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fallen_senbon ([info]fallen_senbon) wrote in [info]fallen_leaves,
@ 2008-01-07 17:39:00

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Entry tags:genma, mission, raidou

Scarred for Life [closed to Genma and Raidou]
Backstory, set in May. Mission Assignment

The daimyou's son was dead, as planned. He was sprawled across the torso of a trussed up corpse, on a pile of cushions in one of the Magic Carpet Ride's back rooms for "special entertainment". Genma had been the special entertainment, and he'd entertained exactly as the privileged young man had hoped. He'd danced, he'd flirted, he'd winked, he'd fondled, he'd batted his pretty eyes and licked his talented lips and promised a thousand delights with a single swing of hips clad in low-slung leather jeans. And he'd let the creepy little bastard with his receding chin and gap-toothed, halitosis-laced kisses believe he'd succeeded in captivating the man everyone in the club had wanted only a few short hours ago.

And then when he was sure the photos had been snapped and the right people had been led to believe what Konoha wanted them to believe, Genma had poured a fizzing candy powder onto his tongue, kissed the princeling, and sent him to that slumberland from which there is no return.

Then the real work began. First off was getting the keys to the man's safe. That was easy, he had them in his pocket. Next was getting the noisome little "personal secretary to Yamada-dono" into the room. Genma'd sent out a folded note to be delivered to the secretary, in Yamada's drunken scrawl, that he needed the personal attention of his aide immediately. When the man came in with a bodyguard, well--it was unfortunate, but the bodyguard became collateral damage.

Genma took him out first, from behind, when he pushed his way into the room to see about his poor drunken lord. He knew that would cause the little weasel-faced assistant to panic. What he didn't expect was for weasel-boy to be armed. It took the work of only moments to subdue him with a handful of senbon, but not without shedding a little of his own blood in the process. Bastard little whelp. The fact that the aide had the gorgeous dagger on him, though made framing him for the target's death a little easier. In fact, with the extra body in the room, the easiest way to work this one out was clearly to put the two dead men in a compromising position, plant the murder weapon in the aide's hands, and be done with it. Yamada's missing keys would certainly be the least of his worries when he woke up with no memories of the night before, a dead lord and bodyguard evidently slain whilst enjoying one another's company, photographs of the dead lord with his mouth on an unidentified cock, and his own hand on the blade that had hewed them apart, his own personal dagger used for the murder weapon.

Genma was extra careful to make the murder look like the sort of thing that might be committed in the blind rage of a jealous lover. He thought tying up the irritating bodyguard in the bondage gear the Magic Carpet Ride's back room supplied was an extra nice touch. He was still positioning the body when his mission partner came in.



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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 01:50 am UTC (link)
A club was not Raidou's favorite place to be. It wasn't a good place to hold any mission, really. The dark and the shifting, moving light made it easy for a ninja to hide in, true, but the thumping music and the crowd of grinding people set his teeth on edge. Watching Genma slink around in his leather pants and shiny shirt like a well-dressed panther hadn't exactly made the experience any more bearable. It was almost a relief when his mission partner finally swung his hips in the direction of the target and dragged the Daimyou's son away to one of the "special" rooms. Raidou left his hiding place in the shadows to slip through the crowd and follow them down the dim hallway. He leaned oh-so-casually near the door, guarding and listening all at once, waiting for a signal from Genma in case things got hairy.

Raidou melted back into the shadows once more when Yamada's aide strutted importantly by, trailing his protection. He gave the bodyguard a quick once over, but the man was nothing special and certainly not a ninja. Genma should be able to handle the both of them easily enough. Raidou spent his time watching the empty length of corridor and listening to the echo of music as it ricocheted off the dark walls. That he approved of at least; black-painted walls were so much easier to blend with. For a change of scenery he carefully drugged every member of wait staff that passed by and might have seen Genma's face, dousing them with fizzing powder the poison expert had given him with a wink and a tilting smile.

But Raidou wasn't thinking about that smile.

He waited another five minutes, counting the steady beat of his pulse, and then let himself into the room. Only to pause and raise an eyebrow at the tableau Genma was setting up. "Don't tell me this is how you get your kicks," he muttered, giving the ninja in question a quick look over. There was blood, but not much of it. Careless.

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 02:26 am UTC (link)
"Don't worry, it's not my fetish," Genma said and shoved the bodyguard's knees apart with the toe of his left foot. "You think I got enough blood on the secretary there to make it look like he came in on these two sucking each other off and killed 'em in a fit of jealous rage? The rumor going around was that the little toady here was miffed about the target's fooling around, so I think people will buy it that maybe he was going for a little payback."

He tipped a table over next to the 'lovers' in their dead embrace, and checked again that the dagger was held in the aide's dominant hand. Then brought his own hand up to his mouth with a hiss, when the motion opened a slash across his knuckles. "Didn't figure he'd be armed in such style," he said, glancing ruefully at the weapon. "It's a nice blade. Too bad we can't take it with us."

He looked up at Raidou then, who was giving him an unimpressed look. "What? Please tell me you're not shocked by this." Brushing his hand through his hair gave him the answer though, when he found it damp. "Oh shit, I got blood in my hair?"

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 02:32 am UTC (link)
Genma's shiny shirt, Raidou decided, was probably a loss, what with the red dripped over the blue cloth. Nice. Conspicuous. Excellent. Raidou's dark eyebrows knitted together in a slight scowl as he regarded his partner; there was that wound to his hand, another sliced neatly into his upper arm, and, of course, the blood in his hair. Raidou couldn't tell who that last belonged to. "Yes, and over the rest of you." That was the slightest of exaggerations, but not by much. At least it wasn't all Genma's blood. "You better be good at henge, unless you're hoping to attract someone with a hemoglobin kink."

Raidou eyed the set-up of dead and not so dead -- though when Yamada's aide woke up he would probably wish he was -- men. At a glance it seemed to be exactly the scenario Genma wanted. That dagger was a nice piece of weaponry too, Raidou bent down a little to give it an appraising look. Expensive, certainly. He stuffed his hands in his pockets as a preventative against sticky fingers and straightened up. "It looks fine. Nice and scandalous. Do you need a moment to sort your hair out, lover boy, or are we good to go?" Raidou wanted to get the stink of this club out of his pores. Some things were worse then a straight slice and dice.

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 03:47 am UTC (link)
"Who would have thought a little toad like him could put up a fight?" Genma asked, and lifted his hands in the seals for a henge. A little application of chakra and he was standing before Raidou with none of the blood or disarray that had been evident before. "You could have given me a heads up he was gonna have company with him. I had to take out the enforcer first, and that gave this little ass-licker a chance to draw. I got him out before he made any noise though, so that was all good."

Actually what Genma had done, when confronted with the unexpected target, was cast a noise blocking jutsu first. Then descended from his perch on the wall behind the closing door to slit the throat of the bodyguard. And then thrown his arm up just a little too late to deflect the blow that sliced his scalp and shoulder. His hand had got cut in the process of disarming his opponent.

"He was actually pretty decent with a blade. Probably one of those rich kids who went to a fancy name sword school. Wanted to be a samurai when he grew up."

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 03:54 am UTC (link)
"Sorry," Raidou shrugged, "I didn't think you'd have so much trouble from a bodyguard and a brat. Don't worry, next time I'll even warn you in writing." His mouth curved a little, flickering up on the unscarred side of his face. "Something like; 'Dear ANBU-Shiranui, expect your mission to have hazards. Love and kisses, your deeply concerned partner.' Give you all the time in the world to gear up." There was just the slightest sardonic spin on Raidou's words as he glanced over Genma's new appearance and judged it acceptable.

Well, maybe a little more then acceptable.

He was not thinking about that.

"If we're all done playing with the dead people?" Raidou turned and slipped out of the door.

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 04:01 am UTC (link)
"Yeah, I'm done. And I think the dead people want some privacy to carry on with their lovemaking." Genma gave Raidou a little salute of fingertips touched to his left shoulder where the sleeve hid his ANBU tattoo. He made a tiny face at the movement, and checked his hand. "You'd better get the doors, I don't want to leave blood on anything I don't have to."

If the forensics people in this village were any good, they'd probably be able to spot that there were four, not three blood types in that room. But odds were in Genma's favor that at least one of the other participants was also A-positive, which would make distinguishing his from theirs that much more difficult. Still, best not to leave a nice big bloody hand print stating 'Genma wuz here' on the door handle.

