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gleeloser (gleeloser) wrote in mckinley_high,
@ 2012-03-20 21:37:00

Entry tags:

! thread, # character: carole hudson-hummel, # character: finn hudson, # character: sam evans, * status: incomplete

Who: Carole & Finn
When: Evening
What: Finn needs to get something off his shoulders
Where: The Hudmel Kitchen
Warnings: none

Finn took a deep breath before slowly descending the stairs. He couldn't act all big in front of Rachel and then totally chicken out when it came to talking to his mom. Besides, this was a good idea, he just knew it. He stepped into the kitchen, clearing his throat to get her attention.

"Mom, I need to talk to you." He sat down resisting the urge to just run back up to his room and hide. He didn't want to hurt his mom, never meant to disappoint her, but there was no going back from this. "Rachel and I have decided that we're not waiting until the summer. We'd like to get married this weekend and we'd really like it if you and Burt and Kurt could join us." He steeled himself for this next part, "Mom, I don't want to get married without you there by my side, and I'm sure Rachel doesn't either, you're already like a mother to her." He sighed, he couldn't look away, couldn't back down, he had to show her how important this was. "But if you're not going to be one hundred percent behind us then you can stay home, because this is going to be the best thing I've ever done in my life. She makes me happy, so happy, and I can't have anyone there who doesn't believe in us. Rachel deserves a perfect wedding and if I can't give her the big jewish wedding she's always dreamed of then I have to make this perfect, and it won't be if she looks at you and sees disappointment.

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momhudson
2012-03-21 03:49 am UTC (link)

Carole felt herself pale at Finn's speech, and sank down on one of the kitchen chairs as she listened. "Oh, Finn, I could never be disappointed in you," she told him, dismayed. "I'm not ready for you to get married, it makes me feel old, among other things -- but I will never, ever be disappointed, in you or in Rachel. If you want me there, I'll be there in a heartbeat, no question; I'd rather be there than miss my son's wedding, are you kidding me? I just want to know you two have thought this through -- where you're going to live after the wedding, who's paying bills, where you're going to be in six months or a year. This is a huge step, hon, I don't want you to go into it without knowing everything that you're getting into."

[ooc: reposting to edit Carole into the kitchen, sorry about that!]

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gleeloser
2012-03-21 09:16 pm UTC (link)

He shrugged, "We'll get an apartment, a small one, we don't need a lot of room. I'll keep working at Burt's as long as he'll let me, but if he doesn't want me there I'l get another job. I bet Sheets N Things will hire me back. And hopefully Rachel has some money to help, but if she doesn't that's okay, because it's supposed to be like, the guy's job to provide anyway. And when we graduate we'll go to New York where we'll both definitely have to get jobs, and we'll pay our own bills and make our own meals, and I'll probably sell my truck for extra money and just use the trains and stuff. And frankly I don't think any one knows what they're getting into a hundred percent of the time. You and Burt just got married and I bet you don't know what will happen in any situation."

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momhudson
2012-03-21 10:12 pm UTC (link)

"Burt and I have both been married before, and knew what we were getting into," Carole said, her voice sharp. "We each went through the pain and sacrifice of losing a spouse and raising a son as a single parent, so I'd say we've had plenty of practice learning how to handle pretty much any situation that gets thrown at us, Finn Hudson."

She folded her hands in front of her on the dining room table, fixing her son with a shrewd look. "Have you started pricing apartments with short-term leases? Budgeted for electricity, water and sewer, telephone, TV, weekly groceries? Plus the expenses that you'll both immediately become responsible for as soon as you're no longer classified as dependents, like health and car insurance? That's a lot to cover on a part-time salary until you finish school, and everything is even more expensive in New York -- adults with good paying, full-time jobs have trouble finding safe, affordable housing in the city, Finn, and one of the most common strains on marriages these days is disagreements over financial matters."

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gleeloser
2012-03-21 11:11 pm UTC (link)

He rolled his eyes, "Yeah, because you know every move Burt will ever make. You know, if this is you being supportive I'd hate to see it if you had reservations about this.

"And no, I don't know how much our expenses are gonna be, I figure I'll ask the apartment manager how much it'll be, and I'll start working weekends. We only need car insurance a few more months, and I'm sure Rachel can get some sort of insurance through school. We're both healthy, we're not going to do anything stupid like mountain climb or have a baby.

"And you know what? Instead of just pointing out the things that could go wrong - you could, oh, I don't know help us, tell us how you got through pitfalls with dad, but no, you're determined to make me unhappy. Well you know what, congratulations, you win, your stupid son will be out of your hair."

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momhudson
2012-03-22 01:18 am UTC (link)

"You watch your mouth, Finn Hudson," Carole snapped, her eyes narrowing. "You will not speak to me like that, whether or not you're old enough to get married, I'm still your mother. It's rude and it's disrespectful, and I didn't raise you like that. If you're quite done putting words in my mouth, I'm going to talk now." It took a lot to make Carole lose her temper, but Finn's insistence on stubbornly refusing to listen to reason or advice and belittling her concerns was doing a pretty good job of it.

