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Fisher Majors ([info]hearitbleed) wrote in [info]halcyon_houses,
@ 2008-12-21 21:55:00

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Entry tags:fisher, james

Week 22- Sunday
Who: James and Fisher
What: Movie time!
Where: Fisher's Room
Why: Fuck Tuesday!

Fisher stood in front of the full length mirror that hung on his closet door, trying to decide if he liked or hated how his new clothes made him look. He'd gone shopping with Ita yesterday, and she'd picked out some things that (she said) looked nice on him. But he wasn't sure. He hadn't worn anything not-gothy in over ten years, so this was a pretty big change.

"I feel like a fag," he told himself, in complete sincerity. Fisher was never really one to be PC. Still, the colors were a nice change on the eyes. "But I think I need a haircut," he mused. "Stringy, messy goth hair is not good with Express for Men. The Queer Eye guys would shoot me down."

As he twirled a few times, observing all angles, there was a sharp knock on the door. He figured it was Ita (who else could it be?), and thought she'd appreciate that he was wearing the clothes she'd picked out. When he opened the door, though, there was not a perky blonde standing there. "Uh-" he said, his voice strangled. Well shit.



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[info]jamesownsit
2008-12-21 09:22 pm UTC (link)
James was bored as fuck. There really was nothing to do around this place especially now that everyone was starting to depart for break. He had been thinking that maybe he should just go somewhere too, get the hell out of here, but the thought of going to New York, and really, where else would he go, depressed the hell out of him. So here he would stay for the next little while, but this boredom had to go.

After much debate, or at least a little debate, he decided to gather up the shit that he had planned to take the Fisher's with him on Tuesday, and crammed it all into a bag. He started out the door, but then he paused, turning on his heel to look in the mirror with a bit of a smirk forming upon his lips. Wouldn't that be amusing? He placed the bag down and head towards his closet. There had to be something in there that would work. It wouldn't be the first time he had dressed this way, after all.

About half an hour later, he was knocking on Fisher's door attired in a pair of skinny hipster jeans, dark wash, that showed off his hip bones and a tight black shirt that was thin enough to nearly see through. His hair was tousled like it normally was, with the usual amount of product applied, black military issue combat boots on his feet, and, to top the whole look off, some eyeliner. He looked good, he had to admit to himself, even if this was not a typical look for him.

He had expected Fisher to be shocked, but he was met with just as much shock as he had intended to create when the door opened and Fisher was standing there looking like some reject from AE. A brow arched sharply for a moment, and then he just laughed. "You look like The Gap threw up on you." He paused for a moment. "Going to invite me in or should I just invite myself?"

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-12-21 09:31 pm UTC (link)
James was right- he did look good. Damn good. So damn good, in fact, that Fisher couldn't find words. He did step aside and let James enter his room, however, his jaw hanging open a little. He closed the door, still staring at James as the boy made himself at home in Fisher's bedroom More aptly, he was staring at James' ass as he walked by. Well how could he not! The pants were tight, the ass was nice. James had it coming.

"Ita picked out my clothes," he said at last, though he couldn't even remember what he was wearing right now. "Wh-what are you... I mean, um, hi. What are you doing here? And why are you... wearing... that?"

Oh yes, he was eloquent.

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[info]jamesownsit
2008-12-21 09:37 pm UTC (link)
"Nice room." James said, his eyes scanning the place as he stepped inside, the bag he was carrying tossed down onto the bed. He could feel the eyes upon him, and he didn't mind it. If he did, he wouldn't have dressed that way. He had anticipated it. Truth be told, he would have been disappointed if he hadn't made the man stutter just a little.

"I was bored, so I decided to say fuck Tuesday." He gave a small shrug of his shoulders. "Figured you wouldn't be busy." He turned with his back towards the bed, his eyes moving to meet Fisher's own, a bit of a smirk gracing his lips. "What? Don't you like it?"

