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B.D. Morgan (deckoffiftyone) wrote in depression,
@ 2008-09-10 19:41:00

Current mood:

quiet

Hi, my name is...
Hi, I'm new to IJ. My name is Bethany, and I have major depression and anxiety. It caused me to drop out of college and put me in a lot of debt; at this point I'm working a full time job to pay my bills, and I don't have insurance any longer, so I don't have any medication. I'm working on getting medicade, but it's going to take over a month, and I've been off meds for nearly a year now.

I'm doing so-so; my moodswings are pretty bad and I deal with a lot of irrational guilt and low self esteem. I've quit a couple jobs because I couldn't hold it together with the stress of the job, but I've got a full time again and am trying very hard to keep my head above both the financial and emotional waters.

I joined this community because I need an outlet; I'm afraid my support group is one person, and she can't always help, for she's dealing with her own problems.

Er, that was long, but hi.

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purrrplej
2008-09-11 11:13 am UTC (link)

Hang in there, Bethany, and welcome. I hope you get to the point where you are able to afford medication soon, because meds can make such a big difference in making our lives tolerable.

I know what it's like to face financial problems. I have HUGE credit card debts. I think my bipolar disorder was a big part of my problem, because when I was manic, I would want to buy, buy, buy - though I was just a student working part-time and couldn't afford what I bought. So, our diseases can certainly cause problems for us.

Hope you come out of things okay, and hope you find the IJ depression group to be supportive and helpful! :-)

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	deckoffiftyone 2008-09-11 12:59 pm UTC (link)
	Thank you for the welcome! I totally understand the buying urge; it got very hard to care about what I was spending and I rationalized it as feel good therapy. Thank you again. :) (Reply to this) (Parent)

	chickgonebad 2008-09-20 02:37 pm UTC (link)
	I apologize for not saying hello earlier, but hi! Please do post here to vent. It can't hurt, and we might be able to offer some help. Or at least sympathy. (Reply to this)