Blue Memories

Title: Obey
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Lucius/Regulus
Rating: R
Highlight for Warnings: *canon character death, underage*
Canon-compliance: up to Deathly Hallows
Word Count: 1,535
Summary: No apology could have saved Regulus from his fate. Still, Lucius feels like he should be the one apologising.

Notes: Written for the first wave of the luciusfqf, prompt: "Lucius tutors new recruit Regulus Black in Death Eaters 101." The plotbunny ran in a slightly different direction but, I hope, still remains true to the prompt. With many thanks to the ever-amazing zebraspots05 for her beta-work; I'd be lost without her. Any remaining mistakes are my own. A couple more notes can be found at the end.

For 50scenes: #06 violence, challenge_the: #133 end.

( Obey )

Title: A Thousand Years Spent Sleeping
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Harry/Severus; cameos by Hermione and Kingsley
Rating: R
Highlight for Warnings: *canon character death, ghost!Severus, magical bonds, plot, a handjob*
Canon-compliance: up to Deathly Hallows, but EWE
Word Count: 8,188
Summary: A month after the war sees Harry feeling his way through the world. He feels thin, stretched, as if he isn't meant to be like this.

Notes: This is a snarry_swap pinch-hit for regasssa. She asked for angst and anything that wasn't on her squicks list; this is the result. Writing this was confusing and quite an experience :) Inspired by "Bring Me to Life" by Evanescence. Originally posted here. With many thanks to the amazing zebraspots05 for the beta. Any and all remaining mistakes are my own.

For 10_whores: #03 freedom, 50scenes: #28 drowning, challenge_the: #026 dream, lions_serpents: #05 all.

( A Thousand Years Spent Sleeping )

Title: Life Amidst Death
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Remus/Severus
Rating: R
Highlight for Warnings: *character death (not Remus or Severus), hurt/comfort, AU from what JKR intended*
Canon-compliance: up to Deathly Hallows
Word Count: 7,484

Summary: Remus was only now getting to the point where he saw that he needed to stop what he'd been doing all his life. He was done running.

Notes: Written for mostepotente for snupin_santa 2007. Originally posted here. Beta'd by the ever-amazing zebraspots05; all remaining mistakes are my own. Inspired by "The Gift" by Seether.

For 50scenes: #29 vital signs; challenge_the: #090 coping; lions_serpents: #33 blind.

( Life Amidst Death )

Title: Quiet
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Hermione/Remus (background Remus/Sirius, implied Remus/Tonks)
Rating: NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: *AU, first time, teacher/student, canon character death, some werewolf clichés*
Canon-compliance: Written pre-DH, so up to Half-Blood Prince
Word Count: 4,900
Summary: The air of the castle is fresher than the air in your dense rooms, almost howling into your ear in what you imagine might be the sound of your own voice during the full moon. But this sound doesn't frighten you anymore. It's rather soothing, actually. It marks who and what you are, takes away all the falsehood you've lived with for more than half of your lifetime.

Notes: Written ages ago for my dear freetheelves2, but I only got a chance to give this the final polish recently. I'm very sorry about the huge delay, honey! Beta'd by the amazing zebraspots05 - any remaining mistakes are my own.

For 100quills: #20 talk; 50scenes: #05 redeemer; challenge_the: #105 night.

( Quiet )

Title: Leading and Following
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Remus/Severus
Rating: soft R
Highlight for Warnings: *angry!Severus, bondage*
Canon-compliance: set during Prisoner of Azkaban
Word Count: 1,015
Summary: Severus leads and Remus follows.

Notes: Dezemberträume fic for my dearest zebraspots05, who asked for Snupin with bondage, but no bloodplay. You do not want to know how much I almost wrote non-con, but I knew you wouldn't enjoy that, so this is what you get :) I hope you like! Beta'd by the amazing ur_a_funny_1 - all remaining weirdnesses are my own.

For challenge_the: #055 follower; lions_serpents: #36 split; 50scenes: #22 unforgiven.

( Leading and Following )

Title: Reasons
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Pansy/Theodore, unrequited Draco/Pansy
Rating: hard R
Highlight for Warnings: **
Canon-compliance: up to OotP
Word Count: 608
Summary: "Why Draco?" Theo asks.

Notes: Like last year shiny_crystal gets something from me for finishing NaNo. She asked for Pansy/Theo, something to do with Draco. I hope this suits you! :D Unbeta'd, so beware, non-native writings ahead.

