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Fisher Majors ([info]hearitbleed) wrote in [info]halcyon_halls,
@ 2008-11-08 11:28:00

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Entry tags:fisher, sasha

Week 21- Friday
Who: Fisher and Sasha
What: Discovering ghostly secrets
Where: On the front lawn to begin with
WHen: Night, around 8pm


"See the phantoms filling the sky around you. They astound you, I can tell..."

Fisher stared in awestruck horror at the scene before him. It was Friday night, which meant on Palatine Hill the Mundus stone was now open for business. Having seen ghosts all his life, and really having been like a lightning rod to them, Fisher had absolutely no desire to go out into town where there were sure to be plenty. However, morbid curiousity had led him out onto the front steps of the school in the hopes that, while safe from their reach, he could see if maybe Hades had indeed spewed forth its inhabitants. He was not at all prepared for the sheer multitude of spirits he saw now.

They floated along ther streets in crowds, like one might expect at a holiday parade. Some spoke, some screamed, some simply wandered. But there were just so many. His mouth hung open slightly, his eyes wide. Before he could register his actions, his feet began to carry him down the dry lawn, closer to the edge of the safety boundary. The world almost glowed from the ghosts, the way the night is lit up by fallen snow in moonlight. He could hear voices talking about everything and nothing. It seemed to be filling his head.

No, wait. One of the voices was in his head. "Come here," it told him. Fisher's head snapped around, trying to find out where it was coming from. "Do you dress in black to mourn the dead?" This was starting to get freaky. Fisher had seen plenty of strange things in his life, but no one had ever entered his head before. Walking faster toward the edge of the school's property line, he tried to determine who was talking to him. The most important things to figure out: Were they alive or dead?

Finally, he spotted a man who was staring intently at him. He was a European man, most likely Spanish, or maybe Italian. Dark hair, dark skin, bold eyes. He looked to be in his 30s and very severe. Most noticeable about him, though, was the angry raw hole in his throat. Most ghosts, no matter how they died, will revert back to the way they remember themselves looking. But some, especially those with a grudge, never let go of their deaths. This seemed to be a case of extreme grudge-holding.

Fisher walked up to the man, though not close enough to cross that invisible safety line. The dead couldn't hurt him, but he wanted to be able to run away if he needed to. "Hello?" Fisher asked, feeling like an idiot. The man didn't speak (didn't seem like he could), but that strange voice popped into Fisher's head again. "What on Earth do you wear?" he asked, his eyes scanning Fisher's Tim Butonesque shirt and pants. Fisher pushed his long hair off of his face. "Why are you talking in my head?" he asked.

The man made a face. "Because I have no vocal chords," he explained, as though Fisher were an idiot for asking. "I need you to find someone for me. I know she is here. Tell me where Sasha is."

"Sasha?" Fisher said dubiously. "I'm pretty sure I don't know a Sasha. Unless... wait, I think I know a girl with a dog named Sasha. She's small, really well dressed?" Okay, so Fisher's goal for the night had been not to help anyone floating around outside. But come on! This guy went through the trouble of invading his head! How could he just walk away from that?



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[info]vintage_fraud
2008-11-10 12:54 pm UTC (link)
“Technically,” said a voice like frosting, “it’s a girl named Sasha with a dog named Dreizen. Thank you for the compliment, though.”

Fact: if you are A) small and B) quiet “sneaking up” on people is a perpetual hazard—and, admittedly, a bit of a fun temptation. Not that the risk was too great around vampires and weres, but, hey, that was all the more reason to practice practice practice.

What kind of person, asked Sasha’s uncommon sense, stands out in the evening talking to empty air? Looking like a faux-bondage, bezippered Nightmare-Before-Christmas card, no less. In acute disregard of the day’s occasion, Sasha herself was fitted out in unrepentantly cheery coral. Her one odd concession to Palatine Hill was a milagro charm attached to Dreizen’s leash. both girl and dog regarded Fisher casually, the look in their eyes eerily similar.

Suddenly, she smiled, face opening up in pretty, friendly lines. “And to what do I owe this pleasure?”

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-11-11 06:24 pm UTC (link)
Fisher paled, if such a thing is possible on a goth-boy's face. Yeah, this girl looked very familiar. She was the girl with the dog! The Sasha in question, apparently.

"Uh, hi," he said easily, though his voice cracked. The dog was staring at him as though it knew what was going on. Weird. "Um, I was just taking a walk..." He ignored the dead guy near him who was shouting in his head that this was the girl, and he needed to speak with her. "What brings you out here, anyway?"

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[info]vintage_fraud
2008-11-12 08:56 am UTC (link)
Hmm, I wonder if he turns any other colors… Then again, maybe it was just spectrum of Pale, Paler, and Excuse Me, Are You Bleeding Out Anything Vital?

On closer inspection the boy wasn’t a boy at all. An underfed twenty-something on the late side, Sasha calculated. The tousled hair and slouch threw her off initially. Human? Probably. Though Dreizen was getting suspiciously tense…

“Hello,” she said with the sort of careful enunciation one uses around nervous children and wary small furry pets. The smile still lingering on her face softened it, made her voice intractably amicable. “Lassie,”—a nod at Dreizen—“gets restless if denied an evening stroll. My apologies if we startled you.”

She waited a moment. Then two moments. Then—“You know, this is usually the part of the conversation where the other party introduces himself.”

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-11-12 06:22 pm UTC (link)
As a matter of fact, there was one other color in Fisher's expressional repertoire. A reddish hue, like if the sunset were dying of embarassment. Luckily for Sasha she did not have to witness it yet.

"Oh, I'm sorry!" he said, extending a hand. "My name is... uh, Fisher Majors." He was trying to keep his eyes on Sasha, really trying, but the damn ghost man beside him was shouting in his head and it made it very difficult to concentrate. He rubbed his forehead, as though that might help. "That is her!" the ghost was saying. "Now tell her I need to talk to her. Now."

"I'm sorry," Fisher blurted out, realizing Sasha was staring at him expectantly, and therefore must have said something she expected a response to. "I'm having a hard time...uh, concentrating..." The ghost beside him made one more plea, and Fisher decided it was best to just get this over with. "Okay, this is going to sound odd, but do you know someone named Kaspar?" Immediately, the ghost beside him silenced, as if waiting for Sasha's reaction. "I'm a medium," Fisher explained. "I think you knew that, actually. From the online journal community. Anyway. There's this guy and he's yammering in my head that he wants to talk to you, so... do you know him?"

