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Tweak says, "Stay in school.."

jason_keller_jr (jason_keller_jr) wrote in falcon_pride,
@ 2008-10-13 20:35:00

Who: Jason and Caleb
What: Inappropriate dinner conversation
When: monday evening
Where: The cafeteria
Rating: PG-13 for language?
Status: Incomplete, semi-private

School was remarkably refreshing today. Jason had two tests - both of which he was sure he aced - and his charcoal drawing turned out pretty good, even though he generally sucked at still-lifes. The only downer was that he didn't get to spend his lunch hour with Caleb.

Dinner, however, was another matter entirely. As Jason went into the cafeteria, he saw Caleb sitting over at one of the far tables and couldn't suppress a smile. Grabbing a sandwich, an apple, and a carton of milk, he went directly over to the table where his boyfriend was sitting. Setting his stuff down, he slid his arms down Caleb's shoulders and pressed a kiss onto his neck. "Didn't see you today at lunch, love," he whispered.

Jason sat down next to Caleb and opened his carton of milk. "What's the matter? Something wrong?"

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myownlifelived
2008-10-13 08:51 pm UTC (link)

What the hell happened? Was the only coherent thought Caleb had since his study session with Nigel. He'd been so out of it he missed lunch in favor of sitting outside of one of his classes.

He finally forced himself to go to dinner, but he could only sit in the corner and barely eating his pizza. He jumped out of his skin when there was suddenly someone sitting by him.

"Hi!" He quickly said, as Jason kissed hi's neck, "I'm just... confused. About stuff.

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jason_keller_jr
2008-10-13 08:56 pm UTC (link)

Jason slid one hand along Caleb's thigh and looked up into his face. "Want to talk about it?" he asked, trying to be as helpful and soothing as possible.

"Is it school stuff, or family, or... is it about me?"

It had been a while since Jason felt insecure about their relationship, but when Caleb was moody, it was always a little scary for him. He wasn't particularly afraid that it was something he did or said, but it seemed polite and right to ask just in case.

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myownlifelived
2008-10-13 09:04 pm UTC (link)

"Its not about... I have a good friend. At least I thought he was a good friend. Turns out he likes me... more." Caleb sighed, "He kissed me against my will and it bothered me because, I think I just lost a good friend."

Caleb turned to Jason, "I was worried about how you were gunna take it, you get so self concious, and I knew I had to tell you." Caleb frowned "do you hate me now?"

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jason_keller_jr
2008-10-13 09:09 pm UTC (link)

How could he? After all, the same thing happened to him.

"No," he said. Jason leaned over and kissed Caleb on the cheek. "Something similar happened to me. I figure if someone else is interested... well, we just keep letting them know how we feel and they have to respect our feelings, right?"

Jason opened up his sandwich and picked off the American cheese. "He, um... wasn't good, was he?" Jason asked. As soon as the words were out of his mouth, he wanted to take them back. "No, forget it. It doesn't matter if he was a good kisser or not. I love you. Really love you. So, no matter what happens, well, there's that."

He looked up and smiled at Caleb, then brought his hand up to the boy's face and gently traced along his jawline. "As long as you didn't kiss back. Things happen, y'know?"

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myownlifelived
2008-10-13 09:18 pm UTC (link)

Caleb's face dropped even more at the memory of the talk they had a few weeks ago, quickly his stomach filled with white hot anger that he pushed down Freaking Halden!

"I was too shocked to really figure out what was going on." Caleb said, leaning forward to peck Jason on the lips, "I love you too, its not our fault that we're so sexy that we just attract other guys like crazy."

Part of him felt bad talking about Nigel like that, but he had to distance himself from his friend.

"I just hope it didn't end our friendship."

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jason_keller_jr
2008-10-13 09:22 pm UTC (link)

"Well, I'm still friends with Halden. And he hasn't tried anything else, so, I'd say there's a good chance." Jason poked around at his food a little, twisting the stem of the apple until it snapped off in his fingers.

"So, um... who was this mystery friend?" So I can slip some sort of laxative into his dinner and sprinkle lye in his sheets.

Jason tried to calm himself down. Still, the idea of anyone else stealing Caleb away from him was so painful, so horrible, he couldn't help but be distracted.

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	myownlifelived 2008-10-13 09:25 pm UTC (link)
	Halden is just waiting for me to mess this up. "Yeah I guess you're right." Caleb sighed, trying to remember if he introduced Nigel and Jason. He didn't think he had. "Nigel." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

jason_keller_jr
2008-10-13 09:29 pm UTC (link)

Jason made a mental note of the name. "Don't know him," he said as he re-assembled his sandwich. "So, um... you still love me best. That's what really matters. And if he's a real friend, he'll understand that."

