Stop my breathing, and slit my throat. I must be emo.
Axel had hardly left his room at all during the past week. His parents, and Demyx had managed to occasionally drag him out to sit in the living room, but as soon as he got an opportunity to, he would escape back to his bedroom. He was laying on his side on his bed, staring at the wall, trying to decide whether he should go to school on monday. He was already going to have a ton of makeup work that he'd have to do. He still felt zero motivation to, though. He wrapped his arms around himself and closed his eyes. He missed Roxas so much. The way he had been before the accident. Maybe what they had, had been a lie, but it had made him happy. He would give anything to go back to that lie now, only now that he knew the truth, it would be impossible to pretend.
"I want to see Roxas again." He whispered. He couldn't though. He wasn't strong enough yet to see him, and not break down. He wondered if he ever would be, but he shook that thought off. He had to. He wouldn't be able to live if he never got to see Roxas again. He rolled over, his arms still around himself, and buried his face in his pillow. He just had to will himself to keep living. He could get up, force a smile, and go back to his daily life. Heartache wasn't real. It was just something in your head. Therefore, by willpower, you should be able to move past it. It was hard though when you didn't care enough anymore about everyday life to have that willpower.
He felt so empty now, and alone, and he just wanted Roxas back. He wondered if Roxas missed him at all. He hadn't stuck around very long to see how he responded. Had Roxas completely forgotten about him? Did he even care that he was gone?
There was a timid knock on Axel's door, and he rolled over onto his back, looking over at it.
"Yeah?" He asked weakly. The door creaked open, and Demyx stuck his head in, looking very concerned. Axel remembered how Roxas had said he thought he was dating Demyx, and he cracked a small smile in amusement. A huge grin spread across Demyx' face then, when he saw the expression, thinking that Axel might finally be cheering up.
"Your phone just beeped. I think you have a text message." He said, coming into the room, and handing the phone to Axel.
Axel took the phone, and looked at the screen. From Sora? He opened the text message and frowned.
Something terrible? He thought that if it was something too bad, Sora probably would have called him, not just sent a text message. He wasn't too worried then, knowing that Roxas was probably fine, and not in any kind of danger. He wasn't willing to jump out of bed, and go running over there yet. He sent a text message back to Sora that said: <i>'Terrible? What happened?'</i>