"You wanna book it back to our hotel? I bet we can still get room service sent up if we tell 'em we're honeymooners." And then he'd take a nice long shower and get the blood and the feel of that daimyou's son pawing at his hands off of him. In a way he was grateful for the cut on his knuckles--it let him focus on that rather than the ache in the bones.

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 04:07 am UTC (link)
Raidou clicked the door gently shut, giving the "lovers" their privacy. He glanced at Genma's hand, but of course the henge obstructed his view of the wound the man was babying. He didn't think it had been all that serious, but Genma was funny about his hands. Raidou twitched one shoulder in a minute shrug -- a cut was a cut, it could wait until the hotel at least.

"Hotel sounds like a plan," he said, taking point and setting off up the hallway, "But scratch the honeymooners part. My acting is nowhere near yours, kid, they'd take one look at my expression when you got all lovey and toss us both out on our asses." Raidou doubted there was more then two years or so between him and Genma, but 'kid' just seemed to fit the man so well. Funny, that. He didn't really examine the thought too closely. Some things just were.

The music of the club hit his ears hard as they returned to the dance floor once more. Raidou winced fractionally. At least with his own simple, dark civvies he didn't stand out half as much as Genma. His only concession to anything like shiny were the two thick steel rings on the ring and pinky finger of his right hand, but he hadn't worn them specifically for this mission. His rings were never far away from him, if not worn on his hand, they could be found threaded neatly with his dog tags around his neck. Some things were important.

And there was the door. Raidou tossed a glance over his shoulder to check Genma was still tailing him, weaved skillfully between the moving throng of dancers, and made for freedom.

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 04:41 am UTC (link)
Once they were out of the club, Genma gave Raidou a meaningful look. "Your acting's not all that bad, you know. You did a great job of acting like you weren't oogling the other dancers or scandalized by their lack of clothing." The club had been full of both men and women in various states of licentious undress, looking flushed and debauched as they danced the night away. Plenty to distract even the most firm-minded of ninja. But Raidou had seemed to keep his eyes mostly on his mission partner--all business and duty. In a club like that, adhering to that rigid level of shinobi reserve was a real feat.

"I think we could pull it off, only you'll have to stop calling me kid, or people will think you're some kind of creepy pedophile. Anyway I don't look any younger than you, except for your scowl of constant displeasure. You're like some grumpy old fart. How old are you anyway?"

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 04:44 am UTC (link)
"Shocking as it may seem, there are people in this world that don't have sex on their brains all the time. I realize the concept is hard for you to grasp, but give it a try anyway," Raidou rolled his broad shoulders in a loose shrug. The club had been full of pretty young things, it was true, but circling through a crowd and running over every possible thing that could go wrong in order to be prepared for it had a way of killing a man's libido. That and watching Genma gearing up to do his thing... well, the ninja had a way of holding a person's attention with his shiny shirt and his hips--

Raidou shook his head with a little jerk. He didn't like Genma. He didn't even like men that much, and certainly not a flashy, cocky, far-too-casual one like Genma. He simply had to find the right woman, that was all.

Or not. He could just stick with the killing-people-for-a-living thing. That was good too.

"I'm twenty-four," Raidou added, "And I'll stop calling you kid when you stop fitting the name. You're lucky, really, it could just as easily been 'brat'."

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 04:50 am UTC (link)
"Tragic, really," Genma said and sighed for dramatic effect. "If you're already an old bastard at twenty-four, what are you planning to be when you're forty-eight? Or is that when you're gonna decide to loosen your belt and live a little?" Of course that was begging the question of whether they'd live to be forty-eight, but a smart ninja planned for all contingencies, however unlikely.

"But seriously, that's only two years older than I am. Are you one of those oldest brother types who had to keep a whole flock of little siblings in control or something?" Drawing Raidou out was a good way to keep his mind off the mission they'd just completed. Away from his hand which blazed and burned where the skin was split open, or the knuckles which ached from the daimyou's son's clumsy grip. A trickle of blood ran down Genma's forehead and he brushed it back with an almost savage gesture. Not of course that the blood would show through his henge, but it was annoying, and now that the mission was over the adrenaline was catching up to him.

He wanted a bath. Yes a shower and a bath. A hot meal. And his shirt was probably a total loss. Hazards of these types of missions, but he should have been more careful. He picked up the pace a little, assuming Raidou would follow suit. "If you're not up to acting my sweetheart, then we'll just have to pick up some rice balls from a vendor on the way back or something."

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 06:37 am UTC (link)
Raidou's mouth quirked slightly. "Forty-eight? Guess I'll be a big damn hero and a name on a rock. Either that or I'll get lucky. Might retire, teach a genin team, have a few kids and spend my time making lots of comments about the ninja in my day being much better then the brats we get now." The former was more likely, but the latter made a nice dream. "And if you were one of my brothers, I would've drowned you at birth."

Raidou stepped up the pace to match Genma's, automatically falling a little back and to his right. A common rear-flanking position, good for guarding your partner, if that was your job. He eyed Genma's profile thoughtfully and then turned his attention subtly to their surroundings, watching the few people near them. Genma wasn't moving quite so fluidly as he had been -- and Raidou knew exactly how fluidly he was capable of moving, having spent a good portion of his evening watching Genma do exactly that. Perhaps Genma's injuries were more serious then he had first realized? "Rice balls are fine; I'm not a fussy eater. Are you okay?" If there was a problem, Raidou needed to know it.

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 06:39 am UTC (link)
"I'm fine," Genma said curtly. "Why? Don't I seem fine?" He wanted a cigarette. Maybe a drink. Of course there had been copious alcohol flowing at the club, but Genma was a professional. He could make it seem like he was drinking a lot and not touch a drop. But now they were done. It was always like this. He was fine during the mission. Fine during the cleanup. But then once they were away from the scene, it hit him. Made him feel cold and shaky. Made him crave a hit of nicotine, a run, something to dissipate the excitement he'd repressed while he carried out the mission itself. His hand throbbed and his shoulder and head. Stupid, stupid careless getting hit like that. Of course he should have expected a bodyguard. Should have popped up a clone as soon as he got the first target lights out.

He shoved at his hair again, smearing blood across his forehead and wincing at the sting of sweat in the cut.

"You got brothers, huh? I used to have sisters. Big one and a little one. I wanted a brother when I was a kid. Thought it'd be cool to have a brother."

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 06:44 am UTC (link)
"We're not so great," said Raidou, reflecting on that 'used to', "we're bossy and mean and we beat you up to take your stuff." He smiled faintly, dark eyes still watching the people around them, flicking over the shadows. "I've got three brothers, all younger. Bunch of brats." They were good kids. He was proud of them. "Two're in the academy, and the oldest just graduated. He's all excited about his genin team, there's a pretty girl on it, y'see. But once he's gets his idiot head over that, I think he's going to do well."

Raidou stretched and tucked his hands behind his head, lacing his fingers together. He wondered if Genma had lost both his sisters, or just one. Had they even been ninja? Kunoichi, perhaps. If they'd been like Genma... hmm, a family of seducers. That must've been an interesting upbringing. But any ninja had an interesting upbringing, it came with the vocation.

The aroma of cooking food hit Raidou's nose, ambient in the night. A siren song. Both shinobi turned and tracked towards it without a word passing between them, Raidou still deep in thought. He had accepted the possibility of losing one of his brothers -- three times over in fact, the day each one of them had entered the academy -- but that didn't mean he had to like it, or feel good if it happened. He'd be proud, however they died, proud enough to burst, but he didn't have to like it. Necessary sacrifice for the village or not.

"The other thing about being a brother," he added thoughtfully, "Is you get allergic to bullshit. What's up with you? You've been off since the club."

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 06:51 am UTC (link)
"Were you not listening when I said I was a brother myself?" Genma asked. "If you're allergic to bullshit, so am I. What exact bullshit was it you were thinking you were catching a whiff of, because all I smell is yakitori, which I would love to go get, along with some beer and a cig, only I think I might like to wash the fucking blood off first." He shook himself, hearing the tension in his tone, and sighed.