Pushing down all of the ideas of nasty things he could do to this "Nigel" person, Jason scooted closer to Caleb and wrapped one arm around his waist. "Don't worry, love. I'll never leave you. Not for something like this. And yeah, it isn't your fault you're the most amazing person in the school." He leaned his head on Caleb's shoulder for a moment, then turned back to his dinner.

"Want to come over to my place after we eat? We could hang out for a while, watch a movie..." Make out so I can prove to you that I am more than enough to satisfy your every need.

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myownlifelived
2008-10-13 09:36 pm UTC (link)

"I hope so, I'd be sad if he didn't" Caleb sighed again.

"I do still love you most, and I'm happy you wouldn't leave me." And I'd never leave you for some reason he couldn't get himself to say the words. "And the most amazing person in the school is sitting right by me." Caleb remarked quickly.

"Nah, I've got an essay to get started on, but I want to spend sometime with you this weekend. Maybe we can stay in your dorm, watch a movie... end up naked under the covers..." Caleb said with a small quirk at the corner of his lips.

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	jason_keller_jr 2008-10-13 09:49 pm UTC (link)
	Jason smiled at Caleb's suggestion. "Alright then, it's a date. What do you say? Friday night? After school, I have to work on a project until about 5, but then we can meet, order pizza in, and..." His grin widened, and he could feel his ears getting red. "Naked is always nice." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	myownlifelived 2008-10-13 09:57 pm UTC (link)
	"The kind of nudity that involves lube..." Caleb arched a brow, hoping Jason was catching his extremely obvious drift. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

jason_keller_jr
2008-10-13 10:01 pm UTC (link)

Jason fumbled with and dropped his apple. It bounced off his thigh and rolled across the floor.

Of course, he understood what Caleb was getting at. Although he'd stopped hinting at it and asking for it a while ago, he was still desperate to have sex with Caleb. If there was anyone he trusted to share this first experience with, it was Caleb.

For a long moment, he just sat there, staring at his boyfriend. Finally, he broke the silence. "Really?" he whispered.

His heart was hammering inside his chest as if it was trying to get out. He could feel the blood rush to his head, his groin, his lips.

Damn, this was... everything he'd ever wanted. "Friday."

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	myownlifelived 2008-10-13 10:38 pm UTC (link)
	Caleb offered a meager smile What am I doing? "Friday" He said in a surprisngly sure voice. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jason_keller_jr 2008-10-13 10:41 pm UTC (link)
	All of a sudden, Jason wasn't hungry. His stomach was all fluttery with anticipation of finally consummating their relationship. "I'm done eating. Want to go for a walk?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	myownlifelived 2008-10-13 10:44 pm UTC (link)
	Caleb looked down at his half eaten pizza. He didn't think he could stomach another bite as well. "Sure." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

jason_keller_jr
2008-10-13 10:54 pm UTC (link)

After disposing of the remainders of their dinners, they went out into the campus. It was a nice night - getting cooler in the fall - with just a gentle breeze.

Jason slid one arm around Caleb's waist. "Remember when we were talking about Thanksgiving plans? That was, um, I think a week ago or so. Well, I talked to mom, and she... she thinks it's alright if it's okay with your mom. She's not gonna tell dad, though."

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	myownlifelived 2008-10-13 10:56 pm UTC (link)
	Caleb suddenly brightened "Seriously? Thats awesome! My mom said you could come, and that she'd pay for the ticket, she's arranging for Beck to pick us up at the airport" Caleb draped his arm over Jason's shoulder. "She's being all reformed now that she has Tad." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

jason_keller_jr
2008-10-13 10:59 pm UTC (link)

This was so much like a real family, Jason could hardly believe he was so lucky. And if they were having Thanksgiving together, maybe he could visit for Christmas, too. That way he wouldn't have to stay at school with...

No, he was going to stay here for Christmas. Thanksgiving, however...

He gave Caleb a squeeze. "That's great. I can't wait to see what it's like at your house. And I have that book to lend Grace. She said she was interested in reading my thesis, too. Um, the only thing is, erm, well, where am I going to sleep?"

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	myownlifelived 2008-10-13 11:06 pm UTC (link)
	Caleb rolled his eyes "With me of course." Caleb smiled as he nudged his boyfriend, "or if you don't want to, theres a futon in the common room of the attic, its kinda like the playroom for all of us, My and beck's rooms are right next to it, You can sleep on it." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

jason_keller_jr
2008-10-13 11:09 pm UTC (link)

"Don't even joke about that!" Jason leaned in closer and kissed Caleb's neck. "Of course I want to sleep with you. I always want to sleep with you."