"If your heart is set on this, I won't stop you. If you'll notice, I've never once said that I forbid it, or that I don't support you, or that I want you to be unhappy or out of my house. I don't think it's a wise decision, no -- but it's your decision, and I know that. And you will not tell me how to feel about this, I don't care if you think you're doing it for Rachel's sake or not -- you can't dictate how I feel, especially since how I feel has no bearing on whether or not I intend to be there for you two, or whether or not I'm willing to help. If you're old enough to get married, you're damn well old enough to learn how to stand on your own two feet like a mature, responsible adult, without throwing a petulant fit and guilting your mother into doing what you want her to do, so you can stop that right now, young man."

She spread her hands out flat on the table and arched an eyebrow at him coolly. "If you'd stopped to listen for a moment before acting like a sullen teenager, you'd have realized that I'm perfectly willing to work with you two on getting you prepared for being out on your own -- although it would be a damn sight easier if you'd be in a little less of a rush and stick to a summer wedding like you originally planned, so we have the time to teach you how to open a bank account, and balance a check book, and file a joint tax return. I am offering advice and help, as much as you both need to do this, but if you'd rather throw a snit and demonstrate exactly why I feel like you might not be ready for this, then you go right ahead and be my guest."

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gleeloser
2012-03-22 01:43 am UTC (link)

He watched her while tears threatened to sting his eyes. She was right, she'd never voiced her displeasure, but she was kidding herself if she thought Finn didn't notice. His face and ears were burning and he could barely hear what she was saying because he was so sad and furious. He hated when people talked down to him or told him what to do and it would make him boil up with anger or shut down and at this moment in time it could really go either way.

He knew things were bad, he and his mom never fought like this, actually they never fought and this was making him feel like he was doing something wrong. He knew it was impulsive, he knew they'd screw up, but why couldn't she understand that Rachel was the one thing in his life that made sense. He set his jaw firmly, "I have a bank account, and a checkbook, and we learned a bunch of stuff in eco about living out on your own. I don't get what the big deal is if we get married now or wait another two months, but if you wanna tell me, fine, I'm listening."

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momhudson
2012-03-22 02:33 am UTC (link)

"If it's no big deal, then why the rush? You said you want Rachel to have the wedding she deserves, but you want to bump it up with no warning and only a few days of planning? I don't understand why the sudden change of plans, Finn, especially when you could use those two months to make absolutely sure you can make it last and are on the same page, not just with financial plans, but family plans, how many kids you want and when, career goals,both of your hopes for the future."

Carole rubbed at her temple tiredly, her own tears threatening now. "I know where Rachel sees herself in five years -- if she's not on a Broadway stage, I think all of us will be shocked, she's amazingly talented. But you haven't told me where you want to be in five years. And I don't just mean 'with Rachel', because I don't have any problem with that, I swear I don't, she's a wonderful girl. I mean -- do you want to go to college? Do you want to be a mechanic, like Burt, but in New York? Do you still want to enlist like your dad? Hell, do you want to be onstage somewhere yourself? Because you can do any of those things, Finn, and you can still have Rachel, and I will be proud of you no matter which path you choose. You don't have to have all the answers right now, no one does, but it just worries me that you've focused so much on this one thing, and I haven't heard anything about what else you might want after graduation."

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gleeloser
2012-03-22 02:55 am UTC (link)

He folded his arms in front of him and looked down at his shoes. "I don't know what you want me to say mom. I don't have a - a thing like Rachel or Kurt or Mike or anyone has. Maybe I'll figure it out tomorrow, or six years from now, hell, maybe I'll never figure it out. And you're right, when I think of my future I think of Rachel, but you know what, I'll figure the rest out. With or without Rachel I'd still be clueless. Hell, I'd probably be worse off without her.

"I don't know what I want mom, I just don't know. I don't even know what I can do, I guess I just have to learn that.

"I wanna be with Rachel now, not two months from now or two years from now, and you know me ma, I don't just... jump into things. I love her and she loves me and we know we can make it. I know my life is going to be so much better when I can tell people she's my wife. I wanna be happy, and I don't want two months more of this from anyone."

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momhudson
2012-03-22 05:27 am UTC (link)

"Honey, if you can handle two measly months of people pushing you about this, that's a good preview to the stress of marriage, because it doesn't stop at the alter," Carole told him wryly. "It's not easy, and you don't have to have it right now to be happy, not if that two months makes you stronger as a couple. Throwing together a spur-of-the-moment wedding in four days will probably ruffle more feathers than it soothes, and stir up more talk, as well." She sighed, her shoulders sagging. "You're a lot more like me than you realize sometimes, Finn Hudson. I didn't know what I wanted at your age, either, I just went straight to working the first retail job I could find as soon as I graduated, and focused everything I had on your father. And when your dad died, all I had was you to hold on to. It took me years to figure out who I was again, outside of "Christopher's wife' and 'Finn's mom', and I just don't want you to feel as lost as I did."

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