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[info]vintage_fraud
2008-11-13 03:43 pm UTC (link)
In Sasha’s current illiterate state keeping up an online “presence” was tiring; having to feed every line of text through the IVR software was a hard lesson in patience—and humility. Still, the exercise wasn’t entirely fruitless; she did remember Fisher, for example.

Eyebrows arched in recognition, she tilted her head at the boy: curious. “It’s pleasure to speak with you again, Mr. Majors. But, pardon my surprise, what in God’s name are you doing out here tonight?”

Sasha knew enough about mediums to be grateful she wasn’t one. While she could perceive memories long after their source expired—a dicey, disorderly, and generally disheartening business—her power primarily dealt with the living. Who, Sasha reflected sourly, carried ghosts aplenty in their heads. One need not be a chamber to be haunted…

Fisher’s second sorry made her smile.

The words that followed gave her a different expression entirely.

The problem with having a perfect memory, a truly, inhumanly, faultless memory, was that it erased distance. Sasha could easily reconstruct the taste of her first quince, the soreness of her third sambo match, the smell of Berlin in February. The body of each thing was mercilessly preserved inside her. She could dip a hand in anytime and draw out the shape and texture of each experience, every impression, every joy and disaster.

Just as five or fifty years from now she’d be able to take one breathe and reconstruct within it the feeling of Kaspar’s name in her face for the first time since his death.

Sorrow, first. Then anger. Pain and misery through and through.

And finally…guilt.

That was what managed to show past Sasha’s smile. Her sense of responsibility had always been the strongest bolt in her character. Susannah Hallmeyer understood consequences—and always took responsibility for her mistakes.

Which is why Sasha said: “I knew a Kaspar once. Sadly, we don’t talk much anymore.” Her smile strengthened. It was lovely, poignant—and glaringly heartless. “Hard to chat with a slit throat, after all.”

It was a cruel thing to say, and it was meant to be so. But there was only reason for Kaspar’s name in a medium’s mouth and there was only reason for Kaspar’s ghost to raise the strength to put it there. Better he turn on Sasha in anger and confusion, then turn away to seek help from others.

If he was here for the face of his murderer…she’d let him have it.

“Is this going to take long?” she asked sweetly. “I’ve got a ton of homework.”

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-11-13 05:58 pm UTC (link)
Sasha was calm... eerily calm. Like eye of the hurricane calm. She made Fisher uneasy and it showed. "I don't know how long it'll take," he confessed. "I'm not sure what he has to say. He just... well, out of stupid curiosity I came out here to see how many people have come out of Hades. A lot, apparently. A very lot." He shuddered, the pale faces of the dead still drifting around him like butterflies.

"Anyway," he continued, "I was just looking when I heard this voice in my head." It sounded completely crazy, but honestly? This entire school- the entire concept of this school- was completely crazy. "I've heard ghosts talk before, but they just sound like regular people to me. But this voice was coming from inside my head. So I went out here and I found this guy staring at me. His throat is all cut up, but... I guess you knew that."

Kaspar was talking again, which was frankly annoying because hearing him talk made it hard to think. After a moment, Fisher nodded. "He's been hanging around Halcyon for awhile now," he explained, not liking the calculating way both Sasha and Dreizen were staring at him. "He wanted to find you because he wanted to ask..." Closing his eyes so he could concentrate on the rapid-fire words coming from Kaspar, Fisher paused to get the entire question. When he did, his eyes snapped open. "Um," he whispered, trying not to look an panicked as he felt, "h-he wants to know why... you killed him."

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[info]vintage_fraud
2008-11-19 09:19 am UTC (link)
That certainly took the bloom of the rose, Sasha decided watching Fisher’s expression struggle. Kaspar tended to be blunt as a brick when his temper rose; he never shied from unpleasant questions.

It’d been one of her favorite things about him.

“He’s a telepath,” Sasha said conversationally. “That is, he was. I suppose some of the ability’s versatility carried over.” Her lips twitched. “Sadly, it seems that same can be said for his lack of manners. Kaspar never knew how to keep his troubles…private.”

Despite the chatty tone and almost-bored slant to her posture, Sasha was paying attention. She focused carefully on Fisher’s eyes, trying to track his perspective. Clearly, he wasn’t just hearing Kaspar, but seeing him too. Complete interaction with the subject, Sasha’s brain parroted. Full interface. In other words, a true medium.

Under other circumstances she would’ve actually enjoyed the encounter. Reliable mediums were a rare find, most because too many went unnoticed and untrained during their early years. Thus too many wound up mentally unhinged, emotionally unstable, and generally f*cktastically unbalanced. Fisher Majors was obviously one of the luckier specimens.

…or was he? Because why would a trained medium come to Halcyon? The answer, of course, was simple: he wouldn’t. For a moment Sasha focused on the boy—and in her experience anything male under forty was a boy—as a person instead of a factor. She reevaluated his age, his posture, the growing shine of alarm on the too-pale face, the minimalist monochrome outfit. A sudden twinge of sympathy bit her conscience.

“My apologies for Kaspar involving you in this matter, Mr. Majors,” she said with unexpected softness. “He had no right to do so.”

Her next words were crystal cut, silver smooth, and aimed directly at Kaspar.

“May I ask a question?” This was a tone anyone familiar with Sasha’s temper would recognize. Polite. Reasonable. Out for blood. Dreizen’s spine visibly stiffened at his keeper’s side. “What exactly is so surprising about this development, amigo? You waste your life playing chicken with sharks and now you’re whining about blood in the water? I’ve met your bosses, Kaspar, and believe me that peaceful retirement was never in your future. You said so yourself: estoy aquí espereado la muerte."*

The cruelest part was the truth of it. Nobody flew like Kaspar did without nurturing a handful of darkness within, a desperation that had nothing to do with bravery. Her friend had lived without regard for the future, his or anybody else’s. It was not, he confessed once after a long trip and a lot of tequila, a good life.

(“There’s a devil in all of us, cotorra. In the end you have only two ways of dealing with him; you can run or you can bargain.”

“Or fly?” She smiled.

