How Do Catholic's Deal W/It?
Who: Vonnie/Eli (Closed)
Where: The Seedy Motel
When: March 16, 2011
What: Vonnie Confesses to Eli about what happened the night before.



Worried about his wife, Eli drove as fast as his car would take him to the motel Vonnie had told him she was staying in. He had seen how upset Rachel was, she wouldn't talk to him or look him in the eye just lay there in the back seat in a little ball with her eyes squeezed shut, and he had heard what Vonnie had said about Rachel he knew something was up and it was big and that terrified him. Once he arrived at the motel, it wasn't difficult to find her car, it was the only one in the lot made after 1980. He parked next to her and went into his back seat to collect Scooby and a few of her things, then made his way to the room she had specified, stopping at the door to take a deep breath, letting it out as he knocked softly "Vonnie?"

Vonnie took a deep breath and opened the door. "Hi.." She said nervously. When she saw Scooby, Vonnie finally smiled for the first time since Rachel confronted her. "Hey there..." Vonnie whispered softly, taking the cat from Eli and scratching the cat under the neck where she liked best. "I missed you so much!" Scooby let out a small meow, then jumped out of Vonnie's arms to explore the new room. Vonnie sighed and faced Eli. "You better set down..." Vonnie gestured toward the bed. Vonnie decided that taking one of the chairs a few feet from the bed was the better option for what she was about to tell him.

He smiled when she did, happy to see a smile on her face after what she had said in IMs he knew Scooby would do the trick score him some apparently much needed points. She frowned a little when she set Scooby down he didn't like that tone of voice, it usually came with bad news. His heart leaped in his chest as he nodded and entered the room, shutting the door behind him and taking a seat on the bed. "Look Vonnie you don't have to say it, I've already been looking for new house for us, found a few that's not bad price wise for us and not in the ghetto..."

Vonnie held her hands in front of herself to get Eli to stop. "Wait... Let me say what I have to say before you go into that..." Vonnie took a deep breath, tried to look him in the eyes but found it extremely hard to do, so she looked down at her hands when she folded into her lap. "First off... I've told you a bunch of lies.. Well one big one. I didn't fall down the stairs, or trip over my shoes or Scooby... I hurt my arm because I tried to wake Rachel up and she threw me across the room. I lied because I wanted to protect her. My disagreement with Rachel this afternoon.. I left out a lot of details. I said a lot of mean things to her I really shouldn't have. Mainly to protect you. I didn't want you to get hurt..."

He let a small laugh and  shook his head "I figured as much...the Rachel thing common Vonnie how dumb do you think I am? Your hurt, Rachel barely looks either of us in the eye for days and she would jump up the second you said you needed anything..." He frowned when she mentioned him getting hurt and rose back to his feet, taking her hands in his. "Hey you know me, I'm a tough guy I can take it..."

Vonnie shook her head, bit her lip, and pulled her hands away from Eli's. "This goes way beyond that. Okay... After we left the bar. I don't think we realize how drunk we were. I didn't it just it us.. Or me. One minuet I was fine, the next..." Vonnie tried to finish, but couldn't. Her voice locked up for a few seconds. "I'm sorry.. I'm so, so sorry. I really didn't mean for it to happen. I would have never broken a promise, not like that. I wouldn't hurt you like that... I shouldn't have left that bar with out you. I had way too much to drink and one thing lead to another... I don't know where it all got started at..." All of Vonnie's words came out in one big long breath. "I don't know why I keep messing up... I just DO!"

He was confused, all her words were jumbled together he had no idea what she was trying to tell him only he could rightly assume it was bad by her multiple apologies. Something about the bar, something about being too drunk...he knew from experience that never lead to anything good. He swallowed "Okay Vonnie...slow down. What exactly happened? We can get through this you just need to calm down and talk to me okay?"

Vonnie took a deep breath and tried to relax. "Anna and I we went from the bar to her house. And..." Vonnie waved her hands around. "We were already extremely intoxicated to start off with then add more... And..." Vonnie looked at Eli and started crying again. "I'm so sorry.... I don't know why I did it. It was all so... Fast."

