InsaneJournal

Cornelius remembers things he remembers he had an office not small like his room now but very big and it was only his only. And there was a closet and he doesn't always know sometimes he knows but not always what it was that was in there what they were the things in the box in the closet in his mind he likes the room but remembers mostly the closet and slips of paper because once he had very nice handwriting he's certain that's his handwriting anyway. If Cornelius tries then he can read the paper in his mind reading is hard but once it wasn't once he read and read things every day and wrote them too in nice handwriting with a nice pen but now he can't have pens only pencils and crayons because the Healers say he could hurt himself with a pen but maybe they don't know he heard them say that but he did.

Also Cornelius remembers a wand a wand he had one too like the Healers but he wasn't a Healer at all no he made rules for people like the Healers do but he wore suits stripey and woollen and a hat that was all his only his it was his hat. And he had drawers and boxes and things oh what was in the box in the closet that he remembered but forgot? They were like wands but they were big and colourful some of them and some of them very big indeed and they looked like jelly like the jelly the Healers serve to him he likes cherry best. He can't remember if they tasted good or not but he likes cherry jelly but he doesn't like lime.

Sometimes Cornelius remembers he could do spells too Wingardium something something else and there was one he did that he liked it made tea the Healers make tea but it's weak he likes it with milk in. And spells to make him clean and one made him messy didn't it? For the things in the box in the closet written on papers he remembers a spell sometimes it went like this, unh unh unh, and it felt nice maybe it wasn't a spell at all but it felt nice.

When he gets paper Cornelius writes on it with his crayon or his pencil and the Healers say Very Nice Job Cornelius and he smiles but they don't know he's trying to remember what it was why he can't remember the things he used to do in his house in his office his office was nice so was his house and he writes his name because it's the only word he remembers now but there was one and he used to point his wand at himself at his very own head and it was his head only and sometimes it had a hat on. And he pointed the wand and said Spell only it wasn't Spell it was a real spell and he can't remember what it did but it made him sleepy maybe he made himself sleepy too often maybe that's why he is so sleepy now.

So he tells the Healers he's sleepy and they take him to his bed Cornelius likes his bed it's warm. And tomorrow which is sometimes the same as today which sometimes never happens, tomorrow he will try again and he will write letters to himself and he can do most of his alphabet now A and B and C and he can't do D all the time sometimes it comes out lowercase but he tries and maybe he can make those letters into words he knows they go somehow into words. And when he can remember words and how to make them out of letter then he can write himself a letter like he used to like he hid in the cupboards and drawers and then he can have the jelly things and the thing that goes hum and the thing that smelled nice like new shoes and he can have the box of them all because if he can write the letter then he'll know where they are. Cornelius hopes the jelly things are cherry. Cornelius likes cherry and he doesn't like lime.