"Look, forget it. I'm just keyed up from pulling off the mission. The guy was one of those touchy-feely types who kept wanting to hold hands and shit. And killing him after the fact was hardly the satisfaction you'd suppose." He forced himself to slow his pace, stand a little straighter, hunch his shoulders less. Shouldn't have ever taken that hit, he thought, feeling the burn on his arm, the blood trickling down his forehead again. And he's probably going to say it any second, the bastard.

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 07:01 am UTC (link)
Raidou gave his mission partner a long, steady look, and then he shrugged. "Alright. Why don't you head back to the hotel and get a shower? I'll grab some food and a six-pack and meet you there." That was the other thing about these kind of missions; you never quite knew how it would take the ninja who'd played bait. Some of them got downright shaky afterwards. You didn't comment, you just got what they needed -- if you were in a generous mood -- and hoped they kept it together until you both got home.

That was sort of the definition of back up, really.

He glanced at Genma again, noting the very unsubtle tension in the clench of his jaw and the fine scowl of his eyebrows. Definitely an unhappy ninja. Raidou quirked a very small smile, drawing up one side of his mouth. "Maybe two six-packs, and don't ever say I never do anything for you."

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 07:05 am UTC (link)
"Um..." Genma blinked, taken by surprise by Raidou's unexpected kindness. He'd read the guy as all regulations, all business, all the time. But obviously he'd been wrong. It was a welcome change to have a mission partner who seemed to actually understand what running a seduction took out of you. That maybe you really did just need a little time to collect yourself afterwards. In Genma's experience the only ones who really got it were kunoichi and the handful of other queer men who ran these sorts of missions themselves. Definitely not stiff-necked leather backs like he'd assumed Raidou was.

It was certainly the reason he didn't run these sorts of missions with Aoba as his backup, despite his usual easygoing nature. It set them both on edge and strained their friendship almost to the breaking point.

"Yeah. I uh..." The tension relaxed a little, and Genma flashed Raidou a small smile. "Thanks, bro. I'll be fresh and clean as a daisy by the time you get back. If you're cool with just sitting around sharing beer and food.... Yeah, that'd be kinda nice."

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 07:08 am UTC (link)
Raidou shrugged, but there was a spark of warmth in his eyes for a moment. "It's not exactly like I have anything better to do," he pointed out. "Go get yourself flowered up, lover boy, I'll catch up with you in a bit." He nodded, put his hands in his pockets and strolled off, making his way through unfamiliar streets towards the mouth-watering scent of half decent food. He picked up a good-sized amount of yakitori -- he was starving, and he bet Genma felt similar -- and chewed thoughtfully on one of the grilled skewers of chicken as he wandered. It was pretty good, delicately cooked with an almost perfect amount of tare sauce. Almost like home, Raidou thought with a wry grin. He added some takoyaki next, on the grounds that too much food was better then not enough, and then found himself side-tracked by pizza. Well, it all went nicely with beer.

He wondered what sort of eater Genma was. One of the idiots that forgot and found themselves falling over half-way through a mission, probably. He seemed a little... flighty. But perhaps that was just this mission -- maybe the hand holding had thrown him? Genma was twitchy about his hands. Raidou considered his mission partner as he went in search of beer. Genma was an odd mix, but he'd gotten the mission done, no doubt about that. Even if he had been wounded to do it. Perhaps that was it? The wound on his hand. Or perhaps he was always like this after a seduction mission...

Raidou rolled his eyes. What did it matter what Genma was like after a mission? Just as long as he didn't get them both killed he could dance naked on the roof for all Raidou cared. Of all the images that could have entered Raidou's brain at that particular thought, the small grateful smile Genma had given him flickered briefly through his mind. Like beer was such a great favour...

Raidou snorted quietly to himself and shook his head. Bro, huh? Well, he had three already, what was one more to that? At least Genma wouldn't need The Talk -- that gave Raidou such a bizarre image that he chuckled as he bought his beer and, after a moment's thought, a few packs of cigarettes to go with it. He was something of a social smoker on occasion, it wasn't much of a stretch. He glanced at his watch -- about thirty minutes since he'd left Genma, about time to start heading back. He did so, banishing all thoughts of smiles and naked dancing from his brain.

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 07:17 am UTC (link)
While Raidou was out getting provender, Genma made full use of the lovely private bath their room had come with. Of course it usually made sense to take a room with at least a private shower if you intended to stay in town after a mission. Washing up bruised and bloody in a public bath house was almost never a good way to remain incognito. But this particular hotel was actually a nice place. The client who'd hired them for the mission evidently liked to throw his money around, probably thought it would impress them. Well Genma wasn't above being bribed, so long as the client's goals and Konoha's goals went firmly hand in hand. And that was one nice thing about being in ANBU--you never had to wonder about that. Technically they reported in directly to the Hokage himself. They'd all taken oaths of fealty on top of their service oaths, placing their lives and their swords at Sandaime's disposal in an intimate ceremony that was witnessed only by the Hokage, one or two of the village council, and the head of whichever ANBU service an agent was bound for.

Genma remembered being surprised at how kindly Sandaime had spoken to him. How Sarutobi-sama had placed his hands on Genma's head like a father caressing a child. How much he'd felt like, if he was ever making one right decision in his life, deciding to serve this man body and soul was it.

And now here was the legacy of that decision, naked and wet and battered, with trembling hands. He scrubbed the gore off of himself mercilessly, brushed his teeth until all he could taste was mint and a tang of blood, then slid into the bath to soak. He was still there half an hour later when he heard Raidou come in. Damn. Lost track of time. He should have gotten up and at least bandaged his arm and hand. His head he was gonna have to ask Raidou to look at, because it was in a funny place. At least majority of the blood hadn't been his own.

He sighed and stretched in the tub, standing up and reaching for a towel. "I'm in here," he called. "And I'll change out the tub water for you, I think I've been bleeding in it. Give me a sec." Climbing out of the water a little regretfully, he pulled the plug, then started toweling himself dry. His cut hand and shoulder stained the towel, and when he wrapped another towel turban-style around his wet hair he winced. Definitely needed Raidou to take a look. Actually it was going to be a pain in the ass dealing with the cuts unless he popped up a clone to do it. He groaned at the thought, tired now that the mission was over, and pulled a thin blue and white yukata on, leaving the injured shoulder bare.

"What'd you end up finding?" he asked, stepping out of the bathroom and casually tying the robe at the waist. "Smells good. Did you actually get pizza?"

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 07:22 am UTC (link)
Raidou blinked once at his mission partner as Genma emerged from the bathroom, and then studied the ceiling intently. There was a logical reason for that, surely. After all, the ceiling might be on fire. Very problematic, ceiling fires.

He glanced over the lights. Nothing. Disaster averted, yet again. Well done.

His eyes slid downwards, hit a long strip of very bare skin still glistening with bath water, and snapped right back up to the ceiling. A comment was called for. Raidou opened his mouth, found nothing approaching words, and closed it again. After a short moment of silence he gathered enough coherent thought to turn his back on Genma and set the cooling food down on one of the beds. The beer joined it shortly, followed by the cigarettes. Raidou regarded the expensive bedspread and tried very hard not to think about bare shoulders or wet strands of hair sticking damply to a long length of slim neck.

He didn't like men, dammit, and he certainly didn't like Genma.

Bare shoulder... something like his inner shinobi kicked Raidou in the back of his head. Bare wounded shoulder. He gave himself a little mental shake and turned back around. His eyes flicked over Genma's face for a moment, and then stayed safely at collarbone level. His partner was definitely wounded. Raidou frowned. "You need that looked at? And yeah, pizza, beer, yakitori, even got some takoyaki. Help yourself." Just, maybe after you put some clothes on. Gods. The leather pants had been preferable.

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 07:31 am UTC (link)
"Yeah, actually," Genma said, walking easily over to where Raidou stood between the beds. "I could pop up a clone to help me with it, but if you don't mind, it'd be easier if you just looked it over. I can't really reach it easily. Or the one on my head." He took the towel off, revealing a small, vivid stain where it had overlain the cut on his scalp, and shook his wet hair out a little. "I don't think it's that bad, just in a funny place, you know?"

He was already reaching for one of the takoyaki balls, dipping it in the little container of sauce it had come with and popping it into his mouth. "Oh gods," he said with mouth still full, "I'm famished! Thanks for getting this!" He stuffed a second octopus pastry in his mouth and flipped open a pizza box next, eyes alight and hands hardly shaking at all anymore. Just a little.

