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Casper Kim (casperkim) wrote in gooseberry,
@ 2017-01-22 19:13:00

Entry tags:

! journal, casper kim

If you hear crying heading back to camp or doing rounds tonight, don't fucking follow it. It's the thing in the woods again.

[Warded to Asher]

I made it back. I'm fine. I told you ~~I'd~~ it'd be fine.

[...]

I don't know what to say. I feel like a idiot. I don't know what what happened. I don't know why I was so afraid or what I was running from. ~~I don't know why the fuck I was crying. I don't c~~ Except. I guess this is like last time, isn't it? Just with fear instead of sadness. ~~So why does it feel so much wor~~

I'm sorry.

This thing needs to leave me the hell alone.

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	Prefects qnnc 2017-01-22 09:35 pm UTC (link)
	What? Where? Did you have an [...] encounter? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Prefects casperkim 2017-01-22 09:40 pm UTC (link)
	~~What the fuck do you think?~~ Yes. If I say where does it get back to your idiot friends so they can go running off to play detective? I doubt it's still there anyway. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Prefects qnnc 2017-01-22 09:45 pm UTC (link)
	That was uncalled for, Kim. I asked so those of us with patrols tonight are better prepared. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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Quinn/Jesse, that should have said "all night," i forgot what hours are, mea culpa. -

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	Casper. challenge 2017-01-22 09:41 pm UTC (link)
	What happened? Are you ok? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Leo\|Casper casperkim 2017-01-22 10:27 pm UTC (link)
	Same old, same old. Whatever's out there tried to make contact and fucked with my emotions a little. [...] I'm fine. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Leo\|Casper challenge 2017-01-22 10:48 pm UTC (link)
	Again? Jesus. You'd think it'd get the hint and leave you alone by now. Was it by camp again? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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Casper | Asher

guthriegazette
2017-01-22 10:17 pm UTC (link)

I'm glad you made it back, but I still think you should have let me walk you home ~~since all this shit has been happening to you~~. I'll leave that alone, though.

Look, don't feel like an idiot. It's... obviously whatever it is can do something to our emotions. Like you said, it's like last time - it says nothing about you or your emotional fortitude or whatever. It can do something to us. Even putting that aside, though, what you heard is pretty emotionally overwhelming and, frankly, fucked up. Don't be sorry.

I am beyond pissed on your behalf, so sorry if I sound snippy. It just seems like it's messing with ~~you~~ everyone. I've avoided the anonymous post until now but I feel like I might cave this month and look so I feel less out of the loop.

[...]

~~I'm glad you came to me.~~

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Casper | Asher

casperkim
2017-01-23 08:10 am UTC (link)

You're right. You should leave it alone.

Emotional fortitude. That's a laugh. [...] I know you're right. But this is the second time and I still have no fucking idea how to stop this thing from getting to me or what it wants. I don't know if it's actually empathic and we're feeling what it feels or if it's just trying to manipulate us or if there's something else going on. I've never heard or read about anything like this. I don't like it. And I don't know what to do about it and I like that even less.

So long as going to the Anonymous Post is all you do, Asher. I don't have the energy to worry about you too. Promise me you won't get pulled into this bullshit.

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Casper | Asher

guthriegazette
2017-01-23 09:24 am UTC (link)

The last thing you need right now is to feel bad because you were a little less than composed, so blah blah blah feelings are normal and plus it essentially forced them on you. It's not worth feeling bad or annoyed or stupid about what your emotional state was.

[...]

I really don't like it either. The induced emotions are seriously unsettling, regardless of how (or why) it's doing it. And I'm hesitant to even try to figure out what it wants given that it'll probably just encourage it. Maybe it's worth a chat with Vector. And maybe Lilywhite has some good tips on how to withstand emotional transference or whatever this is?

I promise, I'm not going to go running out into the woods looking for trouble. You don't need to worry about me. I'll keep any investigation I do to reading.

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	sheepishly 2017-01-22 10:41 pm UTC (link)
	They're sad? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	destructobot 2017-01-23 02:45 am UTC (link)
	It's contagious. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	casperkim 2017-01-23 08:23 am UTC (link)
	Or trying to use our empathy against us. Or there's more to this that we're not seeing yet. How the fuck should I know? Just stay away from it, Harper. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Casper catseyenebula 2017-01-23 12:19 am UTC (link)
	Redundant but I have to ask. Don't even have to answer. Are you okay? I'll be careful out tonight. Thanks for warning us. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Katya\|Casper casperkim 2017-01-23 08:22 am UTC (link)
	[...] I'm okay. You don't need to worry, Katya. And thanks. Are you on rounds tonight? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Katya\|Casper catseyenebula 2017-01-23 08:25 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, I'll be out there fighting the good fight against whatever is out there or sticking really close to the trails and trying not to get sucked into whatever despair squid situation is going on around here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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	Casper/Cricket cricketq 2017-01-23 10:11 am UTC (link)
	I hope you're okay! If the thing in the woods is feelin blue, I'd wager that you are now, too. Maybe try chocolate? It apparently works against Dementors. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Casper/Cricket casperkim 2017-01-23 01:30 pm UTC (link)
	It wasn't that sort of crying. And I hate chocolate, anyway. But I'm fine. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Casper/Cricket cricketq 2017-01-23 08:06 pm UTC (link)
	I'm glad you weren't affected, but what do you mean? What sort of crying was it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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	kingulysses 2017-01-23 02:09 pm UTC (link)
	Sure seems to like you, huh? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	casperkim 2017-01-23 08:04 pm UTC (link)
	You should probably hope not. Given where I live. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kingulysses 2017-01-24 01:36 am UTC (link)
	Well now, I'm sure it loves me already. I'm awful cute. Carney's ugly mug is only thing that's been scaring it away, probably. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	doyouevenlift 2017-01-23 09:40 pm UTC (link)
	He's got a sparkling personality. What's not to like (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kingulysses 2017-01-24 01:42 am UTC (link)
	~~listen man he's~~ Explains why you can't seem to get near it. [ ooc: i kno he's a Ghost Hunter Extraordinaire but idk if chris has had an ~encounter so i can retag w/ smthng that makes sense lol ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

All Chris for was a magic rock from the anon and he doesn't even know it yet so you're good -

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	unregrettable 2017-01-24 02:05 pm UTC (link)
	How do you know it wasn't just a freshman? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	casperkim 2017-01-25 12:30 am UTC (link)
	Because it wasn't just the crying. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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