Blue Memories

Title: Inside to the Rain
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Dean/Sam
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 2,403
Summary: Set between 4.10 Heaven and Hell and 4.11 Family Remains. Dean with a headache? Is a bitchy asshole. Dean with the flu? Is silent as a grave because he can't bear to be incapacitated and have Sam take care of him. (or: Dean is sick. Sam takes care of him.)

Notes: For mad_server, who asked for sick!Dean for my 2008 Dezemberträume project. December is looong gone (whoops, how did that happen?), but here it is anyway - this has been sitting on my harddrive for a looong time :) Title from Aimee Mann's "Little Tornado". Many thanks to taintedlove for the beta!

For 10_prompts: #08 tender.


( Inside to the Rain )

Title: Until Late
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Rating: R
Highlight for Warnings: *fleeting Jared/OFC and Danneel/Jensen*
Word Count: 3,429
Summary: Non-AU. The problem with moving back to L.A. is this: not having Jared around 24/7 is like missing a limb. Jensen feels unbalanced, like he needs to relearn everything he knows to accommodate his loss. But there's a phantom ache that no prosthesis can chase away, acute and unforgettable, and Jensen can't just move on as if everything is going to be all right.

Notes: For lazy_daze, for letting me play in spn_j2_xmas. I had the most amazing time modding this project with her. She prompted me with "non-AU J2, future!fic". Even though it seems very wrong not to offer you something more porny, I hope this pleases! ♥ Title from Placebo's "Protect Me From What I Want". Many thanks to smidirini for going over this :)


( Until Late )

Title: The Dream In Me
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Hermione/Lucius
Rating: (light) NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: **
Canon-compliance: mostly up to DH - Voldemort-doesn't-die-AU
Word Count: 4,686
Summary: Even in the most persistent immovability, nothing is fully motionless.

Notes: Written for curia_regis in the dearsanta exchange. So much fun was had with this! Many many thanks go to significantowl for pinching in to beta. Also, despite having modded a gazillion things, this particular fest showed how much I occasionally fail at festing and/or life in general. *headdesk* Inspired by Seether's "Fine Again".

For 100quills: #15 weary; challenge_the: #024 exhaustion; lions_serpents: #27 grey.


( The Dream In Me )

Title: Easy to Love
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairings: Bill/Tonks, Bill/Tonks/Charlie (and a background of unrequited Charlie/Tonks)
Rating: NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: *one minor incestuous happening*
Canon-compliance: AU insofar that it ignores a few canon relationships
Word Count: 7,842
Summary: When it comes to Tonks, Bill Weasley has never been able to resist. Loving her is simply too easy.

Notes: Here, have the officially last fic by me for 2008! Written for ragdoll, because. The plotbunny jumped at me when I looked at the prompts post for Dezemberträume '08, even though I said I'd abandon the project for this year. ragdoll's prompt was: Bill/Tonks or Bill/Tonks/Charlie, December will be magic again. I'd originally promised fic of 1-2k. With unbelieving eyes, I watched this grow out of proportions - but writing this was so much fun! Methinks I like this pairing quite a lot. Besides, nnngh, Bill. The lovely iamisaac beta'd this. I promise all remaining suckitude is all my fault :) Title supplied by Muse's "Bliss".

For challenge_the: #160 afraid.


( Easy to Love )

Title: Interlude: Bonelessly
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Dean/Sam
Rating: NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: *incest, underage sex (Sam is 16)*
Setting: pre-Stanford
Word Count: 3,204
Summary: Maybe, Sam thinks as Dean waits him out, uncharacteristically patient, he's been going about this all wrong. Maybe Dean isn't any clearer on what's happening than Sam is. (aka: There is teasing and there is confusion and, in the end, there is sex.)

Notes: #2 in the Wordless 'verse. Many thanks to mad_server for the beta and encouragement and patience. All remaining mistakes are my own and the result of tinkering with this after I got it back. Inspired by Revis's "Living Rooms".

For 10_prompts: #05 give.

