Blue Memories

Title: The Dream In Me
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Hermione/Lucius
Rating: (light) NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: **
Canon-compliance: mostly up to DH - Voldemort-doesn't-die-AU
Word Count: 4,686
Summary: Even in the most persistent immovability, nothing is fully motionless.

Notes: Written for curia_regis in the dearsanta exchange. So much fun was had with this! Many many thanks go to significantowl for pinching in to beta. Also, despite having modded a gazillion things, this particular fest showed how much I occasionally fail at festing and/or life in general. *headdesk* Inspired by Seether's "Fine Again".

For 100quills: #15 weary; challenge_the: #024 exhaustion; lions_serpents: #27 grey.


( The Dream In Me )

Title: Brightest Flames
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Remus/Severus
Rating: R
Highlight for Warnings: *mental illness, questionable consent/abuse, they-didn't-die-AU*
Canon-compliance: meant to be (mostly) Deathly Hallows-compliant
Word Count: 2,738
Summary: Years after the war Severus is found wandering the woods, his mental faculties shaken. Remus takes him in.

Notes: This started out as something I wanted to write for a prompt snapelike gave me in early June: "Oh," Neville said, "You cannot possibly be serious?" Well, the prompt technically is fulfilled with this, but I don't know if she likes this kind of fic, so... I don't know if I can say this is written for her, heh. Inspired by HIM's "One Last Time". Many, many thanks go to the Quill Sinister guys and to zebraspots05 for beta services and much nit-picking especially on the original version.

For challenge_the: #006 secure; lions_serpents: #37 gentle.


( Brightest Flames )

Title: One-Sided Conversations
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Charlie/Severus
Rating: PG
Highlight for Warnings: **
Canon-compliance: Goblet of Fire
Word Count: 425

Notes: For zebraspots05, who asked for Charlie/Severus and "Firewhisky" at this drabble offer. Unbeta'd.

For 10_whores: #04 calligraphy; lions_serpents: #06 fire; challenge_the: #028 passion.

( One-Sided Conversations )

Title: Lightning Strike
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Remus/Severus
Rating: PG-13
Highlight for Warnings: **
Canon-compliance: none specifically, though set post Prisoner of Azkaban
Word Count: 254

Notes: For red_day_dawning, who asked for Remus/Severus and "lightning strike" at this drabble offer. Unbeta'd.

For challenge_the: #140 love; lions_serpents: #21 time.

( Lightning Strike )

Title: Palliated
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Remus/Severus
Rating: very light R
Highlight for Warnings: *AU, established relationship, also: schmoop that still remains on the angsty side*
Canon-compliance: up to (some of) Deathly Hallows
Word Count: 1,778
Summary: Severus Snape was pacing the small room from one wall to the other, the restlessness he was feeling inside growing with each passing second. A lovers' reunion during DH, and maybe a little further than that.

Notes: Many heartfelt thanks to snapelike for the quick beta job! Written for red_day_dawning at red_day_love. Originally posted here.

For lions_serpents: #15 comfort; challenge_the: #048 hidden; 100quills: #36 tense.


( Palliated )

Title: Inebriation
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Lily/Sirius (main), Regulus/Sirius
Rating: NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: *first time, adultery, incest, shower!sex, wall!sex, UST, biting, underage, pregnancy*
Canon-compliance: none explicitly
Word Count: 4,290
Summary: Lily would hesitate to call Sirius Black her first love. She would call him her first, most magnificent fuck, maybe, or her first experimentation, but if it came down to it she would deny any sort of emotional attachment.

Notes: Written for opheliet as a pinch-hit for the hp_rarities exchange. Inspired by Three Days Grace's "Wake Up". Many thanks to deemichelle for the fabulous (and quick!) beta. Originally posted here.

For 7musicalmusesv2's song prompt (see A/N); challenge_the: #004 lies; potterverse100: #17 ancestry; lions_serpents: #12 touch.

( Inebriation )

Title: Morning After
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Severus/Sirius
Rating: PG-13
Highlight for Warnings: *Sirius-didn't-die-AU*
Canon-compliance: ...up to Goblet of Fire
Word Count: 1,705
Summary: Five scenarios of a Morning After. The one thing they have in common: Sirius wakes up to Severus' elbow between two ribs, which is less than ideal.

Notes: Random plotbunny demanding to be written in between university applications. Meant as something fun to alleviate the stress and tension. Many thanks to zebraspots05 for the beta; any remaining mistakes are my own.

For 12_fics: #12 fling; potterverse100: #038 sleep; challenge_the: #033 messy; lions_serpents: #38 real.

( Morning After )

Title: Enslaved
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing/Characters: Remus/Severus, Harry
Rating: PG-13
Highlight for Warnings: *canon character deaths, zombies, obscure magic, general weirdness*
Canon-compliance: up to Deathly Hallows
Word Count: 1,168
Summary: What is dead should stay dead.