He smiled back. “Yeah. Or fly.”
)

Fly, and hope the devil falls off your back. But who could’ve warned Kaspar about dealing with the devil of another? I’m sorry, Kas. I’m sorry you were out that night. I’m sorry she knew who you were. I’m sorry you never got a chance to be your own boss. I’m sorry you never felt free. I’m sorry you’ll never taste the sky again. I’m sorry I never honestly thanked you for the kiss. I’m sorry you died in pain, alone. I’m sorry you died thinking it came from a friend’s hand.

I’m sorry I’ll never be able to tell you otherwise.


Effortlessly, she switched to flawless, liquid Spanish. “No chingen conmigo.** Whatever part I played in the end of your life doesn’t compare with you setting its course. If you want someone to complain to, go find a priest; y a mi no importa cagada."***

Oh, God, I’m sorry...


[Trns: *I am here waiting for death / **Don’t screw with me / ***I don’t give a shit ]

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-11-19 10:20 am UTC (link)
Fisher could not help but relax around Sasha, despite his uneasiness of her. She was apologizing to him for her dead friend bothering him. Most people became angry, or scared, and they took it out on Fisher. But she didn't. She regarded him calmly and rationally, as if dead people were an everyday occurance. It was a little too Wednesday Addams to be real.

As Sasha asked her question, Fisher watched Kaspar for his response. What he got was an overload of Spanish drowning his brain. He tried to sort through it- there was a "no" and "I am" and "whore" (he knew a few choice phrases)- but nothing that strung well together. Sasha spoke again, Kaspar listened, then let loose another string of what had to be curses and hexes. Once Sasha had said her piece, the real fur let fly. Kaspar paced back and forth, screaming in Sasha's face (in Fisher's head), his arms waving wildly and his face screwed up in anger. Fisher closed his eyes, his fingertips pressing into his temples. He breathed deep, just once.

"For Christs' sake!" he yelled at the space in front of Sasha. "I don't speak Spanish!" His eyes opened, and he stared down Kaspar. "Screaming at her in my head won't do you any good because I cannot translate what you're trying to tell her, because I do not know what you're saying!" Now that the initial outburst was done with, Fisher calmed a bit. "You can't talk to her anymore, not even telepathically," he explained to Kaspar, who was giving him a look that said this was information he already knew and Fisher was a moron for pointing it out. "So screaming in a language the translator doesn't know is helping no one. It'll just frustrate you, give me a headache and never reach Sasha. Comprende?" Fisher knew he sounded a bit like a condescending ass at the moment, but he didn't care. At least Kaspar had stopped yelling.

So again he listened to what his dead comrade had to say, only this time he knew what was going on. "He called you a liar," Fisher translated for Sasha, though he was still looking at Kaspar. "No, I am not calling her that!" That was directed at Kaspar, along with a dirty look. "Anyway," he continued, "he said he can still hear what goes on in your head, at least a little. And he knows you still care. Which, evidently, is making him angrier because... English, Kaspar... because you wronged him. He says he never saw it coming, and he's a little ashamed he trusted you but then again..." His face scrunched up, confused. "I don't know what he means. He said, 'I carried you as I flew, but I didn't know you were my devil.' And now he's swearing again, I won't repeat it." Fisher waited patiently for Kaspar's anger to recede, like waiting for the tide to crawl back into the ocean so you may run through the damp sand. "He said he never died because of his job, or the dangers he took therein. He died because... well, he doesn't know why. He didn't think you could-"

Suddenly Fisher stopped, taking a few steps back from both Sasha and Kaspar. "Holy shit," he murmured, his pale face now glowing in the moonlight. "Don't do that!" he yelled, as though yelling might make the images go away. "I wasn't prepared to see something like that, why the hell would you do that to me??" He rubbed his eyes, though that did not expunge the awful imagery. "I'll tell her," he told Kaspar angrily. "Just warn me next time. I didn't know you could do that." Crossing him arms (because he felt indescribably cold throughout his insides), Fisher semi-looked at Sasha as he spoke. "He sent me this image," he explained. "It's him, lying in a pool of his own blood. He's tied down, or chained or something. There's blood coming out of his mouth... He wants to know if you remember." His eyes couldn't meet Sasha's, because in his head he could see her cruel smile, the twinkle of delight in her eyes. "You're there," he continued. "With... a carving knife? I dunno." He shifted uneasily. These people were dangerous. It might be best to just run for it now, save himself getting tangled in this web.

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-11-19 10:22 am UTC (link)
"No," he told Kaspar quickly, whom he forgot could read his thoughts. "I'm not going anywhere." Shit. "You're coming at him with the knife, and he's not struggling anymore... Jesus!" he shouted, his minds' eye watching in horror as Sasha sliced quick and thrue through Kaspar's neck, then reached in and ripped out his throat, dangling it before his eyes so he too could admire her handiwork.

Fisher could not relay this imagery, because instead he fell to his knees and threw up into the humid, dewey grass.

[wouldn't let me post it all]

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[info]vintage_fraud
2008-11-20 07:52 am UTC (link)
Braced for it as she was, Kaspar’s outburst didn’t gouge too deeply. Not having to actually hear the colorful “endearments” rushing out of him probably helped. Fisher was certainly getting an earful, though, even if he seemed unable to process it entirely.

Interface without complete immersion, noted the little hobgoblin in Sasha’s head. Interesting.

Kaspar’s insight into her mind was a significantly less amusing.

Stupid, stupid, stupid. If Kaspar’s reach extended beyond the medium—damn. It was inexcusably stupid for Sasha to not have taken that possibility into consideration. Automatically, she backpedaled, her mind tossing out a maelstrom of random facts and mental noise. It was an old trick for snowblinding mind readers, using her hefty working memory to overload their reception. The shock of having to summon and focus so much information quickly was dizzying; Sasha had to momentarily drop her gaze to recover from the backlash.

Dreizen began to growl. Sasha laid her palm between his ears until he stopped.

When she finally raised her eyes to Fisher—and Kaspar—they were the color of nightshade. Behind them, Cauda Pavonis, Sasha’s memory palace loomed, casting its opaque shadow over her thoughts. Dead or alive, Kaspar Moreno didn’t have a snowball’s chance of navigating the mental labyrinth.

But now he’d know for sure that Sasha was hiding information. Damn.

“Don’t even think about playing the martyr card, flaco.” Sasha’s pretty “new” eyes were steely. “I never asked you to carry me an inch. In fact, I never asked you for anything. You died because you were too arrogant to step aside for danger and too stupid to hear it lie. Take your damn pride and choke—”

But before she could ladle out further accusations, Fisher was on his knees.

