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! aim, # character: blaine anderson, # character: santana lopez

AIM log
Who: Santana, Blaine
What: Santana needs to talk, so Blaine slips out of class.
When: Wednesday morning, Nov. 16, 2011
Rating: PG

AIM IM with Santana [PezBiatchSLopez], Blaine [mediumxdrip] 9:38 AM
PezBiatchSLopez: hey.
mediumxdrip: Hey.
PezBiatchSLopez: remind me again why i wrote that stupid letter please.
mediumxdrip: Because you didn't want to have to hide anymore.
PezBiatchSLopez: yeah, running's SO much better.
mediumxdrip: I'm so sorry, Santana.
mediumxdrip: I know it doesn't help much, but I am.
PezBiatchSLopez: yeah
PezBiatchSLopez: i mean... you're kind of right, in a way. i think now it's better
PezBiatchSLopez: no one can out me to them now
PezBiatchSLopez: the scary hard part is over, the worst has happened, and all that's left is the healing
PezBiatchSLopez: three of swords
PezBiatchSLopez: or maybe it's the nine
PezBiatchSLopez: this shit was keeping me up nights after all
mediumxdrip: You're staying with Genny, at least? You have someplace safe to stay?
PezBiatchSLopez: i'm sleeping in my car tonight
mediumxdrip: What do I need to say to get you to go to Gen's?
PezBiatchSLopez: there's nothing you can say
PezBiatchSLopez: i know i can go there but i can't deal with that right now
PezBiatchSLopez: the fucking pity in their eyes
PezBiatchSLopez: i just need one night to get my head together
mediumxdrip: Can you park close to their house, at least?
PezBiatchSLopez: i'm down the road
PezBiatchSLopez: close enough to use their bathroom if i need it, ok?
mediumxdrip: Good. At least you'll have someone close if you need help.
PezBiatchSLopez: why would i need help?
PezBiatchSLopez: i'm santana fucking lo...
PezBiatchSLopez: i'm santana, ok?
PezBiatchSLopez: mami said i'm not a lopez anymore, whatever
mediumxdrip: You're a teenage girl sleeping in your car, Santana. You're scary as hell, but some people might not realize that straight off.
PezBiatchSLopez: i packed extra razor blades
PezBiatchSLopez: the rest of the package you bought me
PezBiatchSLopez: good lookin' out blim
mediumxdrip: Let me know if you need more.
mediumxdrip: Or, you know, anything else.
PezBiatchSLopez: papi didn't seem so angry you know
PezBiatchSLopez: leastways he wasn't saying much of anything while mami screamed
PezBiatchSLopez: fuck blim, she was praying and crying
mediumxdrip: Give them a chance to get used to it. If they still don't come around -- well, we'll help you figure something out.
PezBiatchSLopez: i don't want or need any fucking charity.
PezBiatchSLopez: i can take care of myself you know.
mediumxdrip: It's not charity to let your friends help, Santana.
mediumxdrip: We're going to do it whether you like it or not, so you might want to get used to it.
PezBiatchSLopez: fuck you.
PezBiatchSLopez: thanks.
mediumxdrip: Anytime.
PezBiatchSLopez: idk man
PezBiatchSLopez: i've never seen her like that
PezBiatchSLopez: not even when isandro got his tattoo
mediumxdrip: It's kind of fundamentally different from a tattoo, though.
PezBiatchSLopez: i just mean, i thought i'd seen her as mad as she could get
PezBiatchSLopez: they're not gonna let me see nico again
I'm sorry. Maybe we'll figure something out so you can see him.
PezBiatchSLopez: what are you up to right now anyway
PezBiatchSLopez: you killed as tony
mediumxdrip: I got a hall pass, I'm holed up in one of the bathrooms.
mediumxdrip: Thanks -- I'm dreading opening night on Friday.
PezBiatchSLopez: gimme a sec
PezBiatchSLopez: i'm getting a call
mediumxdrip: Okay.
PezBiatchSLopez: papi.
mediumxdrip: Everything okay?
PezBiatchSLopez: well he wasn't asking me to come home if that's what you're asking
mediumxdrip: Can't blame me for hoping.
PezBiatchSLopez: guess not
PezBiatchSLopez: quick, tell me something, anything. change the subject
mediumxdrip: Kurt and I are going out after rehearsal tonight.
PezBiatchSLopez: oh?
mediumxdrip: Yeah, one of the Warblers invited us out.
PezBiatchSLopez: cool
mediumxdrip: Hope so. It's going to be... different, at least.
mediumxdrip: An adventure, maybe.
PezBiatchSLopez: maybe i should get a job
PezBiatchSLopez: i'm 18 and i can dance
PezBiatchSLopez: plus i'm hot lol
mediumxdrip: Talk to Genny's moms, they can help you pin down your options.
PezBiatchSLopez: i tried to be mad at michaela you know
PezBiatchSLopez: like, really tried to blame her in my head for this shit
PezBiatchSLopez: but in the end i couldn't
PezBiatchSLopez: cos she was right
PezBiatchSLopez: ha, you want a laugh? i'll show you the letter i wrote.
PezBiatchSLopez: http://i153.photobucket.com/albums/s208/venite_angeli/12326note_paper.jpg
mediumxdrip: To your parents?
PezBiatchSLopez: yeah
mediumxdrip: Oh.
PezBiatchSLopez: ??
mediumxdrip: Wow, Santana.
PezBiatchSLopez: ?????
mediumxdrip: I feel like I shouldn't be reading this, it's too personal.
PezBiatchSLopez: it doesn't MATTER anymore.
PezBiatchSLopez: it's over.
mediumxdrip: I wouldn't have been brave enough to write that.
PezBiatchSLopez: michaela made me brave.
PezBiatchSLopez: stupid brave, i think.
mediumxdrip: I know how that goes.
PezBiatchSLopez: yeah?
mediumxdrip: Yeah.
PezBiatchSLopez: you wanna know what's the difference between her and b?
PezBiatchSLopez: aside from the fact that michaela can spell her own name without help
PezBiatchSLopez: b wanted her fairy tale. she wanted me and her to be together and live happily ever after but i wasn't ready and she NEVER understood that
PezBiatchSLopez: she pushed because she thought that'd help me get there quicker and all it did was scare me more
PezBiatchSLopez: michaela's never pushed, just... been
PezBiatchSLopez: she won't even let me fuck her
mediumxdrip: Sounds like she's good for you.
PezBiatchSLopez: maybe
PezBiatchSLopez: but if she thinks i'm going through all this without orgasms, she can fucking think again
10i just:17 AM
PezBiatchSLopez: how cold do you think it gets nights?
mediumxdrip: It's November in Ohio.
mediumxdrip: I can get you blankets.
PezBiatchSLopez: nah
PezBiatchSLopez: maybe i'll just... go inside
mediumxdrip: Inside is good.
PezBiatchSLopez: well... laters, i guess
mediumxdrip: Call me if you need anything, okay?
PezBiatchSLopez: k