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Hope O'Shea ([info]hope_lingers) wrote in [info]haunted_roads,
@ 2008-07-17 12:49:00

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Entry tags:bastian, hope

Week Twelve: Monday
Who Bastian and Hope/Alyssa
When: Monday Night
Where: The Barking Spider
What: Reunion

Nox had found out a lot. Well, perhaps not a lot, but enough to make Hope wander if her instincts that told her to come here had in fact been correct. There was a girl reported missing, daughter of the owner of this Tavern, fifteen, nearly sixteen, years ago. The hair, the eyes, it all seemed to add up, but how had she, as a teenage runaway, or was she perhaps abducted, able to get all the way across the country to New York? That was the one question she could not answer, well, one of many. But it was time to stop delaying it and see if it were possible that she was, in fact, Alyssa Veniamin.

She had been working up the courage to step inside of this bar since the first day she had arrived in Seattle and had yet to do so before now. But one foot was inside the door, and soon the other followed, and without much reluctance, she was crossing the barroom floor to the actual bar itself, situating herself upon a stool as her eyes glanced around the place for anything that might seem vaguely familiar. There was nothing.

A hand moved up to push long strands of dark hair back out of her face as she slipped off her jacket, the same one she had had on the night that she had watched the woman die. The blood stains had come out easily at the dry cleaners though she now lacked the belt that she needed to keep it closed. Eventually she would track down something else that would work, but that had been the last thing on her mind since she had arrived here.

In her well-tailored, dark-wash jeans, and her deep brown sweater and brown boots with a small heel, she looked more than a little out of place in this bar. But she was here on a mission and she hardly noticed though she couldn't say there wasn't at least a small bit of intent there. That last thing she wanted was to garner any unwanted attention from drunken bystanders. She was a beautiful woman, this she knew, and attention generally came easy if she dressed herself up, but she hoped that dressing down would alleviate this.

The bartender made his way down to her but she didn't look up immediately, eyes instead focused upon the beer menu in her hand. "Let me have a Beck's Dark." She looked up as she spoke. Nothing too heavy for her tonight. Things were potentially going to get heavy enough as it was.



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[info]better_days
2008-07-18 12:02 am UTC (link)
Unusual faces weren’t all together a strange thing at the Barking Spider. People stopped in to check it out, get a drink, and go on with their day. Most of the regulars were used to it and barely blinked an eye to it. Bastian, on the other hand, was all too acutely aware of new arrivals. Especially after what happened long ago. Women, men, he noticed them all even if it barely looked like he’d seen them at all. The girl was noted, but with so much time passing there was no way he could just give a glance at her and know who she was.

All he knew was that she was human and for him that meant less of a threat. It meant she wasn’t with people he never wanted to be in the bar again.

She took her seat and Bastian continued on with the table he was currently talking to. A group of regulars that were all grinning and trying to joke around. Even if Bastian only seemed half interested in the jokes. The guys that came into a place like this were good guys deep down. They weren’t the slur all over a girl sort, no reason that Bastian or his old man would put up with that. Most were just looking to enjoy their beer and get on with their night. Others just wanted to forget the night in a beer. This wasn’t the sort of place for girl hunting.

But though the bar was old, and though it was a bit worn, it was a friendly enough environment. Even if that needed a bit of work…the bar had gone through some tough times. Much like the family that owned it. Bastian was attempting to bring some new life into the place but considering his rather dim view on the world lately…it was a bit difficult to get the urge to brighten things up. He was trying…it was just slow going.

At the least with Bastian back in front of the bar the old man was better able to sit in the back office and go through paperwork. Handling the money side of things that needed some attention alright. Bastian helped with the catching up when he could but the old man stubbornly held to a lot of the tasks. It made him feel useful and Bastian wasn’t about to take that away from him.

“Be just a sec.” Bastian remarked to the new comer as he finished taking the order of the table and headed back behind the bar. There he glanced to the girl even as he started getting drinks ready for the other. As a bartender you had to become great friends with the ability to multitask. “Sure thing.” A remark of confirmation as he finished up the other drinks, lining them on the bar for the boys. “Making us get our own drinks, getting lazy Bas.” Bastian just rolled his eyes a bit, attempting to keep up that banter “Just helping to make sure you get some needed exercise, that’s all.” It made them all laugh.