Oh, God, was her unthinking knee-jerk response, please don’t let him be having a seizure. She’d known at least one channeler that suffered them and that was one more guilt trip Sasha didn’t want on her tab. Involuntarily, she closed the distance between them to kneel and—

Maybe it was the strain of refuting the telepathy or of raising Cauda Pavonis unprepared. Maybe it was the guilt. Maybe it was the things coming out of Fisher’s mouth. Hell, maybe it was because she hadn’t had dinner. But whatever the reason…Sasha made a mistake. She—

—touched him.

It was like biting a live wire.

—sliced quick and true through Kaspar's neck, eyes glittering. Pleased. She looked undoubtedly pleased with herself, proud of her craftsmanship. Why? Cotorra, why were you doing this to—

The memories were clear and solid, each detail resurrected with merciless clarity. The night. The smell of the nearby dock and motor oil. The warm, pleasant surprise of seeing a familiar face. Her cool hand on his elbow, her odd laugh. Her neat, little hand, chipped nail polish, fingertips on his collar, fingers on his throat.

Pain tore Sasha’s throat.

—a lovely cut, she thought. But better still was the satisfaction of the yielding flesh under her hand, the warm life pouring over her wrist. It was as easy as ripping cotton, and it smelled so good—

It wasn’t just Kaspar’s memories at play, Sasha realized with faraway horror, chocking on blood that wasn’t hers, wasn’t real, it was—

—Short, dark hair and steady, bright eyes, familiar features arranged to shape a familiar face. That same, familiar face peering down wearing a smile that promised nothing. There was blood smudging the edge of her mouth. There was blood on her teeth. Her sharp, sharp teeth—

Cold lanced Sasha’s navel, the sensation profoundly more nauseating that even a bloody throat. She felt the bit of charmed metal piercing her skin turn soft as snow, its protection momentarily weakening.

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[info]vintage_fraud
2008-11-20 07:58 am UTC (link)
Miles away, the girl who used to be Charlotte Hallmeyer paused in the middle of a London street and looked surprised. Her startled eyes were the color of violets. Oblivious to the crowd around her, she kneeled—kneeled just as another girl was kneeling half a world away—and peered into a grungy rain puddle.

I see you… Laughter, like needles and pins. Fee fie foe fum. Who’s your little new friend?

Fisher. Dear God, Sherry was seeing Fisher. Somehow the medium was plugged into the moment, piggybacking Sasha’s ability and watching the show. Kaspar’s memories were one side, Sherry’s on the other, Sasha’s ability tangled through both, above and below...

...and somehow Fisher was in the middle of it all.

[Ya think we're having maybe just a wee bit too much fun with this?]

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-11-20 09:13 am UTC (link)
Medium- by definition, a bridge. Fisher had always considered himself more of a messenger, a translator. One party gave him information, he carried it to the other. He had never had both parties use him to meet up with one another. That being said, what was going on in his head was nothing short of absolute chaos. He'd fasllen to his knees and thrown up, feeling weak and sickened by the images Kaspar displayed for him. But then Sasha was by his side, and truth be told he didn't want her touching him. After seeing what she'd done to Kapsar, he didn't want her anywhere near him. But once she did touch him, he really wished she hadn't.

The images barraged him all at once. It was as if he was living inside five different people- himself, Sasha, Kaspar, and both his companions in their past selves. First he was terrified, because Kaspar of the past was watching Past Sasha smiling coldly at him. It was heartbreaking to watch a friend taking your life, your soul... your throat, then dangle it before you. But then he was pleased, cruelly delighted, because he had power. Kaspar feared him, was watching with sad, broken eyes. He could drag this on for hours, so long as his bait lived. And he was angry, because even though he was dead he could still see Sasha's sweet face, the face of a girl who had talked too much but he'd cared for just the same, though he'd be hard pressed to admit it to her. She'd been sweet and a friend, one of the few he'd truly trusted. And where had that trust gotten him? Where had her care for him gone? Yet he was also sad, ashamed. Not for his actions, because... he hadn't killed Kaspar? But he knew who had, he watched it now as though for the first time, and it wrenched at his heartstrings. He couldn't watch, couldn't look away.

How could you feel five peoples' emotions at once? There were too many images to sort. Fisher started crying. He couldn't help it- half of what he was feeling stemmed from despair. He could taste blood, many types, and it came in different flavors. Was Sasha a vampire? He didn't think so. Then why was there blood dripping from her mouth, a siick grin shining through the red.

"W-who... is... Sherry?" he managed to choke out through tears and the illusion of blood. He had seen Sasha of the past, yet Sasha of the present had whispered "Sherry" when she saw her. And there was another girl, another memory in quite another location. She was on a rainy street, kneeling, grinning a familiar, awful grin.

If Sasha (real Sasha) had looked up, she would have seen Kaspar beside her, kneeling, his hand touching Fisher's other shoulder. Death had not been kind to him. He was haggard, weak. Hardly half the man he'd once been. But even if Sasha did not yet see him, she would hear him in her mind clear as day. Who is that girl in the rain, Cotorra?"

[You can never have too much fun.]

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[info]vintage_fraud
2008-11-21 02:01 pm UTC (link)
In all honesty…Kaspar and Sasha didn’t have a lot of reasons to be friends and they had even less in common. What they did share was the mixed blessing of an iron core. It was the same force that let Kaspar’s ghost dig in its heels hard as he did. It was probably what kept him alive long past the mercy point, and allowed Sherry’s true face to burn into his last moments. And it was this same brand of too-proud-to-quit, too-stubborn-to-sink willpower that got Sasha off her knees.

Which is when a whole lot of angry Doberman knifed between Sasha and Fisher. Dreizen was too well trained to attack a human without concrete orders or outright provocation, but that obedience was already under heavy strain. Immediately Sasha looped one shaky arm around the dog’s neck for support…and to make sure Fisher’s throat stayed intact.

Who is that girl in the rain, cotorra?

“Nobody you need to meet twice.” Sasha’s voice was rough and thick, but steady. She couldn’t yet manage the roses-and-lace gentility that was her forte, but things were stabilizing. One could almost see her personality, the synthetic “working” persona, physically reconstruct on her face.

Slowly, she exhaled and raised her head to meet Kaspar’s attention. If actually seeing the dead man near was surprising it didn’t show. Apparently breaking physical contact with Fisher hadn’t severed the link.

