Blue Memories

Title: The Dream In Me
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Hermione/Lucius
Rating: (light) NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: **
Canon-compliance: mostly up to DH - Voldemort-doesn't-die-AU
Word Count: 4,686
Summary: Even in the most persistent immovability, nothing is fully motionless.

Notes: Written for curia_regis in the dearsanta exchange. So much fun was had with this! Many many thanks go to significantowl for pinching in to beta. Also, despite having modded a gazillion things, this particular fest showed how much I occasionally fail at festing and/or life in general. *headdesk* Inspired by Seether's "Fine Again".

For 100quills: #15 weary; challenge_the: #024 exhaustion; lions_serpents: #27 grey.


( The Dream In Me )

Title: Stuck Under the Surface
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Characters/Pairings: Regulus, Sirius (side-dishes of Remus/Sirius and Regulus/Severus)
Rating: PG-13
Highlight for Warnings: **
Canon-compliance: takes Deathly Hallows into account
Word Count: 2,206
Summary: Sirius doesn't care one bit about his familial duties. Regulus admires him for it, can't help to want the same for himself, sometimes, when the family pressure weighs him down. But in all their differences, they are still the same.

Notes: This was a pinch-hit for halcyon for the hp_toujours exchange. Originally posted here. Beta'd by the lovely eeyore9990; rosivan helped me with pointers while I was developing an idea. Inspired by Coldplay's "Square One".

For potterverse100: #60 Voldemort; challenge_the: #032 almost; 100quills: #26 miscommunication.


( Stuck Under the Surface )

Title: Going Forward (Moving Backwards)
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Bellatrix/Narcissa
Rating: NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: *incest, chan/underage from 11 years old on, dub-con, powerplay, oral sex, adultery*
Canon-compliance: explicitly up to Half-Blood Prince
Word Count: 1,985
Summary: Sex in the Black family isn't about love. Sex is about power. It's as simple as that.

Notes: Written for creepingviolet as part of the hpdesmutathon exchange. This is my first femmeslash fic - it was a lot of fun letting these two characters play. Inspired by Three Days Grace's "Born Like This". Beta by the generous zebraspots05. Originally posted here.

For challenge_the: #063 games; 100quills: #12 choices.


( Going Forward (Moving Backwards) )

Title: Inebriation
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Lily/Sirius (main), Regulus/Sirius
Rating: NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: *first time, adultery, incest, shower!sex, wall!sex, UST, biting, underage, pregnancy*
Canon-compliance: none explicitly
Word Count: 4,290
Summary: Lily would hesitate to call Sirius Black her first love. She would call him her first, most magnificent fuck, maybe, or her first experimentation, but if it came down to it she would deny any sort of emotional attachment.

Notes: Written for opheliet as a pinch-hit for the hp_rarities exchange. Inspired by Three Days Grace's "Wake Up". Many thanks to deemichelle for the fabulous (and quick!) beta. Originally posted here.

For 7musicalmusesv2's song prompt (see A/N); challenge_the: #004 lies; potterverse100: #17 ancestry; lions_serpents: #12 touch.

( Inebriation )

Title: Addicted to Circumstance
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Bellatrix/Remus
Rating: NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: *heavy dub-con bordering on non-con, violence/torture, breathplay, bondage, dominance play, mindfuck, biting, some adultery on the side*
Canon-compliance: up to Deathly Hallows
Word Count: 3,918
Summary: Bella captures the wolf easily enough.

Notes: Written for krystal_moon in the remus_reads exchange. Originally posted here. With many thanks to zebraspots05 for the beta. Inspiration came from Dido's "Who Makes You Feel".

For challenge_the: #050 animal; lions_serpents: #34 limit; 100quills: #17 overturn.

( Addicted to Circumstance )

Title: At Dawn (The Twilight Prevails)
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Hermione/Severus, cameos by a couple OCs
Rating: NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: *blindness, amnesia, magical bonds, oral sex*
Canon-compliance: up to Deathly Hallows
Word Count: 7,574
Summary: To be quite honest, Severus can't figure Granger out. She's nothing like he remembered; the shrillness of youth gone, with no indication she ever knew him. What's her purpose in being here, he asks himself. What is she after?

Notes: Written for odogoddess in the 2008 wizard_love exchange. Originally posted here. The plotbunny was one that had been ghosting around in my head since HBP came out, and I was very happy to see that I could write this thing - with many post-DH adjustments - for the prompt I was given. Many thanks as always to the fabulous zebraspots05 for the fantastic (and quick!) beta. Inspiration came from Kristen Barry's "Ordinary Life".