He'd bandage his hand himself. It probably didn't need anything beyond a little ointment and a few layers of gauze. Maybe a strip or two of tape to keep it closed, but that was it. In the mean time he was careful to use his other hand for eating.

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 07:34 am UTC (link)
Raidou shrugged again, he seemed to be doing that a lot this mission. "Next mission it'll be your turn," he said, and picked up another yakitori skewer to chew on while he settled himself. Then he went to the bathroom to wash his hands and splash a bit of water over his face, getting the club stink off his skin. He'd need a proper shower soon, but patching up Genma came first. That was the order; mission, partner, then Raidou. That was always the order, it just made good sense. He dried his face, scrubbing roughly with the towel on one side, a little more carefully on the other and went to dig his medi-kit out of his bag. It looked like a perfectly ordinary moment, unless you realized he'd never once glanced at himself in the bathroom mirror.

The medi-kit was standard ANBU issue -- bulky enough to warrant stowing in his bag rather then carrying in his hip pouch (or pocket, currently, seeing as how he was still dressed in civvies). Raidou set it on the bed next to Genma and eyed his partner once again, then he handed him a beer with a slightly wry; "Here, best painkiller there is. You just want the head and shoulder looking at, or the hand too?"

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 08:05 am UTC (link)
Genma inhaled a pizza slice while Raidou cleaned himself up, then sat on the bed, eying the bounty and contemplating the yakitori. He was just reaching for one of the skewers when Raidou came back and put a beer in front of his face.

"My hand's fine," Genma said, a little too quickly. He took a long swallow of the beer, sighed, and gulped down a second mouthful. "I can take care of it." Setting the beer down he reached for the towel he'd dropped from his hair and wrapped it protectively around his cut knuckles, shuddering at the burn of rough cloth pulling on the bruised, severed skin.

Bones cracking and splintering, the pulpy flesh looking like some kind of thick red jelly, spattering out through rips torn across blackened knuckles that no longer looked like parts of a hand at all...

"Uh..."

Raidou was giving him a look. "I just. Yeah shoulder. Head. You want to eat first? It's not that bad. I think it's mostly okay if I don't move around too much. Not bleeding a lot anymore. Just kind of a little ooze, right? So you should eat if you're hungry, while the food's hot and the beer's cold."

He was still holding one hand in the other, frozen and tense. Raidou was still giving him that look. Genma blinked and smiled. "Seriously. Eat. It can wait."

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 08:58 am UTC (link)
Really funny about his hands. Raidou snorted, "Don't be an idiot. It'll just take a second. And I ate a little on the way back anyway." He pulled a few items out of the medi-kit and looked at the wound on Genma's upper arm without touching it. "Besides, you don't want me doing this after a few beers. You'd end up with my initials stitched into your forehead." Actually, none of Genma's injuries needed stitches. The slice in his arm was deep, but the edges were almost perfectly straight, it would do fine with sticky strips and a bandage slapped over it. The scalp wound was a different matter, but head wounds were a pain in the ass to suture. Glue, then. Much easier and also bright purple -- for entertainment value, Raidou assumed, even medics had to have a sense of humour.

He started with the arm wound, washing it out quickly but carefully with sharp-smelling antiseptic every ninja grew to know and hate. It always stung like a bitch, but it killed pretty much anything but you. Infection never stood a chance. He wiped the wound dry with a scrap of cotton wool, and held the edges together while he taped them shut. A layer of salve over the top, a strip of gauze and a tight layer of bandage to hold everything together and Raidou moved onto the scalp wound.

Genma held very still as he worked, expression set and grim, but Raidou could feel him shaking very slightly under his hands. He frowned as he gently touched the edges of the scalp wound. Genma was a good ninja, an ANBU veteran by any account, he shouldn't be reacting this badly, surely? Raidou cleaned out the wound and glued the edges together with the medic's hysterical glue. It didn't need a bandage so he left it at that, moving back to pack the rest of his kit away. He left it on the bed for Genma to use on his hand and picked up a can of beer for himself.

He eyed Genma thoughtfully, took a sip of his beer and then got himself a cigarette. Raidou didn't smoke, not often, but he suddenly felt the need to do something with his hands. He offered the pack to Genma, "Want one?"

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 09:11 am UTC (link)
"Yeah," Genma said. "Thanks." He took the cigarette with his uninjured hand, stuck it between his lips and then looked around for a lighter. There was one in the pocket of his vest, one in his utility pouch. One stashed in the bottom of his shuriken hoslter. But none on the little nightstand between the beds or on his person, clad as he was in the flimsy yukata. He let it go, relaxing a little just from having the unlit cancer stick in his mouth, and set about unwrapping the towel from his hand.

Raidou'd left things where he could get at them easily. First the antiseptic that smelled like hospitals and battlefields and life and death. He sloshed it clumsily onto a little wad of cotton and dabbed it over his hand, tense and visibly shaking now, hissing in through tightly clenched teeth at the purifying burn. Next should be some tape. No, it was right across his knuckles, so maybe glue? Or sutures? Or maybe it would be alright with just a bandage. How deep was it, really? Obviously it hadn't sliced through tendons, since he could still flex his fingers. He'd have to go get Itoh-sensei the hand doctor at the hospital to look at it anyway. They were absolute devils with him about anything that was even remotely damaging to the delicate work they'd done putting his hands back together, and a cut across his knuckles, however shallow, was probably something ANBU's base medics would report him for if he didn't go in voluntarily.

It was awkward work, bandaging his right hand with his left, and after two times dropping the gauze he finally looked up at Raidou. "Fuck it, it's not that bad."

The hand surgeon carefully explaining to Genma how the rerouting of chakra pathways and nerves, the regrowth of bones, the scarring of tendons and tissues, meant that even a tiny infection in a hand wound could put an end to his career. The dull grey metal of the interrogator's hammer flashing down. A far away voice counting the number of breaks.

"I just uh... I need more beer. And a light. Another piece of pizza. And then I'll finish fixing it."

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 09:12 am UTC (link)
Raidou watched Genma struggle in silence, rolling his own cigarette between his fingers. He didn't like the way Genma's hands were shaking, or the catch and hesitancy in his voice when he finally spoke. He definitely didn't like the look on Genma's face, it was haunted and pale. It wasn't a good look for him. Raidou wondered if he was going to have to deal with a break before the night was over -- he hadn't expected that from Genma, and certainly not on a mission that was, for all intents and purposes, a success, but looking at the way the other man trembled, Raidou couldn't really see any other conclusion.

Damn.

He got up, moving slowly, and went to his bag to fish out the little tin of waterproof matches. He almost tossed them instinctively at Genma, before he realized that throwing something at someone with a hand issue wasn't the sharpest thing to do. Instead he walked back to the bed, sat down a careful few feet away, and snapped a match out himself before he placed the tin on the covers. He lit his cigarette and took a slow drag, feeling the smoke wisp out with his words when he spoke. "Look, I know you have a thing with your hands and all, but this is ridiculous. Let me deal with it quick -- you can hold a kunai to my throat while I do if it makes you feel any better, I don't really give a damn. But I won't hurt you, and then we can get nice and drunk." He considered for a moment, "Except I'll probably need to buy some more beer if we're going to do that. Maybe room service."

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 09:18 am UTC (link)
"It's..." not that bad? Raidou already had that look in his eye that said yes, Genma, it is that bad. And if his eyes hadn't said it, the offer certainly did. "I had..." Genma stopped. Why was he about to explain this to Raidou? A man he barely knew, and might never take another mission with. But the offer was so striking--you can hold a kunai to my throat if it makes you feel any better--so very unexpected, and so genuine, that Genma found himself looking up, meeting Raidou's gaze.

"I had a bad mission. Really bad... damage... to my hands. And they're not... I have to be careful." He felt a little ill and reached for the matches, lighting the cigarette and inhaling the smoke deeply, concentrating on the burn and sizzle of the tobacco in his throat, the surge of the nicotine rushing to his brain. Calming. Focusing.

