now..I never read the fic that came before this-the spander fic- but i was wondering if this Buffy was always in love with Spike and settled with Angel as second best. The line-and I misquote-I was the one who sent you to him-did Buffy go to Spike first and it was too late for her and is she doing anything she can to hold onto Spike now without letting him know she loves him? I love the way you write-thanks