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( Interlude: Bonelessly )

Title: Wordlessly (coming down to land tonight)
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Dean/Sam (with graphic Dean/OFC and ungraphic Dean/OMC happening on the way)
Rating: hard R
Highlight for Warnings: *incest, voyeurism, oral sex, underage sex and drinking (Dean is 17)*
Setting: pre-Stanford
Word Count: 9,197
Summary: His brother, that's just the thing. Sam's his brother. But it's difficult to take this as an argument when they've always been a little too close.

Notes: #1 in the Wordless 'verse. I've been working on this fic for half a year; I didn't want to set it loose in the scary cold wide world. But it's time now, before I carry it off into the new year. These 9-odd-k deserve to live, at long last :) Inspired by Dido's "Closer". This story would not have seen the light of the day without the incomparable mad_server, who has gone up and beyond the call of duty while she helped me out with this fic. Sweets, I owe you my first-born for all your encouragement, hand-holding, patience, and ultimately your amazing beta skills. This story sucks so much less for all the time you invested into it. ♥ ♥ ♥
(Let's also not forget that to date and ignoring all the innocent fic sitting unfinished on my harddrive, this is the longest fic I've posted, ever.)

For 10_prompts: #04 hold your breath.


( Wordlessly (coming down to land tonight) )

Title: Stuck Under the Surface
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Characters/Pairings: Regulus, Sirius (side-dishes of Remus/Sirius and Regulus/Severus)
Rating: PG-13
Highlight for Warnings: **
Canon-compliance: takes Deathly Hallows into account
Word Count: 2,206
Summary: Sirius doesn't care one bit about his familial duties. Regulus admires him for it, can't help to want the same for himself, sometimes, when the family pressure weighs him down. But in all their differences, they are still the same.

Notes: This was a pinch-hit for halcyon for the hp_toujours exchange. Originally posted here. Beta'd by the lovely eeyore9990; rosivan helped me with pointers while I was developing an idea. Inspired by Coldplay's "Square One".

For potterverse100: #60 Voldemort; challenge_the: #032 almost; 100quills: #26 miscommunication.


( Stuck Under the Surface )

Title: Planets Shift (and the moon's erased)
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairings: Bill/Charlie, with a side-dish of Bill/Fleur
Rating: NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: *incest, adultery, and a momentary suggestion of underage (Charlie is 17)*
Canon-compliance: up to Deathly Hallows
Word Count: 4,577
Summary: Charlie is like a drug, and Bill is in way over his head. It's too late for him to go cold turkey now.

Notes: My daily_deviant fic for this month. The original post is here - this is just a back-up. You cannot imagine how loudly I squeed when I saw "adultery" up for October. I actually wanted to write something else and more involved for this, but time ended up running away from me - so I had to come up with something else, and quickly. I'm glad I got sick and had to stay home so this piece could get written, ha. Yay body for timing! Many many thanks go to eeyore9990 and rubytuesday5681 for their very quick turn-around when I got desperate - any remaining mistakes are, as usual, my own. Title is from Aimee Mann's "Lost in Space": Lost in space / A bubble drifting / Into a place / Where planets shift and / The moon's erased / Its features lift in the glare

For challenge_the: #185 addiction.



( Planets Shift (and the moon's erased) )

Title: Jaded
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Draco/Fenrir
Rating: NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: *non-con (oral), underage (16), facial*
Canon-compliance: up to Half-Blood Prince, as it's set post-HBP
Word Count: 1,820
Summary: "Ah," Fenrir whispers, his voice rasping consummate darkness as he takes another step forward, "you know this is your punishment, don't you? Failed the Dark Lord - couldn't kill Dumbledore - no way out of here. No one to save you."

Notes: Mostly written for the lovely melusinahp (more or less in late honour of her birthday), who also graciously offered to beta this and returned to me within what, three hours of receiving it. Wouldn't have written this without you ♥ Lyrics at the beginning from Three Days Grace's "Animal I Have Become", because the chorus seemed fitting. YAY FENRIR! He's fun. >.>

For challenge_the: #031 unforgiving; 100quills: #09 justice.


( Jaded )

Title: fly up high and burn the sky
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Character: Bellatrix
Rating: PG-13
Highlight for Warnings: *child abuse/death, canon character death*
Canon-compliance: up to Deathly Hallows
Word Count: 1,139
Summary: The fires of Hell, they burn in her.

