[That's as far as Bucky gets before Porthos accidentally touches the orb, and for a moment, there is nothing but a cacophony of feelings, memories, all in a confused tangle -- pain, surprise, more pain, determination, confusion, hatred so intense it burns...
It's confusing because you can't remember. Days blur into one, there is constant pain in your arms and legs, constant because you can't move, can't do anything even if you try, and eventually, you just don't have the energy to struggle anymore. But you know you can't, couldn't, because you're doing this so no one else has to, you told them to take you, you're the one in charge anyway, if anyone should be subjected to the tests it's you, and they agree--
Days blur into one, long stretch of different kinds of pain, your blood burning in your veins, and times when there's nothing, no one but you, except you can't remember, sergeant, 32557038, except soon you only remember the beginning, 32557, and your own name eludes you, and words ring in your ears (this will change the world, sergeant, except was that it, was it not you?)--