For 50scenes: #25 unaffected, challenge_the: #003 truth

( Reasons )

Title: Contrasts
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Narcissa/Severus, not-quite background Lily/Severus
Rating: NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: *adultery, fantasising during sex, pretense, bathroom!sex*
Canon-compliance: up to Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
Word Count: 2,276
Summary: Severus wasn't what Lily wanted while Lily was everything Severus wanted, and Narcissa wasn't what Severus wanted but she was all he seemed to be allowed to have.

Notes: For the September/October pairing challenge at snape_rarepairs. This fic, for all that it's quite short, was a bitch to write, and it's only thanks to zebraspots05 that it has turned out somewhat readable at all - even though belated. As always, my eternal gratitude goes to her for beta'ing!

Inspired by Robert Frost's "Ice and Fire", as quoted below.

For 10_whores: #01 navigation, 50scenes: #08 temptation, challenge_the: #115 lust

( Contrasts )

Title: Price
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Characters: Harry, Hermione, Ron
Rating: G
Highlight for Warnings: *alcohol*
Canon-compliance: Not explicit; set post-Hogwarts.
Word Count: 754
Summary: Having two boys as best friends can be quite costly.

Notes: For my dearest zebraspots05. One year ago I posted the first fic I'd worked on together with her, and I really feel she's been pushing me to a higher level with my writing ever since. Thank you so much for putting up with me, my random shitty drafts and my incessant rambling! And also, get better! *hugs* and ♥ I hope you like this at least a tiny bit - you once mentioned Trio was your OT3, and while we don't have a threesome here you will hopefully figure out what inspired this :D Also, unbeta'd, because this was written in the spur of a moment.

For 100quills: #50 influence, 50scenes: #55 caution (for #42 trickster), challenge_the: #083 comedy.

( Price )

Title: While It Lasts
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Draco/Theodore
Rating: PG (perhaps PG-13)
Highlight for Warnings: none
Canon-compliance: pretend it's somewhat DH-ish
Word Count: 895
Summary: They happened to end up this way often lately.

Notes: For shiny_crystal - happy birthday!!! *squishes* This is my small birthday present for you :) I hope you like it, and that in the end I didn't fuck up the Draco characterisation too much. Many thanks, as always, to zebraspots05 for the beta and help and encouragement.

For 50scenes: #18 embrace, challenge_the: #029 intense.

( While It Lasts )

Title: Shadows in Light and Dark
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Characters: Narcissa, Andromeda, Bellatrix, Lucius, Harry, Voldemort, Draco
Rating: R
Highlight for Warnings: *ungraphic sexual activities, including adultery, threesomes and rough sex, featuring Totally Obvious Canon Pairings.*
Canon-compliance: up to Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
Word Count: 3,013
Summary: In times of war everyone has to choose sides. In the aftermath it might not be the one you would have seen yourself leaning to previously, but the intuitive decision of the moment, drawn from a mix of hope and desperation, often has a way of being the ultimately right one.

Notes: Written for the femgenficathon 2007 - the post in the community can be found here. My prompt: #15 You can no more win a war than you can win an earthquake. -- Jeannette Rankin. Many thanks and much love to zebraspots05 for listening to my gradual panicking and putting up with all the crappy drafts I threw at her. And, naturally, for her amazing beta job. There is some dialogue you will recognise, which is taken from Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, pp. 563-564 and 580-581 British hardcover edition, thusly totally not written by me.

For 50scenes: #23 meditate, challenge_the: #168 change

( Shadows in Light and Dark )

Title: Looking, Seeking, Finding
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Characters: Padma, Parvati
Rating: G
Highlight for Warnings: **
Word Count: 339
Summary: Their eyes are huge in their small faces as they enter the Great Hall for the first time.

Notes: Written for twilightsorcery, who prompted me with the Patil twins' Sorting. Unbeta'd. Originally posted here, September 7, 2007.

For 50scenes: #51 glitter, challenge_the: #65 comfort

( Looking, Seeking, Finding )

siriusisnotdead posted its masterlist today...

Title: Glaciers Melting in the Dead of Night
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Character: Sirius
Rating: PG
Highlight for Warnings: * descent into madness *
Word Count: 1,042
Summary: He hates Grimmauld Place, has always hated it since his youth spent in this goddamned house.

Notes: Written for the siriusisnotdead exchange, gifted to the community due to communication problems. Many thanks to zebraspots05 for the beta. The title is a line from "Supermassive Black Hole" by Muse. Originally posted here, August 3, 2007.

For 50scenes: #26 trauma, challenge_the: #138 destruction, potterverse100: #89 drink

( Glaciers Melting in the Dead of Night )

Title: Such Is the Depth
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Harry/Lucius
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: BDSM, bloodplay/knifeplay, breathplay, background character death, dark
Word Count: 5,945
Summary: Post-war, Harry feels misplaced and sick of the role he plays. He turns to an unlikely person to hold his darkness at bay.