A second later the cap to the beer was being popped off “Bottle or glass?” everyone had their preference. With the question he looked up at her again. It was only then that he got that…feeling in his gut. That strange tug that he couldn’t really place outright but it sure as hell made him cautious.

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[info]hope_lingers
2008-07-18 12:17 am UTC (link)
The place actually was really quite nice. She had been here for a bit and there were no cat calls made at all. That wasn't usually the case when it came to most bars. But it wasn't just that. There was this feeling, this.. familiarity about it. It felt like.. like she had had been here before, and often. And the more she sat there, the stronger that feeling became, and the more she started to think that maybe, just maybe, this was the place she was supposed to be.

If the feeling had not been enough, the look that the bartender gave her certainly assisted. "Bottle." She replied, though the words came slowly, and she found herself unable to look away from him as a feeling took hold of her gut, like something had grabbed it and was starting to twist it, making her feel both nauseated and breathless at the same time.

"Thank you." She finally managed to speak, feeling like the words had been hung in her throat which was suddenly beyond parched. She wrenched her gaze away as she took the beer in hand, enough money to cover it already having been laid upon the bar top. A hand moved up to tuck her hair back behind her ear, visibly shaking as she took a drink of the dark liquid.

She could feel the pace of her pulse starting to pick up. Should she say something? What if she was wrong? What if this was all just wishful thinking making her feel this way and the look was nothing, was all inside her head? But what if it wasn't?

"Do I know you?" She asked, those deep browns of hers moving back up to meet his own.

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[info]better_days
2008-07-18 01:19 am UTC (link)
Bastian gave a nod, handing over the bottle and trying to not read too much into that feeling that had begun to put him on edge. Though his appearance hadn't changed in too many years, her own had. At a glance he wouldn't know...but he had more then a glance now. There was something familiar about her. Something that tugged at him and refused to be easily dismissed. He knew better then to not trust his gut instincts...but with the worries he had in life now most of the time that instinct was more of a get the fuck out of there rather then linger and figure something out.

This feeling didn't make him want to run though. It....was confusing. That much he knew. The feel of her was familiar. The scent even. All those things he'd notice that a human wouldn't. More then that it was a look that reminded him of a woman long since dead. It wasn't the first time he spotted someone that looked like her.

But it wasn't like this.

Who had always looked so much like her? One person...and standing there he couldn't really believe it. He'd asked his old man about her when he got back...asked if there was any word. There wasn't any. The old man lost both of his kids...Bastian knew what it was like to live thinking you'd never see them again. He knew...and it wasn't a feeling he ever wanted the old man to have again. It wasn't one he ever wanted any of his family to have again.

He didn't say anything though, he watched her. Not obviously but all the same. He wanted to be certain. He needed to be certain. He didn't want to get his dads hopes up. He didn't want to think it was and then...realize that he was just making something out of nothing.

"Hey Bas!" one of the guys shouted, breaking him free of his thoughts with a quick glance their way. "You alright man?" the regular questioned, Bastian just waved his hand dismissively. Yeah...yeah he was fine. Or...at least he could claim to be. That is until she was speaking, questioning him on if she knew him. It made him look back. Really look. It had to be her.

"You don't know?" he questioned, a brow arched slightly and his words a bit guarded. He had to be anymore, no matter who was in front of him. "Yeah...I think you should." no, not think. It was her. That feeling was too strong. The look too familiar. It was just...he didn't even know how to explain what it was.

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[info]hope_lingers
2008-07-18 09:14 am UTC (link)
The feeling wasn't going away. If anything, it was just becoming more and more pressing. And the fact that he seemed unable to just walk away, noticeably distracted as well, as was pointed out by one of the patrons that she could guess was a regular asking him if he was okay, only make it seem that much more like.. like maybe Nox had hit the nail on the head.

It made sense, didn't it? She remembered nothing but this phone number. And then the missing persons report. The description matched. The age was right, the time frame. It also helped to make sense of why she hadn't been found when she was much younger. Being all the way across the country would certainly hinder that. At least back then it would have, before the age of electronics became more prevalent at hand.