She’d have to figure out the science of that. Later.

Now…

Quietly, Sasha puts her free hand over Fisher’s eyes; her own petal gaze never broke away from Kaspar. The tears and sweat under her palm were sufficient fee for what sought to do. Charon’s obol, she thought without humor. Between one breath and the next Sasha took a mental step back, away from the chaos and hurt, away from Sherry’s notice, away into—

—an iron and ivory doorway. The hollow, cool echo of a metro train, the offside glimpse of metal and glass rushing by. A kaleidoscope of open rooms under cathedral ceilings: rooms full of music, rooms full of words, rooms full of paper tigers and glass maps and summer and knives and arithmetic and rust and Visita Interiora Terrae Rectificando Invenies Occultum Lapidem Veram Medicinam and mercury and binding tablets and perfume and salts and green lions and nigredo albedo rubedo and—

—memory.

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[info]vintage_fraud
2008-11-21 02:02 pm UTC (link)
Cauda Pavonis closed over Sasha’s mind gently and completely as water over stone. Memories edged around her like a handful of glass shards on sunny road, but here they no longer had the power to cut. Her sister’s presence was gone entirely. She registered Kaspar’s attachment like a ribbon in her hair. In comparison, Fisher was a cuff around her wrist.

Stronger that he looks, that one, cotorra. Is that why you picked him? I think something in him picked me. Or, she felt the ghost of that familiar grin, picked me up. Nice place, by the way. Yes. Do you like it? …is this the whole of it?

No, Sasha thought in answer before flipping open a memory and stepping inside. The milonga was crowded with people and light the color of whiskey. Amidst the clamor a table with only two people was surprising, its occupants a contradiction. The man was dark and young, looking very severe in his veteran flight jacket. He fit the atmosphere, though nobody would be able to say why. His companion was nowhere as dark and conspicuously younger. In fact, she was the youngest body in the room and her dress was the color of marigolds.

That was, what, the third time we met? The fourth. You asked me if I knew how to tango. I thought that Russian would break my jaw for it. He might’ve. Why did you risk it? Because you needed a friend. You’re the smartest, saddest kid I know, cotorra. Idiot. Probably. I miss you. Sometimes. Do you? Yes.

And then, she showed him how he died.

There was no anguish and shock this time. The memory was cleaner, its sequence and impressions in order. The re-enactment was safely disconnected from its makers. No misinterpretation of identities, no pain, no emotional overload—nothing. It was just something that happened. And it was over.

Kaspar was silent. She could still sense his consciousness within the memory palace’s borders, feel his telepathy running through the three of them like a phone line, but his thoughts—his realthoughts—were closed to her.

Wordlessly, she stepped out of the memory with Fisher in tow. They materialized within the opulent simulacrum of the Russian Tea Room. Sasha loosened her tired focus and let it flow towards whatever memory available.

She didn’t expect it to be one of Fisher’s.

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-11-21 06:01 pm UTC (link)
When Sasha had released him, Fisher felt calm, quiet. It was as though one of the weights drowning him had been cut loose. He gulped in the warm night air, filling his lungs with its sweetness. He kept his eyes closed, though, because he wasn't yet ready to see the world around him. There had been too many flashes of light and noise, and he thought he might throw up again. Breathe, he told himself. Just breathe. Even when Sasha's dog lunged for him, he wasn't afraid. Since the connection had broken, he only felt calm.

Sasha's hand was cool across his eyes, so at first he didn't think to wonder what she was doing, he simply fell deeply in love with her comfort. But then it started again. There was noise in his head and feelings not his own, and that unshakeable sense of dizziness. He could hear Sasha and Kaspar speaking, but it seemed as though it were floating high above his head instead of right through it. Eventually he opened his eyes, seeing around him a place he had never been before. It was a smokey, sultry place, and the young Sasha of memory looked out of place yet perfectly capable here. Fisher smiled fondly at her. He wondered briefly if anyone in the past could see him and, if so, what did they think of the man in the chained pants? If there was another medium here, it was entirely possible that he would be seen. But no one of this memory seemed to notice him, or Sasha and Kaspar. As the memory began to dissolve with Sasha's release of it, Fisher wondered idly if Dreizen was here with them.

The three of them began to fall, as though they'd let go of a rope that'd held them and not they pitched off a cliff into darkness. Fisher's mind grabbed hold of something- anything- to keep them still.

The place they landed was a teenage boy's room, bikini models and popular bands plastered in poster form on every wall. The room was enormous, much larger than a teenager deserved. Clearly this boy came from wealth. On the dresser was a proud display of over fifteen golden trophies, most for baseball. Sitting on the glorious queen sized bed were two adolescent boys- one a slight, athletic boy with shiny chestnut hair and brilliant blue eyes. The other, almost unrecognizable in comparison, was a young Fisher Majors. Both young men were breathing heavily, both were tangled amongst the bedsheets, and both were completely naked.

"What?" Fisher said softly, unable to look away from what he saw. Seeing someone else's memory was one thing, but seeing your own with you still in it was quite another.

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-11-21 06:01 pm UTC (link)
The young Fisher crawled up along the other boy's body, smiling and kissing a trail along his bare chest. "Whoa," he said, smiling and wiping his mouth. "That doesn't taste as bad as Kerri says it does." He giggled happily, snuggling his forehead under the other boy's chin.

"Fisher?" the boy said, his tone heavy.

"Hmm?"

"...I can't do this again."


It was at this moment that the adult Fisher realized what memory they had stumbled into. "Oh, God, no," he pleaded, trying to think of somewhere- anywhere- else they could go. But the memory wasn't done, and they would not budge. "Not this," he whimpered, watching in horror at the scene playing out before him. The boy beside him in bed was Justin Oak, Fisher's first best friend/lover/heartache.

Fisher sat up, the sheets falling around his then plump waist. "Can't do what again?"

Justin moved away, gathering his satin blue comforter around him like a cloak. "Be with you. I mean we can be friends, yeah, but... I'm not gay."

Fisher stared at him a long, long time. "What?" he said, deadpan. "What the fuck are you talking about? We've been fooling around for months! You said... you said you liked me too." He threw back the covers and sprung off the bed, standing in front of Justin. "I just sucked your dick, you asshole!"

"Shh!" Justin pleaded. "Look, I was never as into it as you were, I just... I was curious. But it's not for me, okay? I like girls."