His next words tumbled out in a rush of exhaled smoke, so quiet it wasn't clear he was actually speaking for Raidou's benefit. "It hurt when that bastard kept grabbing it, and I couldn't do anything then. And then I got this stupid cut, and it's just a pain in the ass. I'll get yelled at by the medics, cause it's across the joint and the joints are what was hardest to make work again, right? When they put them back together. So I don't dare ignore even some stupid ass cut like this, and it hurts more than it should, because the nerves got all rerouted or something and fuck... Just fuck."

He looked down at the hand, oozing fresh blood along the gash that gaped a little where it crossed first one knuckle, then the next, too knobby and gnarled and ugly for a man his age. Where it split one of the many fine scars so that the skin puckered and zigzagged on either side of the wound.

"I don't need to hold a kunai to your throat. Just wrap it up for me and then I'll either puke and then we'll get drunk, or I'll keep my dinner down and we'll still get drunk. Alright? And I'm not gonna lose it. I'm fine. It's just a little... hard sometimes."

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 09:20 am UTC (link)
Raidou was surprised when Genma acquiesced to his suggestion, he was even more surprised when the man actually explained. It wasn't often a ninja gave you the inside scoop to their scars, and Raidou certainly hadn't expected it. He said nothing as Genma talked, instead he sat quietly, smoked his cigarette and listened, filling in the unspoken blanks.

A bad mission.

That either equated to one hell of a fuck up in the field, or someone had taken the time and effort to systematically work Genma over and leave him for the medics to stitch back up. Looking at Genma's face, Raidou would've confidently bet money on the second option. A mission screw up was one thing, but torture messed you up like nothing else ever could.

Old torture, judging by the silvery quality of the surgery scars laced over Genma's hands.

Raidou tucked his cigarette into the corner of his mouth and picked up the gauze Genma had dropped after so much struggle. He moved slowly, smoothly, and laid it carefully on the split over the man's knuckles, making certain not to touch Genma's hands with anything but the very lightest brush with the tips of his fingers.

"You puke," he said, keeping his voice level, but at a normal volume, "And you're cleaning it up. Hate puke. My youngest brother, Setsurou, was a bastard for it. He can actually do it on demand. Where the hell do you learn something like that? Little shit." He chuckled very quietly and wrapped a length of bandage neatly around Genma's hand, covering over the damage with a layer of white. "And I always had to clean up after him. I figure if you're gonna throw up on demand, you should damn well have to deal with it afterwards. But no. He was the youngest, little favorite, y'know? He's seven now. Eight soon. I'm going to have to get him something good for his birthday." Raidou sat back, taking his hands back. His cigarette hadn't even had time to burn down. "There. Done. Bathroom's over there if you need to chuck."

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 09:26 am UTC (link)
Listening to Raidou talk about his brother was a good distraction. Listening and not thinking about those feather-light touches of the other man's fingers. Not thinking about the roll of wispy gauze building up over the bruised, cut knuckles, soaking up blood and covering it over in soft, thick, cushiony white.

Not thinking about tendons shining silvery-grey and exposed against the pebbly red meat of the interior of his hand. About blood black and clotted, and flies settling on the untended wounds in a too cold cell in a too dark place...

Genma swallowed, breathing shallowly. What was Raidou saying? Brother. Little brother. Didn't like having to clean up after him. Birthday. Not puking.

Raidou was done. Genma breathed again. He stood up wordlessly, pale and bathed in cold sweat, carefully set his unfinished cigarette in the ashtray on the table, and went in to the toilet, sliding the door closed behind him. He turned the water on in the sink, pulled his damp hair back and tucked it under his collar, and only then did he give in to the aching heaves trying to claw their way up his gullet. Holding onto the cold porcelain, staring at the rippling surface of the water, and fighting the clenching in his guts, he finally felt his mind centering again. Mission was over, injury was minor, grabby daimyou's son wasn't squeezing his fingers or shoving his disgusting tongue down Genma's throat... His stomach gave another lurch at the memory, and Genma shut his eyes, trying to breathe through it. Mission was over. Shakes were about over. Sickness was almost over. Next came catching his breath, washing his face, having a drink, and maybe, once his body was settled, eating again.

When he finally re-emerged from the toilet, he was still almost as pale as the white collar of his yukata, but his eyes weren't nearly so haunted.

"Okay," he said, and stretched out on the bed without the feast laid out on it. "You don't have to clean anything up. I've got better manners than your little brother."

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 09:28 am UTC (link)
Raidou had spent his time while Genma was in the bathroom watching his cigarette burn down, listening to the distant rush of water. It was, he told himself, better then listening to retching. Bad mission. After all these years and it still hit him that hard because some greasy little skeeze had wanted to hold hands? Bad mission was an understatement. Raidou rubbed the bridge of his nose with his thumb, a quick brush over the edge of old scar tissue, feeling the warp and weft of flesh. Some things never really healed.

He glanced up when Genma walked out some time later, looking roughly like death warmed up but a little more steady on his feet. He relaxed a fraction when the man cracked his small joke and picked up a fresh can of beer, holding it up until he was sure Genma had clocked it, then tossed it gently to land on the bed next to Genma's foot, well away from his hands. "In all fairness, I've met fucking bandits that have better manners then my little brother," he said, just a shade wryly. "You gonna be able to sleep tonight? Because the medics were oh-so-kind enough to stock my kit up with some happy little tranq pills." He paused, considered for a split moment and then tapped a finger to his nose again, brushing the edge of his scar. "Funny dreams sometimes."

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 09:31 am UTC (link)
Funny dreams? Genma smiled knowingly and sat up to pick up the beer, then lay back down, holding the cold can to his neck--a trick he'd learned from his sister long ago, when he'd had an upset stomach and she'd put an ice cube wrapped in a damp cloth on his throat. "I don't think you're gonna have to drug me, don't worry," Genma said, if only because he hated those damn pills. "I don't like to take those things on a mission if I can help it. They always make me feel off the next day." As if a sleepless night filled with flashbacks was restful, but still. It was the principle, Genma told himself.

He wasn't surprised to learn Raidou's scar was just the outward sign of some significant trauma. It looked like the kind of thing a clawed weapon dripping fire or acid might have made. Or maybe the product of a particularly vicious electrical or flame jutsu. It looked old, too, healed and shiny and pale. Like someone had taken Raidou's skin and melted it like candle wax, reforming it into ridges and creases from the bridge of his nose down the left side of his face. The scar disappeared into his shirt collar, but Genma'd seen a glimpse earlier that told him it continued down over the man's shoulder.

Whatever had done that to him, it must have been terrible. Beyond painful. Horrifying. It had, he thought, looking at Raidou with weary eyes, probably almost killed him.

So they had that in common. They fucking well refused to die.

He piled the pillows up behind himself and sat up a little, popping open the beer and taking a cautious sip. His stomach wasn't so sure about the bitter wash of carbonation, and he set it down again. Maybe in a minute. "I get special pills from the medics in my kit, too," he said, and sighed. After what had happened with his hand and the way it still throbbed he probably ought to take one. Probably. Maybe in a minute, with the beer. "Almost makes you suspect any ANBU who doesn't of maybe not being fit for the job."

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 09:37 am UTC (link)
Raidou snorted and took a sip of his own, slightly warm, beer. "I'm not a fan of taking them ever," he said honestly, "But sometimes it's better then the alternative." A little surprising, that honesty. Apparently it was going to be one of those missions. Old hurts reared their ugly heads for whatever reason and if there was quiet, if there was safety, even for a moment, some of that found its way into words. Better then throwing up. Better then most of the other options, really. He took another sip.

Genma's odd yellow-brown eyes focused on his scar made Raidou itch to cover it. He banished the urge by turning his head slightly away and wrapping his fingers tightly around his beer can, feeling the slight bend of metal under his grip. A low slow breath settled him still further and he relaxed his hold a little. "So how long has it been?" he asked, after a moment. It wasn't his business, but hell, apparently both of them were in a talking mood.

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 09:44 am UTC (link)
Genma went still. He didn't answer questions about that mission. He didn't talk about it. He lived with it haunting every waking moment, threaded through every dream, pervading his soul the way the scent of decomposition lingered where a corpse had lain too long undiscovered.

He didn't talk about that mission.

But he was the one who'd brought it up. There was something--some change in the atmospheric pressure, or alignment of the stars, or a whisper of an echo of the voice of a ghost--that stopped him from flaring up into a defensive wall. That made this night with this person--scarred and steady, another survivor--a place where he could speak. At least a little.