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-12-21 09:45 pm UTC (link)
"N-no, it's good," he assured James, not that James needed assurance. The look in his eyes said that he knew how good he looked. "I mean, you know, for a fag." Ah, that was better. He'd found his voice again. "And you criticize how I'm dressed? The Gap may have barfed all over me, but at least I don't steal from Gwen Stefani's garage sale." He smirked, enjoying taking a dig at James' pride. Because James knew he was hot, and didn't need a stammering goth boy to tell him so.

"So, couldn't resist me, huh? I bet you were just in your room pining for me, aching to get here before Tuesday." He shrugged. "Well, okay, I guess I can accomodate you, since my legions of male prostitutes have gone home for the day." He winked at James, then burst out laughing.

"So what's in the bag? I assume Titanic and various other awful movies you will subject me to?" He gestured toward his flatscreen TV (with built in DVD player). "Pop it in, let's get the horrorfest over with." Fisher stuffed some clothing that he'd draped over his desk chair back into the closet, then cleaned up a little more clutter that was strewn about. He neglected to take care of the fluffy, enticing bowl of Ita's popcorn that lay on the bedside table.

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[info]jamesownsit
2008-12-21 09:56 pm UTC (link)
If he had meant to deflate his ego, he had certainly done nothing of the sort. In fact, at the quip his smirk simply grew even more. He knew how it worked when it came to guys because he was one, and he knew that it was merely a feeble attempt on Fisher's part to mask his attraction. "It isn't you." He remarked, the last comment he would make on Fisher's attire. And it wasn't, not at all. What he didn't understand was why he wanted to change himself, but he wasn't going to let on that he cared enough to know by coming right out and asking.

"You have no idea, Fisher." James teased him back, and then he rolled his eyes. "So that's who those two guys were in the ripped fish net arm stockings I saw heading out of here. Your legion."

James glanced back at the bag and smirked a little to himself thinking about what exactly was in there. "Something like that." He said, and then he went for it, pulling out the bottles of booze and the cranberry juice that he had brought with him. "Got glasses?" Usually he just drank out of the bottle, but since Fisher was obviously mixing, they probably needed glasses. Meanwhile he grabbed the DVD case and headed over to the TV, putting the movie in the DVD player but not yet switching the source over.

"What were you getting ready to watch?" He asked as he moved back towards the bed, noticing the popcorn, which he promptly palmed a handful of and popped into his mouth.

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-12-21 10:06 pm UTC (link)
Fisher frowned, looking down at his clothes. "I thought it looked okay," he said quietly. But ah, what sis James know? James was a boy, and generally straight guys didn't care what other men wore. Still, James was not unfamiliar with fashion, so maybe... Well, not matter. Fisher took off the sweater and tossed it into his messy closet.

"Those guys? Nah, those fishnet wannabes are groupies. I wouldn't fuck them if they paid me. Which, incidentally, they do." He smirked, grabbing a few cups from the top of his bookshelf and placing them on his desk. "They were begging me to be in my next music video. I said no, of course. Let them beg awhile more."

As he poured himself his cocktail, Fisher made a confused face. There shouldn't have been anything in the DVD player. "Watch?" he asked, right before looking up. "I wasn't going to-" And then he saw it. The fluffy, wonderful lustcorn that Ita had made him, that he'd taken some of to test for side effects, was being lifted from the bowl and popped into James' mouth. "Oh!" he cried out, a moment too late. "Oh," he said again, only in defeat. "Um..." What now? Should he tell James? Or not? Naughty Fisher said no, let him have the whole bowl if he wanted it. Smart Fisher was agreeing with naughty Fisher, which wasn't helping any.

"I didn't have a porn in there, did I?" he eventually asked. Maybe he'd tell him later.