The question made her shake her head softly, and she could feel that familiar burning sensation starting in behind her eyes. "I was involved in an accident," she began to explain, "when I was sixteen, fifteen, I don't really remember anything prior to that. She had had to learn everything again, almost. "You may have to..." She paused to take a breath, feeling them becoming much too shallow. "refresh my memory." Though deep down inside, there was a part of her that already knew it. Brother. She felt it.

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[info]better_days
2008-07-19 12:10 am UTC (link)
Even if he were human he wasn't sure that he'd be able to miss that similarity and that familiarity that tugged at him. It was too strong an emotion to be there only because of what he was. No there was something about her; something that made him take that second look just to make sure that his eyes weren't playing tricks on him. The last thing he expected was to see her again. After so long, after the way things had been last time she was there...it had been made clear that she wanted away. But he'd shown again hadn't he? Nothing was impossible...

A part of him didn't trust it though. That wary part of him that had to wonder....the timing was just too....he didn't even know how to describe it. But he wouldn’t put it past his sire to do something like this just to see him squirm. He didn't sense the woman on her though. It didn't feel like the other games she'd played.

No…it wasn’t a game. It was real. He wasn’t sure what to feel yet. Or how he was supposed to even react.

"An accident?" worry was clear upon his features. Why hadn't the family said anything? He knew they were distant but...that was taking it too far. "What happened?" how could it happen and them not know? He remembered how often they tried to get a hold of her. How it had killed his dad that she wouldn't come home. He knew it was a scar that had never healed with him.

He tried to be calm but he was shocked of course, how could he not be? But he wasn't about to ask a thousand questions or make it too known yet. He wanted to know more before the old man heard something and came out.

He took a seat then, it was a bit needed, and a cigarette was brought to his lips. This bar didn’t exactly hold to the no smoking indoors rule put into place. He lit it up and took a long, too long really, drag from it. “You’re my sister.” He knew that much to be true. But what happened from the point they were once a family to now..he had no idea.

But he wanted to.

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[info]hope_lingers
2008-07-19 12:19 pm UTC (link)
If he had asked her the questions that were running through his mind, she would have to disappoint him. She had no answers. All she knew was that she had woken up, at age 20, in New York City, with no memory at all of who she was or where she was from. And that at some point in time, there was a missing persons report filed, apparently for her, all the way in Seattle. Everything else was gone, and she hoped that he could fill in some of those blanks, or that someone could.

"Car accident." She explained, though she didn't go into too much more detail about it. She hadn't actually been in a car, but walking. That didn't seem all that important. "In New York." Maybe that meant something to him. She wasn't really sure.

Hope didn't smoke, or hadn't smoked for quite some time rather, but upon him sitting down and taking the cigarette from his pack, the want to do so became quite overwhelming. "May I have one?" She asked, and then smiled in thanks as he gave one to her. She vaguely realized that smoking was illegal, but she vaguely didn't care. She borrowed his light to light her own and took a deep drag herself. She coughed. What a light weight she was anymore.

Hope offered a small smile upon the revelation, but she didn't seem shocked as she had already figured that much out. He was too young to be her father. And it was just a feeling that she had. "It's nice to meet you." That probably wasn't the most brilliant thing to say, but that was the only thing she could think of right now. And she laughed at herself immediately thereafter, taking another shakey drag off of the cigarette.

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[info]better_days
2008-07-21 06:44 pm UTC (link)
They were questions that would be hard pressed to find answers on now. That side of the family had fallen off the map…which didn’t exactly make anything easier really. Maybe they moved not wanting to hear the questions on where she was. Maybe they just needed away. All Bastian knew was that they were no help at all, not even when the police went looking for them to try to find some answers. But Bastian really couldn’t push much…seemed the lack of answers was a common trend anymore.

Not that it sat well with any of them but it didn’t change the reality.

“New York?” he questioned, shaking his head a bit at the realization of just how far away she’d been. Explained why the cops came up with nothing at all. “I’d ask why you were there but doesn’t sound like you’d know.” And he had his guesses. Those reasons why most went there. He’d been there once, in the various travels his sire took him on. It made him wonder if she had been there then too. Not that he would have ever been able to cross her path…exploration wasn’t part of his travel plans then.