"What was fast Vonnie what happened? Did you get into the paint balls again? Hit her with something magic her away?? Gotta be a little more specific if you want me to help you..."

Vonnie looks at him confused then shakes her head. "No... We.." Vonnie waved her hands. For some reason she couldn't exactly force herself to say the actual words out loud. "Please don't make have to spell it out for you. I'm already ashamed as is..."

He clicked in on what she was trying to say and froze, dropping her hands he just stared at her unblinking, not sure of what to say or do. His heart felt like it was being slowly squeezed to death in his chest. "I...wow I...don't...." he finally spoke, finally blinked feeling like a toolbox

Vonnie put her hand on Eli's face. "I'm really sorry. I mean seriously... Rachel overheard me and Anna talking about it. That's what the whole argument was about."

He pulled away and shook his head "I just...I need a sec here..to process what your saying....you...and Anna you...and...Rachel told you to tell me so you attacked her because you didn't want to hurt me...am I getting the jest here?" .

Vonnie noticed Eli's reaction and put her hands back in her lap. She  thought about what Eli just said for a second, then nodded. "I didn't want to tell you because I didn't want to hurt you. I broke a promise I made... But I talked to Anna and she said that you need to know and that I should tell you face to face... I got to thinking about it and I've been hiding so many things from you lately... You wanted me to be honest and truthful... There were things I said about Noah and Rachel to Anna that she over heard. The whole argument wasn't JUST about you though.."

he bit his bottom lip, chewing it slowly and nervously, trying not to turn into a complete girl in front of her. "Well, I'm glad you decided to be honest..." he replied, moving back to his feet "I appreciate that....maybe you do care a little you just can't see it." He moved toward the door "I should.....go."

"What about us? What happens to us now?" Vonnie asked quietly. Vonnie didn't wait for Eli to answer the first question. "Can't you yell at me. Call me a slut or a whore.. Something? Don't just... Walk away?"

He sighed and turned back to her "No I can't, it's not who I am Vonnie and, it's not like you didn't tell me this would happen, you were right I knew it I just hoped it wouldn’t be this soon."

Vonnie shook her head. "I meant that about you, not me. I didn't plan anything like this to happen... I keep running it through my head and I honestly don't remember how it all started. I just know that it did. Honestly at the time, I thought it was just some really weird dream due to the alcohol and the morphine mix..."

He frowned "Morphine? Does your arm still hurt?" he was worried about her now, his brain trying to rationalize what she had done even though he knew it was stupid

Vonnie shook her head. "I had a head ache and couldn't find the aspirin. I took one. I figured I took it at 4, by 7 I would be alright... Obviously I was wrong." Vonnie threw her arms up and slapped her legs.

"Ah I see...." he replied with a nod, not really getting the logic behind that Morphine was a bit much for a headache, it made him worry more.

Vonnie looked at Eli confused for a moment and decided to leave out the fact she was also taking the homemade medication to fall asleep every night because it seemed like the only time she could actually fall asleep and stay asleep. Noah and all his rules had gotten her so paranoid and nervous that she couldn't sleep well during the night. "I understand now why it says every 8 hours..." Vonnie mumbled.

He nodded "Yeah maybe next time...not so much." He sighed part of him wanted to just run out of there, go home crank up his amp and rock out and calm down but a part of him that still loved her and was worried about her

Vonnie opened her mouth to talk then closed it. Then opened her mouth once more. "You never answered my question..." Vonnie reminded him. "What about us?"

"I really...don't know right now Vonnie. I love you I do I just...I know we had an open thing going I just...I don't know how I feel about all of this or what it means..." He swallowed hard and jammed his hands in his pockets nervously "If you like her you should see where it goes..."

"I don't like her..." Vonnie started. "Okay I do like her, as a friend. ONLY as a friend. Nothing more. That's another reason I don't want to tell you. You would force me to not see her and she NEEDS a friend. She keeps saying how she scares them off or screws up around them and they always get chased away... And I didn't want to end up like that. We screwed up, but I'm determined to get past that and be the friend that she needs."