"Bullshit," Fisher fumed. "Bull shit! You've never had a girlfriend in your life. Even all those girls your parents set you up with-" And then it hit him. The realization was obvious on his young face. "Your dad knows," he said evenly. "Your dad knows, and you're worried that he's not gonna pay for school anymore. So you're pretending to be straight."

"I never said I was gay!" Justin replied hotly. "You always did, but I didn't! And I can't afford for him not to pay for my school, because I can't play varsity since I blew my knee."

"Yeah," Fisher said icily, grabbing his jeans from the floor and pulling them on fiercely, "that's about the only thing in here you've blown."

"See? I never wanted to suck you off! I'm not gay, Fisher. Deal with it."

Grabbing a shoe from under the bed, Fisher stood upright and chucked it hard into Justin's face. The boy fell over onto the bed, shouting. "Deal with this!" Fisher cried, delivering a flurry of blows to his former friend's face. He grabbed his boots from beside the door and tossed his t-shirt over his shoulder. "Fuck you," he said angrily.

"Faggot!" Justin called as the bedroom door slammed between them.


By the time the room around them began to fade, Fisher was crying. It had sucked being a part of the memory, it sucked every time he thought back on it, but it sucked 100 times more actually watching it. "Get out of my head," he said quietly. "Both of you! Get out get out getoutgetoutGETOUT!!!" This time he screamed, and the three of them were torn out of his mind only to land haphazardly into someone else's.

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[info]vintage_fraud
2008-11-23 07:39 pm UTC (link)
The hardest time in anyone's life, Kaspar whispered in Sasha’s ear, is having to kill a loved one because they're the devil.

Being dead has done nothing for your sense of timing, Sasha replied as the memory’s reel played out till its bitter, broken end. She wished the scene was something she could disregard. But wasn’t how it worked. The contents of Cauda Pavonis weren’t exclusive to being Sasha’s firsthand memories. In fact, such a thing would cripple the purpose of the place. It was created to ultimately house all the memories Sasha had—including what was received from others. Already she felt Fisher’s “contribution” settling in to become another room in the palace. She’d have to go and properly categorize its post later.

Right now, however, she had to get Fisher away from his history. A distraction was in order. She reached out, pressed her will like a key into another door, and went. For Sasha there was no sensation of falling, no vertigo or disarticulation. At worst, there was the minute dip of gravity one felt when taking a stepping down a single stair.

The Winter Palace flamed in all its windows like a mountain pierced with holes and lit by an internal fire... The galley stretched long and deep...polished columns and gleaming floors in which were reflected the gold, the candles and the paintings...

St. Petersburg, 1858.

Smoothly Sasha slipped one arm in through each of her companions and began to lead them all through the glittering gala at a brisk pace. They’d be an eye-catching arrangement, if the scene around them had any hold on actual reality: Death, come to the ball. Lord knows, both of the boys were dressed for the role, Fisher so dark and Kaspar bloody. Sasha? She wore a Vanderbilt worthy gown, a brew of silk satin and taffeta: tiny pink and green brocaded flowers bloomed across the celadon paleness. It wasn’t anything anybody had worn in the past century.

The whirlwind of the waltz billowed the dresses like those of whirling dervishes...in the speed of evolution, the nets of diamonds and the strands of gold elongated themselves in serpentine flashes like lightning...little gloved hands placed delicately on the epaulettes of waltzers looked like white camellias in vases of solid gold...

They reached the end of the galley without incident. Sasha freed her arm from Fisher’s to pull open a small opaque glass door.

Kaspar’s arm tightened in hers and for a moment—just a moment—Sasha looked back.

A man, tall and mature, and heartbreakingly elegant. He stood in the center of a small, tight circle of conversation and glamour, his lined face an odd counterpoint to the gleaming surroundings. He looked half-serious, half-ironic. A woman in mint silk touched his elbow, and he turned to bend his head to her. The lady seemed startled to earn his attention.

She’d need the devil’s luck to keep it, Sasha knew.

Josiah, Kaspar began to ask. But Sasha’s hand planted itself firmly on his bloody back and shoved. Out the door, out of memory...

“Show’s over.”

...out into reality.

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-11-25 02:15 pm UTC (link)
As strange as it might seem, when Fisher strolled through the ballroom on Sasha's arm, he felt... important. And overwhelmed, as a young girl might feel at her first social dance. Everything around him was perfectly set and glittering with daintiness. And Sasha... Sahsa looked stuuning. Hauntingly beautiful. Her comfort in such a surrounding was elegantly ravishing. This would be one of those moments that would plant themselves into his memory, something he would recall many years later on a cold winter's night.

Fisher could feel the change in the air as the three of them left their memories and came back to the world of the living. "Oh, Jesus," he muttered, flopping onto his side in the grass. It was a little dry, and crunched beneath his face. Rolling onto his back, Fisher looked between Sasha and Kaspar a moment before his voice found itself again. "What have you two done to me?" he asked sincerely. Because they surely were the ones who'd triggered that little trip into psychosis. Nothing had ever happened to him before that came even close to something like that, and Fisher had taken week long LSD trips that had ended badly.

"God," he laughed, almost crazily, "I am never touching anyone again as long as I live. I mean, where did we go? What was that palace? Was that Russian everyone kept speaking?" And more importantly, though he did not voice this concern, if Kaspar was the psychic and Sasha was the intended receiver of information, how did Fisher (who was just a bridge between the two) manage to find one of his own memories and take them there?

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[info]vintage_fraud
2008-11-25 03:14 pm UTC (link)
Coming back always…stung, a little. Like sucking in that first mouthful of December cold. The sudden feeling of separation—disconnection—was disquieting, though nowhere near as jarring as it once was.

Sasha kneeled on the dry grass, one arm still around Dreizen’s neck; the dobe’s cold nose was busily inspecting her face. Poor beastie, always worrying about his madcap mistress and silly, awful ways; had he been human, he’d be on his third ulcer by now.

She couldn’t see, or hear, Kaspar anymore. Sasha wasn’t sure how to feel about that. Fisher was sprawled in a shaky, laughing heap across the grass, and she focused on that instead. It was easier.

“That,” she said conversationally, “was the Winter Palace back when Russia still had time for palaces. My godfather got me the memory as a birthday gift.” She paused, mouth tightening. “I haven’t visited it in years.”

