miracle (miracle) wrote in luke_noah, @ 2009-02-14 12:24:00 |
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Current mood: | crushed |
Current music: | John Legend, Green Light? (not sure of the title) |
Entry tags: | -[luke/noah]-, fanfic, fanfic: [alternate universe], fanfic: rating: mature, ยป by: atwtfan |
Too Fast? Chap 17
Original poster: atwtfan
Title: Too Fast?
Chapter: 17
Rating: PG
Summary:
Characters: Luke, Noah
Genre: AU
Warnings:
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Noah rubbed his wrist as he got into his truck. Dallas had no choice but to arrest both Neil and Noah. Noah was so embarrassed. He had never been arrested in his life. He didn't want to call his mom and disappoint her so he intended to do the few days in lock up. All was resolved in a few hours though. Dallas and Jack brought down witnesses and they confirmed that Neil threw the first punch so Noah was only in the cell for a couple of hours. So there they were, Noah and Luke, in front of Luke's house. They didn't say much on the way home, so many thoughts running through their minds.
"Thanks for driving my truck to the station."
"No problem Noah."
Noah didn't know what else to say. He was so sure that Luke was going to leave him now. I bet he believed everything Neil said. And why wouldn't he? He's known Neil way longer than he's known me. I am a slut. I don't know why I even thought that someone would be willing to love me. I mean look at me! I flipped out tonight. I haven't done that in years. I always swore I would never be like my father and then WHAM! I go psycho on Neil. But he really had it coming! He just wouldn't shut up! Luke isn't those things Neil and David said. I don't know why I let them get to me. May be they're right. Me and Luke shouldn't be doing this! But I can't help how I feel about Luke. He's so, so....I don't know, he just does it for me. His smile, his eyes, his lips, his conversation, his warmth, his everything. And I know it's too soon to be feeling this way but I'm falling for him hard. May be I should spare him the pain of being with someone like me.
"Well...Luke...I...I guess I'll see you later on-"
"You're...you're not staying?"
Luke was getting nervous. Why doesn't he want to stay?
"Um...no...not tonight."
"Why not??"
"Luke...look what happened tonight."
"What about it?"
"Don't tell me you weren't surprised by my freak out."
"I uh..."
Luke didn't know what to say. It shocked him to say the least to see how angry Noah was. He had never seen that side of him.
"See? I knew it! You don't want to be with me now!"
"I didn't say that Noah!"
"You know I don't blame you. I wouldn't want to be with me either."
"Noah! Where is this coming from?"
"Look, we are friends and may be we should have kept it that way. It's not too late to bail out now."
"What if I don't want to bail out?"
"But Luke-"
"Don't I have a say in this???"
"Luke there's so much we don't know about it each other!"
"Then tell me Noah! Tell me about you! Tell me about your likes and dislikes! Tell me about your childhood! Tell me about your inner thoughts!"
"You wanna know about me? Huh? It's true! I am a slut! I've never been faithful. I've had threesomes and one night stands! My father left when I was three and he nearly beat me to death when he found out I was gay! My mother's been married five times! Four of her husbands physically abused me! I'm no good Luke! I'm damaged! Why do you think David had someone else on the side? I'm not enough! I'm never enough! There's so much you don't know about me and if you get to know the real me you'll probably won't like it! Do you get it now???"
Noah was angry. He had hot tears stinging his eyes. He started up the truck. He had every intention of leaving. Noah thought he did a good job of scaring Luke off but that wasn't the case.
"No Noah! I don't get it! But I want to get to know you. The real you! And what I already know, I like! A lot! You make me feel good Noah. I like being with you. When I was at my lowest point you helped me! You did that! You're amazing! I like the way I feel when I'm with you! I'm falling for you!"
Noah gulped and turned off the truck. This couldn't be true. Not him. Noah didn't think he was good enough for Luke.
"Luke you don't mean that."
Luke grabbed Noah by the face.
"Look at me Noah!"
Noah tried to turn his face but Luke wasn't having it.
"LOOK AT ME NOAH! I'm falling for you! No matter what you say or how much you try to scare me or how much you try to push me away, I'm falling for you!"
Noah was biting his lip and blinking his eyes so he wouldn't cry.
"But didn't you hear what Neil and David said? You don't believe them?"
"Right now I don't give a damn about what Neil and David said! All I care about is what's in front of me. I care about you!"
"You still want me? Even after tonight? You're not afraid?"
"Noah, I'm a little afraid. This is happening so fast but I can't help how I feel!"
"So you're trying to tell me that none of what Neil and David said got to you tonight? None of it???"
