InsaneJournal

From: michael.chang@wmhs.edu
BCC: matthew.rutherford@wmhs.edu, samuel.evans@wmhs.edu, mercedes.jones@wmhs.edu

I´m having a date with Tina on Friday and for some reasone I´m having a major freak out about it. It´s fourth date (plus Homecoming and stuff) and she is still not my girlfriend and still undecided and stuff.

It´s driving me crazy. I´m sick and tired of this... I can´t even name it... no-strings-attached thing. I like strings. I´m a big fan of strings and monogamy. And everytime she´s not with me there´s chance she´s with Britt and I hate that and... argh.

I just don´t know how long I can take this or even what I´ll do once I can´t take it anymore. I´m not ready to give her up, but I don´t think I can go all "decide or..." on her and even if I could what would the "or" entail?

And I´m trying to be patient and stuff but if she´s taking this long to decide, doesn´t it mean she doesn´t care enough?

I´m not certain why I´m freaking over it rn so much or why I´m telling you about it and I don´t know if there´s any advice or stuff that would help but I guess I just really needed to get this out... sonce rn I can´t stop thinking about it.

Sorry.

Mike