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Brittany Pierce (12:41:30 AM): Hi Santana
Santana Lopez (12:41:42 AM): hey baby i MISSED you :-D
Brittany Pierce (12:42:07 AM): I missed you too :-)
Santana Lopez (12:42:24 AM): i had sex with puck.
Brittany Pierce (12:47:20 AM): Oh, well, was it good?
Santana Lopez (12:47:29 AM): not as good as with you
Santana Lopez (12:47:45 AM): but... you were gone, and i was desperate
Santana Lopez (12:47:52 AM): and so worried
Brittany Pierce (12:50:26 AM): well, I'm sorry, I won't disappear again
Santana Lopez (12:50:32 AM): thanks
Santana Lopez (12:50:42 AM): you can fuck him, if you want
Santana Lopez (12:50:46 AM): it's only fair
Brittany Pierce (12:51:49 AM): Well, I might. Maybe we can fuck him togethert
Santana Lopez (12:51:58 AM): well yeah
Santana Lopez (12:52:14 AM): when we go to ny and he lives with us, i'm hoping we can do that like, a lot
Santana Lopez (12:52:26 AM): but i'm saying, if you wanna go it alone with him you can
Brittany Pierce (10:03:39 PM): I might. It's been a long time since I've slept with him by myself
Santana Lopez (10:03:46 PM): k
Brittany Pierce (10:07:43 PM): I can't find Lord Tubbs, I think he's mad 'cause I threw out his cigs
Santana Lopez (10:07:57 PM): he's probably out fighting vampires
Brittany Pierce (10:09:06 PM): you think so?
Santana Lopez (10:09:17 PM): well he goes out all the time, right?
Santana Lopez (10:09:19 PM): at night?
Santana Lopez (10:09:23 PM): and i've never seen any vampires
Brittany Pierce (10:09:35 PM): I haven't either. Wow...
Santana Lopez (10:09:54 PM): yeah
Santana Lopez (10:10:04 PM): of course, if he's our generation's Slayer
Santana Lopez (10:10:10 PM): you better keep it on the downlow
Brittany Pierce (10:13:02 PM): that's true
Brittany Pierce (10:19:07 PM): I am gonna ask him about it
Brittany Pierce (3:11:00 AM): Santana, I am confused
Santana Lopez (3:11:11 AM): ?
Brittany Pierce (3:11:58 AM): I don't know how to feel about you and Puck
Santana Lopez (3:12:03 AM): ...
Santana Lopez (3:12:08 AM): i don't know what you're asking me.
Brittany Pierce (3:13:08 AM): I don't know whether I should be mad or not
Santana Lopez (3:13:17 AM): maybe a little.
Santana Lopez (3:13:26 AM): but i thought puck was okay to, you know. do stuff with
Santana Lopez (3:13:45 AM): plus you did wander off for two weeks without saying a thing to m
Santana Lopez (3:13:47 AM): e
Brittany Pierce (3:14:44 AM): I was talking to Kurt about it
Santana Lopez (3:14:50 AM): ugh
Santana Lopez (3:14:55 AM): kurt always thinks i'm a jerk
Brittany Pierce (3:15:33 AM): I know, and I'm not saying he's right. He told me I should be mad about it. I am not saying I am, what I am saying is I'm confused
Santana Lopez (3:15:50 AM): well what do you want me to say
Brittany Pierce (3:16:02 AM): I don't know.
Brittany Pierce (3:17:48 AM): But.... I think I'm not mad
Santana Lopez (3:19:30 AM): ok
Santana Lopez (3:19:39 AM): i wouldn't have gone to anyone else
Santana Lopez (3:19:47 AM): i was just... frightened and alone and didn't know what else to do
Brittany Pierce (3:20:51 AM): I can understand that. But I think I might sleep with him too, just so we're even.
Santana Lopez (3:21:01 AM): yeah well i already said that
Brittany Pierce (3:21:38 AM): I know. I also asked him about Lord Tubbs being gay
Santana Lopez (3:21:47 AM): ...that was a joke.
Brittany Pierce (3:21:57 AM): I know, but it made me start thinkign
Brittany Pierce (3:21:59 AM): *thinking
Santana Lopez (3:22:10 AM): about what
Brittany Pierce (3:22:28 AM): About Tubbs being gay, he's been acting funny lately anyway
Santana Lopez (3:23:35 AM): what'd kurt have to say about that
Brittany Pierce (3:24:46 AM): He said he could be, there's gay penguins who raised a baby togethet
Brittany Pierce (3:24:50 AM): *together
Santana Lopez (3:24:54 AM): cool
Brittany Pierce (3:25:15 AM): And I said I'm worried that he won't get a bf at the moment, he's on Adkins
Santana Lopez (3:25:42 AM): you should tell him that if people don't love him for who he is they're not worth it
Santana Lopez (3:25:46 AM): tell tubbs i mean
Brittany Pierce (3:26:33 AM): I know, I just don't want him to be disappointed
Santana Lopez (3:26:40 AM): the people who truly love him won't care if he has a few extra pounds on
Santana Lopez (3:26:52 AM): i mean you still love him, right?