As he said those words, the real meaning of them started to sink in. Always was quite a hefty promise, but he was fully confident that that's what this was.

"Your mom's okay with us being together then? And, um, she's okay with us sharing a bed?"

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	myownlifelived 2008-10-13 11:19 pm UTC (link)
	"As long as the sibs have no clue why, and by sibs I mean the lil ones, the older ones already know." Caleb smirked, "she says that as long as marriage is illegal for 'our kind' she can't reasonably ask us to wait for marriage so she will look the other way." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

jason_keller_jr
2008-10-14 07:23 am UTC (link)

"Um... the older ones know - how much? I mean, did you tell them about us - you know, like in the movie theater? They know we're sexually active with each other?"

Jason couldn't imagine what would happen if anyone in his family knew he had had another guy's cock in his mouth. Not that he minded at all. He actually loved it, and sucking Caleb off was pretty much what made him decide he was 100% officially gay.

However, to have family that knew, and still loved and supported you was so completely foreign to Jason. He slowed down his walking until they stopped together, then moved around to face Caleb. "So, she's treating me as... your partner? Like your wife or something?"

Jason had a gentle smile. He swallowed and then tilted his head up for another kiss. "I love you. I love your family. I've never had anything like this before, and it's just the most amazing and wonderful thing ever."

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myownlifelived
2008-10-14 09:23 am UTC (link)

"Well I didn't give any details, but they're teenagers. They're gunna assume that we went to some level of sexual activity." Caleb shrugged, conviently forgetting to mention he had given Beck details.

Lots and lots of details.

"If you were my wife then you'd be female, and I think its pretty obvious that I don't go for girls." Caleb said nudging Jason with his elbow, "more like we're in a committed sexual relationship that teens are apt to have."

Caleb quickly gave Jason the kiss he silently asked for. "Yeah, my family is pretty awesome. And you deserve a little fun around the bestest holiday ever."

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jason_keller_jr
2008-10-14 09:27 am UTC (link)

There was that whole "deserve" thing again. Jason desperately wanted to deserve this kind of happiness, but he always felt guilty for some reason.

"You think it's the best holiday?" he asked,smiling. "Well, I'll have to see. It's always been miserable to me. I think if we're together, though, it will be the best one I've ever been through."

Jason took Caleb's hand and started walking again. They headed out along the path that ran along the outside of the dorms. "I've got some homework to finish tonight, too. And I work tomorrow and Wednesday afternoons. Want to come by work and keep me company? Wednesday I close, so I'll be there from 5-10."

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myownlifelived
2008-10-14 09:41 am UTC (link)

"Thanksgiving is the king of all holidays, and it's gunna be extra awesome this year cus you'll be there with me!" Caleb said, smile splitting his face wide.

They were getting close to his dorm now which made Caleb frown, "I can swing by before work on wednesday, and you can share some nachos with me til 10:30 at my work? I continue to be ticket tearer, until I get my cast off tommorow."

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	jason_keller_jr 2008-10-14 08:31 pm UTC (link)
	"Mmm, okay," Jason said, leaning against Caleb. "I'll walk over to the theater after work. It's only a few blocks away." He brought Caleb's hand up to his mouth and kissed it. "So, want to do something special to celebrate your cast removal?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	myownlifelived 2008-10-15 09:08 pm UTC (link)
	Caleb smirked "I thought we were gunna do that friday." He glared at the cast, "I so cannot wait to itch my wrist." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jason_keller_jr 2008-10-15 09:31 pm UTC (link)
	"I... um, I meant something else," Jason stammered. He was a little disappointed that he seemed to be focused on the sex. "I...sorry." He looked down at the cast. It really had been in the way and he knew Caleb hated it. "Yeah, not to mention washing your arm without having to just sponge it off." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	myownlifelived 2008-10-15 10:20 pm UTC (link)
	Caleb smiled, "I know you did, if you want to come up with something then sure, but I can't think of anything." "Ah yes, I think that will be a great benefit of getting it off." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jason_keller_jr 2008-10-16 06:20 am UTC (link)
	"Okay. Well, I have to work tomorrow night, so how 'bout we meet thursday night out here by the dorms? I've got an idea, I just have to talk to Mr. Dixon first." Jason smiled gently. He leaned up and kissed Caleb. "I should go, or we'll be standing out here all night like a couple of idiots. See you tomorrow at lunch? No more avoiding me?" (Reply to this) (Parent)