany Pierce (12:59:22 AM): Thanks, Mr. Schue, I appreciate that. I don't know what to do, Mom says she's disappointed in me gleegoldenboy10 (1:06:36 AM): why's that? Brittany Pierce (1:06:49 AM): Because she says she wanted more for me than being a unicorn gleegoldenboy10 (1:08:26 AM): Did she actually use the term unicorn? Brittany Pierce (1:08:42 AM): Yes, because she knows it's what I call them gleegoldenboy10 (1:14:47 AM): I see. Brittany Pierce (1:15:08 AM): And Dad hasn't said a word to me at all since he saw it. gleegoldenboy10 (1:16:00 AM): But you are so much more than just being a unicorn, Brittany. I hope you realize that Brittany Pierce (1:17:39 AM): I do, but they don't seem to be on to that fact and it's upsetting. I hate disappointing them Brittany Pierce (1:19:38 AM): I'm afraid to even leave my room gleegoldenboy10 (1:20:18 AM): I believe every kid has that fear of disappointing their parents. Even someone like me.. gleegoldenboy10 (1:20:40 AM): Lemme ask you, are you happy? Brittany Pierce (1:20:58 AM): Well, not that my parents are having such a hard time, but with Santana, yes gleegoldenboy10 (1:23:30 AM): that's good to hear Brittany Pierce (1:23:57 AM): Santana offered for us to break up if it would fix things, and I told her I didn't want to do that gleegoldenboy10 (1:25:13 AM): And I'm sure you don't. You deserve to be happy. Brittany Pierce (1:26:04 AM): Thanks, Mr. Schue. My sister is being great about it, though. She's only going to be nine on her birthday but she's very smart. She says Mom and Dad will come around, and to just give them time gleegoldenboy10 (1:26:40 AM): Yes. And I'll tell you the same thing. They will come around. gleegoldenboy10 (1:26:54 AM): ...do you know if you are a unicorn? Or a bicorn? gleegoldenboy10 (1:27:13 AM): It's ok if you don't know though Brittany Pierce (1:29:05 AM): I don't know, I've been wondering that too. I don't know how to figure it out, I thought about asking Kurt how he knew, 'cause I don't want Santana to think I don't want to be with her gleegoldenboy10 (1:31:26 AM): it's hard to explain. but you just sort of know. it's how you want to physically and emotionally want to connect with someone if that makes sense Brittany Pierce (1:32:34 AM): I think so. Did you ever.... experiment? If that's too personal you don't have to tell me. Mom kept calling it that before this all happened gleegoldenboy10 (1:37:27 AM): No. It's fine. In some cases, you can call it "experimenting" but it's about coming to terms with one form of your identity. To understand who you are. Being a unicorn or bicorn is just one element of your identity. Another element of your identity could be your gender expression -- male or female. And another could be your ethnic origin -- white, black, Latino, Asian, etc. gleegoldenboy10 (1:38:43 AM): Yes, as humans we do tend to question and experiment these feelings and desires. But it is a matter on if we act upon them or not. I don't think I ever really experimented because I knew what I was looking for in a person. How I wanted to connect to them on a emotional, physical and to a lesser extent spiritual level. Brittany Pierce (1:39:46 AM): I am happy with Santana, and I guess it doesn't matter either way, but it would be nice to know, whether I am one or not, because I just want to know I am doing the right thing. gleegoldenboy10 (1:42:27 AM): Which is fine. And one day you'll figure that out Brittany Pierce (1:43:04 AM): I hope so. What if by then I don't want to be with Santana anymore? I don't know what I would do without her gleegoldenboy10 (1:46:47 AM): you two are best friends, so I'm sure you'll find a way to still be together Brittany Pierce (1:47:08 AM): it's different when you've dated and then you break up gleegoldenboy10 (1:51:17 AM): That is true. But you two seem pretty inseperable. Brittany Pierce (1:51:33 AM): we have been, since we were really little gleegoldenboy10 (1:52:42 AM): You two will be fine Brittany Pierce (1:54:33 AM): I hope you're right. I really