For challenge_the: #007 purpose; lions_serpents: #31 nothing; 10_whores: #09 without a name; 100quills: #49 yesterday.

( At Dawn (The Twilight Prevails) )

Title: A Thousand Years Spent Sleeping
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Harry/Severus; cameos by Hermione and Kingsley
Rating: R
Highlight for Warnings: *canon character death, ghost!Severus, magical bonds, plot, a handjob*
Canon-compliance: up to Deathly Hallows, but EWE
Word Count: 8,188
Summary: A month after the war sees Harry feeling his way through the world. He feels thin, stretched, as if he isn't meant to be like this.

Notes: This is a snarry_swap pinch-hit for regasssa. She asked for angst and anything that wasn't on her squicks list; this is the result. Writing this was confusing and quite an experience :) Inspired by "Bring Me to Life" by Evanescence. Originally posted here. With many thanks to the amazing zebraspots05 for the beta. Any and all remaining mistakes are my own.

For 10_whores: #03 freedom, 50scenes: #28 drowning, challenge_the: #026 dream, lions_serpents: #05 all.

( A Thousand Years Spent Sleeping )

Title: A Pattern of Apathy
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Harry/Romilda
Rating: NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: *questionable use of potions, dub-con*
Canon-compliance: up to Deathly Hallows
Word Count: 4,411
Summary: For Harry, the moment Voldemort was defeated the world stopped turning. But She had been turning before that fleeting second, and She continued turning after, as if nothing had happened.

Notes: Written for el_em_en_oh_pee as part of smutty_claus 2007. Originally posted here. Beta'd by the amazing zebraspots05; all remaining mistakes are my own. Harry kind of ran away with me, I will have to admit... He can be rather stubborn. Erm.

For challenge_the: #012 sun.

( A Pattern of Apathy )

Title: Life Amidst Death
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Remus/Severus
Rating: R
Highlight for Warnings: *character death (not Remus or Severus), hurt/comfort, AU from what JKR intended*
Canon-compliance: up to Deathly Hallows
Word Count: 7,484

Summary: Remus was only now getting to the point where he saw that he needed to stop what he'd been doing all his life. He was done running.

Notes: Written for mostepotente for snupin_santa 2007. Originally posted here. Beta'd by the ever-amazing zebraspots05; all remaining mistakes are my own. Inspired by "The Gift" by Seether.

For 50scenes: #29 vital signs; challenge_the: #090 coping; lions_serpents: #33 blind.

( Life Amidst Death )

siriusisnotdead posted its masterlist today...

Title: Glaciers Melting in the Dead of Night
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Character: Sirius
Rating: PG
Highlight for Warnings: * descent into madness *
Word Count: 1,042
Summary: He hates Grimmauld Place, has always hated it since his youth spent in this goddamned house.

Notes: Written for the siriusisnotdead exchange, gifted to the community due to communication problems. Many thanks to zebraspots05 for the beta. The title is a line from "Supermassive Black Hole" by Muse. Originally posted here, August 3, 2007.

For 50scenes: #26 trauma, challenge_the: #138 destruction, potterverse100: #89 drink

( Glaciers Melting in the Dead of Night )

Title: Such Is the Depth
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Harry/Lucius
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: BDSM, bloodplay/knifeplay, breathplay, background character death, dark
Word Count: 5,945
Summary: Post-war, Harry feels misplaced and sick of the role he plays. He turns to an unlikely person to hold his darkness at bay.

Notes: Written as a pinch hit for nicholsa as part of harry_holidays. Originally posted here and here, December 12, 2006. A huge thank you goes to both lire_casander and chaotic_vanity for the beta. The lyrics at the beginning are from the song "Begging" by Vito, a local band here from Berlin (Germany).

For lions_serpents: #01 ice; 50scenes: #16 salt; 15pairings: #04 pain is pleasure.

( Such Is the Depth )

Title: Downward Spiral
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Lily/Severus, background James/Lily, implied James/Sirius
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: adultery
Word Count: 2,247
Summary: She’s long since ceased trying to deny her inner urge to go to Snape when she really needs it. He's the only one who can help her.

Notes: Written for nautipirate in the wizard_love exchange. Originally posted here and here, February 9, 2007. Inspired by the song "You Don't See Me" by Poolstar*, a local band from Berlin, Germany. Lyrics at the beginning. And a huuuge thank you goes to zebraspots05 for the quick beta.

For 50scenes: #09 spiral, lions_serpents: #09 lies, and 15pairings: #11 inconsequential/unconsensual.

