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alreddiecontent (alreddiecontent) wrote in impetuousrpg,
@ 2011-10-09 19:16:00

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char: eddie carmichael, char: susan bones

Who: Eddie and Susan
What: TBD
When: Sunday evening
Where: Around Hogsmeade, maybe one of their places?
Rating / Status: TBD / In progress

Eddie was tired with being sober. He'd lasted the whole day without a single drink in his system or a single drug raging through his veins. It was not fun and now he was all but shaking to get some beer into him. Maybe a whole keg. Just tap the thing and he would sit in front of it and enjoy. He'd gone to see his parents who were thrilled to see him so alert. Like Roger had predicted, his mother had cried. Their kitchen staff had made a wonderful meal and, as always, Eddie got to listen about how he was ruining his life by his father. It had been a long, terrible time, in which, Eddie thought his parents had made out well in the end.

Eddie had to find a job. Something real to show he could support himself. Nothing like the tea shop, which fulled his need for alcohol and drugs. They wanted him to, well, go to school. As a muggleborn, he was sure this day would come. They wanted him to reach his potential, be a doctor for some needing nation or a kick ass lawyer or something. Eddie had no interest in any of it. But, well, his parents wouldn't pay for his flat anymore and he couldn't live like this, sober and clean and shaky. It wasn't going to happen.

Inhaling hard on a cigarette, Eddie made his way through the high street. His first stop of the night was the Three Broomsticks, where he would hit on Rosemerta or any other pretty thing that came in and he would get shitfaced. It sounded like a plan. Tomorrow he would find a way out of his parents grips. Maybe he could crash on Roger's couch and he, Roger and Will could just.. party all the time?

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alreddiecontent
2011-10-10 02:54 am UTC (link)

He didn't feel any better after doing that. And he was pretty sure he was out of beer in his flat. He was going to have to venture into the muggle world for a drink now, if Susan was going to hang around. Now he was just a little more frustrated then he had been before. He didn't want to be anything with Susan. She had hurt him and what she had thought was bad before, drunk most nights, high as well? It was better in some ways, but worse in others. Now, he didn't like life without a drink. He couldn't remember the last time he was hung over, and while he had cut out hard drugs, he had picked up smoking and had started getting high, using more weed as he needed it, far more often.

On his second cigarette of the night, Eddie leaned against a wall as Susan came tearing out behind him. "Yeah, I think it's that simple. For what we're talking about, in the pub, I think it's one hundred percent that simple."

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justandloyal
2011-10-10 03:04 am UTC (link)

"You're an idiot," she spit out. When Susan had left Eddie she'd done it quietly. One day she was there and the next she wasn't. Maybe it wasn't the best way to leave, but it's how she'd done it. Now he went and kissed her and was making her feel things for him again and Susan was not going to let that happen. "Because you're going to go home and drink or smoke and forget what the real world is like."

Susan was so close to yelling and she didn't care. Let everyone hear if the wanted. Because, in her mind, this was it. She was done with Eddie Carmichael. "Don't you think I want to forget? I could get high enough to stop missing my family or maybe not care how I feel about you. And maybe I don't deal with it as well as some people, but at least I deal with it. You can't just kiss me and walk away. I'm not that kind of girl."

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alreddiecontent
2011-10-10 03:12 am UTC (link)

"I don't drink and smoke to forget. I do it because it's fun." He'd started in Hogwarts and it had been fun and it was still fun, but it hurt when he stopped. Not because there was so much he was trying to block out, but because, and as much as he didn't want to believe this, he was addicted. That was the only hard thing he had to deal with.

"Then forget, Susie. No one is stopping you. You're life would be happier that way, don't you think? You seem to think you don't feel when you're drunk or high all the time. I'll tell you though, that's a lie." He shrugged. "Strung out to high heaven and back again, I still fucking wanted you around all the time. I might not have shown it in the right ways, if at all, but I still wanted it, still felt it."

If he were the type, he would have, could have, hit her right then. He was angry and his inside were ripping themselves in half and this damn cigarette and a beer and a half were not helpful to calm him down. "You are that kind of girl. Look at our past and try and tell me that again."

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justandloyal
2011-10-10 03:28 am UTC (link)

Susan was seething. Thank Merlin it was dark and Eddie couldn't see how red her cheeks were. Everything he said to her felt like a hex right to her gut, sending her back a step. Why had she ever thought that he understood how she felt or who she really was? Susan was ready to keep yelling at him, screaming at him until her throat was raw, but then he said one more thing.

She was shaking and Susan wrapped her arms around herself, staring at him in silence for a long moment. She was the kind of girl he could kiss and walk away from. That's how he saw her and she had no one to blame but herself. It was the hardest thing anyone had ever told her and Susan wished she'd apparated home the moment she saw him. "Guess I am," she said with a thick voice. No matter how badly she was hurting, Susan did not cry. Especially not over some bloke.

"I have to go," she said. She had to run far away from Eddie and finally let it go all together. She created this situation and she needed to deal with it alone. "Goodnight, Eddie."

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alreddiecontent
2011-10-10 03:47 am UTC (link)

Eddie almost wished she would keep yelling at him, because that was so much easier then the alternative of her walking away again. Roger, of course, had been right. She was a huge bint, he probably shouldn't try and get involved with her again. Will had made a fair statement too, about him being able to handle a second round. He probably wouldn't be able to handle it. That didn't mean he wasn't going to try if Susan would just shut up and return his damn kiss.

"Don't fucking cry, Susie." Being sober made him a little mean. He reached for her arm again, this time not as hard, and caught her wrist instead.

"Stop. Seriously. Would you just... stop? And think for a minute. Listen to what I'm saying even. Try that." He sighed and loosed up on her wrist, despite that he wasn't holding it tightly to begin with. "I don't want you to go." This was going to bite him so hard in the ass later. His eyes were watery, still a little glassy, but they were at least focusing on her. He wasn't sure about this, not even a little, but he couldn't just let her stomp off again.

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justandloyal
2011-10-10 04:08 am UTC (link)

She wasn't crying. Maybe she was damn close to it, but Susan wasn't crying. Her head was screaming at her. There was a damn banshee in there, wailing at her to keep walking and never, ever look back. Because Eddie was the wrong sort of bloke for her. He was an addict and there was no changing that. Susan looked down at his hand around her wrist, making a decision she knew she was going to regret.

Taking a step towards him, Susan shrugged her shoulders. They were both fuck ups. At least they had that in common. "Come on. There's whiskey at my place." If she did anything stupid she wouldn't be stuck in a tiny little bed. Knowing this was the single worst idea she'd ever made in her life wasn't going to stop her from doing it. Leaning in, Susan finally kissed Eddie. One hand went up to his shoulder and right there, in the middle of Hogsmeade, she was kissing her idiot exboyfriend and agreeing to be with him again in some way or another.

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