Notes: This possibly takes the cake of all the odd fics I've written yet. In answer to lupin_snape's May Challenge: the Dark Side of Lupin/Snape, though I'm not using the prompt I was given. Inspired by HIM's "Resurrection"; I've been meaning to write this fic since maybe '05, though I didn't anticipate it would be quite like this. Beta'd by the lovely zebraspots05, who made this hopefully readable. (Are you scared yet of reading? :P)

For challenge_the: #049 power; lions_serpents: #41 author's choice (death).

( Enslaved )

Title: Addicted to Circumstance
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Bellatrix/Remus
Rating: NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: *heavy dub-con bordering on non-con, violence/torture, breathplay, bondage, dominance play, mindfuck, biting, some adultery on the side*
Canon-compliance: up to Deathly Hallows
Word Count: 3,918
Summary: Bella captures the wolf easily enough.

Notes: Written for krystal_moon in the remus_reads exchange. Originally posted here. With many thanks to zebraspots05 for the beta. Inspiration came from Dido's "Who Makes You Feel".

For challenge_the: #050 animal; lions_serpents: #34 limit; 100quills: #17 overturn.

( Addicted to Circumstance )

Title: At Dawn (The Twilight Prevails)
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Hermione/Severus, cameos by a couple OCs
Rating: NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: *blindness, amnesia, magical bonds, oral sex*
Canon-compliance: up to Deathly Hallows
Word Count: 7,574
Summary: To be quite honest, Severus can't figure Granger out. She's nothing like he remembered; the shrillness of youth gone, with no indication she ever knew him. What's her purpose in being here, he asks himself. What is she after?

Notes: Written for odogoddess in the 2008 wizard_love exchange. Originally posted here. The plotbunny was one that had been ghosting around in my head since HBP came out, and I was very happy to see that I could write this thing - with many post-DH adjustments - for the prompt I was given. Many thanks as always to the fabulous zebraspots05 for the fantastic (and quick!) beta. Inspiration came from Kristen Barry's "Ordinary Life".

For challenge_the: #007 purpose; lions_serpents: #31 nothing; 10_whores: #09 without a name; 100quills: #49 yesterday.

( At Dawn (The Twilight Prevails) )

Title: Unconquered
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Severus/Sirius
Rating: NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: *hate!sex/fight!sex, floor!sex*
Canon-compliance: none explicitly
Word Count: 3,280
Summary: Is there a need for this? Very well: Padfoot waits for prey. The resulting fight gets out of hand.

Notes: This fic goes back a looong time and I rediscovered it upon cleaning my harddrive. Many many thanks go to ur_a_funny_1 for the beta, and I think zebraspots05 touched this too, a year ago. Heh.

For 10_whores: #05 a midsummer night; 12_fics: #04 weapons; potterverse100: #95 face; lions_serpents: #28 harsh; challenge_the: #176 savage.

( Unconquered )

Title: A Thousand Years Spent Sleeping
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Harry/Severus; cameos by Hermione and Kingsley
Rating: R
Highlight for Warnings: *canon character death, ghost!Severus, magical bonds, plot, a handjob*
Canon-compliance: up to Deathly Hallows, but EWE
Word Count: 8,188
Summary: A month after the war sees Harry feeling his way through the world. He feels thin, stretched, as if he isn't meant to be like this.

Notes: This is a snarry_swap pinch-hit for regasssa. She asked for angst and anything that wasn't on her squicks list; this is the result. Writing this was confusing and quite an experience :) Inspired by "Bring Me to Life" by Evanescence. Originally posted here. With many thanks to the amazing zebraspots05 for the beta. Any and all remaining mistakes are my own.

For 10_whores: #03 freedom, 50scenes: #28 drowning, challenge_the: #026 dream, lions_serpents: #05 all.

( A Thousand Years Spent Sleeping )

Title: Life Amidst Death
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Remus/Severus
Rating: R
Highlight for Warnings: *character death (not Remus or Severus), hurt/comfort, AU from what JKR intended*
Canon-compliance: up to Deathly Hallows
Word Count: 7,484

Summary: Remus was only now getting to the point where he saw that he needed to stop what he'd been doing all his life. He was done running.

Notes: Written for mostepotente for snupin_santa 2007. Originally posted here. Beta'd by the ever-amazing zebraspots05; all remaining mistakes are my own. Inspired by "The Gift" by Seether.

For 50scenes: #29 vital signs; challenge_the: #090 coping; lions_serpents: #33 blind.

( Life Amidst Death )

Title: For a Little While Longer
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Hermione/Theodore
Rating: G
Highlight for Warnings: *character death (not Hermione or Theo)*
Canon-compliance: up to Deathy Hallows (including epilogue)
Word Count: 703
Summary: "It snowed," Hermione says, voice devoid of all emotion and talking to the window.

