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[Drabble] Lies (Severus, G)
Title: Lies
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Character: Severus
Rating: G
Warnings: none
Word Count: 219
Summary: All that you have ever done is live a lie.

Notes: Written for hp_ficathon, prompt #25: living a lie. Unbeta'd and just something I came up with in a matter of minutes. Consider yourself warned :P Originally posted here, March 24, 2007.

For 50scenes: #40 writer's choice.


Lie. Three little letters forming one little word. The defining word of your life.

All that you have ever done is live a lie.

The lies of your life: love and hatred. Friendship. Trust.

You loved Albus like a father. He turned your trust in him against yourself, demanding you kill him. You did. And killed with him a part of yourself.

Hatred: another lie. You thought you hated Potter and Black and Lupin and Pettigrew. But you didn't, because you didn't have any idea what hatred felt like. Now you know, because you hate yourself, except this hatred is so very void of passion that most times you question whether that is hatred, too. It feels too much like emptiness, too less like what you expected.

And friendship? The greatest lie of all. You thought Lucius had been your friend, but he never was. He only wanted to please his Lord by drawing you in, you, the most skilled Potions talent of your time. When you realised that and turned to Narcissa, his wife, for consolation, someone who you thought was genuinely attached to you, she rejected you, too. That was when you exchanged one master for the other, and instead of hatred and friendship love and trust were turned against you.

It was all but a lie.