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[info]jamesownsit
2008-12-21 10:15 pm UTC (link)
"I didn't say that it looked bad, just that it isn't you." James corrected him. Yes, he knew a little bit about fashion. And what he had on now was more fashionable than what Fisher normally wore, but he looked completely uncomfortable in what he had on and really, as much as Jame preached on fashion, one should never dress in things that made them uncomfortable. It ruined any sort of fashion that was to be had when you looked like you didn't really fit in the clothes that you were wearing.

"Ah, right. Right. So where do you hide the harem, then?" He asked him, and then added as a sort of after thought, "Do they pay well?" Not that he was hurting for money, or that he would even consider it, or that this conversation was even remotely serious in nature. It just seemed like the thing to ask.

"What?" James asked, mouth full of popcorn, looking at Fisher with a confused look upon his face. He glanced over his shoulder towards the TV at the question, and then he smirked a little as he took a seat on the bed. "No, there was nothing in there. I'm going to take my boots off. Pour me one of those, would ya?"

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-12-22 12:19 am UTC (link)
"Aw, man," Fisher groaned. "Seriously! Like I don't find vaginas gross enough." What with all their fluids and drippings and sloughing off of internal lining... ew. Why ever would anyone want to stick their dicks in there was beyond him.

As James lay down beside him, Fisher became all too aware of the other man's presence. James was lean, smooth, and perfectly sculpted. And Fisher hadn't gotten any action in over two years. And that was just completely unfair. He listened to James intently, seeing that this was one of those long-kept secrets that you took to your grave, and that James was instilling a lot of trust in Fisher. Still, the secret wasn't as bad as he had feared. There was no molestation involved, although he did feel bad that James' dad used to beat him.

Fisher took another drink of his cocktail, set the glass on the floor beside the bed, and readjusted himself against the pillows (a little closer to James this time). "That's pretty normal, actually," Fisher told him. "They say 85% of men have some kind of homosexual encounter at some point in their lives." He smiled at James, like it wasn't that big a deal. Then he leaned over and gently kissed his forehead. "I'm sorry about your dad," he said softly as he pulled away. "That really sucks."

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[info]jamesownsit
2008-12-22 12:34 am UTC (link)
James had to laugh at that one. He seemed so grossed out and rightfully so really. They could be pretty gross if you really gave it much thought. And the girls in porn, yeah, they were pretty disgusting. That was probably why he didn't care too much for the fucking. Some of them just looked wrong. And he had even seen a few with some major cases of razor burn. That was definitely NOT attractive.

Maybe the secret wasn't that bad really, but it was still hard for him to admit. It was definitely something that if his father had ever known about, he would have beat the hell out of him for it. Of course what he didn't say, the reason why it was hard to admit, was that he had been curious with Erik. And there was a part of him that did now and probably always would regret not going there.

James shook his head a little. "That is so not normal." Of course it really was, just most guys never talked about it therefore most other guys just assumed that it was only them. It was a vicious cycle really.

His eyes fell closed when Fisher leaned in towards him then opened once more as he pulled away, the warm feel of the other man's lips still lingering upon his forehead. "Can't change who you are, right?" He gave a small shrug of his shoulders. "He was half demon. I don't know that he could really.. stop himself sometimes." He frowned deeply. "I know there were times when I couldn't." He swallowed a little hard.

"I used to hurt her all the time because... I don't know. I'd just get so angry because.. I just felt like I couldn't trust her." He paused for a moment, his voice lowering to a whisper. "She never loved me. She was in love with someone else the entire time that she was with me and.. the only reason she was even with me was because she thought that he didn't want her." It was hard to admit that to himself, even harder to say it out loud to someone else.

James cleared his throat and glanced towards the TV. "I think we're missing some pretty important plot points." In other words, he wasn't going to talk about her any more, or the way that it made him feel. "And don't think I forgot either. You owe me one too." A secret, that is.

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-12-22 12:47 am UTC (link)
"It has to be normal," Fisher argued. "I read about it in Maxim magazine. A magazine for men, by men. Why would men lie to themselves?" Because like women, men needed to lie to themselves. They needed the stereotypes, the rules, the regulations. But he didn't tell James that. James would know better than anyone.