“Explains why it’s been so long.” He muttered at the least as he passed her a cigarette when she asked. That constant cigarette to his lips was at least one thing that hadn’t changed about Bastian. He was working on getting the old man to quit though. Old fool always told him he had no room to talk, but death by cigarettes wasn’t a worry for Bastian. Right now really wasn’t the time to go pushing that topic though. They all needed their damned stress relief.

Bastian managed to crack a faint smirk at her words but really…it was damned hard to take. Damned hard. “Nice to have you back.” Was all he could really respond with. The question was…was she really back? He didn’t know her at all anymore and no memories…shit.

Could things just not be complicated for awhile? That really would be great. For some reason he wasn’t holding his unneeded breath on that one.

“So you remember nothing then? No hints or clues or….” Yeah, he was reaching. “How’d you end up making it back here then?” he was hoping the answer was something that made sense. You know something not along the lines of your sire told me. Paranoid? A bit. But it wasn’t without reason. He had to wonder…had to question nearly everything that happened now. It wasn’t how he wanted to live but he didn’t have much choice in that matter right now.

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[info]hope_lingers
2008-07-21 08:24 pm UTC (link)
Hope nodded her head when he questioned the city. It did explain a lot of things for her as well knowing that she was from Seattle. Then again, it opened up a lot more questions too. Like why was she there? Why was an underage girl with no identification running around New York City alone? It didn't make much sense. She shook her head to the additional remark. "Head injury. I was in a coma for four years." And there was nothing when she woke up.

It was always a bit of a rush smoking again when you hadn't smoked in so long. She felt a little bit light headed from it as she exhaled but that didn't stop her from going in for a second drag. She watched him as he puffed on his own, trying to recall something, trying to find something familiar about his face but with no avail. She really couldn't remember anything about him. It was disappointing. "They never could figure out who I was so.." She shrugged her shoulders slightly. "Eventually everyone just gave up."

Hope smiled at those words and then exhaled a sigh. "That's good to hear." She didn't think it was all that strange for her to worry that there might not have been anyone here that would want her around. It was definitely a relief to know that she had been missed.

"Uhm, the phone number." She took another drag off of the cigarette as she began to explain. "I remembered the number, decided to find out what it was for. Then when I had vacation time coming I thought.." She shrugged her shoulders a bit. "Why not?" She took another drag and exhaled off to the side. "I've been here for a while actually, I just hadn't gotten up the nerve to come in until I met this detective, Nox Alekos, and uhm.. he checked into it for me, told me that a girl had been reported missing. Alyssa, right?" She asked before taking the final drag off of the cigarette and then putting it out, her beer taken in its stead an raised to her lips for a heavy drink.

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[info]better_days
2008-07-22 12:14 pm UTC (link)
Eyes went a bit wide at her statement of just how long she had been in the coma. Four years….he couldn’t say that he couldn’t imagine what it felt like but at the same time he could. Though gone for so long he’d been aware through most of it. He wouldn’t have minded not being so however. But waking up not knowing where you were or who you were. That was a reality that he couldn’t grasp. Who really could until they were thrust into it? No one imagined that would happen to them. “Are you alright…besides the memory loss?” he questioned lightly, not really wanting to push a possible touchy subject but at the same time wanting to know. Needing to know.

The shrug was hard for him to take, more then once it occurred. He couldn’t imagine just shrugging something like that off. Or giving up. He knew how he was, he’d be too damned persistent to just go oh well and go on with life. Maybe it would have been pointless to seek out something when you had no real starting point but…it was still just hard to grasp. She didn’t remember them…but they remembered her. And she’d been out there that whole time. Living her life. Unaware.

He didn’t really know what to think on that. That giving up. He had wanted to more then once in his time away. It was easier to give up and just accept how life was. But he couldn’t. He just…couldn’t. Not then. Not now.

“We were worried.” And at times angry. At least Bastian knew he had been. Angry that she took off and separated the family. Angry that she chose her sorrow and bitterness over them. If she hadn’t, if she had just stayed like they told her to a hundred times over, maybe things would be different. Maybe. Or maybe they would be worse. He didn’t know. He just knew the old man took her leaving like a damned stab to an already wounded heart. Hard to lose your wife and your kid so close together. Then he lost the other kid soon after. Bastian envied his fathers strength. He always would.

