To be honest, Rae wasn't sure if it was funny or sad that everyone around her knew exactly how large her dependence on people and what they thought of her was. She always put stock in what people thought and felt. "Do you know what ever became of everyone else who was on the boat with us?" she asked. The people who had told Elliot to let her go… the people who'd suggested that she be left to drown, to die in the depths of the Hudson Bay, being gnawed on by swimming zombies… Rae shuddered a little at the thought. "I mean, other than you, me, Eli, dad, Miriam and Aaron…" she trailed off. There had been three or four others. She couldn't remember their names, but she remembered their faces vividly.
"You know I always appreciate your bad jokes, Sar," Rae smirked, fully expecting a comment in return for calling the jokes bad. "No matter whether I'm fully healthy or on my death bed." Too soon? Maybe.
Sarah's promise to curb stomp any water-dwelling zombies made her laugh. "Not if I do it first," she responded, pushing the front door open and stepping out into the bitter November chill. She shook her head in surprise at the sensation, but recovered quickly. "But seriously," she started, "I know you're right. I'll be myself again in no time, I just… think I need to take a couple more days. And bull shit Nick wouldn't do anything. He loves me, and he's about the only person on earth other than me who could take you down," she added.
Sarah's response to her denial of her feelings for Elliot made her worry. She tried. She really did. She tried really hard to keep them in check, not to show them in public. The little cheek-touch she'd given him before they'd had their reunion celebration with David had been a moment of weakness, which she could write off as being sick if anyone asked her about it. But she couldn't. She was scared, both of her feelings and the fact that he probably didn't see her like that. "What do you want me to say?" she asked. Sarah already had her own predetermined (and probably correct) notion about how Rae felt. Did she really need to say it aloud?