"As we say in rehab, admitting the problem is step one. That's the biggest, hardest, gayest step there is." It totaslly was, too. No one wanted to admit they were flawed. No one wanted to admit they needed help. And no one could sound anything but totally gay when they finally admitted out loud that they had a problem. "Now, I'm not gonna say abuse is justified, but you seemed to have a really good reason for not trusting her. That wasn't fair to either one of you." Fisher had had his share of bad relationships, so he had a good idea as to what he was talking about.

It amazed Fisher how well James seemed to bounce back from serious topics, as though maybe they had been discussing the weather. He smiled as he watched James turn back to the television, some girl and a few well hung black guys fucking the shit out of each other. And don't think I forgot either. You owe me one too. "I know I do," he said, his pulse quickening. He wasn't sure he could be strong like James, so confident.

"You don't suck quite as bad as I initially thought," he said. "I know I've told you that before. But it still surprises me." Fisher leaned down, his lips close to James' ear. "So this one's mine, and I'm really sorry about it." He hesitated, then went on, speaking so softly James might not even hear him. "By the end of tonight... I'm pretty sure I'll be falling in love with you."

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[info]jamesownsit
2008-12-22 01:03 am UTC (link)
James rolled his eyes. "Because everyone needs to lie to themselves every now and then." There was no way he could argue with that point. They all did it. Men, women. Gay, straight. Everyone lied. Everyone needed to. It kept one safe to not really admit the truth.

"Oh god, please don't turn this into lessons I learned in rehab. I am not sure I can take that." James teased him, trying to lighten the mood a little. He didn't like to let things get too serious. He got broody and moody and that was never good for anyone involved. "And it's not justifiable, just maybe a little understandable." There was a difference, even if there was a fine line distinguishing it.

James gave a good impression of bouncing back rather well and quickly but really it was just him avoiding them like he always did. He didn't come from a background where you talked about things. He didn't come from an environment of expression. "Damn... he's giving it to her good." He had to take a moment to admire that.

James glanced towards Fisher when he started to speak again, his gaze moving back towards the TV when Fisher leaned in to whisper in his ear. Of course his attention quickly left the TV and was 100% focused on what Fisher had to say.

For a moment, he had no idea how to react. And then he laughed, though probably not for the reasons that Fisher might think he was laughing. "I'm sorry." He said, knowing that had to be not at all the reaction he had been expecting. "I'm not laughing at you, it's just..." He turned his head to look him in his eyes. "You're the only person that's ever said that to me."

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-12-22 01:11 am UTC (link)
No no, no after school specials, I promise." Ugh, living through rehab just the once had been quite enough. He certainly felt no need to repeat it.

The events transpired as such. One: Fisher confessed his secret. Two: James started laughing. Cue the cold, hard knife into poor Fisher's heart. Three: James apologizes, clarifies, and confesses something that is so bittersweet, Fisher does not know what to say.

He stared at James a moment, silent. And then he started to laugh. It was crazy, giddy laughter, like he was high. "Are you kidding me?" he giggled. "Are you fucking serious?" Once he started laughing, he could not stop. "Oh, God, James! I mean... oh, Jesus." What the hell?!? Fisher had been scared to death about this, but... "Jesus Christ, James," he said, still giggling. "That is the most bittersweet, honest, sad and amazing thing I have ever heard." When his giggles finally subsided, he added "And I am so, so sorry that it had to be me." And he meant it, too. The first person to use the L word on you should at least be someone you can reciprocate with.

"Oh, God," he said, getting off the bed, "where's the tequila?"

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[info]jamesownsit
2008-12-22 01:26 am UTC (link)
This was turning out to be an eventful night, and they hadn't even made it through the first two hours of the night. What was that all about?

