Hey.

So yeah, my name is Lindsay and I'm turning 20 in January. I've been pretty messed up on and off since freshman year high school. Whenever I start to get depressed I feel alone and like no one cares about me. I feel ignored and unwanted. I'm not good at expressing my feelings to people, generally because when I first started getting depressed my mom told me that if I acted upset around my friends they wouldn't want to hang out with me anymore. The bulk of my problems high school occurred because I felt terrible but could never express it. Everything was fake. I still get like that when I get depressed, and it's happening again. I had a greatestjournal back in high school where I would write about how I felt as a way to let out the emotions I had to keep bottled up inside. I'm not really a consistent or very damaging cutter but I have cut myself a few times. The last time was last year, but I just did it again recently. I cut my ankles where I figure people won't see it, but recently I've been considering cutting for the very purpose of having people see and notice me. I feel like no one ever notices me or how I feel. Basically what I'm looking for here is some people who want to friend me, read my nonsense, get to know me, comment, whatever, and I would do the same back. I just want something a little more personal and consistent than posting only on here. Thanks a lot. Hope to get to know some of you soon.