Notes: Intended for femgenficathon, but since one of the rules of the fest quite rightly states "use a bloody beta" and I didn't find one, I'm not officially entering. So beware of non-native language with all its possible grammatical incorrectness and non-English phrasings and suchlike, yes? My prompt was #15: Besides learning to see, there is another art to be learned - not to see what is not. -- Maria Mitchell. This fic was written during a major bout of writer's block and was only possible thanks to the inspiration I drew from a) Three Days Grace's "Burn" (as quoted in the beginning), b) The Dark Knight's Joker, and c) the ever-amazing fleshdress/fleshflutter and her writing for giving me an inspirational mini-burst when I was completely stuck after a couple hundred words.
/epic A/N

For 100quills: #47 seek; challenge_the: #038 red.


( fly up high and burn the sky )

Title: Gradually
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Bellatrix/Severus
Rating: (light) NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: **
Canon-compliance: post-DH AU
Word Count: 1,452
Summary: He doesn't talk to her in the daylight, looks the other way when she passes him by. But at night all cats are black, and the day's hostility fades into the darkness.

Notes: Written for snapelike's Cauldron Collider Ficlet Fest. Many thanks to florahart for the quick look-over.

For 100quills: #02 need; challenge_the: #014 solitary.


( Gradually )

Title: Follow Me Down
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Lucius/Regulus
Rating: NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: *canon character death, underage (17), D/s, flagellation, bloodplay*
Canon-compliance: not explicit; follows fanon as established in Obey (R)
Word Count: 2,788
Summary: He lays fingers on the well-known shape of a Muggle photograph, marked by the creases of time, and the moment he closes his fingers around the familiar form the imminent danger of panic recedes. In its wake is left a too-clear vision of reality, caught and copied onto paper, staring back at him.

Notes: Written for bbtp_challenge, though I'll have to admit it was inspired by daily_deviant's August theme of "relics" and the July theme of "flagellation". This fic can stand alone, but ties in with the fanon I established in Obey. Lyrics at the beginning from 12 Stones' "In My Head". Many many thanks to zebraspots05 for the beta.

For challenge_the: #018 unconditional; 100quills: #24 missing.


( Follow Me Down )

Title: go ahead, be gone with it
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Kingsley/Remus
Rating: NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: *partially clothed sex; Kingsley's sex-god-ness*
Canon-compliance: OotP-ish
Word Count: 1,115
Summary: Kingsley's appeal is difficult to resist.

Notes: Written for pervy_werewolf's challenge #52, for which I got assigned this pairing. Apparently I now fail at making even random PWP clock in at below 1,000 words, and because I've been fighting writer's block I'm happy about every word that comes out, so I'm too lazy to try to cut it down. Many thanks to zebraspots05 for the beta job; any remaining mistakes are thanks to tiredness and much messing with this after I got it back from her. If you stumble across glaring mistakes, I'd appreciate it if you could tell me. Title is a line from Justin Timberlake's "SexyBack", because it randomly came up on my playlist while writing, and the song just fits to a certain kind of Kingsley cliché. I'm unapologetic about that ;)

For challenge_the: #125 observe.


( go ahead, be gone with it )

Title: One of Us
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Fenrir/Remus
Rating: NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: *non-con*
Canon-compliance: non-explicit; first war era
Word Count: 1,550
Summary: Fenrir pays a visit to one of his long-lost children.

Notes: Written for the August daily_deviant theme: pheromones. With many, many thanks to melusinahp for the last-minute beta. Originally posted here; this is just a back-up post. Lyrics and inspiration from Three Days Grace's "Let You Down", which to me has always had something dark-creature-ish about it.

For challenge_the: #54 leader.


( One of Us )

Title: Five Minutes (the clock ticks life away)
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Characters: Dean, Sam
Rating: PG
Highlight for Warnings: **
Spoilers: direct quotes from 3.16 No Rest for the Wicked, but goes AU during the episode
Word Count: 2,062
Summary: At five minutes to midnight, Dean gestures in triumph, laughing at the demons kept back from attacking them by the sprinklers Bobby so ingeniously hallowed. An alternate look at the final moments of season 3.