"Yes. I mean.. no." James said, and then he himself laughed and shook his head, rolling his eyes a little. "Okay so maybe you're not the first person to say that exactly, but you're the first person to say it and mean it." He gave a small shrug of his shoulders. "I mean Natalia, she said it, that she loved me I mean, but never that she was falling in love with me. It was more like.. I dunno, like how you love an old friend or your dog or something." He sighed. "You know that's a bad idea, right?" The whole "falling in love with him" thing. It was a very, very, bad idea.

"It's over here on the table." James said, then reached a hand up to grab Fisher's own. "Wait. I got it. Sit back down." He pulled him back onto the bed and looked at him for a moment, his expression turning more serious. "I don't want to be number three, Fisher." He paused for a moment. "I like you. I don't like a lot of people, and I don't wanna hurt you."

"Here." He said, reaching over to grab the bottle of tequila. "Drink some of this and then I'll drink some of it and then maybe we can figure out a way for you to start hating me again."

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[info]jamesownsit
2008-12-22 09:32 pm UTC (link)
James was surprised that he wasn't shaking as well but he was doing okay. He could relate though. This was strange and new and yeah, he felt like a virgin his own self. Of course, when it came to this, he was. For the record, however, he had never jerked off thinking about it, hadn't really fantasized about it, but he had thought about it. He had been thinking about it.

He had to admit that this was intense, and that there was definitely a spark, even if he had maybe kinda hoped that he would feel nothing. But he did feel something. And though he couldn't exactly put words to what he felt in response to the kiss, he could put into words what he felt when Fisher pulled away. Slightly disappointed.

Blue eyes opened to peer into Fisher's own as his tongue darted out to lick his lips which still tingled. He swallowed hard. "Mmm. Yeah." He replied, and then paused, the feeling that something else was coming hanging in the air.

But there were no more words to come, at least not right now. Instead, both hands moved up to cup Fisher's face as his lips pressed against his once more with a bit more certainty and a lot less reluctance this time. And if that didn't answer the question that he knew was coming, "Did he like it?", then his tongue seeking entrance into Fisher's mouth certainly answered the question. For better or for worse, he was finding himself in definite like with it.

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-12-22 09:47 pm UTC (link)
When James opened his eyes, and he spoke, Fisher wanted to look away. He wanted to just lay back down, act casual, like nothing had even happened. But like James, he too felt that there should be something more. It stood like a lead balloon floating between them, both heavy and expansive.

When James took his face in his hands... when he kissed him... Fisher's brain shut down. He kissed back full force, forgetting to be scared and insecure and nervous. Now he was just hungry- for James' taste, for passion, for the fire building deep in his belly. He accepted James' tongue eagerly, running his hands down the boy's back, his fingernails scratching lightly.

An idle thought popped into mind: The popcorn. Had that been it? Or was it the good luck cookies? Either way, he needed to thank Ita. Hell, he owed her his first born child at the rate things were going. He pulled James closer to him, pressing the man's bare chest against the cloth on his. Thank God for the shirt Fisher was wearing, or else his pounding heart may very well have broken free from his ribcage and ran away.

He pulled back, just a few inches. "You're killing me," he whispered deperately, meaning it in too many ways. His teeth scraped along James' lower lip, and then his tongue plunged in again.

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[info]jamesownsit
2008-12-22 09:58 pm UTC (link)
It might have been a good idea to just stop, to lay back and watch the movie, or not this movie, but another movie, and pretend that it never happened. But that wasn't going to happen. Not now. Probably not ever. There was a line that had been crossed and it wasn't like they could just step back over it and pretend they didn't know what as on the other side.

So, fuck it. What harm could come of it now? They'd already gone there. It wasn't like either one of them could make it any worse or any better at this point. It was what it was and the truth of the matter was that James wanted more. Maybe not everything more, but he definitely wanted more.

The fingernails down his back brought a groan to James' lips that vibrated against Fisher's own. His hands dropped from Fisher's face down to his shoulders, resting there for a moment before moving to his hips to tug him roughly forward.