“As for the other half of your question…” Carefully, Sasha stood up and began to brush off her dress. The hose was practically ruined, of course, damn it. “It took three to orchestrate that happy little excursion.” And damned if I knew how. “Give yourself due credit, Mr. Majors; whatever piece of strangeness let you walk through my palace was yours and yours alone.”

Fishing a tissue out of one rosy pocket, Sasha proceeded to thoroughly wipe her hand. She seemed entirely detached from the drama of the recall or what preceded it. Once her hand was scrupulously dry she made a move as if to offer it to help the boy up—then thought better of it, and crossed her arms instead. It helped hide the shaking.

Brown, ordinary eyes looked down at Fisher. “I take it Kaspar is still here? Good. Get up and stay calm, we’re finishing this. Now.”

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-11-26 09:53 am UTC (link)
"Finishing this?" Fisher asked wearily. "God, how are we going to do that?" Hadn't they already done enough? Reluctantly, but stoically, Fisher got to his feet. He knew that Sasha needed his help to do whatever it was she planned to do. He knew that Kaspar had still too much to say to Sasha, too many questions that only Fisher could pose. And Fisher knew, against his will, that cooperating would be the only way he could possibly prevent this night from haunting his nightmares for the rest of his life.

Fisher looked over to Kaspar and rolled his eyes. "Yeah, well, I wish you didn't need me either." Getting to his feet, he added, "And I do know what you just called me, thank you. That's a Spanish word I do know." Kaspar hadn't said anything terribly rude- simply 'gay boy'- but Fisher still didn't appreciate it much. He'd come out here to help Kaspar and where had it gotten him so far? A one way trip to Crazyland, that's where.

Once on his feet, he turned to Sasha as though reporting for duty. "Very well," he said to her. "Never thought I'd say this to a woman, but... Use me however you need."

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[info]vintage_fraud
2008-11-26 11:02 am UTC (link)
Well, what’d ya know? Sasha thought, watching Fisher stand up—in more ways that on—and show a living sense of humor. Fishy’s got strength enough to bite, after all.

“Here’s the deal, mi corazón.” She touched her throat lightly, wincing. “I accept responsibility for your death. I’ll cover the funeral, the plane, and make sure your mother actually gets the money you were owed. Because let’s face it, Rio will never cough up the funds otherwise. He’ll pawn the plane and have what’s left of you buried in a pauper’s ditch. No rites, no priest, nothing. Have some pride, Kaspar; don’t let your life close in a gutter.”

Her throat was raw, her stomach was frozen, but the shaking in her palms was quieting. She could do this, could convince him as she once enraged him. She had to.

“In return…you go away. Go and leave this matter in my keeping. No haunting, no buzzing, and absolutely no tête-à-têtes with anyone like Haley Joel here.” She gave a curt nod at Fisher. “Who, by the way, I’ll also compensate on your behalf, Moreno, you intrusive ass. All you have to do is swear to leave him and like alone.”

Because if Kaspar got it into his mind to contact some of the brujas on his bosses’ payroll…

“That’s the easy way we could do this,” Sasha said. Vito Corleone would’ve been proud. “The hard way involves an exorcism, a mother in dire financial straits, Rio tossing your bones to the junkyard mutts he calls kin, and the fact that I will personally dismantle your wings for scrap metal. Oh, and please, please, let’s not pretend harassing your new friend will inspire sympathy or anything resembling a captive audience.”

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-11-26 08:34 pm UTC (link)
Sasha laid out her terms, and Fisher waited patiently, watching Kaspar for his reaction. Fisher made a face at the 'Haley Joel' comment, but said nothing. He also made a face (this time a perplexed one) when Sasha mentioned compensation for him. "I don't need any," he told her simply. But from what little he knew of Sasha, she was going to do as she pleased and his protestations weren't going to stop that.

Now that the terms of the verbal contract were on the table, Fisher awaited Kaspar's rebuttal. The man seemed to be mulling his ideas over, carefully selecting the right tone and words he wished relayed. Finally, he spoke.

"Kaspar says," he began, "in a calm tone, he'd like you to know, that you are a fine mediator. Your godfather would be proud." Fisher's brow furrowed. "He's smirking at that, like it's funny." Honestly, it wasn't easy to speak to someone for someone else, especially since one party couldn't see the other. Fisher felt it was important for him to clarify tones, expressions and the like. It was all a part of speech and sometimes the wrong delivered inflection could ruin a conversation. "He says that your deal is fair, reasonable and there is no way in hell he will agree to it. He doesn't- No way!" Fisher suddenly cried out, taking a few steps backward. "Keep your hands off me, Kaspar! One posession by you tonight was enough, thank you." Keeping his eyes locked on Kaspar's, Fisher waited to see what the ghost would do. Seemingly satisfied with his action (or inaction in this case), he continued. "My life did end in the gutter, cotorra. Bloodied and raw and filthy. There was no priest there, no rites, no dignity. You ask me to have some pride? Why don't you give it to me, then. You take care of mi madre, you settle my finances and do what you feel will clear your conscience.

"But I will not go away," Fisher continued, his eyes always on Kaspar. "I will not leave this place and I will not be placated. Do you have any idea what I have been through to get here, to find you? I have spent so much time wondering why you had wronged me. I have spent so much anger on you." Suddenly, Fisher's arm shot out and grabbed Sasha's wrist. Now she was able to see Kaspar, his hand clasped firmly around Fisher's left forearm. He did not look as he had before, bloodied and beaten. Now he looked as she could remember him, the Kaspar with the ace up his sleeve and dark, strong eyes. Eyes that were full of anger now. "You cannot exercise someone you cannot find. And I can disappear from you. You wish for me to have dignity, cotorra? To have pride in my death?" Kaspar scoffed, his voice flowing from Fisher's mouth as though it were his own. His own mouth didn't move, though his expression changed at each word. In turn, Fisher's face remained blank though his words were colorful and deep. "It does not matter what becomes of my remains," Kaspar (via Fisher) continued, "for now I am stuck in this hell between worlds. You want me to leave you be? Then tell me one thing. I want all truths of it, no exceptions." His face hardened, but his eyes lit up like fire. "Tell me who the girl kneeling in the rain is, cotorra. Who is Sherry, and why does she have eyes like yours but a smile you could never possess?"


[I hope I'm doing OK w/ Kaspar's voice]

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[info]vintage_fraud
2008-12-05 10:20 am UTC (link)
Sasha looked at Fisher’s grasp on her wrist for a long, long moment. A good grip, she judged, but breakable. It was just a matter of leverage, really.