appreciate you, Mr. Schue gleegoldenboy10 (1:55:19 AM): Well, anyway I can help out. That's what I'm here for, Brittany Brittany Pierce (1:56:49 AM): I know, you're the best teacher at McKinley gleegoldenboy10 (2:00:06 AM): I wouldn't necessarily say that, but thanks Brittany Pierce (2:01:29 AM): You're welcome, and I would, none of the other teachers really take me seriously gleegoldenboy10 (2:04:18 AM): You're a very insightful young woman, Brittany. I don't think enough people appreciate that Brittany Pierce (2:05:04 AM): Thanks, Mr. Schue. Most of my teachers just think I'm stupid gleegoldenboy10 (2:07:52 AM): I don't think you are. You just have a different way of learning and understanding things, which isn't necessarily a bad thing. gleegoldenboy10 (2:08:12 AM): I do apologize if you thought I ever did in the past, though. Brittany Pierce (2:08:43 AM): I didn't, I always liked you, even when Coach Sue had us spying gleegoldenboy10 (2:11:12 AM): I appreciate that, Brittany Brittany Pierce (2:11:54 AM): it's true. It always takes me so long to learn things, but I learned the abcs so much faster when you taught me gleegoldenboy10 (2:13:14 AM): Well I'm glad I could help you with that Brittany Pierce (2:14:08 AM): I read so much better now, I actually started one of the Twilight books, and it's slow but I'm actually understanding it gleegoldenboy10 (2:17:11 AM): That's good. I'm not a fan of the series myself, but are you enjoying it? Brittany Pierce (2:18:23 AM): yeah, I don't see what the fuss is about over Edward and Jacob, but it's a good book. I figure if I get through it I can try something harder gleegoldenboy10 (2:23:30 AM): That's good to hear. And there is a library of books for you to choose from that I'm sure you'll enjoy. Brittany Pierce (2:23:59 AM): Yeah, I like it now that I can do it. It should even help my grades gleegoldenboy10 (2:31:19 AM): It will. And you'll be graduating before you know it Brittany Pierce (2:32:12 AM): I know. :-) I can't wait to go to New York with Santana and Puck. gleegoldenboy10 (2:37:26 AM): I'm sure you're very excited about that Brittany Pierce (2:39:06 AM): I am, we're getting an apartment, Santana wants to save money, she thought asking Puck would help with that gleegoldenboy10 (2:46:58 AM): That is good to hear you're all sticking together Brittany Pierce (2:48:07 AM): Yeah, it's going to be nice, to have them with me. Puck says he's excited too. gleegoldenboy10 (2:54:27 AM): I'm glad. You'll all be fine Brittany Pierce (2:58:37 AM): I hope you're right. New York can be dangerous. gleegoldenboy10 (3:00:35 AM): Yes, it can be, but you'll have each other. Brittany Pierce (3:00:57 AM): yeah, Santana says that's another reason why she wants Puck to go gleegoldenboy10 (3:05:04 AM): all the better reason for him to join you two Brittany Pierce (3:05:59 AM): I was kind of mad at him for awhile but I'm OK now gleegoldenboy10 (3:07:35 AM): that's good Brittany Pierce (3:07:49 AM): He was just being Puck gleegoldenboy10 (3:08:24 AM): yeah, you can't blame him for that Brittany Pierce (3:09:19 AM): He just has sex, it's what he does gleegoldenboy10 (3:15:54 AM): That's Puck for you Brittany Pierce (3:17:10 AM): yup. I just want him to be happy though, I think if he found someone to be with he could be gleegoldenboy10 (3:21:40 AM): And he will. There's someone out there for everyone Brittany Pierce (3:22:50 AM): I think you're right. He's dated, well, slept with so many girls at school I can't believe none of them stuck gleegoldenboy10 (3:27:12 AM): love strikes us when we least expect it Brittany Pierce (3:27:51 AM): That's true too. I've never loved anyone besides Santana and Artie gleegoldenboy10 (3:32:19 AM): that's sweet Brittany Pierce (3:32:36 AM): I would probably still love Artie if he hadn't called me stupid gleegoldenboy10 (3:33:24 AM): That must have been pretty hurtful. But I'm sure he didn't mean it Brittany Pierce (3:35:00 AM): I am sure he didn't. But he really hurt me and I decided it was better to