"Maybe that was the point." James whispered against Fisher's lips, though they really should stop. But stopping wasn't what he was thinking about right now. Right now, all he could think about was the fact that the shirt needed to go. So he slid his hands up beneath the hem of the shirt, fingers dancing warmly across the other man's skin as he pushed his shirt upwards.

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-12-22 10:14 pm UTC (link)
Internal Monologue by Fisher Majors:

Oh, shit. Oh holy shit. This isn't real. This is not possibly real. This is James. The same James who wandered into a bar with a floozy on his arm, and didn't care less about her. The same James who slammed you up against a wall the first time you met him. The same James who has killed someone, has abused someone. The same James who embodies everything you hate about wealthy men.

The same James who held your hair back while you were throwing up on the beach. The one who made sure you got home safely. The one who made you smile, who went swimming with you in the middle of the night. Who remembered something about you. Who came to your room in tight pants and eyeliner and told you that you looked fine just the way you were. That being you was enough.


Fisher shied away at James' touch, always conscious of the awful scars that he kept hidden. But he did not resist when James' fingers curled beneath the soft fabric, slowly sliding it upward. He wants me naked, Fisher thought.

And that was it, kiddies. The breaking point. The place of no return.

Growling, Fisher grabbed the hem of his shirt and ripped it off, flinging it over his head. He pulled James back into the kiss, grabbing the boy's hips and pulling him down until he lay onto the bed. As if James weighed nothing, and Fisher had muscles like steel, he moved the boy beneath him, never breaking the kiss. Stradling James' hips, leaning on all fours, Fisher pulled away from James to look him dead in the eye. His hair fell around his face like a curtain.

"Stop me now," he growled, both a plea and a warning.

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[info]jamesownsit
2008-12-22 10:33 pm UTC (link)
James had seen the scars but that was the last thing on his mind right now. He just wanted to feel his skin, just wanted to feel close to him, wanted to feel connected. He had felt nothing for so long that he craved feeling anything at all. And this... this was so much more than he had expected.

James didn't try to stop him from pulling him and pushing him around like a ragdoll though he did seem a little surprised to find himself beneath the other man. But even now, when the kiss ended he found his lips aching for another, he skin hot to the touch, his pulse racing beneath his skin.

Yes, he recognized the tone. He had used it plenty of times himself. Was he scared? Fucking terrified. "I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing." That wasn't his way of telling him to stop, just his way of warning him. He might be trying to bite off more than he could chew.

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-12-22 10:49 pm UTC (link)
Fisher stared at James, contemplating. Hesitancy was written on every inch of his face. Was this right? More importantly, was this smart? Would tomorrow have the walk of shame, and once James had departed the room, Fisher would never see him again? It was a very real possibility. And after Justin, Fisher had vowed never again to break in a "just curious" guy again. It caused a lot of heartache.

Of course, all this contemplation was causing a lot of dickache, which seemed more important at the moment. "Fuck," Fisher cursed under his breath. "This is a bad idea," he told James flatly. "There is no way this will end well."

So he did the only right thing. He leaned down and kissed James again, softly this time. His mouth trailed off the boy's lips, down his jaw, along his neck. "Close your eyes," he whispered, kissing the ear afterward. He moved down James' body with his mouth, leaving a trail of soft, barely-there kisses in his wake. His long hair brushed against James' skin. When he got to the hips, Fisher looked up to see if James' eyes were still closed. Fingers shaking but determined, he slid two fingers from each hand under the elastic waistband of the last piece of clothing James had on. Carefully, he started pulling them over the slender hips.

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[info]jamesownsit
2008-12-25 07:29 am UTC (link)
James was trying his best not to smirk as Fisher spoke. He nodded his head, putting a serious look on his face, trying to act like he believed him but one could easily see the smile playing behind his blue eyes. "Right. Thank you so much for schooling me on that. I would have never known otherwise." He grinned sheepishly as he added, "But you do at least hate me less, am I right?"

