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Tweak says, "you're great"

Aimless Renegade (certiorari) wrote in marinasylum,
@ 2012-05-19 18:43:00

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aimless renegade, cain, doc scratch, gir, prospitian monarch

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[ There is absolutely nothing abnormal about a carapaced man sitting under a light, attempting to read a book from the large stack beside him at an unholy hour of night. Nothing abnormal about that at all, as if it was abnormal, AR would not be doing it. ]

[ AR's a cross between overtired and jittery, eyes coming off of the pages every other moment to see if his surroundings have changed. He doesn't appear to be focusing on the book very often, his foot nervously tapping the ground nervously to a fast beat that only he can hear. ]

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promoted_pawn
2012-05-20 04:34 am UTC (link)

[It's impossible to really believe that. PM feels like she's cursed, that maybe they couldn't escape destiny after all and that she's destined--doomed--to face Jack alone. She shudders at the idea, swallowing her tears and pulling herself to her feet.] Maybe it's not.

But I don't just let things go if I can do something about them. [And with that, she reaches out and tries to yank the book away, planning on throwing it out of arm's reach if she succeeds.]

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certiorari
2012-05-20 05:26 am UTC (link)

[ As soon as the book is taken from his hands he stands up from his seat, places his hands on PM's shoulders and makes as much eye contact as he can stomach. ]

Stop.

[ AR's shaking, his eyes struggling to stay open and mouth pursed. He's trying as hard as he possibly can to not lose his focus on staying as stable as possible, even if it means having an ugly, contorted expression ]

Please.

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	promoted_pawn 2012-05-20 05:38 am UTC (link)
	[She's glad to have his attention, even if just for the moment. He's not the only one that's shaking, though a part of that is from rage. Not at AR, but his reactions aren't helping her to keep it under control.] No. No, because you can't even bear to look at me. AR, I'll still protect you. I just- I need to know how you feel. Honestly. If I'm just a monster... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

certiorari
2012-05-20 06:04 am UTC (link)

P... PM

[ AR stares at her, speech coming out between heaving breaths and strained expressions, his grip on her shoulders tightening as he does so. He can't be sure if it's for her benefit for his own. ]

I... I thought you were beautiful from the moment I saw you. It seems silly and irrelevant and hardly applicable now to consider it, before... bef...

[ He pauses, sucking in a large gasp of air before letting it out with pained sobs ] ... But now I know you're so much more than that. You're.. you're strong, brave, wonderful, intelligent .. a...

... you're anything but a monster PM.

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promoted_pawn
2012-05-20 06:18 am UTC (link)

[She was honestly not expecting that answer, and it shows on her face. It's a good response, and at any other time she would be flattered and happy to know he holds her in such high regard. Even now, though she can't find it in herself to be outright happy, part of her does feel elated and relieved.]

[But in the context, she doesn't understand how he can think of her so highly and yet behave how he does. She reaches up to touch his hands, to both hold them and to hold them there on his shoulders.]

Oh.

Then, why...?

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	certiorari 2012-05-20 06:23 am UTC (link)
	[ And at that moment AR's eyes return to staring directly behind PM with occasional glances to the left. ] I don't wish to discuss it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

promoted_pawn
2012-05-20 06:30 am UTC (link)

AR-! [She's immediately crestfallen, torn between letting him be that way and dragging it out kicking and screaming. Even if this is a library, if anyone else is here then they're probably watching this whole spectacle from the racks while eating popcorn or something anyway.]

And I wish you would! At least then it could be something I could fix, or something I could be aware of, or... or anything...

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	certiorari 2012-05-20 06:44 am UTC (link)
	I... I... will not speak it I... [ He begins to mumble something out under his breath, gaze falling down to the floor and then over to a piece of paper on the table. ] I... will write it down. If you wish. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	promoted_pawn 2012-05-20 06:49 am UTC (link)
	[She has to strain to hear him, but she does manage it. PM nods, quickly deciding it the best compromise. After all, if it's too hard to talk about it, but he can bear to write it down, that will be their secret.] I do. Please? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	certiorari 2012-05-20 07:09 am UTC (link)
	[ AR returns to his seat, grabbing a piece of notebook paper and spending an absurd amount of time writing, rewriting, and scratching the table and his forehead. ] [ He hands PM an extraordinarily broken in piece of paper ] Here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

promoted_pawn
2012-05-20 07:20 am UTC (link)

[She looks at it, waiting for revelations. Instead she sees sleep-deprivation-induced madness. Though she stares at it for a while longer in hopes that some sense will come out of it.]

[She turns it upside down and tries again before folding it up without comment.]

AR... come home with me.

[She pauses and steps in closer to whisper.] We should both try to get some sleep. I can stay in your room tonight, or you can come into ours. It'll be alright.

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certiorari
2012-05-20 07:58 am UTC (link)

[ He refuses to look at PM as she looks over the piece of paper. Or rather, he is unable to focus on anything, his mind off somewhere else. AR snaps back into reality as PM speaks, turning his attention towards her. ]

[ As she whispers, the only thing crossing AR's mind is that this is the first time in their conversation that they spoke at proper levels for the environment they are in. how unlawful ]

... my room is not in a suitable condition.

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	promoted_pawn 2012-05-20 02:28 pm UTC (link)
	Alright. [She reaches out for his hand and gently kisses his forehead. He only rejected one option, so she'll take that to mean that he's okay with the other. Fine with her--even if WV is a bit confused, he would surely be relieved to see some improvement in AR.] Come with me? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

certiorari
2012-05-21 05:22 am UTC (link)

... I suppose it would not cause any harm.

[ He looks at her hand and then back to the pile of books, rubbing his hands together in contemplation, finally deciding upon taking the stack. ]

[ Sorry PM but AR is totally going to read that metaphysical and critical analysis of society as a whole expressed through characters and their tribulations through trying times and you cannot stop him ]

However, I am taking these.

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	promoted_pawn 2012-05-21 05:29 am UTC (link)
	[Since he has agreed to return home, all she can do is smile at that and let her hand drop.] Alright. Would you like my assistance with carrying them? [She will also retrieve the one she tossed aside, since he was clearly so taken with it.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	certiorari 2012-05-21 05:41 am UTC (link)
	I am quite fine, thank you. [ Considering he's much carried larger stacks back to his room this one isn't any trouble ] Shall we... get going then? [ And he begins to move to the exit ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

promoted_pawn
2012-05-21 05:49 am UTC (link)

Yes, let's!

[Her mood is vastly improved, both for having managed to steer their conflict in a better direction and also for knowing she will get a rare chance to cuddle him. ...And the prospect of actually getting some sleep helps, too.]

[PM tucks the book under her arm and steps ahead quickly, to open the door for him. Just because he's managed it alone before doesn't mean she has to be rude.]

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	certiorari 2012-05-21 03:37 pm UTC (link)
	[ He's grateful for her help, even if he won't vocalize it and he'll pretend he isn't. ] [ AR doesn't know if it's the lack of sleep that's getting to him, but he feels almost excited to close his eyes in the comfort of people he cares about. ] (Reply to this) (Parent)

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