Notes: Most of this story was written about a week after the season finale. This story came about like this: upon reading Milan Kundera's "The Joke", I stumbled across the sentence part "At five minutes to midnight..." and immediately went, "DEEEEEN!" But (yes, before I had any kind of plot) "Five Minutes to Midnight" as a title sounded a little awkward, and "Minutes to Midnight" immediately reminded me of the Linkin Park album anyway, which, no thanks. At which point I went, "Oh, In the End!" and the part of the title in parentheses was born. (In the End being the Linkin Park song I fell in love with first and still love the most until this day. What? Don't look at me like that!) And then I started plotting. See how my muse works? Yes! Title before plot! Title making the plot! *facepalm* Beta'd by the lovely gestaltrose.


( Five Minutes (the clock ticks life away) )

Title: Brightest Flames
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Remus/Severus
Rating: R
Highlight for Warnings: *mental illness, questionable consent/abuse, they-didn't-die-AU*
Canon-compliance: meant to be (mostly) Deathly Hallows-compliant
Word Count: 2,738
Summary: Years after the war Severus is found wandering the woods, his mental faculties shaken. Remus takes him in.

Notes: This started out as something I wanted to write for a prompt snapelike gave me in early June: "Oh," Neville said, "You cannot possibly be serious?" Well, the prompt technically is fulfilled with this, but I don't know if she likes this kind of fic, so... I don't know if I can say this is written for her, heh. Inspired by HIM's "One Last Time". Many, many thanks go to the Quill Sinister guys and to zebraspots05 for beta services and much nit-picking especially on the original version.

For challenge_the: #006 secure; lions_serpents: #37 gentle.


( Brightest Flames )

Title: Going Forward (Moving Backwards)
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Bellatrix/Narcissa
Rating: NC-17
Highlight for Warnings: *incest, chan/underage from 11 years old on, dub-con, powerplay, oral sex, adultery*
Canon-compliance: explicitly up to Half-Blood Prince
Word Count: 1,985
Summary: Sex in the Black family isn't about love. Sex is about power. It's as simple as that.

Notes: Written for creepingviolet as part of the hpdesmutathon exchange. This is my first femmeslash fic - it was a lot of fun letting these two characters play. Inspired by Three Days Grace's "Born Like This". Beta by the generous zebraspots05. Originally posted here.

For challenge_the: #063 games; 100quills: #12 choices.


( Going Forward (Moving Backwards) )

Title: Lying Stars
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Jensen/Sam (CW RPS/Supernatural crossover)
Rating: hard R
Highlight for Warnings: **
Word Count: 1,874
Summary: Sam lays eyes on Dean after too long. Or at least he thinks that's what he's doing. Stanford era.

Notes: For fleshdress/fleshflutter, who asked for Sam/Jensen as part of my drabble offer. Except this piece kind of grew beyond that, and still has potential for more that I might or might not make use of. Unbeta'd, but will have to look for someone willing to go over it and nit-pick tomorrow. (ETA: Weeks later this is finally beta'd. The lovely gestaltrose offered her services.) Title is inspired by Stone Sour's "Through Glass".

( Lying Stars )

Title: Rock, Rock, Rockin'
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Charlie/Hermione
Rating: R
Highlight for Warnings: **
Canon-compliance: none specifically
Word Count: 241

Notes: For florahart, who asked for Charlie/Hermione and "rock concert" at this drabble offer. Unbeta'd.

For 100quills: #24 middles; challenge_the: #044 laughter.

( Rock, Rock, Rockin' )

Title: One-Sided Conversations
Author: Envinyatar (aka envinyatar15)
Pairing: Charlie/Severus
Rating: PG
Highlight for Warnings: **
Canon-compliance: Goblet of Fire
Word Count: 425

Notes: For zebraspots05, who asked for Charlie/Severus and "Firewhisky" at this drabble offer. Unbeta'd.

For 10_whores: #04 calligraphy; lions_serpents: #06 fire; challenge_the: #028 passion.

( One-Sided Conversations )