"My point exactly. I mean come on, Fisher. Anyone whose intelligent, who knows anything of people, knows not to take things at face value. Otherwise, where would you get?" He asked, and gave a small shrug of his shoulders. "If you always do what you've always done, always think what you've always thought, then you'll always be who you've always been and always have what you've already got." He'd heard that somewhere but he couldn't remember where. "I'm not saying that naive idealism isn't a good thing, it's just... counter-productive most of the time."

"Denial doesn't look good on anyone."

Maybe it wasn't the best idea to crack a joke about that. He had thought it would be okay, but apparently not. A frown graced James' lips as Fisher sat up and hugged his knees. He sighed a little and then cleared his throat. "Well it paid off." He said, not to be mean or anything, but to try to recover, maybe. He was never so good at unfucking things after he had fucked them up.

James moved to sit up, grabbing his boxers off of the floor so he could tug them on. "I didn't even bring Titanic." He confessed. "But I did bring a few other movies if you wanna look through that bag there and see if there's anything that catches your eye." It was mostly retro films that would have been popular when they were both kids, things that one wouldn't really picture being in his movie collection but he loved movies from the 80's. He used to force feed them to Natalia all the time.

His reaction wasn't exactly what he had expected but then again, he had no idea what to expect. "Is it a stupid idea?" He asked, moving to stand now that he had his boxers on. "I mean... I just thought... you eat, right?" He gave a small shrug of his shoulders. "You can think about it and get back to me." The lack of an answer felt a little too much like rejection and he was never so good at dealing with that. So bathroom, yeah. He ambled off in that general direction, finding his legs to still be a bit like jello.

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-12-25 04:36 pm UTC (link)
Did Fisher hate him less? Or had he ever? "My hate for you is an unending fountain," he told James. "Though I fear the well is starting to run dry." There. An enigmatic, emo boy answer. Perfect.

Fisher contemplated James' words of wisdom. Well, wisdom like fortune cookie wisdom. "It seems to work for Ita," he decided. "She's a pretty happy girl who has pretty much everything she wants or needs. So... I guess if her method of looking at things could make me a perky, beautiful blonde with a ton of friends who can cook like Julia Child, I'd sign up in a heartbeat."

He didn't argue that he was in denial, because most certainly he was. Fisher wore denial like men wore cloaks, wrapped tightly around him to keep out the elements. Fisher let James wander off to the bathroom without giving him a proper answer. He needed to think a minute, and having James gone would give him time to do that. First, Fisher grabbed his own underwear and his long sleeved shirt- not so much because he was cold, but because now that he wasn't furiously making out with someone, self-consciousness had settled back in. Then he grabbed the bag of movies and rifled through them. Holy shit, The Goonies?!? It had been ages since he'd seen that! Well, movie being decided upon, that meant he had to focus on a more important matter- James.

When James returned, the movie was in the DVD player, opening credits were already rolling, the alcohol was laying at the bottom of the bed, and Fisher was leaning against the headboard, curled up. He waited for James to settle down before speaking. "I don't like spicy," he said, still looking straight ahead at the screen. "So when you take me out, make sure it's not Indian or Cajun or anything." God, he felt like a teenager. What if he'd said the wrong thing? Worse, what if James had changed his mind!? Well there was no going back now.

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[info]jamesownsit
2008-12-25 05:02 pm UTC (link)
"Can't possibly be unending if it's starting to run dry." James proposed with a slightly arched brow. He said nothing more than that though. He knew Fisher didn't hate him, not really, never really had. Sure, there may have been some dislike in the beginning. They had possibly gotten off on the wrong foot, after all. But he didn't hate him. Hate was far too strong a word.