“Alyssa, yeah. Guess that’s up to you if its you anymore.” The words came out forced, a less then pleased nature but what else could he say or do? Wasn’t his choice if she stayed or if she left again. Wasn’t his choice if she even wanted to know who the hell they were. Right now she might have been better off staying away. But he couldn’t say it and even thinking it made him feel bitter and torn. Things weren’t safe here. He didn’t know when they would be. But would he rather never know what happened to her? No.

“And where you want to go from here…now that you know.” There was a sadness in his eyes. How could there not be? She was his sister but he couldn’t even work up the strength to hug her and say that he didn’t give a shit what she remembered and didn’t, that she was home. He couldn’t make that choice for someone. He couldn’t know what was going on in her head. He didn’t know who she was anymore. But more then that he wasn’t sure if the old man could take having her back and having her choose to leave again.

“We’re here…no matter what you decide.” That much he could give, could offer. Even if the family was nothing like the one she’d left long ago. Even if things were still…fucked in a way. They were there. They always were for family.

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[info]hope_lingers
2008-07-23 10:38 am UTC (link)
No one could really fathom what that was like until it happened and she hoped that it would never happen to another person again. She had lost a huge chunk of her youth in that incident, not to mention the memories of her entire childhood. She felt old before her time after she woke up, having so much stress on top of her, so much confusion, so much to think about constantly. It hadn't been at all easy for her. "Mmhmm. I am now." She had worked very hard to be okay. "There were a few issues with.. short term memory and.. I had to learn almost everything again, had a little trouble with.. coordinating my body for a while but.. therapy pretty much fixed all of that."

If going through all of the emotions of it, overcoming the physical complications had been hard, it was nothing in comparison to the day when it was decided that she needed to stop looking back and start moving forward. That hadn't really stopped her from looking, just from looking quite so hard. And she could nearly see that accusation in the look upon his face, hear it in his words of worry.

"It's not like I stopped all together." She started to explain. "I just accepted that.. well there comes a point in time in a situation like that where you just have to realize that.. that maybe you won't ever know." She hoped that he could understand that. "And you have to start focusing more on building something for yourself that you can hold onto if that turns out to be the case."

Alyssa. That was going to be strange to hear for a while, perhaps forever. She couldn't really know that now. And yes, there was that relucatance, that hesitation, to accept that this was the truth, and to move on from her former life to this one, her former former life. Had she not been able to see the sadness in his eyes, she would have thought that that wasn't what he wanted at all, that he wanted her to leave and not look back. But how could she possibly when this was what she had spent her entire adulthood looking for?

"And who is we exactly?" She had no idea about her parents, their parents. Were they dead? Were they alive? Would it just be him or did he have a family? Was she about to walk into a big, massive bunch of people, or were they few yet close-knit? She couldn't recall any of that at all.

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[info]better_days
2008-07-23 02:27 pm UTC (link)
Bastian nodded his head slightly, though the words sort of sank in slowly. Piece by piece accepting what she said even if part of him didn’t really wish to. “I’m glad that you’re alright now…that you had help.” That she’d managed to find her way to a hospital that had given her that time to heal and get back on her feet. He knew not all would. Hell he’d been to a few that nearly pushed him out the door because all he needed were some stitches. Not everyone cared….and he couldn’t imagine having to go through all of that all alone.

He wouldn’t accuse her though, it was too soon and too cruel to do so given the circumstances. Bastian hadn’t made his feelings exactly clear, he’d long ago had to learn how to school anything he felt. The bitch sire enjoyed seeing them too much…so he had to take something from her. Not that she minded taking something else instead but still...more and more Bastian looked calm when he felt anything but. He looked collected when he felt like he was falling apart inside. His statement of worry was just that…letting her know that they had been worried. Letting her know that they had been thinking about her. That they were a family that did care for each other. Not all families did. Many, anymore, seemed to hardly notice if people were even there.

He wanted her to at least know that much.