Luke let go of Noah's face and sat back. I have to admit that Neil was saying some things that got me thinking. And David too! I mean what kind of cousin am I? Dad and grandma are always talking about family and here I go and fuck my cousin's man! Gawd, Dad is going to be so disappointed if he finds out! Is this going to fast? I already know the answer to that but dammit I can't help it! I think I'm falling in love with Noah! I know logically I should be scared of Noah after tonight but I thought it was sweet! He was defending me. I know I don't need defending but it showed that he cares! It feels so good to have someone on my side. I can't help how I feel! I can't control my heart!
"Ok Noah, you kicking Neil's ass, I didn't see it coming. I was shocked and a little scared but I was also flattered. I mean I know I'm not some chick that needs saving but if felt good to have you on my side. I haven't had that in a long time."
"I know you're not a girl Luke. I'm so sorry-"
"Noah, it's ok. You were just angry and your emotions got the best of you. Trust me, my emotions get me all the time."
"But I'm not usually like that. I always stay in control, but I was just so angry and Neil wouldn't drop it."
Luke turned to face Noah once more.
"Look, I know we have a lot to learn about each other and we're probably going to make each other crazy and people are probably going to hate us and we both have pasts but don't you think it's worth it?"
Noah nodded. He knew it was worth it. He hadn't felt like this for anyone, not even Alex. He was so drawn to Luke and he couldn't explain it. He didn't know exactly how or when but he had fallen for Luke big time.
"You're worth it Luke, me not so much, but you, definitely."
"You are worth it Noah. You're worth it to me."
Luke pulled Noah too him and kissed him. Slow and sweet. Noah moaned in Luke's mouth as they glided their tongues against each other. It felt so good. It felt like home. Luke finally pulled away. He stared into those beautiful blue eyes that he loved waking up to.
"Come on Noah, let's go inside."
Noah couldn't refuse Luke. Noah stroked Luke's hair as he put his keys in his pocket.
"Ok."
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Luke got out of the truck and Noah was soon to follow. Luke grabbed Noah by the hand and went towards the house. When they got inside they went straight to the bedroom. Noah took off his shoes and started unbuttoning his shirt. Luke went to the shower and adjusted the water. Luke took off his clothes and peaked his head around the bathroom door.
"Water's ready."
Soon Noah and Luke were in the shower, washing away the horrible night. Luke grabbed the body wash and started washing Noah's chest. He looked at Noah's slightly swollen jaw. He touched it lightly. Noah smiled at Luke.
"Don't worry, it looks worse than what it feels."
Luke grinned and gave Noah a peck. He then turned around. Noah had a wash cloth in his hand and he started washing Luke's back. Noah had this burning question on his mind and he really didn't want to ask but he had to know. He was sure he knew the answer and he didn't want to ruin this nice moment between them but he had to know.
"Luke...how did....how did you feel when you saw Neil tonight?"
Luke swallowed.
"I uh.."
"Luke, you don't have to lie to me. I don't expect you to be over Neil just like that. I'm not an idiot."
"Noah...I was shocked. I mean I haven't seen him in three weeks. I really didn't know what to say. I wasn't prepared."
"That's understandable. You two probably have to talk and get closure and stuff like that."
"I'm not sure if that's such a good idea."
"That's cool. It's what ever you want to do. Just wanted to let you know that I'm cool with it."
Noah was putting on a brave front for Luke. Everything in his mind was telling him that Neil and Luke had unresolved issues and that there was still feelings there but he wasn't about to voice his concern. Not now. Noah was always suspicious by nature and he was always looking for the worst thing to happen. He didn't want to be caught off guard if Luke ended up back with Neil. Noah always guarded his heart this way.
Luke was thinking too. He didn't want to admit that his heart jumped when he saw Neil. He knew it was shock but he also knew that it was a little excitement too. Neil still had a piece of his heart but now Noah was in his heart too.
Noah and Luke were getting ready for bed. Luke threw on a pair of black sweats and Noah threw on some gray ones. Luke pulled the covers back and he and Noah got into bed.
"Luke, thanks again."
"For what?"
"For sticking with me. I know you could have run off when you saw me flip out tonight."
"Lucky for you, I'm not a runner. I already told you I understood."
"Yeah but still..."
"Noah, it's ok. I don't scare that easily. Just face it, you're stuck with me."
And with that Luke kissed Noah good night. He turned over on his side and grabbed Noah's hand and wrapped himself into Noah's body. Noah kissed the back of Luke's neck and the men slowly drifted off to sleep.