I'm sorry that I haven't been active lately. I haven't been very social at all, really. I've been stuck in my own head lately and I've been having trouble keeping plans and checking in with my friends. I've bought a few cards to send to people but haven't bothered sending them. A friend of mine is going through an extremely difficult time right now and I've been thinking about her and praying for her non-stop. I feel awful that I haven't really checked in with her in a while. I haven't checked in with any of my friends in a while. I haven't really spoken to my best friend for a few months - which sucks. I don't really know where this is coming from. I have a bit of anxiety with it and I just cannot bring myself to do these things.
I've been pretty busy with school. My class is so unorganized and the only things that we are graded on are tests. No homework, just tests. I hate teachers like this. I like my grade to be balanced on different things so low scores don't affect too much. We had our first test on valentine's day. I thought I bombed, it was awful. I focused on things I thought were more important and barely remembered what was on the test. Luckily he forgot that he told us that there wouldn't be any diagrams so we didn't have to take that portion of the exam. I think that brought my grade up. I got a 72. Not great but not too bad that I can't recover from it. I need a B or better in this class to pass! My teacher is nice, but he's so forgetful and never really describes things outright. He has to talk around the subject a few times and then gets to the point. It's so irritating. So I've been swamped with studying and writing my own notes down while I'm home.
When I'm done studying, I hole up and read. I'm currently halfway through the 8th book of the Sookie Stackhouse series. I'm also reading a book of short stories by Stephen King, picking at Gone Girl, and I have The Casual Vacancy going on my Nook app. I finished reading Divergent yesterday after starting it on Monday. I would've finished it sooner, but I didn't have time to read it on Tuesday. I only meant to pick at it before the movie came out next month buttt became too attached. I loved it. I need the next two very soon. I went to the thrift store on Sunday with my mom and got a bunch of books. I got House Rules by Jodi Picoult, A Thousand Splendid Suns and Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini, Skeleton Crew and Heart's in Atlantis by Stephen King, Running With Scissors by Augusten Burroughs, The Memory Keeper's Daughter by Kim Edwards, and The Help by Kathryn Stockett. I bought Water For Elephants by Sara Gruen at Barnes & Noble for $5 later that day. I bought Looking For Alaska and Will Grayson, Will Grayson by John Green at Target on Saturday. I'm pretty excited. My mom dragged me to the library with her too and I managed not to get anything since I'm in the middle of so many books right now.
My anniversary with Anthony was on the 16th. I was pretty nervous that he had forgotten or no longer cared about the date. We hadn't talked about it and my mom happened to ask us and he almost looked uncomfortable and said that we hadn't talked about it. A few days later he asked me if we were doing anything for valentine's day and I said no, since we never do. And that was that. The morning of our anniversary he started talking to me and a few minutes into the conversation, he goes "it's our anniversary today, isn't it?" Yep. He then stated the obvious that we hadn't talked about it. He asked me if I wanted to do anything and I left it entirely to him. He wanted to go to dinner, so we did. It was nice. We went to the same Italian restaurant that we went to last year for our anniversary. I was just relieved that he hadn't forgotten (all day) or didn't value the day anymore. I leave everything entirely up to him thse days. But it looks like things are completely back to normal now, which is good.