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{life on mars} the problem with dreaming
Title: The Problem With Dreaming
Author: aaronlisa
Fandom: Life on Mars
Pairing/Characters: Sam Tyler, Annie Cartwright
Rating: FR13
Disclaimer: Life on Mars belongs to Matthew Graham, Tony Jordan, Ashley Pharoah and the BBC.
Prompts: Written for tv_100 for the prompt of touch.
Notes: When I wrote this I’d only seen up to episode 2x03.
Summary: If it's all a dream, then what does it mean for the people he dreams of?
Word Count: 293


The idea that this (1973) is all the insane dream of a feverish mind leaves him lying awake some nights unable to sleep. And that alone seems somewhat ironic since he dreams when he sleeps in 1973, even though he must be asleep in 2006 or in a coma to be dreaming this mad dream. However it’s not that thought that keeps him awake.

There’s very little that he cares about in 1973 but it’s hard to deny what he’s starting to feel for Annie. He can touch her and when he does, she feels so real to him, more real than anything else about this nightmare. And even while he’s desperately clinging to the hope that this is all a dream, he finds himself falling more and more for her with every look and touch that they share.

And Sam can’t help but think about how egotistical that is. Annie is either very real and he’s like Alice who fell down the rabbit hole or he’s falling head over heals for a figment of his imagination. Everything else seems too barbaric but Annie and Sam doesn’t want her to be anything but very much real. It goes beyond her skeptical belief in him and his wild story; it’s the fact that she trusts him, even when he’s doing his very best to invalidate her existence.

In the end despite his desperate need to get home, Sam tries not to think what it’ll mean for Annie (and sometimes the others) if it turns out that his time in 1973 has merely been a dream caused by an accident that has put him in a coma. He doesn’t want to think about how he made her (and the others and everything else) all up.

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