( Downward Spiral )

Title: An einem Sonntag im August
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Bill/Hermione
Rating: NC-17
Warning: semi-public sex, wall!sex, off-screen character death
Word Count: 4,405
Summary: Hermione worries about why Bill doesn't call her. When she finally meets him, things set into action...

Notes: Written for silvernatasha as a pinch hit for the sexy_brilliance exchange, beta'd by the amazing chaotic_vanity. The plot is inspired by the song "White Flag" by Dido. The title means "On a Sunday in August" and is German; also the name of a bar in Kastanienalle, Berlin Prenzlauer Berg, Germany, where I can be often found since it's just around the corner from where I live. "Jägermeister" is hard liquor that tastes really good ;) Originally posted here and here, October 26, 2006.

For 100quills: #44 virtue, 50scenes: #34 encounter

( An einem Sonntag im August )

Title: Lessons
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Blaise/Hermione
Rating: R
Warnings: none
Word Count: 1,896
Summary: It’s called self-protection, love.

Notes: Written as a pinch hit for aperfectscar as part of harry_holidays. Originally posted here, then here, December 25, 2006. A huge thank you goes to _auberginedream for the speedy beta.

For lions_serpents: #32 mistake; 50scenes: #12 iris; 15pairings: #01 ladykiller; 100quills: #36 turn

( Lessons )

Title: Spies Should Get Their Reward, Too
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Blaise, Hermione/Regulus
Rating: NC-17
Warning: voyeurism, background slash (Blaise/Draco), light bondage
Word Count: 2,382
Summary: Blaise hesitated for another second, preparing himself to return to the celebration, when he heard something that put his uneasiness aside and demanded all his attention. A moan.

Notes: A huge thank you goes to chanond for beta'ing this last-minute. Written for riddles_novice as a pinch hit for the sexy_brilliance exchange. Originally posted here, October 9, 2006.

For 100quills: #22 lost, lions_serpents: #23 shock, 50scenes: #30 writer's choice (watch)

( Spies Should Get Their Reward, Too )

Title: Enigma
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Hermione/Sirius
Rating: R
Warnings: wanking, voyeurism
Word Count: 2,179
Summary: Sirius is an enigma worth uncovering.

Notes: Written as a pinch hit for scifichick774 in sexy_brilliance. Many thanks to chaotic_vanity for the beta. Originally posted here, October 29, 2006.

For 100quills: #03 unexpected, potterverse100: #79 obsession, 50scenes: #39 facade

( Enigma )

Title: The Right Thing
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Hermione/Ron
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: none besides the obvious
Word Count: 2,244
Summary: Upon her wedding, Hermione contemplates her decision to marry Ron.

Notes: Written as a pinch hit for oops_pig in sexy_brilliance. Thank you to chaotic_vanity. Originally posted here, October 24, 2006.

For 50scenes: #43 entwined, 15pairings: #8 what lies within, 100quills: #13 faith

( The Right Thing )

Title: Memorial Service
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Remus/Tonks
Rating: R
Warning: mention of character death, smutty
Word Count: 200

Notes: This was written for pleutaitgouttes' request at the hp_halloween exchange. Originally posted here and here, October 31, 2006. Thank you to chaotic_vanity for the beta and the title suggestion.

For 50scenes: #27 seduction

( Memorial Service )

Title: Happy Endings
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Character: Hermione
Rating: PG
Warning: angstiness
Word Count: 1,540
Summary: It’s that time of the year when memories come hurtling back at her.

Notes: Written for lionille in the_spinnersend's Secret Santa Swap. lionille, I hope you like this! I know you asked for a happy ending, and I really tried, but I’m just not a writer of happy tales (especially not with genfic), and everything I wrote seemed out of character. So the fic morphed... into something else of its own accord. Please, don’t kill me? *wibbles* A huge shout-out and thank-you goes to freetheelves2 for the really quick beta. Thanks love! Originally posted here, December 24, 2006.

For 100quills: #30 work, 50scenes: #32 doll

( Happy Endings )

Title: In Your Reach
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Bill/Severus
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: implied non-con/rape, minor character deaths
Word Count: 6,467
Summary: Sometimes a new beginning is in your reach, if just you stretch enough to get there.

Notes: Written as a pinch-hit for bewarethesmirk in the hpslashnotsmut exchange. Beta'd by a whole bunch of people. Originally posted here, May 3, 2007.

For lions_serpents: #40 start, 10_whores: #08 Pandora's Box.

( In Your Reach )