But even with that need to bury emotions, some things refused to be kept so tightly bottled up. And the sadness he felt in losing family so many times now….that ate at him too deeply.

All he could really do was nod again to her words. To the truth that all you could do was move forward when the past was gone. Bastian couldn’t understand it, he hoped he never really had to. For him his situation was different. The past hadn’t been gone for him…it was the future that seemed lost. All he had then was the past to hold to in order to keep himself from giving up. The past….that felt to be so torn when he came back finally.

Missing years of the life he should have had. At least that much he could understand. But all of them had lost, all of them had their lives changed and torn apart from the lives they likely thought they’d have. Going forward from that…it wasn’t always so easy.

“We…” Bastian sighed softly, as it just seemed so strange for her of all people to be asking. A face familiar, a voice familiar, but the person…so different. “John, our father...” he had to pause then, just a second of silence to listen for the man still buried away in his work, thankfully. “Maggie…Sophie…my fiancée and daughter.” That was all that was left of the family. Nearly the same pieces…absent only their mother that had been the glue that kept them together. That loss still was all too fresh for Bastian. For all of them at times.

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[info]hope_lingers
2008-07-24 12:48 pm UTC (link)
It wasn't so much the hospital that had been helpful as it was the few kind people that she had met that knew their way around the system. It was amazing what charities would do for a person if you knew the right person to speak to about it. She had been fortunate, very fortunate, and she counted those blessings on a daily basis. Someone had certainly been looking out for her. She had no idea if she had been very spiritual before the incident, but she certainly was now

She wasn't so sure that he understood it, then again, how could anyone understand that hadn't been there. She was glad that he wasn't drilling into her about it though. That would have been a certain way to send her off somewhere, never to return perhaps. Then again, not knowing the actual circumstances of her departure may have kept her with an open mind.

She listened intently as he spoke of the family, noting that he had glanced back when he spoke of their father. "Is he here?" She asked, and could feel her heart beating a bit faster at the prospect. There was also another glaring omission. He spoke nothing of their mother. "Our mother?" She asked, though she had a feeling that she knew the answer to that before asking it. "She passed away?" Talk about depressing. Now she would never get to know her, remember her. But at least, perhaps, she still had the rest of them left.

"Maybe I should go." She suggested, and glanced towards the door he had looked at previously. "Give you a chance to.. talk to them, prepare them." It sounded like a good idea inside her head. "I'm staying at The King's Inn. If you have a pen and paper, I can give you my number. Maybe you could give me a call and.. we could all maybe... get together later in the week?"

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[info]better_days
2008-07-24 01:27 pm UTC (link)
Bastian, jaded as he was, wouldn’t think it some kind act of a higher power if he knew the details. Likely he’d begin to wonder if it was something else. Someone else. Likely that spoke the true depths of his paranoia but often his sire had sought to use his family against him. To tease about how she could kill them, or how they were even already dead. John, Maggie, Sophie…and his sister. Yes she claimed to know where she was…but believing her in anything often lead to nothing but pain and so Bastian had ceased to listen to a word of it. Now he questioned…was it some gift from god that she was given those kind people? Or the work of some bitch far darker then that?

Such thoughts always made Bastian’s stomach twist and that cold feeling rush through his veins. As though she knew he was thinking of her. No matter the distance, no matter the time, she was there. Making him question everything good in his life. To question every act and every word.

But no…no he’d not give her the cold shoulder or push questions on the past. How could he when he’d not even really open up about his own life? Seemed…hypocritical. More then that it seemed that there was little she could give him. She didn’t know why she’d gone or where she’d been. She couldn’t answer them so why weigh her down with what she likely already wondered on? He understood better then she likely thought…in ways he didn’t want to explain.

Understanding didn’t take away the sting of it however. The questioning, the wondering, the uncertainty.

Bastian hadn’t needed to glance back to see if the door was still shut, with his senses he could hear still the heartbeat of the man at his office desk. He could hear the slight music he had playing. But some human habits died hard…and that desire to keep to them to feel more human, turned his head just to be certain. “Working in the back.” Bastian replied, looking back at her then to see the panic that appeared to her features. Too much for her…too much for the old man. Bastian didn’t call him out here. Though if the old man heard that she’d been here and he hadn’t he was likely going to get chewed out. But he wasn’t looking to overwhelm her. She had a lot to absorb too.