"Almost four years. In February. March. Has it really been that long?" He sighed and stared at his hands, one bandaged, both indelibly marked. "It was during my rookie year in ANBU." He glanced over at Raidou again, raised his bandaged hand to make a gesture at the left side of his own face. "How about for you?"

Trading a truth for a truth. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad, telling Raidou.

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 09:46 am UTC (link)
"Nine years," said Raidou after a beat, taking another sip. "During the war. Thought it'd be a good idea to block some guy's claws with my face." He shrugged casually, "Turned out not so much." He'd been a chuunin against a jounin. He'd been lucky not to die. "I don't really remember the month, though." Raidou hesitated slightly and looked at his can for a moment. "I lost a lot of time afterwards. Most of that year's a bit hazy for me."

He didn't lift his hand, he didn't touch his scar, and he didn't think about the slight pull it made every time he turned his head. The odd sensations he sometimes got from damaged nerves misfiring. Most of his scar was numb and dead feeling, but the ghosts of touch lingered, or caught him off guard at odd moments. Pain sometimes, heat occasionally, cold and pressure or tingles that made him tense and force down the urge to tear at his own skin.

Four years and nine years. That made a graduated genin between them. Huh.

Raidou drained his beer, crumpled the can and tossed it accurately into the trash. He picked up another and shrugged as he popped the tab. "Learned a good lesson, at least. I block with kunai now."

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 10:08 am UTC (link)
"Bastard," Genma said with feeling, meaning the ninja who had carved up Raidou's face. "I've seen guys from Mist that use that kind of thing." Clawed and dripping some kind of caustic. He shuddered on Raidou's behalf. If the wounds had been anything like what he'd seen those evil weapons leave behind, it was a miracle Raidou'd survived at all. He remembered seeing a dead Suna ninja with her skull and shoulder and chest etched down to blood-stained bone. She'd been lucky; one of her comrades had slit her throat and ended her agony before the acid ate into her viscera.

For Raidou to have survived an injury like that, there'd have to have been a medic there with him practically the moment he was cut down. Genma supposed on a battlefield during the war, that was actually possible.

He tried another sip of beer, finding it went down a little easier this time. "Blocking with kunai's something you're supposed to learn in Academy," he said dryly. "But I think it's one of those lessons you never really learn until the shit hits the metal in a real battle." He'd learned it the hard way as a genin, during that same war, no doubt. Nearly losing an ear to a handful of shuriken. He still had the scars, well hidden in his hair. And the memory of waking up with a miserable headache, a concussion, and a head half-shaved and stitched back together.

"I know about that lost time thing," he said. It wasn't the lost time after that concussion he was thinking about now. It was the mission. The mission. "We left Konoha February 9. I know that date because Intel asked me about it. Because it was documented." He swallowed dryly, tried the beer again. It made his stomach lurch, but he needed the alcohol if he was going to get any of this out. In fact, what he needed wasn't beer, but something much stronger. Setting the can down, he got unsteadily up from the bed and grabbed a flask from his own med kit.

"Shouchuu, straight up," he said, lying back down and taking a swig. Closing his eyes. Opening them again. Raidou was just watching him, face placid. There were lamps burning. They were safe. And Raidou had those scars. He understood what it meant to die and come back to life.

"I had no idea how many days it had been when the retrieval team finally found us... Me." He swallowed again. "Me. Turns out it had been three weeks. Kobo'd been dead three weeks, and Seijuro died the same day they finally got there. Before they got there."

A small part of Genma's brain wondered whether Raidou'd recognize those names. Remember that mission. Have heard about it. For the first year it had seemed everyone in ANBU had known about it. Now four years on, it was mercifully fading into the legends of missions gone spectacularly wrong.

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 10:14 am UTC (link)
Raidou's eyebrows arched up slightly. Kamiyama Kobo? That was the mission Genma was talking about? Hell. Any ANBU still alive since that year knew about that particular clusterfuck. Knew the story about the captain that had died for his team, and the Iwakgakure house of horrors that the retrieval unit had tracked down to get their own back. Looking for survivors. Survivor. Just one. The rookie that had made it back. Yeah, Raidou knew that story.

He tapped his beer can with a quick rattle of fingers, a morse code that meant nothing, and then shoved most of the food aside so he could stretch out on his back, tucking one arm up beneath his head. "I knew Kamiyama," he told the ceiling, speaking slowly, "Worked with him once or twice. He was a good man. Sure as hell didn't deserve to go out like that." Better on your feet then in a cell, though. Better fighting then breaking under whatever they decided was fun.

Three weeks of torture. No wonder Genma was funny about his hands. Raidou turned his head a little, shifting to look at his mission partner. Studied his profile cut out against the lamp light. He didn't look that strong. Not with his pale face and his wet hair and his open robe. Bare feet and the red-stained bandage wrapped around his hand. But looks, as every ninja knew, were deceiving. Three weeks and they'd brought him back alive? That only meant one thing; he hadn't broken. Konoha didn't rescue broken ANBU. Didn't bring back shinobi who'd spilled secrets. They got a swift death and an unmarked grave. A mercy stroke, more then anything else. Another name on the monument that didn't tell you how they'd died.

Better then suicide.

Raidou crossed his feet at the ankle, ignoring the marks his boots made on the expensive covers, and watched Genma down his souchuu without comment. He was tempted, for a moment, to ask the man to send the flask over, but -- despite his earlier offer -- Raidou had no intention of getting drunk tonight. Someone needed to stay clear-headed. Instead he set his beer can carefully down on the small table next to his bed and got himself another cigerette. Less healthy, but it wasn't like he was going to live long enough to get lung cancer. He lit it and watched the smoke spill out of his mouth, rising to cloud the air and blur his view of Genma, painting it grey.

"Thought I was dead," he said softly, "when that jounin got me. Thought I was dead because there was no way I could live through something hurting that much." Agony wasn't a big enough word. He'd never been able to find the word for how it had felt. "Stupid thought, really. Pain tells you you're alive, right?" Raidou turned his head back, shifting until he could look at the ceiling once more. Turning so Genma couldn't see his scar. He tucked the cigerette into the corner of his mouth and let his hands fall to rest by his side.

"I don't remember all that much. It was me and some genin, I know that. We got cut off, I was in charge." He snorted, "That was stupid. I'm not made to be a leader. But they were busy panicking and I wasn't, so that's how it worked out." Two girls, one boy, and one he'd never been sure of. He'd never even gotten their names. "We were right next to the front lines and there was just hell happening all around us. You know what it was like, you were there, I bet. Next thing I know the kids are screaming and scattering and there's this scary ass looking jounin with claws..." He swallowed, breathed out slowly through his nose and watched smoke curl. "I moved, he moved. Next thing I remember is not being able to see. Screaming my damn lungs out and hearing the kids screaming back."

Maybe he would ask Genma for some of his souchuu. "Then they stopped."

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 11:10 am UTC (link)
"Yeah, I was there," Genma said, and sat up, leaning across the space between the beds to hold the flask out to Raidou. "I know what it was like." He could hear the hard edge of self-recrimination in Raidou's voice about those dead genin. Genin he hadn't wanted to lead. Hadn't felt fit to lead. They'd all been thrust into command roles they weren't ready for. Combat that took more skills than they'd had. Taken more from them than they'd been willing to give.

"Someone must have got you out of there," Genma said, lying back down on his bed, curled up on his left side, facing Raidou. Watching him. With his face turned in profile, all he could see was what Raidou must have looked like without the scar. Handsome, young. Would have been younger then. Genma wondered if he'd had acne. He could almost see the younger Raidou there, cheek dirt-smeared and eyes battle-weary.

"Someone had to have done something to neutralize the poison." A field medic. Maybe even Genma's own sister. It wasn't out of the question, though it was certainly far-fetched. "It's not your fault, about those kids."

He didn't wait for Raidou to answer. Didn't think he'd get one.

"You knew Kobo," he went on, "so you know what the mission--- What happened. Did you know there was a genin there, too? Or maybe he was a chuunin. I don't remember. He was..." Damn, now that he'd given his flask away, he wanted it back. Why was he telling this to Raidou? Because of pain that nearly killed you, and kids that didn't make it?