Brittany Pierce (3:27:02 AM): Of course. Even if he's a unicorn
Santana Lopez (3:31:43 AM): k
Brittany Pierce (3:32:46 AM): Mom says I'm grounded for two weeks, for leaving and not telling her where I was going
Santana Lopez (3:32:54 AM): ...that sucks
Brittany Pierce (3:33:09 AM): It's OK you know I've gotten good at breaking rules
Brittany Pierce (3:34:53 AM): We just might have to sneak around some. Steffie says she'll cover for us
Santana Lopez (3:35:03 AM): that's good
Brittany Pierce (3:35:31 AM): yeah, she's a good little sister
Santana Lopez (3:35:42 AM): nice
Brittany Pierce (3:36:31 AM): yeah, she says she watched Lord Tubbs for me when I was gone
Santana Lopez (3:36:41 AM): oh, that was nice of her
Brittany Pierce (3:36:53 AM): Yeah, especially since he gets lonely without me
Santana Lopez (3:37:04 AM): so why'd you go then
Brittany Pierce (3:37:54 AM): I wanted to be a princess, like the Narnia kids
Santana Lopez (3:38:04 AM): you're already my princess.
Brittany Pierce (3:38:52 AM): aw, thanks, San. I was wanting a pretty dress and a crown
Santana Lopez (3:39:04 AM): i'd buy you anything i wanted
Santana Lopez (3:39:07 AM): you** wanted
Brittany Pierce (3:39:52 AM): But it doesn't seem fair to ask you to buy me a dress and a crown
Santana Lopez (3:40:13 AM): but it's fair to ask me to live for two whole weeks not even knowing if you were ALIVE?
Brittany Pierce (3:40:37 AM): Are you mad? Do I have to do something to make it up to you?
Santana Lopez (3:40:43 AM): no just...
Santana Lopez (3:40:47 AM): don't do it again
Brittany Pierce (3:41:09 AM): I can't promise I won't disappear, but I can promise to tell you next time
Santana Lopez (3:41:17 AM): ok
Brittany Pierce (3:42:28 AM): I want you, though, right now
Santana Lopez (3:42:37 AM): right now?
Brittany Pierce (3:42:54 AM): yes.
Brittany Pierce (3:43:10 AM): We don't have to sleep together unless you want, I just want to be with you
Santana Lopez (3:43:18 AM): ok
Santana Lopez (3:43:19 AM): well
Santana Lopez (3:43:27 AM): i always want you here
Santana Lopez (3:43:34 AM): i wanted you to move in
Brittany Pierce (3:43:47 AM): I would feel bad leaving Steffie
Santana Lopez (3:43:56 AM): she'd be ok
Brittany Pierce (3:44:07 AM): I know she would, but I would miss her
Santana Lopez (3:44:12 AM): well
Santana Lopez (3:44:18 AM): we're gonna get married one day, right?
Brittany Pierce (3:45:17 AM): yes
Santana Lopez (3:45:35 AM): so you'll have to move in with me sometime
Brittany Pierce (3:46:16 AM): I know, it's not that I don't want to, I do, but we'll be together in New York
Santana Lopez (3:46:23 AM): idw wait that long
Brittany Pierce (3:46:35 AM): It's not that far away, Tana
Santana Lopez (3:46:41 AM): hate waiting
Brittany Pierce (3:47:03 AM): I know you do
Santana Lopez (3:47:07 AM): makes me wanna go punch artie
Brittany Pierce (3:48:43 AM): wait, why?
Santana Lopez (3:48:52 AM): cos he stole all that time with you
Santana Lopez (3:48:56 AM): time when you should have been wtih me
Brittany Pierce (3:49:58 AM): I know, San, but I did love him, until he hurt me
Santana Lopez (3:50:13 AM): he called you dumb
Brittany Pierce (3:50:18 AM): I know, I remember
Santana Lopez (3:50:21 AM): i wanted to feed him his own teeth for that
Brittany Pierce (3:53:56 AM): I wasn't exactly his cheerleader after that happened
Santana Lopez (3:55:25 AM): yeah
Santana Lopez (3:55:41 AM): if he wasn't in a wheelchair i would have put him in one for that
Brittany Pierce (3:58:28 AM): I am glad you didn't hurt him, San, we have to be the bigger people
Santana Lopez (3:58:40 AM): i'm not a bigger person
Santana Lopez (3:58:53 AM): i only didn't hurt him, because i didn't want to hurt you.
