InsaneJournal

Dear Seamus,

I have started and restarted this so many times - you have no idea. I've never written a love letter before, mostly because it's easier for me to just walk down to your office and let you know that I love you so it seemed a bit silly to do, but my nineteen-year-old self seems to have thought it was a good idea. Not to mention it is incredibly intimidating to write something for a writer. Are you critiquing this right now? I bet you are, aren't you.

Kidding.

Now, I'm going to take a deep breath and push all of my frustrations and self esteem issues away. It's so easy to do that, though, because when it comes down to it I am writing this letter about how much I love you and loving you comes as easy to me as breathing does. It's sort of baffling, really. There are a lot of things that I'm good at (modesty being one of them) but I needed a certain amount of training and work in order to get to the point where I was actually really and truly good at them. But you just showed up out of nowhere and it was as though someone just turned a light on. Well, it turned on after I talked to you a bit, naturally, but since this is a love letter being specific sort of ruins the mood.

I'm not very good at this, am I?

Anyway, darling, I love you. You are my first thought in the morning and the last thought at the end of the day. You have become my entire reason for being and the most important person to have entered my life. I can't imagine what I would do without you and I don't even want to think about it. You are my other half, my soulmate (although the term is silly), and frankly I would be lost without you. You are the reason I made it through training, both emotionally and financially and I owe you so much for that. I am so proud of everything you have accomplished yourself. We're a great team.

In face, we've just plain been through a lot together, haven't we? We're approaching on five years together, over one of those as man and wife. I think we have a lot more to look forward to and I absolutely can't wait to see what's in store for us.

I love you.

Lisa