"He was already there. They locked me up with him for a little while. Never did really understand why. Did it at the end. After I didn't have any idea when it was anymore. After I almost didn't know who I was anymore. And the kid was gone. Batshit crazy and then some. But he was Konoha and he said he recognized my accent. Or I think they told him I was Konoha. I think they were just trying to fuck with him, maybe."

It was garbled in Genma's memory, fuzzy. The kid, the cell, the weeks of being alone and hours of being with someone again. The light after days and days of darkness, so bright he thought he was going blind. The pain of bruises piled on bruises, muscles cramped, bones broken then healed so they could be broken again.

"He was Konoha and he was a kid, and I was ANBU." Genma laughed a harsh bark of a laugh, laced with bitterness. "I was supposed to save him. But instead that kid saved me, 'cause then I could remember who I was again. And later, he counted, that kid. Counted and counted and told me they could only make a hundred eight breaks. Fifty-four for each side. Twenty-seven bones twice each." There was that laugh again, that sounded more like retching than humor. " He only got to count as high as thirty-two though. Turns out the kid had been in training to be a medic."

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 11:26 am UTC (link)
Raidou took the flask when Genma handed it to him, turning it over in his hands. It was a standard make; brushed metal painted with camouflage, specifically matte colours designed not to shine. The cap attached to the neck by a tether to stop it from getting lost. Slim and curved to slide easily into a back pocket. He tilted it slightly, listening to the gentle slosh of liquid. Listened to Genma talk in the background. Listened to him laugh in the way they all did sometimes.

It's not your fault, about those kids.

Raidou put out his cigarette and took a mouthful of souchuu, holding it for a bitter wincing moment before he swallowed. It was a little like the antiseptic he'd used on Genma's wounds, a purifying sort of burn. He handed the flask back, careful to turn his fingers so they didn't touch Genma's and lay back, getting another cigarette as he did so. Lit it with a careful match flick that flared against the shadows left by the lamps. At this rate he'd be a chain smoker. He blew out a quiet stream of smoke and then held the little stick up in front of his face, dark eyes studying the bright, burning end. Watching the ash flake.

"You don't listen to yourself, do you?" Perhaps he'd learn how to blow smoke rings. "It's a bad habit, not to take your own advice. My kids weren't my fault, I was out of that fight before it had even begun." The words were bitter, tangled up in scar tissue, but he could see the sense. "Your kid wasn't your fault either. You did your job. Didn't break. Didn't give the bastards anything, right? Survived long enough to get the hell out of there." Raidou turned to look at Genma again, eyebrows drawn down in a scowl that wasn't meant for his mission partner. Twenty-seven bones twice each. It wasn't hard to figure out what he was talking about. "Fuckers might have shattered your hands, but they didn't shatter your head, lover boy. S'all that damn well matters."

Raidou took another drag on his cigarette, feeling the taste meld with the flavour of souchuu still on his tongue. "At least one of you got saved." And there, underneath that, was the brutal truth; better you then some headcase kid.

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 11:39 am UTC (link)
"Yeah. S'what matters," Genma echoed in a dull monotone, and downed another swig of the alcohol. The smoke from Raidou's cigarette smelled soothing and familiar, and Genma reached out to reclaim the one he'd stubbed out when he'd left the room to vomit. It was odd how something that was supposed to be a stimulant could act instead as a tranquilizer, but he didn't know a single shinobi who lit up to speed up. No, they all smoked to settle their nerves, to blot out sights and sounds and smells and memories. He thought about getting up to get his lighter, but he felt just too damn tired to do it. Raidou'd left the matches out. Matches would work just as well. The sulfur scent when he struck it mingled with the tobacco smoke with a distinctive sharpness, like the chemical taint in the air where an exploding tag had ignited.

"They brought him back, too," he said after a moment of watching the smoke curl up to the ceiling. "He thinks I'm some kind of hero. Messed up in the head good, Taisei."

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 11:41 am UTC (link)
"Definitely messed up," Raidou agreed, with a wry quirk of his mouth. "You don't get to be a hero until your ass is in the ground and your name's up on that rock." Whole damn village full of heroes. Whole damn stone full of names. "And it's way too soon for that, lover boy. Don't want to leave all those nice rich daimyou disappointed, do you?" Raidou blew out a stream of smoke though his nose and sat up with a twist and a stretch that cracked his spine. Then he leaned forward to unlace his boots and pull them off, letting them drop to the foot of his bed.

It was getting late enough to be early. He wondered if either one of them would sleep tonight. "Besides, if you croak then I'm gonna be the poor bastard stuck taking over your missions. And let me tell you, buddy, leather just isn't my look."

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 11:50 am UTC (link)
Genma arched an eyebrow and sat up. Color back in his cheeks bit by bit. A return of light to his eye. "You have to be shitting me, " he said. "My missions? You?" Stranger things had happened, but he really couldn't see it. Raidou just didn't seem the type. For one thing there was his awkward stiffness at the club. "If you think you want to start playing bait, I think I'd better give you some dancing lessons first."

He gave the other man an appraising look. Long, muscular torso, broad shoulders, slim hips. Long legs to match. Especially if you overlooked the scar, it was actually not all that hard to think of Raidou being the one to draw the target's eye. If only he didn't radiate that air of 'don't fuck with me, I am in control'. Although for a certain subset of the targets Genma'd been sent after over the course of his career, that would probably have worked out even better.

"You're wrong about the leather though. You'd be hot as tar in July in leather."

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 11:52 am UTC (link)
Raidou suppressed a small, smug smile as Genma sat up with a flash of his old swagger. It had annoyed Raidou at the beginning of their mission, now he was glad to see it. Score one for self-depreciating humour. He opened his mouth to say something about being a perfectly adept dancer, thank you very much, when Genma gave him a distinctive once over and said... that.

Raidou blinked, snapped his mouth shut and frowned. He turned his head away from Genma and leaned back down to strip his socks off, balling them up neatly to shove back in his bag. He packed up the remains of his medic kit next, sorting everything back into the familiar order and noting what he needed to replace. Then he stacked the food still littered over his bed up, closing the lids on boxes and slotting cartons back together. Made sense to do it now, while he was thinking about it. While he was not thinking about anything else. Not that look and not that...

Lie.

When he was done Raidou stood up, stretched again, and glanced at Genma with a quick half smile. It flickered over his face, there and gone in a second. "Nice try, lover boy, but save your charm for the marks. I'm going to go take a shower. You should eat if your stomach's up to it." He hooked his thumbs into his back pockets and made for the bathroom. About time he got the club stink off his skin.

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 12:25 pm UTC (link)
"Yeah sure, run and hide." Genma lay back down and reached for the beer. It was a little warm, but it tasted okay now. Better. He glanced at the food but no, it was still too soon. "Maybe in a minute."

Raidou had definitely flinched just then. Interesting. Of course that could be anything. Probably he was another one of those straight guys who was afraid that if a queer man thought he was good looking it meant he'd be dropping trou and bending over for the next fag to walk by, as if being gay was an air-born contagion.

But there was something about Raidou that Genma just didn't read as all that particularly straight. For one thing that endearment. No self-respecting straight man would call another man 'lover-boy' would he?

"Just so you know, I'm not trying to play you," Genma said. "I meant it. But go take your shower. I'm gonna just maybe nap or something." Or not. No actually napping was probably a good way to slide right into a nightmare. Actually he kind of hoped Raidou'd be done with his shower fast. At least he was leaving the lights on.

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 12:34 pm UTC (link)
Raidou leaned his head back around the bathroom door and gave Genma a dry look, "Don't make me quote Sun Tzu at you, kiddo. Discretion being the better part of valour and all. Of course, if you'd prefer I'd be delighted to stay here and drown you in club stink." He disappeared into the bathroom before Genma could comment, shutting the door with a final, "And you can't play a player, lover boy. I've read better pick up lines written on back alley walls."

It was a nice hotel. Spacious and clean and good smelling. It almost qualified for luxurious. Raidou glanced around the bathroom with a quiet scornful sniff and stripped his clothes off to fold them neatly by the sink. His dog tags and rings stayed, though. Then he turned his back on the mirror without once ever glancing at it and stepped into the ornate shower. The walls were tiled in something that looked like white marble, the faucets and shower head brushed a silken bright gold colour. Raidou rolled his eyes, took a four minute shower that was perhaps a fraction colder then he would normally have run it, and ignored the expensive complimentary shampoos to wash his hair with soap.