He nodded as she spoke "I'm not going to tell you who to hang out with Vonnie but I'd be lying if I said it didn't make me uncomfortable, especially since I told you about her and her reputation and that this would happen..."

Vonnie stood up, "What happened between us was my fault. Like you said, what happened is probably the natural progression for Anna. I was supposed to be the level headed one here..." Vonnie felt tears coming back up. "I swear I screw up everything I touch... Take Scooby with you when you leave. This place isn't safe for her." Vonnie gestured toward the direction Scooby last went.

He shook his head "I just...I need to think things over all right? And no, you need Scooby I know you do and you will just make yourself even worse if you have to worry about her too...she's a smart cat she'll be fine." He sighed again and turned to go, he couldn’t stay here anymore as much as he loved her, as worried as he was he just couldn’t look her in the eye anymore, listen to her excuses.

Vonnie shook her head. "I would worry more if she's here. If she's with you I know she's alright. If you don't take her I'm going to have to find someone to take care of her." Vonnie went around the bed and picked up the cat and practically pushed her into Eli's arms. "Take her to the shelter if you have to..." Vonnie mumbled. "As much as I love her, I can't take care of her right now. The shelter has a no kill policy, she'll find a good home there." Vonnie scratched behind Scooby's ear gently. It killed her to think she just gave Eli permission to get rid of the only thing she would label as "loved" her whole life, but Vonnie knew that it was better for Scooby to not be around and part of her wanted to punish herself for allowing herself to act the way she had been acting. "If you don't take her, I will tomorrow." Vonnie mumbled, walking away and sitting on the bed.

He sighed and shook his head "She's not going to a shelter...I'll hold onto her until you find a place of your own." He shifted the cat in his arms so he could support her better, and then stooped down to pick up the bag of cat stuff he had brought with him. "I promise, I'll keep her safe and happy..." he didn't want to take her damn cat, he was never really an animal kind of guy especially not cats and he never told Vonnie this but he and Scooby didn't really get along too well but, the soft spot he held for Vonnie was stronger than his cat hatred at that moment.

Vonnie nodded and sighed. "I'll let you know..." Vonnie said in a small voice, staring at the floor. "If she gets to be too much, the shelter will take her. I won't be upset at you."

He shook his head "I'm sure I can handle one cat and if I can't, I'm sure she will have no trouble bothering Rachel...they seem to have bonded..."

"That's even better." Vonnie said, gritting her teeth. Part of her was still upset over their argument. The argument went way past disagreeing to tell Eli about what happened or not and Vonnie hadn't gotten passed the anger that was still there. "Can you leave please?" Vonnie asked suddenly. "I still have to go to work tomorrow. The world doesn't stop because I made a bunch of mistakes and I still have to earn money to pay for an apartment. Unlike you, I'm not going to be picky about living in a ghetto area as you call it."

He saw how tight and angry her face got at the mere mention of Rachel and couldn't help but wonder even more just what the two had fought about beyond Vonnie being honest with Eli about what had happened between her and Anna but before he could inquire further she was asking him to leave. He sucked in a breath and bit his lip, then nodded "Yeah...sorry...I'll just, go." She was throwing him out, that really must've been some fight, despite the fact she insisted it wasn’t about him he couldn’t help to continue to think otherwise with how she was acting all of a sudden. "Sorry to ..disturb you." he added through gritted teeth before he turned and left the room.

Vonnie clinch her teeth and tried to count to 10 but managed to make it to 7. Before she grabbed her cell phone with a loud groan and threw her arm backwards to throw the innocent phone against the wall. She got her arm over her head, but managed to stop herself before releasing the phone in a fit of rage. Tossing the phone on the bed, Vonnie went into the bathroom to get a glass of water. Deciding she needed sleep, Vonnie picked up the vitamin E bottle that she put the morphine mix in after she put weighed the power and put them in gel caps. At least that way anyone who seen the powder would assume they were nothing but some sort of vitamin pills and not the controlled substance they really were. Taking the pill and swallowing them down with water, Vonnie climbed into her bed and waited for the pill to kick in so she could go to sleep.