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Zelgadis Greywars (_incurable) wrote in marinasylum,
@ 2012-06-12 13:21:00

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:action, kitty pryde (aoa), tear grants, yomi isayama, zelgadis greywars

[Action | Open] Later afternoon
[To say it's been a difficult few days doesn't come close to covering it. You'd think he'd be rejoicing having his bed to himself again, but all it does is remind him of how epically stupid he acted toward Lina and Saber both. And when Saber came home wearing that damn collar it was the final straw. The conversation had been abrupt, her explanation dulling his initial shock and anger into an ache of resentment that compounded the one he was still nursing.]

[So he'd taken his sword and left. Now he's in the Athletic Complex, the ~~lightsaber~~ Sword of Light activated to make a blade of pure, white light. Zelgadis focuses his power; the limitations on the sword make it difficult, but nonetheless he takes a swing and manages to send a ball of white-hot fire into one of the dummies he'd set up.]

[He's careful to watch out for people, so anyone who comes to see why there's lightning visible over the athletic complex won't get in his line of fire.]

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_incurable
2012-06-25 02:27 am UTC (link)

Well it's not like I'm much better at doing things your way. [A bit of a sigh; he's sick of defending this. And despite her dismissive 'whatever' he doesn't see how he should feel anything but defensive.] Neither of the closest people I have want anything to do with me.

I used to be just like how you seem to want me to be. But after my skin changed I couldn't be the same person because no one treated me like the same person -- or even a person at all. [Until Lina, and with a few scattered exceptions.] So maybe I'm not a good person anymore and maybe I don't trust people, but it's like no one even tries to understand that I didn't have a choice if I wanted to survive.

And everyone wants me to just -- just change? It's the same thing as when people would run from me because they thought I was a monster, only instead of my skin they're judging the rest of me.

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kitty_has_claws
2012-07-13 02:45 am UTC (link)

[She sighs because...she gets a lot of that. She does. Being a mutant isn't a choice either. She didn't want it at first or for awhile, and even though she didn't feel like she'd changed the way the world treated her had in an instant, and there was no going back. There was only hiding it as best she could or flaunting it so people showed their true colors up front.]

You don't seem happy, Zel. That's why people want you to change. Not because you don't fit whatever standard we have in mind. Because it doesn't seem like you're okay with what's going on now.

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	_incurable 2012-07-13 04:20 am UTC (link)
	[He thinks about that, mainly because it was Kitty who said it. Anyone else would be up to their ears in denials and brush-offs.] Then let me find happiness in my own way. If there truly is no cure for me, I guess... I'll have to come to terms with that. But I'm not ready. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2012-07-14 03:24 am UTC (link)
	That sounds fair. [And it does. She can't argue with that, and she appreciates it.] So... In the meantime, is there anything I can do? [Since your life sucks in the here and now and all.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_incurable 2012-07-15 10:31 pm UTC (link)
	[Hey, a truce! Excellent. He smiles at her, more genuinely now.] Thanks, but I'll find a way to manage. I'm just more used to getting fireballed when a woman gets ticked off at me, I guess. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2012-07-18 12:30 am UTC (link)
	Next time I'm ticked off I'll do my best to get a flame thrower. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_incurable 2012-07-20 05:01 pm UTC (link)
	I don't think anyone in their right mind is giving you implements of fire anytime soon. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2012-07-22 10:17 pm UTC (link)
	Ouch. Nice people pull their punches a little you know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_incurable 2012-07-23 10:50 pm UTC (link)
	So I've heard. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2012-07-25 05:26 pm UTC (link)
	Mmhmm. [Smiling. She does enjoy Zelgadis.] Okay, well, I have important things to do [unlike this!] so I'll see you around. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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