But then, wasn’t it always?

“Charlotte Danielle Hallmeyer. Born January 28th, 1988, one and a half minute exactly after her sister.” Sasha’s eyes were opaque, her expression pleasant and illegible. “Died January 31st, 2004—assisted suicide. Or premeditated homicide, depending on your perspective. She is a third-generation Water Mage. She is cunning, fierce, and extraordinarily persistent. She’s also idealistic, daring, and genuinely artistic. And a murderer, and possibly mad.”

“I lost her when we were six, in Boston, and found her again in Venice at eighteen.” A grim light touched her expression, briefly tightening the pleasant tone. Pieces of the story were going untold; their acid pooled bitterly in Sasha’s mouth. “It was…an unexpected reunion.”

I thought it was a miracle, Sasha didn’t say. She’d forgotten how much miracles cost. I had a home, a teacher, a family, friends and faith, my Work—I had a life. I was safe. I was happy.

Her sister had destroyed it all with the one thing that even Sasha, despite all her training and learning and cleverness, couldn’t subvert: the truth.

“Sherry knew the person responsible for hunting and attacking our family.” Now Sasha’s voice grew curter. “She wanted revenge. She needed help. I refused. She tried to drown me.”

And still Sasha’s tone was quiet and urbane, nearly sweet.

“She failed. Unfortunately, she has since then continued to show her displeasure through stalking, blackmail, assault, and other coercions of varying levels of intimidation and imagination. Apparently my disappearing to Halcyon finally exhausted her patience and…well.”

Well.

“I don’t know why she picked you first. Maybe you seemed the easiest or the most fun, or—I don’t know. Maybe she was just in the neighborhood. Maybe Rio cheated her sire. The fact remains that, yes, she killed you. My baby sister splashed your blood on some godforsaken alley wall because I won’t help her murder someone. And, yes, she’ll probably do it—this—again, and again, until some other equally persuasive argument occurs to her. She’ll kill and she’ll wear my face and name to do it, and she’ll push the memory of it into my mind when she can—and she can.

“She’ll do all this, because my sister’s dead. She died when I lost her, and she died when my mother left her. And she died every day she lived in fear until she found the man—the monster—who promised to make her something that wouldn’t be afraid anymore. And then she died again.”

“Now, is that everything…oh, yes. One last minor detail.” Sasha turned on her brightest, coldest smile, and focused it on Kaspar’s familiar face. “The man Sherry wants dead. The one who sets hunters on our tail, who drove my parents to desperation, who let my father die, made my mother run, who left Sherry to grow up scared and crazy and alone. You’ve met him.”

Kaspar was right; Sasha’s smile wasn’t anything like Sherry’s. In that moment, it was worse.

“The Mad Hatter. Remember?”


[The Mad Hatter = Josiah Hattington. And you're doing fabulously.]

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[info]hearitbleed
2008-12-13 09:17 pm UTC (link)
Kaspar's eyes brew wide at the revelation placed before him. The Mad Hatter? Sasha's godfather? It didn't seem possible. The man doted on her like old ladies dote on kittens long after their children have moved away. But then again... Kaspar had always known something was off about Josiah, had sensed it. Hattington was not what you'd call a nice man. He was cordial, yes, and pleasant enough to be around. But he was also very curt, very cool and loof. You could sense that not everything behind his hazel-green [I made the color up] eyes was genuine. Josiah was always willing to help, but it always came with a price.

"I would kill him if I could," Kaspar told Sasha seriously, and she would know he meant it. He had never really "liked" Josiah, but work was work. "Bastardo viejo de mierda," he hissed.

Fisher closed his eyes, the emotions of Kaspar running through him like rainwater soaks a pile of leaves. Kaspar had unexpectedly grabbed his arm with lightning-quick reflexes that took Fisher wholly by surprise. He hadn't wanted to be touched by either Kaspar or Sasha ever again. But Kaspar had taken hold of hiw wrist, and then he'd taken over. Kaspar's voice flowed from Fisher's mouth, the smooth Spanish accent unfamiliar on Fisher's tongue. The words, the sounds, the inflection was all wrong. It took him a moment to realize, but Kaspar was possessing him. It did not take long after that to realize he did not like it. He could feel Kaspar's anger, and since the ghost had made him grab hold of Sasha, he could feel hers, too. Though she wasn't angry at Kaspar, but her sister. And she was scared, and sad.

So he closed his eyes, focusing all his energy on a memory. His own memory. If he could get them both into his own mind and throw them off kelter, maybe he could throw them out of himself. There was too much invasion going on.

It was early summer, or late spring. The year was 1991. It was obvious, because the two young boys playing in the creek were dressed in horrible clashing citrus colors, the oldest in blue jeans and a green and orange t-shirt, the youngest wearing purple plaid shorts and Converse hi-tops in three different colors. They were muddy and squatted down along the banks of the creek. The younger one had cupped his hands around a tadpole. He peeked in through the holes between his fingers.

"This one's big," he told his brother.

The young Fisher Majors nodded, though he could not see the tadpole. "You sure got a squirmy one." He poked a stick into the mud, pushing on it until only an inch stuck out. "Mom's gonna kill you for wearingf your new sneakers."

"I don't care." Grinning, he tossed the tadpole high into the air, watching in fascination as it flipped a few times before landing back into the shallow water. "You're going to the high school this year."

"Yup."

The little one made a face. "That means we won't be in the same school anymore," he pointed out sadly.

"Thank God."

Looking downtrodden, the boy poked his fingers into the mud a moment. "I love you, Fisher," he said quietly.

The preteen Fisher's face twisted in disgust. "You're gross," he said flatly.


"That's my baby brother, Lyle," Fisher explained to Sasha and Kaspar. "That was the last time he told me he loved me. I was twelve, and I told him he was gross." He looked quickly between the two of them, then yanked his wrist out of Kaspar's grasp. Letting go of Sasha, he stepped backward a few feet until he was well out of everyone's reach. Until he was safely onto school grounds, and Kaspar couldn't get past the wards put up by the guides. "Stay the fuck away from me!" he screamed, looking between both Kaspar and Sasha and trying to decide to whom he was really speaking. "I have had it with this." Turning from them, Fisher took off at a full run back to the school, back to his room and the safety of a locked door.

As he reached the school dorrs, panting and out of breath, he decided that he was never going to leave his room again. Ever.

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