Notes: Written as a pinch hit for nicholsa as part of harry_holidays. Originally posted here and here, December 12, 2006. A huge thank you goes to both lire_casander and chaotic_vanity for the beta. The lyrics at the beginning are from the song "Begging" by Vito, a local band here from Berlin (Germany).

For lions_serpents: #01 ice; 50scenes: #16 salt; 15pairings: #04 pain is pleasure.

( Such Is the Depth )

Title: Downward Spiral
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Lily/Severus, background James/Lily, implied James/Sirius
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: adultery
Word Count: 2,247
Summary: She’s long since ceased trying to deny her inner urge to go to Snape when she really needs it. He's the only one who can help her.

Notes: Written for nautipirate in the wizard_love exchange. Originally posted here and here, February 9, 2007. Inspired by the song "You Don't See Me" by Poolstar*, a local band from Berlin, Germany. Lyrics at the beginning. And a huuuge thank you goes to zebraspots05 for the quick beta.

For 50scenes: #09 spiral, lions_serpents: #09 lies, and 15pairings: #11 inconsequential/unconsensual.

( Downward Spiral )

Title: An einem Sonntag im August
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Bill/Hermione
Rating: NC-17
Warning: semi-public sex, wall!sex, off-screen character death
Word Count: 4,405
Summary: Hermione worries about why Bill doesn't call her. When she finally meets him, things set into action...

Notes: Written for silvernatasha as a pinch hit for the sexy_brilliance exchange, beta'd by the amazing chaotic_vanity. The plot is inspired by the song "White Flag" by Dido. The title means "On a Sunday in August" and is German; also the name of a bar in Kastanienalle, Berlin Prenzlauer Berg, Germany, where I can be often found since it's just around the corner from where I live. "Jägermeister" is hard liquor that tastes really good ;) Originally posted here and here, October 26, 2006.

For 100quills: #44 virtue, 50scenes: #34 encounter

( An einem Sonntag im August )

Title: From May to December
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Hermione/Severus
Rating: PG-13
Warning: none
Word Count: 1,861
Summary: This is a journey through the major part of a year of Hermione's life.

Notes: This was written for hpfic_contest, for the challenge May-December Romances, and won first place. Originally posted here and here, October 4, 2006. Thanks a lot to chaotic_vanity for the very quick beta!

For 100quills: #01 patience, 50scenes: #48 December.

( From May to December )

Title: Spies Should Get Their Reward, Too
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Blaise, Hermione/Regulus
Rating: NC-17
Warning: voyeurism, background slash (Blaise/Draco), light bondage
Word Count: 2,382
Summary: Blaise hesitated for another second, preparing himself to return to the celebration, when he heard something that put his uneasiness aside and demanded all his attention. A moan.

Notes: A huge thank you goes to chanond for beta'ing this last-minute. Written for riddles_novice as a pinch hit for the sexy_brilliance exchange. Originally posted here, October 9, 2006.

For 100quills: #22 lost, lions_serpents: #23 shock, 50scenes: #30 writer's choice (watch)

( Spies Should Get Their Reward, Too )

Title: Enigma
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Hermione/Sirius
Rating: R
Warnings: wanking, voyeurism
Word Count: 2,179
Summary: Sirius is an enigma worth uncovering.

Notes: Written as a pinch hit for scifichick774 in sexy_brilliance. Many thanks to chaotic_vanity for the beta. Originally posted here, October 29, 2006.

For 100quills: #03 unexpected, potterverse100: #79 obsession, 50scenes: #39 facade

( Enigma )

Title: The Right Thing
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Hermione/Ron
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: none besides the obvious
Word Count: 2,244
Summary: Upon her wedding, Hermione contemplates her decision to marry Ron.

Notes: Written as a pinch hit for oops_pig in sexy_brilliance. Thank you to chaotic_vanity. Originally posted here, October 24, 2006.

For 50scenes: #43 entwined, 15pairings: #8 what lies within, 100quills: #13 faith

( The Right Thing )

Title: Love and War
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Remus/Severus
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: bondage, a little power play, blowjob
Word Count: 537
Summary: All was fair in love and war, as the saying went. Except Lupin didn't quite share this opinion.

Notes: A huge thanks goes to zebraspots05 for the beta :) Any remaining mistakes are the result of my tinkering with the fic since I got it back. Originally posted here, April 3, 2007.

For 50scenes: #36 ideal; lions_serpents: #30 win.

( Love and War )