His gaze flickered away and then finally back to her at the question of their mother. “Yeah, passed away awhile ago. Not long before you left.” It all felt like a blur now. Just one fall after another. It felt like it would always be a sore topic for all of them. Even if his father tried to always look so strong when it was brought up.

“It’s okay…you don't...” Bastian began, but it looked like she needed the out of sorts. To collect her own thoughts. He would have rathered her stayed. If anything just for proof that she was really there. But he wasn’t going to force her to risk seeing the old man if she needed out. “They’ll want to see you.” He knew that much. But it was going to be a lot to tell them. So by the way I’m a vampire and look who is back! So many shocks all at once. “Next week…okay. Whenever you want. You know how to reach us.” But he did grab a piece of paper and jot down extra numbers. Cell. The house. “Doubtful they will even want to wait that long.” But he had to find the moment to tell them.

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[info]hope_lingers
2008-07-24 02:11 pm UTC (link)
A part of her had hoped that he would tell her not to go even if she felt like she had needed to. If you combined the fact that she had no more answers about how she ended up where she had been along with the fact that she finally knew at least who she was, and the revelation that she may never know her mother as it seemed completely unlikely that she would ever recall anything from her past, she needed time to sort through all of those things inside of her head. Selish? Maybe just a little, but this was one of those times where even the thought that she could be being exactly that wasn't going to change her mind. It was all too much right now. And she needed time. He needed time. They all needed a little time.

"And I want to see them, I just.." She paused and sighed softly as she shook her head. "I really need a little time to wrap my head around this." And to figure out what she was going to do now. She was scheduled to head back to New York before the end of the current week. But now, all things considered, she wasn't certain that that was an option. She would have to see about taking a leave of absence. Or about leaving all together. It would be impossible to just go back home to New York now that she knew all of this.

Taking the piece of paper, she also took the pen from him and tore off a part of it to write down her own information. "If you need to reach me." She explained, and slid the paper back over to him. "You can call any time." She wanted to add that she would like it if he did but she didn't, couldn't bring herself to say it. "And.. it's Hope." She added, thinking that it might be too much for him to hear her preference for a different name. "Hope Smith. That's... who've I've been for.." As long as she could remember. "The past few years."

Moving from the stool, she pocketed the paper, placing enough money down on the counter to cover the beer after she put her cigarette out in the ashtray. Granted, being that she was family she probably didn't have to pay, but she wouldn't have felt comfortable with that just yet. "Should I.. uhm... Would you like a hug?" Talk about awkward, but one never really had any sort of way of preparing for how to act in a situation quite like this one. It wasn't exactly something that you were trained on in charm school, not that she had ever attended charm school regardless.

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[info]better_days
2008-07-24 03:04 pm UTC (link)
He wanted to and at the same time didn’t, knowing that she needed the time and knowing that if you pushed certain topics too harshly in the beginning…you were never really given the second chance. He didn’t want to risk that. He didn’t want to just completely overwhelm her with that harsh reality that she did have a past…a past that had missed her and had wanted to know where she was. It wasn’t exactly easy to accept or fully grasp. Life one way and then another…he could understand that. Maybe it was selfish in a way but he wasn’t going to deny her that moment to collect herself. There was…well just a hell of a lot to consider.

Bastian nodded his head a bit to her words. “It’s alright, I understand.” And he left it at that for her. No questions, no push otherwise. It was her choice and he felt that it needed to be in this. All her choice. Otherwise…he didn’t want to think how this could end up otherwise. All he knew is that she had the past here if she wanted to try to reclaim it and if not? He wasn’t sure what to do about that possibility. For right now he was just trying to not think about it. One step at a time. That was the only way he knew how to deal with anything anymore.

The rest of the bar had been forgotten when he saw her…and it still was as she wrote some foreign number to the paper. It felt strange to take it, to have this be the only contact between him and his sister. Not at home or some memorized number away. But some vacant hotel. It didn’t seem right. It wasn’t right. But it was what they had right now. It was better then what was had before right? “I will” and he would call. He just…needed to figure out what he was going to do with this information now.