just be friends with him. He said Santana was manipulating me gleegoldenboy10 (3:35:35 AM): I really doubt that Brittany Pierce (3:37:13 AM): I know, I didn't think she was either. Everyone thinks she's such a bad person but she's not. gleegoldenboy10 (3:41:59 AM): No. Of course not. gleegoldenboy10 (3:42:26 AM): Now, the way the approached the situation with Sugar could have been handled better. gleegoldenboy10 (3:42:35 AM): she* Brittany Pierce (3:43:02 AM): I don't even know what she said, she just said she talked to her gleegoldenboy10 (3:49:06 AM): I don't know the entire situation except Santana was upset with Sugar and said she wanted to 'murder her' which crosses the line into bullying Brittany Pierce (3:50:12 AM): Definitely, but I don't think she would gleegoldenboy10 (3:55:57 AM): I would hope not. But even when someone is joking it can still hurt Brittany Pierce (3:56:28 AM): It can, I am still mad at her but I hope she's OK gleegoldenboy10 (3:56:59 AM): I'm sure she is. when you are ready you two should talk though. Brittany Pierce (3:58:31 AM): I will. I just want to calm down first, because when I get mad I sometimes say mean things and I don't like to be mean gleegoldenboy10 (3:59:45 AM): That's perfectly fine. Being mad is like any other emotion a person has. It's normal Brittany Pierce (4:00:58 AM): Yeah. I just can't keep seeing the looks on my parents' faces. Daddy's sleeping with his shotgun gleegoldenboy10 (4:01:49 AM): That's pretty serious Brittany Pierce (4:02:12 AM): he's afraid to catch the unicorn gleegoldenboy10 (4:05:20 AM): ...does he think it's a disease? Brittany Pierce (4:05:55 AM): I don't know, I never thought he was like that until today. He never acted like that around Santana, and he knew we were dating gleegoldenboy10 (4:06:18 AM): Hmmm, that seems odd gleegoldenboy10 (4:06:48 AM): And he didn't have a problem about you two dating? Brittany Pierce (4:07:36 AM): He always acted like he was fine. Maybe he thought it was a phase gleegoldenboy10 (4:10:32 AM): and with some people it is a "phase" at the same time, people should have respect for someone else's sexual fluidity. gleegoldenboy10 (4:10:57 AM): unfortunately, that's isn't a happy reality we live in gleegoldenboy10 (4:12:15 AM): and I really hate to see you, or Santana, or Blaine, Or Kurt or even David Karofsky go through that. or any other closeted person live in such fear because they can't be themselves. gleegoldenboy10 (4:12:31 AM): I wish I can do more for all of you. Brittany Pierce (4:13:15 AM): That is one thing I never worried about, being in the closet. I was fine with telling people I was with Santana. I appreciate it though, Mr. Schue, I don't want you to get hurt because of any of us. People are violent gleegoldenboy10 (4:14:37 AM): But it is a risk -- as an ally -- I am willing to take for any of you. And not just you. But for any of your other classmates in Glee. Brittany Pierce (4:15:21 AM): I know. We all love you for it too. gleegoldenboy10 (4:16:14 AM): And I love you all too. You've made these last few years of my life the best I could ever ask for Brittany Pierce (4:19:17 AM): That's good. glee is the best class gleegoldenboy10 (4:24:13 AM): I'm glad you enjoy it. And I'll miss all of you who will be leaving me after this year Brittany Pierce (4:24:25 AM): We'll have to come back and visit gleegoldenboy10 (4:24:44 AM): Yes definitely. I look forward to visits from former students gleegoldenboy10 (4:24:45 AM): :-) gleegoldenboy10 (4:24:53 AM): ...not that you are yet. but you know what I mean gleegoldenboy10 (4:25:12 AM): Let's bring home a national title and really make this a year worth it Brittany Pierce (4:25:51 AM): yeah, definitely gleegoldenboy10 (4:26:13 AM): But it's late. And I need to get some rest. gleegoldenboy10 (4:26:17 AM): I'll see you tomorrow Brittany Pierce (4:26:32 AM): OK I will see you tomorrow Mr. Schue. Thanks for the talk gleegoldenboy10 (4:26:47 AM): Anytime, Brittany. Good night Brittany Pierce (4:27:03 AM): night!