He stepped out, shook himself off with a rattle of dog tags and stretched again, rolling his shoulders to ease a little stiffness away. Perhaps a longer shower would have helped, but Raidou didn't particularly want to leave Genma alone for that long. Not that he expected to walk back and find the man hanging from the ceiling, but company seemed to be helping and Raidou could give that much without a second's thought. He dried himself with one of the soft, white towels -- that he did appreciate -- and pulled his clothes back on (he didn't intend to wander around falling out of a robe like some mission partners that would remain nameless). It took all of ten seconds to tidy up the bathroom, and then Raidou strolled out, rubbing a hand absently through wet hair. "You actually intending to sleep tonight, kid?"

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 12:38 pm UTC (link)
"I have a name, old man," Genma said, relaxing just a little when Raidou came back into the room. He hadn't moved, still lying on top of the beadspread, tucked up against pillows and wrapped in the yukata with one arm out of its sleeve. Now he was cold, with his right shoulder and chest bare, his naked legs sprawled out in front of him. And tired. Really weary, in that wrung out sort of way.

Was he going to sleep? Maybe. Did it matter? Maybe he'd sleep, because he was too tired to resist it. And maybe he'd dream and wake up shaking and screaming and give a lie to the fragile calm he'd managed to get a handle on. He looked at Raidou, standing there with his shaggy damp hair and his calm, scarred face, wearing the same clothes he'd donned for the mission. Civilian clothes. Club clothes, though inconspicuous ones in basic ninja black. Raidou who'd brought him beer and food that he was still not sure he dared eat, and cigarettes, including the fresh one Genma'd started while Raidou bathed.

"You know," he said and sat up, tugging the robe around his injured shoulder. "I might change my mind about that damn pill. And the yakitori's probably still warm. And cold pizza's good. Let's eat and have a couple of beers, and then we can crash as long as we want tomorrow. Room's paid up, so it doesn't really matter when we head back, right?"

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 12:57 pm UTC (link)
"You have lots of names, I'll bet," said Raidou, eyes flickering away from Genma's open robe, "Now you have a few more." It was a habit acquired from his jounin-sensei, not to call a team mate by their name. Once words like 'kid' and 'brat' and 'rookie' tripped automatically out of your mouth, you were less likely to scream the real thing in the heat of battle, in the terrified cold of torture. It made keeping secrets just that little bit easier. It made detachment just that little bit easier, too. Better to lose a kid then to loose Ishimoto Jun, and see his face break under his mask for weeks afterwards. To lose whoever wasn't quick enough or smart enough or lucky enough.

Raidou shook his head with a quick jerk, banishing the thoughts that wanted to cling to his mind like spider webs, and focused back on his mission partner. Pills. Right. He frowned slightly, a momentary twitch of dark eyebrows. It was that bad?

Three weeks of torture. Of course it was that bad.

Well, at least the combination of alcohol and medic's chemicals would knock Genma out flat. Raidou shrugged and went to dig in his medi-kit, he pulled out the little bottle of pills Genma had in mind and tossed it gently to land next to the man. "Food and beer sound good. I have cards in my pack somewhere, you up for a game or two?" His mouth arced in a small, lopsided smile. "Hm, maybe not. You look like a lightweight. It'd be unfair of me to take advantage of your poor drunken self and steal all your money." He went to get the cards. "Of course, we're ninja, cheating is what we do..."

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 01:01 pm UTC (link)
"No such thing at cheating at being a ninja," Genma said and cracked a wry smile. "That was Kazuma-sensei's motto. Said he got it from his dad. And it's mine now." He picked up the pill bottle and stared at it. Raidou's name was on the label, but the drug and directions were identical to at least one of the ones the medics had given Genma: For anxiety and difficulty sleeping. Take one thirty minutes prior to bedtime. Do not mix with alcohol. He snorted softly--like any ninja ever heeded that warning--and popped the lid off, fishing out one of the little pinkish oval tablets with two fingers of his left hand.

At least, he hoped, Raidou didn't need the other pills. The little round yellow ones with a label that said For intractable pain... Genma really hoped Raidou didn't need those. And he hoped he wouldn't need to go get his med kit and get out his own, either. It was a minor cut, after all, just in an inconvenient place. And the daimyou's son hadn't squeezed that hard. And there had been the long warm bath, and with the pink pill and the shouchuu and beer... He'd be fine. He wouldn't need one of those.

"What are we playing, gin?" Genma asked, and tossed the pill down his throat with a swig of beer and no more second thoughts. "I gotta say, if you're gonna take advantage of me being inebriated, I'd rather you assault my virtue than my wallet. And if you gotta use a nickname for me, I like lover-boy." He grinned rakishly and sat back, making room for Raidou to join him on the bed. "Grab us over some of that chicken why don't you." He'd try to eat. Try to be fine. In a half hour or so it wouldn't matter anymore anyway, once the chemical cocktail kicked in.

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 01:04 pm UTC (link)
"What virtue?" said Raidou with an eyeroll, as he snagged a pillow off his bed and tossed it at Genma's head. "Knock that off before your new nickname becomes carbon smear on the wall." No such thing as cheating at being a ninja? He liked that. He'd have to remember it. Good motto. Definitely a better thing to focus on then Genma's pointed grin and his robe that was still not closed. Or the way his hands had trembled slightly when he'd taken that pill.

Raidou glanced at his watch and noted the time -- almost 0500, they'd lost a lot of the night -- before he grabbed the requested chicken, stacked a few beers and a carton of cigarettes on top, picked up the pack of cards and moved over to dump the lot on Genma's bed. He sat down close to the foot of the bed, shoved the boxes to one side, balanced a beer can against his knee, tucked a cigarette between his lips, and began to lay out cards. "Gin is good, no whining when I wipe the floor with your ass, brat."

Half an hour to kill. Raidou wasn't quite sure what he was going to do then.

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[info]fallen_senbon
2008-01-08 01:26 pm UTC (link)
Between the pills, the shouchuu, the lateness of the hour and Genma's existing fatigue, he didn't even last twenty minutes. By the fourth hand he was nodding, dropping cards, slurring his words a little. When his cigarette fell from slack lips to burn him awake as it landed on a bared thigh, he jumped and shook his head. "Guess I... should give't up," Genma said, and blinked slowly. Stubbed out the butt slowly. He moved with extreme care, dizzy but no longer nauseated. Stifled in the thick syrupy arms of drugged stupor.

He hated it. He welcomed it.

"Gonna prob'ly crash five..." he wobbled and wavered and caught his balance again just as he nearly toppled. "Six hours. You sleep, too?" He pushed at the comforter, trying at long last to get under the covers. "We c'n finish game later."

Raidou was there. Raidou was safe. Raidou would leave the lights on if Genma asked him to. Raidou's calm, steady breathing, his big, powerful chakra, would reassure Genma he was safe even if the room were pitch dark.

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[info]fallen_raidou
2008-01-08 01:27 pm UTC (link)
Raidou winced fractionally as Genma burned his thigh, but the ninja was so far gone he barely noticed. It wasn't a hurt that really needed any attention, so Raidou made no mention of it. Instead he stood, cleared the bed of the debris from their meal and card game and swept the covers up and over Genma with a quick jerk. "Think you're going to be out a bit longer then six hours," he said quietly, "Probably a good thing, brat. Try not to dream." He shouldn't, with the pills. You weren't supposed to. But sometimes...

Raidou shook his head with another short, rattling movement and rolled his eyes at himself. Enough. He got up, snatching his hand back when it twitched automatically to touch Genma's forehead, or brush his hair back. It was a perfectly fine impulse to have around his brothers -- he'd spent more then one night tucking them in, or beating back nightmares -- but it didn't fit here. You didn't coddle ninja. Didn't soothe ANBU.

The monsters in the dark didn't do so well with hugs.

Raidou snorted quietly and retreated back to his own bed, turning down the lamps a little as he went. He pulled a book from his bag -- a slim paperback novella, something without any real substance he could get easily lost in -- lit himself another cigarette, and leaned back against the padded headboard. He settled himself and blew out a slim stream of smoke through his nose, watching it curl in the dim light of the room. Listened to Genma's quiet breathing for a moment. Raidou flicked open his book, brought a knee up to rest his elbow on, and resigned himself to a night spent in someone else's world.

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