You think I wanted to blow my brains out? I wanted to finish college. I wanted to meet someone and maybe fall in love one day. I wanted to have a life instead of this constant fighting that's been going on since I was a child. It's unfair. But life has never been fair. And there was nobody else. You and Peter were gone. Nobody knows if you're even alive. Claude was in the wind. Micah had been taken by Matt and nobody could get to him. My father was dead. There was no one else and no other option and I did what I had to do. My life is not more important than protecting those children and saving the world. I died so everyone could live. So don't judge me for it.