Brittany Pierce (3:59:56 AM): I appreciate it, but I was mostly worried about what would have happened to you had you hurt him
Santana Lopez (4:00:06 AM): well. i'm gonna be a lawyer
Santana Lopez (4:00:14 AM): so i don't want any juvie records popping up
Brittany Pierce (4:00:44 AM): yeah, that makes sense
Santana Lopez (4:01:14 AM): i'm gonna be a lawyer that does civil rights cases, for LGBTQ people
Brittany Pierce (4:01:34 AM): All the unicorns will be in good hands then
Santana Lopez (4:01:37 AM): yeah
Santana Lopez (4:01:57 AM): i'll go to court and kick the asses of people who are mean to unicorns
Brittany Pierce (4:02:00 AM): I've been trying to decide if I'm a bicorn or a unicorn
Santana Lopez (4:02:14 AM): you know you don't have to decide, right?
Brittany Pierce (4:02:32 AM): I know, but I want to know, you seem happier since you know
Santana Lopez (4:02:37 AM): well
Santana Lopez (4:02:49 AM): i'm happier cos i was trying NOT to be a unicorn
Santana Lopez (4:03:06 AM): and now i... i get it. i get that it doesn't matter and that people still love me even though i'm a unicorn
Santana Lopez (4:03:25 AM): so i'm not trying so hard NOT to be a unicorn. i don't have to try so hard NOT to be who i AM
Santana Lopez (4:03:30 AM): and that's why i'm happier
Santana Lopez (4:03:50 AM): but you don't have to worry about that like i did
Santana Lopez (4:04:14 AM): have you talked to your mom and dad about this unicorn/bicorn stuff?
Brittany Pierce (4:06:20 AM): No, not yet
Santana Lopez (4:06:46 AM): have they ever said anything about it?
Santana Lopez (4:06:58 AM): like... my parents, i knew they'd be mad
Santana Lopez (4:07:14 AM): that's why i was scared
Brittany Pierce (4:10:52 AM): No, I think it's cause they are thinking it might be just experimenting
Santana Lopez (4:11:04 AM): ...do you think it is?
Brittany Pierce (4:12:27 AM): I don't think so, but I don't really know for sure
Santana Lopez (4:12:50 AM): do you think you could love me forever?
Brittany Pierce (4:15:06 AM): yeah, of course.
Santana Lopez (4:16:58 AM): ok then
Santana Lopez (4:17:09 AM): i mean i don't care if you love boys or girls
Santana Lopez (4:17:13 AM): i just want you to love ME.
Santana Lopez (4:17:22 AM): you know?
Brittany Pierce (4:19:50 AM): I guess I can get that. I just, I want to know for sure
Santana Lopez (4:20:21 AM): how do you think you can figure that out for sure?
Santana Lopez (4:20:33 AM): i mean... do you tihnk that fucking puck will help you figure it out?
Brittany Pierce (4:20:54 AM): ...Maybe, it's been awhile since I've slept with a guy
Santana Lopez (4:21:01 AM): now i'm scared
Santana Lopez (4:21:17 AM): i mean... what if you fuck him and decide you like it better than being with me?
Brittany Pierce (4:21:49 AM): Why would I decide that?
Santana Lopez (4:21:55 AM): idk
Santana Lopez (4:22:02 AM): i'm just... scared
Santana Lopez (4:22:19 AM): i just started thinking about what if you decided you like it better, and if you told me you didn't want to be wtih me anymore
Santana Lopez (4:22:25 AM): and it scared me so much i threw up
Santana Lopez (4:22:42 AM): i don't wanna... pressure you or anything but the thought of not being with you kills me
Brittany Pierce (4:23:47 AM): I didn't say that you were going to lose me, Santana, I know I love being with you, that's not going to change.
Santana Lopez (4:23:59 AM): k
Santana Lopez (4:24:16 AM): promise?
Brittany Pierce (4:26:36 AM): I promise
Santana Lopez (4:26:46 AM): i...
Santana Lopez (4:27:04 AM): i have something for you
Santana Lopez (4:27:12 AM): http://www.styles-guide.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/round-diamond-engagement-ring.jpg
Santana Lopez (4:31:06 AM): say something
Brittany Pierce (4:32:26 AM): Santana.... wow
Santana Lopez (4:32:39 AM): do you like it
Brittany Pierce (4:34:33 AM): I do, but why are you asking me?