Notes: Dezemberträume fic for freetheelves2, who asked for Theo/Hermione, snow and mistletoe as a second option. I really wanted to write you Sylar/Claire, but it seems my muse really really did not want this *glares at her*, so you get this tame little something instead. I hope you like it at least a little nonetheless! Beta'd by the amazing ur_a_funny_1 - all remaining mistakes are my own.

For 100quills: #11 sorrow; lions_serpents: #17 safe; challenge_the: #009 past.

( For a Little While Longer )

Title: Time to Steal Away
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Remus/Severus/Sirius, Severus/Sirius
Rating: hard R
Highlight for Warnings: *threesome, some roughness*
Canon-compliance: none explicitly
Word Count: 2,018
Summary: Sirius is moody, but he's not someone to keep quiet for long. His feelings change so quickly that one moment he might be sulking in a corner and the next he's laughing his ass off because of a stupid joke someone's been cracking. So when he's been quiet for three whole days, not even in on attacking Snape with James and Peter, Remus starts to worry.

Notes: Dezemberträume fic for lore, who said: If you go for smut, their first time doing something sexually, but not their first time together, and someone should have super-sensitive nipples. My muse asked: "Someone said first time together? Well then! Let's get crackin'!" Apparently her ears aren't that good anymore >.> Also, I think the nipples kinda fell under the table. I hope you like it anyway, lore! Inspired by "Road Trippin'" by the Red Hot Chilli Peppers. Beta'd by the amazing ur_a_funny_1 - any remaining mistakes are my own.

For 12_fics: #10 overdose; challenge_the: #181 confusion; lions_serpents: #19 rivalry; potterverse100: #53 hunting.

( Time to Steal Away )

Title: Moments in Time
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Lily/Severus
Rating: NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: *first time, sexually active teenagers (under-age), awkwardness*
Canon-compliance: none explicitly
Word Count: 1,918
Summary: If that's a little death, he doesn't want to know what the real thing feels like.

Notes: Dezemberträume fic for coerciveconsent, who asked for Lily/Severus, chan (both young), awkward first time. I hope this fits the bill! Inspired by "Burnt Like You" by Skin. Beta'd by the amazing zebraspots05 - all remaining mistakes are my own.

For 10_whores: #10 paranoia; lions_serpents: #13 soul; challenge_the: #005 fall.

( Moments in Time )

Title: Leading and Following
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Remus/Severus
Rating: soft R
Highlight for Warnings: *angry!Severus, bondage*
Canon-compliance: set during Prisoner of Azkaban
Word Count: 1,015
Summary: Severus leads and Remus follows.

Notes: Dezemberträume fic for my dearest zebraspots05, who asked for Snupin with bondage, but no bloodplay. You do not want to know how much I almost wrote non-con, but I knew you wouldn't enjoy that, so this is what you get :) I hope you like! Beta'd by the amazing ur_a_funny_1 - all remaining weirdnesses are my own.

For challenge_the: #055 follower; lions_serpents: #36 split; 50scenes: #22 unforgiven.

( Leading and Following )

Title: There Is Always Consolation
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing/Characters: Remus/Severus, Sirius
Rating: G
Highlight for Warnings: canon-compliant up to OotP, *canon character death*
Word Count: 881
Summary: Time soothes all sorrows, they say, and There is always consolation.

Notes: To S. Farewell, little one. You are my laughing friend living in one of the stars. To P., P. and G. - I will never forget. Cursive text at the beginning taken from The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, p. 104 (I think?), with many thanks to dizilla for the English translation of it. Many thanks to zebraspots05 for the beta.

For 10_whores: #02 look to the sky, lions_serpents: #24 window, challenge_the: #034 memory

( There Is Always Consolation )

Title: Such Is the Depth
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Harry/Lucius
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: BDSM, bloodplay/knifeplay, breathplay, background character death, dark
Word Count: 5,945
Summary: Post-war, Harry feels misplaced and sick of the role he plays. He turns to an unlikely person to hold his darkness at bay.

Notes: Written as a pinch hit for nicholsa as part of harry_holidays. Originally posted here and here, December 12, 2006. A huge thank you goes to both lire_casander and chaotic_vanity for the beta. The lyrics at the beginning are from the song "Begging" by Vito, a local band here from Berlin (Germany).

For lions_serpents: #01 ice; 50scenes: #16 salt; 15pairings: #04 pain is pleasure.

( Such Is the Depth )

Title: Downward Spiral
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Lily/Severus, background James/Lily, implied James/Sirius
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: adultery
Word Count: 2,247
Summary: She’s long since ceased trying to deny her inner urge to go to Snape when she really needs it. He's the only one who can help her.

Notes: Written for nautipirate in the wizard_love exchange. Originally posted here and here, February 9, 2007. Inspired by the song "You Don't See Me" by Poolstar*, a local band from Berlin, Germany. Lyrics at the beginning. And a huuuge thank you goes to zebraspots05 for the quick beta.

For 50scenes: #09 spiral, lions_serpents: #09 lies, and 15pairings: #11 inconsequential/unconsensual.

( Downward Spiral )