James looked at Fisher for a moment after he spoke on Ita, and then he laughed, and laughed hard. "Sorry." He said once he had caught his breath. "I am just trying to picture you as a perky blond." That was not an easy thing to picture. He shook his head. "Come on, give me an 'As if!'." He snickered at that one.

Once in the bathroom, James took care of not only his need to piss, but also a few other hygiene issues. He didn't care to run around all night with dried cum on him. So he ran through the shower quickly, even if he didn't have any of his bath items with him, and toweled off with paper towels since he had none of those with him either.

Slightly damp and smelling a little less like sex than before, James made his way back into the bedroom, the door closed and locked behind him. "Good choice." He remarked in regards to the movie, taking a seat on the bed though not making himself comfortable just yet. Things had quickly turned awkward, and he was trying to decide if he should actually stay the night or if he should just go.

But then Fisher made up his mind for him. He smirked a little as he moved to sit back on the bed, his back against the headboard. "Nothing spicy other than me." Now that was laugh worthy. And he definitely had to laugh at himself for that remark, even giving a slight roll of his eyes and a smile, an actual smile, not a smirk or a grin either one.

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-12-25 07:23 pm UTC (link)
"I will give you no such thing!" Fisher said indignantly. Though he laughed right along with James because imagining himself as either perky or blonde was positively nuts.

Fisher was glad James chose to spend the night. He was also glad that the tension was gone, and they could go back to doing what they did best- picking on one another. "Spicy?" he scoffed. "Yeah, you're spicy... like a bran muffin." Reaching across himself, Fisher grabbed a throw pillow and hit James in the chest with it. "Hot, maybe. Sassy, maybe. But spicy? No, you don't have what it takes. Hell, I'm spicier than you." Well that was a damnable lie. If James was a bran muffin, Fisher was soggy bread.

"I haven't seen this movie since I was like, ten," Fisher said. "I'm kind of amazed you have it in your collection. It seems... I dunno, too childish for you."

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[info]jamesownsit
2008-12-25 07:44 pm UTC (link)
"How about a 'Like totally!' then?" James asked, smirking again. It really was a comedic thing to think about. Sort of like him being all... hmm.. Hippie-fied? That would be a pretty amusing thing to see too, though not nearly as amusing.

James gasped, grabbing the pillow and throwing it back at Fisher. "Bran muffin?" He said, his tone entirely offended. "Bran muffin?" He arched a brow again. "I'll show your ass a bran muffin!" He then went for the tickle, maybe just because he knew that Fisher was ticklish. And he had no intentions of letting him go until he begged him to stop. And retracted his bran muffin remark.

"There you go again. Insulting me and my taste. This movie is not childish, it's a classic!" James shook his head and sighed. "Calling The Goonies childish. Don't tell me I'm going to have to school you on film too."

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-12-25 07:58 pm UTC (link)
"I'll show your ass a bran muffin?" Fisher gasped, as he was in the middle of being tickled possibly to death. "What, should my ass c-cower in f-f-fear from it?" He held up the pillow defensively, trying to block James' poking fingers from reaching his ribcage. Breathing was tough when someone tickled you. He'd forgotten that, since most adults never get tickled quite as badly as James was dishing out to Fisher right now. "Watch out, ass!" he yelled gleefully, "You're about to be regular!" That, most assuredly, would be punished with more fervent tickling. But so worth it.

"James!" he shrieked, whacking the guy )hopefully) in the face with his pillow. "Get back, you savage! You're gonna kill me!" A funny thought crossed his mind- as a ghost, would Fisher be able to talk to the living, since he'd been a medium while alive? Or could he only talk through other mediums, like every ghost? Something to think about.

When it became apparent that James was not giving in, Fisher decided to wave the olive branch. He could, like any conquered nation, always revolt later. "Okay, okay!" he choked out, yelling above his own giggles. "I conceeede! You are spicy like jalapeno! Just let me breathe!" His lungs were on fire and his sides ached. He hadn't laughed so loud for so long (and by such force) in too long of a time.

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