Santana Lopez (4:34:44 AM): cos i wanna be with you
Santana Lopez (4:34:44 AM): forever
Santana Lopez (4:34:54 AM): i want to marry you
Brittany Pierce (4:35:57 AM): ... I don't know what to say
Santana Lopez (4:36:06 AM): jesus
Santana Lopez (4:36:09 AM): forget i said anything
Brittany Pierce (4:36:40 AM): Santana, it's just, it's so out of the blue, I had no idea you were going to ask me
Santana Lopez (4:36:51 AM): it's the second time i've tried toa sk
Santana Lopez (4:36:51 AM): to ask
Brittany Pierce (4:38:20 AM): I love you, Santana, I do.
Santana Lopez (4:38:28 AM): but you don't wanna marry me.
Brittany Pierce (4:39:03 AM): I didn't say that either!
Santana Lopez (4:39:21 AM): know when the first time i tried to ask you was?
Santana Lopez (4:39:38 AM): by the lockers. you know. the day when you chose artie over me
Brittany Pierce (4:41:36 AM): Wait. That was you proposing marriage?
Santana Lopez (4:41:49 AM): i was gonna be
Santana Lopez (4:41:49 AM): it*
Santana Lopez (4:42:07 AM): until you chose him
Brittany Pierce (4:44:39 AM): I didn't want to hurt him, Santana... I still feel bad for putting you through that.
Santana Lopez (4:45:00 AM): i don't get it
Santana Lopez (4:45:08 AM): you claimed to love me
Santana Lopez (4:45:15 AM): but you didn't think twice about hurting me
Brittany Pierce (4:46:37 AM): I didn't *want* to hurt you, have you been thinking that this whole time?
Santana Lopez (4:47:07 AM): not exactly
Santana Lopez (4:47:25 AM): i just thought... if you love me as much as you said you did then why pick him
Brittany Pierce (4:48:41 AM): I didn't want anyone to get hurt. And that's what ended up happening.
Santana Lopez (4:48:52 AM): yeah well
Santana Lopez (4:49:08 AM): you could have chosen me, and just hurt him a little
Santana Lopez (4:49:24 AM): but instead you chose him, KILLED me, and then hurt him anyway when you ended up breaking it off with him
Brittany Pierce (4:50:35 AM): Yeah, but he hurt me first, I didn't worry so much about it then. And I am sorry that you got hurt, Santana, I really am.
Santana Lopez (4:50:46 AM): it's ok
Santana Lopez (4:50:53 AM): well. it wasn't ok
Santana Lopez (4:50:57 AM): but we're ok now, right?
Brittany Pierce (4:51:08 AM): yes. I still want to be with you
Santana Lopez (4:51:13 AM): ok
Santana Lopez (4:51:28 AM): i'm sorry. i panicked
Brittany Pierce (4:52:24 AM): I can understand that. It's just, I am happy for Finn and Rachel, but I don't know why we can't just be happy being together. We are going to get married one day, I just don't know why it has to be now
Santana Lopez (4:52:50 AM): because i bought you a pretty sparkly, and i want you to wear it
Santana Lopez (4:52:56 AM): we don't have to get married tomorrow
Santana Lopez (4:53:12 AM): i just... i really like the idea of you wearing my ring
Brittany Pierce (4:54:01 AM): I.... I don't know what that's going to do with Mom and Dad
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Brittany Pierce (5:10:32 AM): Santana, I meant what I said last year about because of loving you more than I have ever loved anyone else in this world, that it's all going to be OK. I want to be with you forever, I want to wear your ring. Will you go with me to tell Mom and Dad?
Santana Lopez (5:11:02 AM): yeah, of course
Santana Lopez (5:11:13 AM): and we can tell them we're not doing a finchel
Santana Lopez (5:11:13 AM): we're not getting married tomorrow
Brittany Pierce (5:15:16 AM): I am sure that will be a good thing, and I am worried a little
Santana Lopez (5:15:27 AM): worried?
Brittany Pierce (5:17:09 AM): Just not sure what they're going to say
Santana Lopez (5:20:56 AM): you're still sleeping over tonight, right?
Brittany Pierce (5:22:02 AM): yeah, I'm just waiting for Mom and Dad to go to bed
Santana Lopez (5:22:13 AM): don't bring pajama
Santana Lopez (5:22:14 AM): s
Brittany Pierce (5:22:35 AM): lol I won't
Santana Lopez (5:22:51 AM): i'm gonna put that sparkly ring on your finger... do you really like it?
Santana Lopez (5:23:12 AM): and then we're gonna fall asleep, naked, all tangled together
Santana Lopez (5:23:14 AM): deal?
Brittany Pierce (5:23:39 AM): Yes, I love it. And you've got a deal