A brow arched when she spoke again, it took him a second to fully realize just what she was saying. Hope….that’s what she wanted to go by. It made him feel…sick in a way. It was such a slap to the face of just…how it was her and so very much wasn’t her all in one. “Hope. I….yeah I’ll try to remember that.” Was about all he could really offer her. It…was going to be strange. It…left him feeling tongue tied almost in the attempt to spit out that name that didn’t feel right.

He was going to protest the money but didn’t, right now it was all about picking the points to push and that wasn’t one of them. He just left it be, watching her quickly gather herself up to leave. There and gone again. A bomb dropped and disappearing before the dust could settle.

And how awkward it felt to have her ask. The girl that used to follow him around and demand a hug before she went to bed. The kid he remembered staying up late to hear him play his guitar in his room, even though she was supposed to be asleep. They had been close….and like most else in life there was this chasm of distance now. “If you’d like, up to you what you’re comfortable with.” He wouldn’t fault her either way.

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[info]hope_lingers
2008-07-25 03:47 pm UTC (link)
She had known that it might be asking a bit much for him to use her name that wasn't really her name, but at the same time, it would be too much for her to have to go by a name that she had never known. It wasn't an easy situation from either side that you looked at it from but what else could either of them really do? A little bit of compromise, a little bit of time, and a lot of pain was what it was ultimately going to take.

Hope recognized that that was a strange question for her to ask, but all those memories inside of his head, they didn't exist inside of hers. And even though she knew that this was her brother now, it still felt like he was a stranger. Hugging strangers was never easy. It took her a moment of debating it before she decided to just go ahead and do it, and she moved up onto tip toes to embrace him from over the counter. She didn't feel as though it would be right for her to walk around even if this was her family's bar. Family. What a strange concept that was.

Hope held onto Bastian for a long moment before she ever pulled away, speaking right before she did so. "Even if I don't remember you, this still feels familiar." That was all the reassurance she could give him. A little could sometimes go a long way though. She smiled once she was back on her feet again, hoisting her back up onto her shoulder and adjusting the lay of her jacket. "So uhm... I'll see you then." She felt like there was more than she should say, but all other words were lost.

Turning, she walked out of the bar and back into the night. A quick meeting, yes, but one that would change the course of both of their lives drastically. It was times like these when she really wished she had a friend that she could talk to.

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[info]better_days
2008-07-25 04:07 pm UTC (link)
Bastian understood why she said it, why she asked it, but that didn’t make it an easy thing to stomach. It was nothing but proof to the gravity of the situation and it was a damned lot to just suddenly accept. Hello your sisters back and hello, she has no idea who you are. Yes it was difficult for her…but in a way maybe it was easier to not have those memories and not understand the hurt involved from that other side.

Not knowing that lose made it easier to deal with. Where as they remembered the lose…remembered it all too well and now had it right before their eyes all over again.

It wasn’t strange for the fact that she didn’t know him and wasn’t sure what to do. But strange to think that the choice was his own. He knew her. He knew her face, her scent; he had memories that tied him to her. It wasn’t he who would have some resistance to such nearness but the woman who didn’t even know who he was. He didn’t seek to make the choice for her. He stayed still, letting her decide and finally come to embrace him.

It wasn’t as it had once been. But Bastian now had come to be used to nothing being the same any longer. Everything was different. Everything.

It was a somber thought.

An arm curled around her, hugging her back for as long as she wished to linger. And when she pulled back Bastian let her go, leaning back to sit down upon the stool behind him with a faint sigh. The words were…comforting and not all in one. The double edged sword of life. “Alright…talk to you soon.” He kept it light. Kept it that…easy end rather then saying anything that might be too much right now. No family terms, no mention of missing or sis. No mention of her name. In a way he needed to keep it light. He didn’t want the boys in the bar questioning or asking the old man.

He watched her go. Watched till the door shut and the bar seemed to return to its normal sounds and sights. The boys in the back chattering. The tv playing. It all woke back up to his senses but he didn’t find any comfort in those familiar noises right now.

Shaking his head he pushed up to his feet and tried to find something to keep him busy. He had a lot to think about.

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