the history book on the shelf

So, this morning I was woken up by my dad being scared and thinking he was having a heart attack basically. I woke up 'Steph, get out of bed, you need to take me to the hospital.' Bit scary as beyond that he wasn't very forthcoming with information because he was having trouble breathing. My mum was down south visiting my aunt and so a few hours away. It turned out not to be a heart attack or anything to do with his heart, luckily. They think it's a stomach ulcer though my dad thinks otherwise. It was still kind of scary. He got saw quickly and had an ECG? and then we had to wait for a while.

It's just so much is piling on at once. Little things which are slowly adding up to big things. Even without this I'm emotionally wobbly right now. I'm just waiting for another thing to be added on. Usually RP is my escape but that isn't helping. In fact I'm dreading it. I look at things I have to tag and nothing is coming. Nothing wants to come. It's more than just this thing with dad or family stuff. It was before this and it's being going on for months. For a long time I've been kind of... numb. I take a lot of things in my stride but the past few months have been emotionally hard for me and really I'm not sure why. It isn't like I've been through much but... I don't even known. It's just been hard.

Hopefully the end of that is here soon though. I have tags I should do but... I just can't face that right now.

AND FINALLY, TIME FOR A NEW BATCH! Newsflash: I am unfeasibly infatuated with James Franco, do not even get me goddamn started. Unfeasibly. This is the post that originally kept me awake tonight, aorifdageøægdfølg.

JAMES FRANCO


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It is so late. I am so tired.

SAFFRON BURROWS


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Like the previous post. I might actually get around to more Jewel eventually, because she's adorable -- but in the meantime, I'm v. pleased with this batch. Mostly candids!

JEWEL STAITE


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Another "o hai, what were you doing on my HD?" -- expect a few of those posts tonight. I have a lot of small batches kicking around that I saved for later, thinking I'd eventually get around to making more -- but considering poor Famke has been wasting away for two years, I decided to finally bite the bullet & post these batches.

FAMKE JANSSEN


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So while doing some hardcore e-cleaning tonight, I stumbled across these on my harddrive! And decided to post them. Because man, I find it hilarious that I iconed Craig Ferguson. (It was for someone in a game of mine, BUT STILL.)

CRAIG FERGUSON


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Why did that shit have to happen? Why can't we all forget the past and get along? :*

I am really sick of this messed up sleeping schedule.

I am on the other kind of very much enjoying Florence + the Machine.

I think I might go on an adventure tomorrow and take pictures, if weather permits.

Emma and I really need to be able to play 21 and 24 somewhere. We need a Venture Bros game. Or an Adult Swim game. Or a cartoon game. OR SOMETHING I DON'T CARE. We can talk like them for hours, and a PSL would just be... us talking like them with absolutely no end game.

FML THE DORM CREEPER HAS A THING FOR ME HOW DO YOU GET RID OF CREEPY GUYS

So I've decided to try to the 100 Questions for all my current characters. Except I'm going to do a section at a time. Like Part one for all and then move on to part two etc. I don't know if I'll end up getting all the way through but I'll try!

So here's part one for Morag!

10 facts about Chris McCandless

I'm glad I'm not the only one who thought the main character of Into the Wild was a pompous fool.



PS. Hit 30,000 words on my Nanowrimo novel last night too. Hell yes!

Work has eaten me. I still have to work on bios for Unchosen and Darwinisms, as well as Unchosen itself. But I'm not sure if I should wait until CJ is online again or not since she is 1/3 of the mod team. I probably should. And I feel horrible I wasn't online to be active in DMR, and left people hanging even. Maybe when it comes out of hiatus, I can try to be more active. Hopefully everything will be much more sane and I'll be able to do more besides work and sleep.

I'm feeling very useless right now, basically. And I want to rp something and really, I should just try to focus creativity into productivity. Or something.

/Blah!Lo

WHO ORDERED THE WHOOP ASS FAJITA?!

Shinobu's one-year anniversary just passed this week, and I don't plan on taking her out anytime soon. This is only the second game I've stayed in for at least a year. Orochimaru's Agenda was the first, and I was short I think a month-ish of making it a two-year term. But anyway, Paradisa's been a good ride so far, despite how much I whine and worry about how I'm doing with Shinobu, lawls. It's the biggest game I've been part of, and I'm still trying to get used to it, but no matter what the haters say I love it and I've done well enough so far. Shinobu has and is establishing CR, and muns who know next to nothing about No More Heroes canon enjoy bouncing their characters off of her. Double-digit comment counts over 30 in her posts are just about the norm now. Six, maybe even eight(?) months back I could only dream of that sort of activity. Paradisa will always be one of my fondest RPing memories, whatever happens in the future.

That said... I'm still jealous that all the other journal posts save one related to Travis's most recent lost are getting more comments than mine. Petty Ashi is petty, fuun. And I don't think I will ever shake the feeling that Travis-mun hates how I play Shinobu but is too nice to say so and Bad Girl-mun is faking loving how I play Shinobu because we're all canonmates. Paranoid Ashi is also paranoid. orz

Um, I wanted to go into another diatribe about how I want Romdeau to grow but I'm the only one who's advertising it anywhere and that makes me a sad panda, but I have work at 10 a.m. and need to be awake 8:30ish so yeah. I'll just leave off by saying I tried pimping it at app_this_plz but kind of really don't expect anyone to bite the bait. As usual. Le sigh.

meme time!

TO DO: make a meme icon.

Comment below and I will tell you which of your characters that I've played against are my favourites and why I love them. Then repost this in your own journal.

SPAM | LOVE LETTERS | SCENE REQUEST | GIFTS | NUDES

So, I'm not quite sure how to do these things (socially awkward turtle!), so Imma just say 'hi' and tell you all I love you. <3

I am the only person decent enough to take this  guy home when he was kicked out of the club we were at for being too drunk. Apologized to the cab driver when he opened the door to puke while the car was moving. Had to pull my friend away from sexy times because I wasn;t strong enough to haul this guy up 3 stories. 

He bit me and growled in the car but it was kinda cute. Except for the fact that he was drunk off his ass and kept saying over and over that he'll make it up to me. And that he could make it up to his room alone and that Rockwell was his best friend in the whole wide world and it took him 20 minutes of banging on the door to remember he opened a wallet that contained a room key.

I love drunk people.